Jan 29, 2005
its like asking for help, but only to be rejected. its like knowing that one word can bring you out from this mess, but the words refused to come out. and you slowly painfully die from begging to be saved. its like drowning in a pool of misery when you can be easily rescued but instead misery is slowly slowly being filled and as you kneel down and cry and plead for the saving hand, the hand inches away as you crawl towards it.
Jan 27, 2005
ok get this, according to the US Conservative Church (ooops alanna you shouldn't be reading this if you are gonna get offended, its just a summary of news) and the spin doctors at focus on family, they declared that Spongebob and Muppets are pro-homosexuals and are trying to brainwash the kids. the video in question is actually an animated film to the tune of "We Are Family" (a song in 1979) a song that promotes tolerance.
The music video, which was created with the aim of promoting tolerance of others and featuring cartoon character SpongeBob SquarePants, came under fire from Focus on the Family and several other US religious groups, who charge that the "pro-homosexual video" is an attempt to "brainwash" kids.
The DVD of the music video is set to be mailed out to US elementary schools along with educational lesson plans developed in collaboration with the Anti-Defamation League and a "tolerance pledge" that includes a mention of tolerance for different sexual identities. Barney, Clifford, Arthur, characters from Sesame Street and The Muppet Show, Bill Cosby, Diana Ross and Whoopi Goldberg also appear in the footage.
Meanwhile, Nile Rodgers, a veteran musician who co-wrote the song and produced the video said that he is shocked that some conservatives see his efforts as an effort to encourage homosexuality. He says that the video does not make any reference to homosexuality or any sexual orientation anywhere.
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talk about warped views from the conservative christians community. Errrrrrrr ^&%$^Y#$%@#
The music video, which was created with the aim of promoting tolerance of others and featuring cartoon character SpongeBob SquarePants, came under fire from Focus on the Family and several other US religious groups, who charge that the "pro-homosexual video" is an attempt to "brainwash" kids.
The DVD of the music video is set to be mailed out to US elementary schools along with educational lesson plans developed in collaboration with the Anti-Defamation League and a "tolerance pledge" that includes a mention of tolerance for different sexual identities. Barney, Clifford, Arthur, characters from Sesame Street and The Muppet Show, Bill Cosby, Diana Ross and Whoopi Goldberg also appear in the footage.
Meanwhile, Nile Rodgers, a veteran musician who co-wrote the song and produced the video said that he is shocked that some conservatives see his efforts as an effort to encourage homosexuality. He says that the video does not make any reference to homosexuality or any sexual orientation anywhere.
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talk about warped views from the conservative christians community. Errrrrrrr ^&%$^Y#$%@#
Jan 26, 2005
i wanted to blog about my new unit but i found more interesting news. now if you take a peep over at amazon.com you would have noticed that the no.1 seller is the iPod Shuffle 1gb and no.2 is also the iPod shuffle 512mb and that no3, no.4 and no.6 are also iPod Shuffle accessories. now its amazing that the amazing creative muvo is at no.23
sim is just showing how terribly childish he is. speaking to CNA he said that that the iPod shuffle was "a big let-down" because it's "five generations older" than Creative's offerings and that "the whole industry will just laugh at it" because it's a "four-year-old product"? And didn't he say that the iPod shuffle is therefore "a non-starter to begin with"? Because it's funny, but based on Amazon's Early Adopter rankings, we're getting the distinct sense that the shufflePod isn't just starting, but starting strong-- and way stronger than Creative's own offerings, despite the fact that Creative's players are available right now, while the shufflePods are labeled "in stock soon" and "order now to get in line."
fuck you sim and your silly users using ur zen
sim is just showing how terribly childish he is. speaking to CNA he said that that the iPod shuffle was "a big let-down" because it's "five generations older" than Creative's offerings and that "the whole industry will just laugh at it" because it's a "four-year-old product"? And didn't he say that the iPod shuffle is therefore "a non-starter to begin with"? Because it's funny, but based on Amazon's Early Adopter rankings, we're getting the distinct sense that the shufflePod isn't just starting, but starting strong-- and way stronger than Creative's own offerings, despite the fact that Creative's players are available right now, while the shufflePods are labeled "in stock soon" and "order now to get in line."
fuck you sim and your silly users using ur zen
Jan 22, 2005
i wanted to blog about something. but my mom jus totally spoiled my mood. i needed her to sew my new rank on. and i instructed her the way to do it. but she insisted that the cloth will fray and whatnot. but the fact is a gazillion trillion million billion people have always done it that way. i don't see what is her problem. so anyway i told her ok, lets try 1 rank using your way. when it was done, it looks obviously out of place, and i told her no that it has to be the way we were instructed to. and she was pissed at me for some strange reason. like i had a choice how i want my rank to be sewed.
