sigh, i am going to book in soon. so sad. on such a nice weekend. i do wish there's a job on earth that doesn't require me to work. but such things don't really exist right? anyway i went to the holy innocent high's carnival just now. it wasn't fantastic but it was ok. we took the kid's swing and the machine couldn't start at first cos we were all too heavy. picture this, 7 teenagers on this swinging thingy that is meant for the kids. how hilarious! then we played some simple games and went to do other things. nothing much just played around like really big kids. frankie's new stead is cute and so is this glenn person. and so is me (er ok...) everybody was so evil today, kept making fun of me. my stupid godsisters started to call me sister instead of brothers cos they said i'm becoming alot more passive than last time. not my fault what, my stupid ex's fault. then i also need time to change one mahz

then now clay dear is sitting beside reading this also haha. he's so nice, came to pick me up and made everybody else jealous. went to watch IDENTITY. its not bad. really quite an unbelievable but great show. do watch. waiting for mommy to cook dinner now. smell something good cooking. one last dinner before i book into camp....... take care folks see you guys in a week's time

ladida. and i am back online again. went out the whole of yesterday with clayie dearest (i am suppose to call him that, hahah he was upset i called him clay only in the previous post). so it was a great day, we went shopping and we caught the movie matchstick men. it is a really good show. trust me, nicholas cage acting is really great. he's FANTASTIC. and the plot is wonderful, with quite an unexpected twist. loved it. was going to catch the park too but there wasn't really much time and i wasn't feeling at my best. in fact i was feeling quite giddy. for a full detailed and rated R account, please go to my dear's site. don't say i never warned you.

and yep was with chad and colin for awhile today. had a great time with chad when he was over at my place. taught me more about my tarot cards thing. and he gave me some tips and stuff, and he read about my lovelife. much shall be left unsaid but its not a bad thing.

ohohoh i will be all dressed up for next weekend, i would be meeting alanna for this little halloween thing. i so better look good. and also, i so love my new hair but i don't understand why the whole world prefer my previous hairstyle. they all think i look so much better and more drop-dead gorgeous with my previous hair :p i think i look more boyish with this current hair. anyway when people bring me out, does it really feel like bringing a little boy out (indignant look)?

but something happened, and i am very angry. yes the key word is very. rarely do i get so pissed, but this time i am majorly pissed. and i intend to do something about it. i am a scorpio and its not very nice to make scorpios angry. we are very nice people and as vengeful as they make us sound. we are not that vengeful. but yes, we have to potential to be very very evil. and i am going to be very very evil. don't say i didn't warn you. 18 years of my life, i have never been so pissed before. this time its personal! be warned

and yes i am going to turn in soon. just watched stephanie sun (yes i did make myself watch that show) and i must say that she did improve alot (though her fashion sense has ALOT more room for improvement). her songs are nice, but i still think they could do with better singers (note the word singer, it means people who SINGS). my sister told me not to count the amount of times she goes off tune, she didn't want me to tire myself. hahahaha. nite pple! i love you guys.

its deepavali!! and i am finally home! for those who wondered where on earth i have been? i've been confined for the past 2 weekends somewhere on this island. army, yes yes yes. sigh. and yes my paged got hacked into and there was nothing much i could do about it because i am not allowed to use the internet. actually there are places where we can access the internet provided that we have time, but you know how it is, there is never time.

anyway i came home a couple of days ago. why? because i fell very very sick. i was feverish for quite awhile, then my fever hit a new high the night before my field camp, so i was rushed to the medical centre and sent home after. then the next morning, my temperature went up to 39.6. WOW. yes i know, i wanted to check myself in to the hosp. but then after much ice (yes i did ice myself, literally, by soaking myself in ice) did my temperature drop. thank god. still a bit sick now, so much phelgm, and a terrible blocked nose.