Jan 21, 2005
i couldn't walk today. it was so scary. suddenly my leg just cramped up and it hurt quite bad. think it might have been because of the wieght of my bag yesterday. didn't know it would be that bad. its a bit better now. took some painkillers. think will stretch like how my physio therapist suggested.
anyway in other news, on the train yesterday, i saw this man using the creative zen with, guess what, a pair of ipod earphones. you know your company is going bankrupt when you have to literally give your player away at cost price (my friends bought it at 200 and sold it and bought an ipod mini) and people buy the original earphones of the leading brand to create an illusion that they are using the leading product.
pain pain
anyway in other news, on the train yesterday, i saw this man using the creative zen with, guess what, a pair of ipod earphones. you know your company is going bankrupt when you have to literally give your player away at cost price (my friends bought it at 200 and sold it and bought an ipod mini) and people buy the original earphones of the leading brand to create an illusion that they are using the leading product.
pain pain
Jan 20, 2005
oh my goodness. the age old myth of stairway to heaven is a worship to satan is true. i was trying it out myself and guess what, its very scary.
http://www.smashsworld.com/stairback
Eeeeee
http://www.smashsworld.com/stairback
Eeeeee
Jan 19, 2005
Mike Thomas is a columnist with the Orlando Sentinel who has Switched. In the process of Switching, he has discovered what he thinks makes Apple's Macintosh such a great computer and the iPod such a huge success, simplicity. In a ode to simplicity called "Geeks aside, Apple is gospel of simplicity," Mr. Thomas not only urges people to Switch to Apple's simplicity, he also touched on such issues as the fear of simplicity that many in the IT-field have when it comes to Apple.
" I bought an Apple," he wrote. "'Wimp,' said a computer geek at work. I sensed the fear. You see, he makes his living from the Microsoft Industrial Complex."
According to Mr. Thomas, the level of complexity present in the world of Windows has resulted in a near-sub class of workers, geeks as he puts it, who must act as intermediaries for other folks to commune with their PCs, and that this sub class has grown in both size and importance.
"The entire national economy, in fact, depends on the incompetence of Microsoft," wrote Mr. Thomas. "If everyone switched to Apple, the unemployment rate would skyrocket and we would fall into a depression. The government would be forced to give away Microsoft-based computers to stimulate the economy."
The counter to all this, however, is simplicity, which Mr. Thomas hopes to spread. Like many Mac switchers and devotees before him, Mr. Thomas wants other folks to enjoy a computer that just works.
"I'm not spending any more of my life yelling in frustration at inanimate objects," he said.
Many of Mr. Thomas's themes and ideas have been touched on in the Mac Web and elsewhere for many years. His column, however, reaches a mainstream newspaper audience at a time when Apple's momentum is only growing. His lack of spite and interesting delivery of the ideas expressed could find a receptive audience.
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haha just found that article very interesting. anyway that was courtesy of TMO
" I bought an Apple," he wrote. "'Wimp,' said a computer geek at work. I sensed the fear. You see, he makes his living from the Microsoft Industrial Complex."
According to Mr. Thomas, the level of complexity present in the world of Windows has resulted in a near-sub class of workers, geeks as he puts it, who must act as intermediaries for other folks to commune with their PCs, and that this sub class has grown in both size and importance.
"The entire national economy, in fact, depends on the incompetence of Microsoft," wrote Mr. Thomas. "If everyone switched to Apple, the unemployment rate would skyrocket and we would fall into a depression. The government would be forced to give away Microsoft-based computers to stimulate the economy."
The counter to all this, however, is simplicity, which Mr. Thomas hopes to spread. Like many Mac switchers and devotees before him, Mr. Thomas wants other folks to enjoy a computer that just works.