ohohoh mark called!! chatted with that dear boy for over 40 mins. sweeet. its been almost 4 weeks since he left. ah, really nice to talk to him and all. and do you know what websites he visits over there in cambridge? trust me you can't ever imagine. lets just say its quite alternative. shudders. and the sounds he make when he's at those pages, shudder. ahahhahah. going out later with clay and gonna spend some time together. tomorrow will be out prob with chad, nigel and alanna??? alrighty, gotta go prepare liaoz. see you guys soon! and kor take care ok? anything you can always talk to me.

testing... lalalal my dear is now beside

yesterday was one of the most traumatising days of my live. the old alvin msged me to meet me and he stood me up. when he msged me, it just totally threw me off balance and i was like so ultimately distressed. i actually ran from marina square to suntec city to find him, cos he told me he was there and that he would meet me after he's done shopping at carrefour.turns out that he lied to me, which is not really much of a surprise really, since that is just so him. and alanna had to knock me to my senses asking me why am i even meeting him in the first place. knowing what he has done to me (this is so ironic). then i waited for him and alvin, the new one, told me that they jus bumped into him at marina square with one other guy. what a jerk. when i asked him abt it, he just switched off his phone and claimed that his batt went flat. so he couldn't call me to tell me he can't make it. so technically i should have known on my own psychic ability and went home. JERK. i dunno why i still behave like this. then clayton told me that from my actions yesterday, it is still very obvious i can't get over the old alvin. why why why.

then earlier in the day, as i decided to randomly walk in any direction to wherever after i shopped at the army market, i bumped into new alvin. wow. its like soo i dunno, too coincidence. he kinda called me and i turn and was kinda shocked to see him. exchanged pleasantries, was with huiyi see. so then we jus walked on in the damn hot sun, wondering at how amazing it was to have the both of us walking in any random direction and have to bump into him. then clayton got quite upset last night about the whole alvin (old) thingy. then today he kinda cried cos i'm going into camp tomorrow and i will be confined for 2 weekends. hrmm argh. what alot of things for one day. and alanna is also kinda right to say that all these happened because of my actions. but she's such a dear, she really cares alot for me, love ya alanna.

thats right folks i would be entering camp and confined for 2 weekends, so i wouldn't be blogging here for quite sometime. i would miss everybody. sigh this is so disgusting. i have been enjoying myself in airforce for more than half a year and now you expect me to go back into the disgusting n regimental army??!!!??!! ARGH...

i wanted to post the lyrics of a song, but i kinda forgotten which song it was. i feel wierd and strange. i feel like someone else. i don't feel right. honestly i have no idea what i'm doing. and maybe i shouldn't elaborate too much over here. think i'll shut up for awhile

i can't think straight (duhz)

hey, its been a couple of days since i posted anything. its more due to a lack of time than any other thing. regarding my previous post: things are not as dark and bleak as it seems, just that sometimes i feel like writing some incredibly morbid stuff (kinda like mark you know). but thanks guys for all your concern. i'm fine (i can't remember what it stands for already, but do watch the italian job to find out).

speaking of which, i caught the italian job. its a great show. the beginning was lousy and boring but the later parts were great. the car chases (with the absolutely gorgeous mini-cooper s) was simply breath-taking, and so was mark wahlberg (however you spell his name). drools. in fact i was screaming so much, over the mini cooper (yes i am not that shallow, thank you) that my friends were trying to shut me up. hahaha. do catch it.

went for my facial on monday, and it was terrible. one of my most painful experiences to date. seriously, in all honesty, cutting the wrist isn't even half as painful. hrmm hey maybe we should all do facials when we are feeling upset. get to look great after that, and its not self-injury. ok bad joke. oh oh oh oh i finally got hotel paper and BUDAK PANTAI!!!! they are soo good. please people, support local talents (yes note the wise choice of word, talent) which means please don't buy stephanie sun cos she is not a local TALENT (more of local bamboo that has been so heavily commercialised). budak pantai's budakamentary is a must buy. they've so much style wit and humour all injected into their songs. ahhh.. faints.