"I'm not spending any more of my life yelling in frustration at inanimate objects," he said.
Many of Mr. Thomas's themes and ideas have been touched on in the Mac Web and elsewhere for many years. His column, however, reaches a mainstream newspaper audience at a time when Apple's momentum is only growing. His lack of spite and interesting delivery of the ideas expressed could find a receptive audience.
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haha just found that article very interesting. anyway that was courtesy of TMO
Jan 17, 2005
Jan 15, 2005
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its a weekend and i'm still home! haha. oh well. spent the morning cleaning the fish tank, actually looking at daddy cleaning the fish tank. had a very good conversation with dad. think i would go shopping for some fishes with dad later on. i am such a filial song. haha actually there's a hidden agenda. i'm trying to get dad to buy a car! no la not really.
had a very interesting conversation with a new mac buddy i met from alvin's friend tagboard. poor guy, we just flooded his tag with incessant chat about the mac. and we could go on forever really but still its someone else's tag and i just feel so bad. hrmm nothing much to say just that hrmm nothing much
lalala. worried for you raydance. call me soon yar =)
had a very interesting conversation with a new mac buddy i met from alvin's friend tagboard. poor guy, we just flooded his tag with incessant chat about the mac. and we could go on forever really but still its someone else's tag and i just feel so bad. hrmm nothing much to say just that hrmm nothing much
lalala. worried for you raydance. call me soon yar =)
Jan 14, 2005
i shall post this link off paul. i would keep my comments to myself, but i would to note that it makes a wonderful read for knowledge amonst other things. note: do not read it after midnight =)
http://www.sfdonline.org/Link%20Pages/Link%20Folders/Human%20Rights/barr2.html
there you go.
http://www.sfdonline.org/Link%20Pages/Link%20Folders/Human%20Rights/barr2.html
there you go.
if i could i would personally fuck the pope until his last breath. yes until he dies
"Today the family is often threatened by social and cultural pressures that tend to undermine its stability; but in some countries the family is also threatened by legislation which at times directly challenge its natural structure, which is and must necessarily be that of a union between a man and a woman founded on marriage." Family, he said, "must never be undermined by laws based on a narrow and unnatural vision of man."
that fighting gay marriages is a priority in 2005.
what on earth has gay marriage gotta with anything. as if if i can marry my boy therefore jasmine can't marry edwin. RIDICULOUS! i mean really its like saying we can't grow oranges in florida because that would undermine the durians in malaysia. like really, even if you go in depth into supply and demand which you wouldn't, it would still makes no sense. as if allowing gay marriages would somehow make straight guys gay and afraid of woman.
stop being homophobe just because back when the romans ruled, gays were not discriminated and your church power was undermined.
die pope. die. may 2005 be your last year on earth!
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i shld learn to be more forgiving, but i realised that if others are not going to be forgiving, i am not going to, to that few people. but i suppose i could start by learning..... hrmmmm
"Today the family is often threatened by social and cultural pressures that tend to undermine its stability; but in some countries the family is also threatened by legislation which at times directly challenge its natural structure, which is and must necessarily be that of a union between a man and a woman founded on marriage." Family, he said, "must never be undermined by laws based on a narrow and unnatural vision of man."
that fighting gay marriages is a priority in 2005.
what on earth has gay marriage gotta with anything. as if if i can marry my boy therefore jasmine can't marry edwin. RIDICULOUS! i mean really its like saying we can't grow oranges in florida because that would undermine the durians in malaysia. like really, even if you go in depth into supply and demand which you wouldn't, it would still makes no sense. as if allowing gay marriages would somehow make straight guys gay and afraid of woman.
stop being homophobe just because back when the romans ruled, gays were not discriminated and your church power was undermined.
die pope. die. may 2005 be your last year on earth!
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i shld learn to be more forgiving, but i realised that if others are not going to be forgiving, i am not going to, to that few people. but i suppose i could start by learning..... hrmmmm
$419 vs $268, people can tell me the iPod shuffle is so expensive as compared to creative. now lets see, 1gb for the ipod is 268, 1gb for the muvo is $419. oh well they failed their mathematics i suppose. but i dun see why everybody is against apple, probably because they can't get their hands on one and they're just jealous. like mr sim wong hoo. in 2004, 92% of mp3 players sold are apple ipods. in the world now, 62% of all mp3 players are apple, 6% are ipods wannabe including creative, and the rest are flash player. mr sim is just very sad. hahaha
anyway whatever, i get the good stuff. go cry your heart outs!
anyway whatever, i get the good stuff. go cry your heart outs!
Jan 12, 2005
i've waited all night for this!!!! the new mac mini and ipod shuffle is out!!!!
that is the mac mini coming in at only $928 and guess what, its only 6.5 inch by 6.5 inch and its 2 inch tall! weighing an amazing 2.9 pounds. thats barely bigger than a cd.
and that is the ipod shuffle ahhhhh it just doesn't get any any any any coooler than that!!! droooooooools!!!! i am ordering one immediately! AHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!! so exciting
that is the mac mini coming in at only $928 and guess what, its only 6.5 inch by 6.5 inch and its 2 inch tall! weighing an amazing 2.9 pounds. thats barely bigger than a cd.
and that is the ipod shuffle ahhhhh it just doesn't get any any any any coooler than that!!! droooooooools!!!! i am ordering one immediately! AHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!! so exciting
Jan 11, 2005
you can't believe this, but apparently porn is going to be the deciding factor for the war on DVDs. for the less informed, other than the perennial, mac vs pc war. there's another war, that is the blu ray vs hd dvd war. anyway go read http://news.zdnet.com/2100-1040_22-5518574.html for more details
nothing much happened today. met mark at coronation plaza, had some lunch and it was just so nostalgic. went back to my alma mater and it was quite different. so much changes. haiz, its so sad that none of my beloved teacher is there anymore. and guess what, now they all wear the chinese high school badge. yes how gross. in 4 years time, all of hcjc will be swamed with chinese high boys and nanyang girls; only a measly 200 will be from other schools. the stupid 6 years system. there will bound to be a lower fertility rate as more chinese high boys turn gays after 6 years of exposure to nanyang girls and more nanyang girls turning lesbian after 6 years of chinese high boys. but thankfully this cohort was pretty good for my eyes haha.
went to pick my boy up from work. its amazing near mark's place, its so like when i first met him, and how we took the bus back and i held his hands then during the jouney. ah those were the days and today felt surprisingly like that other than i was a little late and my boy was a little upset cos i said 5 min but i was more like 10 min late. ooops. i'll be sure to correct that bad habit heheh
yar yar, go read junyi's blog on the amazing power of tissue papers!
nothing much happened today. met mark at coronation plaza, had some lunch and it was just so nostalgic. went back to my alma mater and it was quite different. so much changes. haiz, its so sad that none of my beloved teacher is there anymore. and guess what, now they all wear the chinese high school badge. yes how gross. in 4 years time, all of hcjc will be swamed with chinese high boys and nanyang girls; only a measly 200 will be from other schools. the stupid 6 years system. there will bound to be a lower fertility rate as more chinese high boys turn gays after 6 years of exposure to nanyang girls and more nanyang girls turning lesbian after 6 years of chinese high boys. but thankfully this cohort was pretty good for my eyes haha.
went to pick my boy up from work. its amazing near mark's place, its so like when i first met him, and how we took the bus back and i held his hands then during the jouney. ah those were the days and today felt surprisingly like that other than i was a little late and my boy was a little upset cos i said 5 min but i was more like 10 min late. ooops. i'll be sure to correct that bad habit heheh
yar yar, go read junyi's blog on the amazing power of tissue papers!
Jan 8, 2005
i was watching sense of being yesterday on channel U; ��锋��浜洪�翠��锟斤拷锟� for those who doesn't know the english name. anyway this week topic was on transexual and i must admit it was a very emotional episode, even for the audience. my mom was watching it with me and i noticed there was a lot of difference in the way she watched this program than how she would have some years ago. she was sympathetic and understanding, and i could tell from the way she looked into my eyes that she knew i was gay and that she wanted to tell me she knows and its ok. that some people are just like that.
throughout the whole show i was very silent, even crack silly jokes to divert attention but i think it was still obvious. my whole body language changed. but how could i remain composed when everything they said was so close to the heart. that no we don't have a choice. its not like we don't want to be normal. amy said something like this "i want to be either male or female, not somewhere in between. in my next life, i don't even mind being a dog, as long as its male or female. its so stressful"
its not like i don't want to get married and have kids but i don't love girls. goodness i can't have sex with a girl. we don't have a choice. just like you don't have a choice if you're born black or white. you can bleach your skin colour you can dress whatever way, at the core you're still who you are. i thank all my friends who have learnt to accept me. to understand that i am the exact same person that i was right before i came out and they have given me immense support throughout my journey of self discovery.
i'm happy.
throughout the whole show i was very silent, even crack silly jokes to divert attention but i think it was still obvious. my whole body language changed. but how could i remain composed when everything they said was so close to the heart. that no we don't have a choice. its not like we don't want to be normal. amy said something like this "i want to be either male or female, not somewhere in between. in my next life, i don't even mind being a dog, as long as its male or female. its so stressful"
its not like i don't want to get married and have kids but i don't love girls. goodness i can't have sex with a girl. we don't have a choice. just like you don't have a choice if you're born black or white. you can bleach your skin colour you can dress whatever way, at the core you're still who you are. i thank all my friends who have learnt to accept me. to understand that i am the exact same person that i was right before i came out and they have given me immense support throughout my journey of self discovery.
i'm happy.
i think there are things i must accept though its very hard to learn that priorities have now changed. that there wil be no more special visits, that things are not the same. that i have to learn to be independent. humans are apt at adapting, i am a little slow with changes, but i think i will learn to accept somehow.
"You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say"
jimmy eat world - kill
"You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say"
jimmy eat world - kill
Jan 7, 2005
it jus dawned upon me that i am a very big apple fan. ok it didn't just dawn on me, but it just struck me after i read LIFE's article on S.H.E fans that i am somewhat like that. every morning when i wake up, its the same routine, i go online to mac observer, macrumors and apple to check on the latest mac offerings. ahhhh!
den i will 'spread the word' to the world about the latest updates and convert my friends to use apple. so far the number tallies nearly 12. with a few more waiting to save money to go get one.
when my friends had a nightmare about getting raped by anna nicole smith, my nightmare is i woke up with a dell pc. Eeeeeeeeee
den i will 'spread the word' to the world about the latest updates and convert my friends to use apple. so far the number tallies nearly 12. with a few more waiting to save money to go get one.
when my friends had a nightmare about getting raped by anna nicole smith, my nightmare is i woke up with a dell pc. Eeeeeeeeee
During his keynote address for the Consumer Electronics Show (CES) in Las Vegas, NV, Bill Gates experienced not one, not two, but three Windows crashes and glitches while showing off new products.
The Las Vegas Sun reported that Mr. Gates first ran intro trouble when trying to connect a new Nikon digital SLR camera to a Windows Media Center Edition PC through a WiFi connection. The result, however, was a frozen computer that wouldn't respond. Two attempts later, however, the demonstration went off without a hitch.
The next one came during a demonstration of a new game called Forza Motor Sport, when the PC the game was being run on actually went directly to the famed Blue Screen of Death.
The third problem occurred when Mr. Gates was unable to get a Tablet PC to connect to the Internet.
All of the problems were met with good natured laughter from Mr. Gates and the audience, and Conan O'Brien, who was co-hosting the event, even quipped "OK, and right now nine people are being fired," during one of the crashes.
Earlier in the presentation, Mr. O'Brien also joked: "I got too drunk, I woke up with a hooker. Bill got too drunk, he woke up with an Apple computer."
His Windows troubles hearkened back to the days of Windows 98, when Bill Gates experienced a Blue Screen of Death during the Chicago Comdex keynote in 1998. That crash made headlines around the geek world, but did not slow the adoption of Windows in the market place.
The Las Vegas Sun reported that Mr. Gates first ran intro trouble when trying to connect a new Nikon digital SLR camera to a Windows Media Center Edition PC through a WiFi connection. The result, however, was a frozen computer that wouldn't respond. Two attempts later, however, the demonstration went off without a hitch.
The next one came during a demonstration of a new game called Forza Motor Sport, when the PC the game was being run on actually went directly to the famed Blue Screen of Death.
The third problem occurred when Mr. Gates was unable to get a Tablet PC to connect to the Internet.
All of the problems were met with good natured laughter from Mr. Gates and the audience, and Conan O'Brien, who was co-hosting the event, even quipped "OK, and right now nine people are being fired," during one of the crashes.
Earlier in the presentation, Mr. O'Brien also joked: "I got too drunk, I woke up with a hooker. Bill got too drunk, he woke up with an Apple computer."
His Windows troubles hearkened back to the days of Windows 98, when Bill Gates experienced a Blue Screen of Death during the Chicago Comdex keynote in 1998. That crash made headlines around the geek world, but did not slow the adoption of Windows in the market place.
the filthy rich oil nations of the middle east donated in total as of yesterday US$100 million, one fifth of what, one japan donated, one seventh of auz A$1billion. well suddenly it all makes sense. they are selfish bastards. read what some (darling the key word is some) islamic preachers said
"we know that at these resorts, esp at christmas, fornication and sexual pervasion of all kinds are rampant" said sheik fawzan al fawzan. "the fact that is happened at this particular time is a sign from allah"
fuck you i say. i put it across to you that your bloody law that rapes a girl with 5 men until she dies just because she might have possibly perhaps maybe in some what uncertain past of future could commit adultery is the sexual pervasion. just because you aren't caring enough in your twisted mind, not because islam said so, because i have muslim friends, and we've seen what malaysia and indonesia did. so don't again try to use islam as an excuse for your selfishness and uncaring.
i put it across to you that the westerners are more caring and donate more because they care, the asians are caring more because we care. so don't come and give some silly excuse, especially since your fellow muslim brothers are hurt in indonesia, banda aceh, where NO tourists are; they are the worst hit area.
i put it across to you that you are a selfish liar and may you die in a puddle of water and be trampled on by pigs till ur last breath
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edit : i applause Mr Abdul Bari Atwan. "we arabs fail in peace as we did in war. we failed in all tests of democracy and human rights. here we are, registering a new failure on the humanitarian front"
well said. he sounds educated, possible a kerry supporter, anyone?
"we know that at these resorts, esp at christmas, fornication and sexual pervasion of all kinds are rampant" said sheik fawzan al fawzan. "the fact that is happened at this particular time is a sign from allah"
fuck you i say. i put it across to you that your bloody law that rapes a girl with 5 men until she dies just because she might have possibly perhaps maybe in some what uncertain past of future could commit adultery is the sexual pervasion. just because you aren't caring enough in your twisted mind, not because islam said so, because i have muslim friends, and we've seen what malaysia and indonesia did. so don't again try to use islam as an excuse for your selfishness and uncaring.
i put it across to you that the westerners are more caring and donate more because they care, the asians are caring more because we care. so don't come and give some silly excuse, especially since your fellow muslim brothers are hurt in indonesia, banda aceh, where NO tourists are; they are the worst hit area.
i put it across to you that you are a selfish liar and may you die in a puddle of water and be trampled on by pigs till ur last breath
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edit : i applause Mr Abdul Bari Atwan. "we arabs fail in peace as we did in war. we failed in all tests of democracy and human rights. here we are, registering a new failure on the humanitarian front"
well said. he sounds educated, possible a kerry supporter, anyone?
Jan 6, 2005
it is confirmed, ipod will add a new 'micro' series, using flash memory, no new on the name yet, but it will be in 1gb and 2gb variant at a fraction of the size of the mini, and the 1gb one will cost about S$268... ohhh this is so exciting. i can't wait to post pictures guys. once i get it. immediately 1st thing i promise. and well samsungs 512 yepp that is bigger than the ipod flash cost well 459, so hrmm, i think well. muahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the ipod mini will go up to 5gb with a new 10gb variant possibly coming out end of the year to 2006 as hitachi announces new capacity. SWEEEEEEEEET
and the ipod mini will go up to 5gb with a new 10gb variant possibly coming out end of the year to 2006 as hitachi announces new capacity. SWEEEEEEEEET
i'm feeling down again. very down. messed up again. everything that was neatly placed in my room is strewn all over the place. haiz. i still feel very bitter about my career thing. people don't understand, but how can they, they are not me. i always give fantastic excuses, but in the one, the only person i am trying to convince is myself. i can still remember the fresh air at 10,000 ft, the inverted flights, the beautiful mountains rising beyond the horizon; all now a thing of the past. its all over. while i've said many many things, at the end of it, i know i would never be, i created all this excuse, all the illusion that i am fine. but i am not ok, how can one be when your dreams, something you strive hard, very hard; something that made me push myself through all the difficulties is crushed just like that, by some ruthless fucked up asshole.
praying hard that sq will take me. i'm praying very hard.
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i remember me and raydance use to post very private things on public blogs, though there were many times people didn't like what they read and said nasty things, we and alot of other bloggers maintained that our blog were our personal spaces, if you don't like what you, fuck off and don't read. but i've learnt a few things, quite a few things and i no longer insist that anymore.
so how can i, how can raydance, post something so personal on such a public blog. such a public when everybody reads.
praying hard that sq will take me. i'm praying very hard.
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i remember me and raydance use to post very private things on public blogs, though there were many times people didn't like what they read and said nasty things, we and alot of other bloggers maintained that our blog were our personal spaces, if you don't like what you, fuck off and don't read. but i've learnt a few things, quite a few things and i no longer insist that anymore.
so how can i, how can raydance, post something so personal on such a public blog. such a public when everybody reads.
Jan 5, 2005
come on indulge in me and visit these sites. i'm sure you'll love it, fellow budding musicians.
http://www.berklee.edu/opi/2004/0709.html
http://www.berklee.edu/pdp/time.html
http://www.apple.com/education/profiles/berkleeschool/
these days, even steve vai and mayday record their entire album on the powerbooks and ibooks. muahaha. you know sometime, for some really wierd reasons, i love to fix my pc and help my friends fix thier dell/acer/hp/compaq. it gives me a perverse sense of joy whenever their comp crashes and need me to help or that they would love to do some editing and need my mac or the fact that they are giving up on pc and are going to go mac shopping w me after God of Apple, The Saviour of All Frustrated Computer Users, Lord Almighty Steve Jobs (damn i sound a north korean speaking abt their 'dear leader' or do i sound like some other pple? i dunno =p) announces the new line of headless emac for the swtichers. it'll be arnd 800 sing dollars, smaller than a laptop. wooooh! i'm getting one for mommy. monitor? use the pc one lor....
http://www.berklee.edu/opi/2004/0709.html
http://www.berklee.edu/pdp/time.html
http://www.apple.com/education/profiles/berkleeschool/
these days, even steve vai and mayday record their entire album on the powerbooks and ibooks. muahaha. you know sometime, for some really wierd reasons, i love to fix my pc and help my friends fix thier dell/acer/hp/compaq. it gives me a perverse sense of joy whenever their comp crashes and need me to help or that they would love to do some editing and need my mac or the fact that they are giving up on pc and are going to go mac shopping w me after God of Apple, The Saviour of All Frustrated Computer Users, Lord Almighty Steve Jobs (damn i sound a north korean speaking abt their 'dear leader' or do i sound like some other pple? i dunno =p) announces the new line of headless emac for the swtichers. it'll be arnd 800 sing dollars, smaller than a laptop. wooooh! i'm getting one for mommy. monitor? use the pc one lor....
Jan 4, 2005
i would like to blog but i don't really know what to say. messy messy emotions all over the place. thinking if i should rip all my jay's songs into my iPod. his slow songs have this very strange effect on me. makes me think about so many things. i don't even know myself how i am feeling. but oh well. i spent the whole day rotting to songs, and fixing the dell outside again. yes yet again. isn't it absolutely facsinating after abusing my ibook with heavy editing, deadlines, movies to create, posters for assorted people to do, massive downloading and all the whatnot you can think of, it still hasn't died on me. much less crash and face the blue screen of death. and it jus dawned upon me that with windows xp, though i've only seen the blue screen of death 6 times to date, they don't even inform you that xp is going to die. it jus dies.
but anyway, i'm feeling messed up screwed up and not in the right frame of mind
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"It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you"
jimmy eat world - 23
but anyway, i'm feeling messed up screwed up and not in the right frame of mind
---
"It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you"
jimmy eat world - 23
Jan 3, 2005
OHMAGAWD!!!!!!! i can't believe that silly stupid fucking sonnawabitch asshole of a spastic shithole street eyebrow plucker STEVEN LIM that was the stripper in the yellow swimming trunks from singapore idol is allowed to perform on national TV on Top Fun channel 8.
they must have let him get on the show to make a fool of himself. ARGH!!!!!! he is so INSANE
they must have let him get on the show to make a fool of himself. ARGH!!!!!! he is so INSANE
Jan 1, 2005
i'm in the midst of packing my room, packing my emotions, packing my thoughts. what a year 2004 was. the year started when i came back from brunei, all ready to embarked on my career as a future pilot, but now, i've been suspended due to some crappy medical reasons. those things i said, oh well just a way to cover emotions, to cover how i really felt about not being able to go. sometimes we all need a little lie to get us by.
in jan, i also met the love of my life. its almost a year already, and what a year it has been, full of up and downs and all the in betweens. looking back, it was really a year of extremes. mother nature has been terribly unkind to the world. punishment? maybe, but nore so a lesson, that no matter how great we are, how we can manipulate lives, decide which country to invade just because; decide that us homosexuals are lesser beings; that abortion is legal or illegal; we are still no match for mother nature. without warning, in matters of hours, thousands upon thousands of lives are lost. no mercy was shown. ironically, not a single animal died. they all retreated inland. ironically.
reading the news today (okok you all know i am very emotional) i almost teared by the efforts of the friends and relatives of the loved ones looking and searching everywhere for the victims. dead of alive, they needed some closure. how do we even deal with a catastrophe of such a scale? "live is cheap, cherish what you have now" my dearest friend said that to me yesterday. sigh.
what a way to end 2004, to remind us that the year was chaotic, violent, fearful. all the unnecessary deaths of innocents in sudan, iraq, afghan, india, pakistan, spain, indonesia and i could really go on and on about the terrorist attacks. and between dumb and dumber of election 2004 in the states, the dumber won. how depressing.
in the new year, hopefully the world changes for the better, because every year as we conclude there is nothing but sad news and terrifying images of war torn regions. world peace!
personally i have to learn a lesson that loving someone is easy, accepting is the hard. and that now that i am no longer the 'high flyer' that i was, i've gotta hit the books soon and follow the masses; instead of taking the road less travelled.
happy new year everybody, may this coming year be really filled with great things! love ya guys.
PEACE to the world!
(yes lets all be buddhist!)
in jan, i also met the love of my life. its almost a year already, and what a year it has been, full of up and downs and all the in betweens. looking back, it was really a year of extremes. mother nature has been terribly unkind to the world. punishment? maybe, but nore so a lesson, that no matter how great we are, how we can manipulate lives, decide which country to invade just because; decide that us homosexuals are lesser beings; that abortion is legal or illegal; we are still no match for mother nature. without warning, in matters of hours, thousands upon thousands of lives are lost. no mercy was shown. ironically, not a single animal died. they all retreated inland. ironically.
reading the news today (okok you all know i am very emotional) i almost teared by the efforts of the friends and relatives of the loved ones looking and searching everywhere for the victims. dead of alive, they needed some closure. how do we even deal with a catastrophe of such a scale? "live is cheap, cherish what you have now" my dearest friend said that to me yesterday. sigh.
what a way to end 2004, to remind us that the year was chaotic, violent, fearful. all the unnecessary deaths of innocents in sudan, iraq, afghan, india, pakistan, spain, indonesia and i could really go on and on about the terrorist attacks. and between dumb and dumber of election 2004 in the states, the dumber won. how depressing.
in the new year, hopefully the world changes for the better, because every year as we conclude there is nothing but sad news and terrifying images of war torn regions. world peace!
personally i have to learn a lesson that loving someone is easy, accepting is the hard. and that now that i am no longer the 'high flyer' that i was, i've gotta hit the books soon and follow the masses; instead of taking the road less travelled.
happy new year everybody, may this coming year be really filled with great things! love ya guys.
PEACE to the world!
(yes lets all be buddhist!)
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