handling my mom

is such a damn tiring affair.. omg i am so drained. this is what happens when many many years of repressed feelings comes flying out

in other news, my room is coming along well, mom seems to like that. she likes my chair too!

but of cos she nags

i am flat broke

I have no 10 cents to my name, because the year is ending and i have spent every single cent, ARGH. I can't go out anymore. flat flat broke. still waiting for moolah to come in from peeps who owe me moolahs.

Statistics from Malaysia

On the Straits Times today, page 8, they published some statistics from the Malaysian Indian Congress (MIC) to rebuff the HINDRAF, saying that the Indians in Malaysia are "NOT that badly off"

According to the statistics, which Datuk Seri S Samy Vellu DID not say where the statistics came from (1):

11.5% are professionals and managers
19.4% are associate professors, lecturers and nurses
22.9% are sales personnel
4.9% are agricultural wokers
9.4% are craft and trade workers
20.1% are machine operators
16.3% are elementary workers

not that bad you say? well the figures add up to 104.5% and not 100%.... hrmmmmmmmmmmmmmm well Datuk Seri Samy is quick to add that it was due to rounding errors. Now what is rounding errors? rounding errors refer to the error makes when a person rounds up or down a figure to make it more manageable. So assuming that Datuk Seri Samy did round up all the figures, to cause such an increase, lets attempt to correct it. I'll minus 0.1% from all the figures, so instead of having a rounded up figure, it is now either the correct or a rounded down figure

11.4%
19.3%
22.8%
4.8%
9.3%
20%
16.2%

and that adds up to 103.9%. WHERE THE HELL DID MIC get their statistics from????????

insomnia

i'm having a very strange bout of insomnia. i can't seem to fall asleep.

too many things on my mind, must be.

desperate housewives

while watching season 4 of desperate housewives, this particular episode really strikes a chord with me. the part where andrew decided to move out because of the following conversation

##
Orson: After two nights of sleepless bonding with my son I nearly dozed off while repairing Mrs. Colby's cracked molar. I doubt if the crown I put in will last her a year.

Bree: So, you'll replace it for free.

Orson: That's not the point. How is a dentist supposed to feel when he can't give a 90-year-old a lifetime guarantee? Bree, I'm sorry but this whole family bed thing has to stop.

Bree: Oh, give it some time. We're still adjusting, and Benjamin is sleeping so soundly.

Orson: He can sleep just as soundly in a crib. From what you've told me, you and Rex didn't haul Andrew into bed with you.

Bree: No, and I wish we had. If we did he mightn't have turned out so...

Andrew: So, what? Stupid? Lazy? Short?

Bree: I was going to say angry.
##

then andrew decided to get a place of his own. bree went to visit and was absolutely appalled at the living conditions. but andrew wanted her to know its ok, he can make it. she couldn't see that he has changed. in her eyes, he still the same spoilt angry brat. and he was trying to tell her that he only wished she's noticed he has changed. he changed his way and even got a job to make ends meet.

the show ends with mary-alice saying "by denying the past, we are condemned to repeat it"

which is why i've learnt from the past, so that it doesn't repeat, so that things can be better.

i am damn naggy!

hahaha yes i am super naggy. ARGH!!!!

anyway love the new template?!?!? alexis loves it. i love it too! and its going to be an exciting weekend. dance boot camp in the morning, evening will be with my darling huiyi getting her new mac! yes everyone's getting it. why not you?!?!

then on sunday its furniture shopping with alexis (hopefully) and j-en. hehehehe

so many new stuffs in my life.

but but but there's always work. ARGH!!!!

oh jem wants me to add a new note to myself: to not be distracted by other stuff when talking to him. hahahah

note to self

learn how to say no, and stop piling yourself up with all these ad-hoc nonsense! omg.

i so badly need a break

oh my god! my eyes!!!!

If you think during chingay and seeing some our MPs rapping and dancing to bling was the last of it. you are so wrong!! in an attempt to CONNECT with the youths, they are RAPPING to MDA's annual report.... oh my 天.

watch that at MDA's website. ITS TERRIBLE

In other news, watch how the singapore police behaving ridiculously silly especially Mr Michael and this other police officer.

getting so restless

argh, its so hard to study!!! hrmmmmm.......

my fav ad this chrismas

from my psychology textbook

Expectancy confirmation: People’s beliefs about personality characteristics of others cause them to evoke in others actions that are consistent with initial beliefs

the intelligent minister yet again

this times its our PM Lee. While i sincerely respect him for whatever he has done, the way PAP deals with opposition makes me lose respect. i feel that PM Lee is even downright rude this time. As a leader of a nation, although he is from a political party, surely PAP can afford more grace than that, to say:

"Our five men are working hard, but the opposition's five have scattered like monkeys when the tree fell... They call it their A team, I say its A for AWOL."

dear mr prime minister. Unlike the PAP MPs and ministers who gets paid hundreds of thousands to millions a year, other people actually have to WORK! what on earth do you expect them to do? sit around till the next election with no income?

SERIOUSLY!

you've got ZERO respect from me when it comes to dealing with opposition.

its today!

my first paper is today! wooohoo. luck.

our 'intelligent' minister speaks again

this time its minister lim hng kiang, minister of trade and industry.

replying to rising cost of living, he said: “Switching to cheaper products can reduce the cost of living despite a rise in the CPI.”

ok seriously!!!!! do i even need to explain this one? so if everything becomes more expensive, how the fuck am i suppose to find cheaper things to buy????

of school and uncelebrated birthdays

i am in school now, studying hard for my exam which starts in 2 days. haha, around the corner you say. this semester is pretty overwhelming, notice the drop in blog post? haha mostly time is so consumed that whatever time left is dedicated to you-know-who and to my rest!

and i can't even celebrate my birthday cause my mommy will be away in malaysia =( no one to cook 鸡蛋面线 for me. no birthday celebration also because i have like 5 papers the week after my birthday.

let's partay after my exams!!!!

oh, in case you are still scratching your head over what to get me for my birthday, you can:

1. chip in to the 'help kiezin get his furniture fund"
2. a nice vest (size S, unless its really super tiny then m would be fine)
3. of course there's the customary expensive present that if you would want to get me, i would not reject, like er... well well, a... ok LCD television, 32inch and above???

of school and uncelebrated birthdays

i am in school now, studying hard for my exam which starts in 2 days. haha, around the corner you say. this semester is pretty overwhelming, notice the drop in blog post? haha mostly time is so consumed that whatever time left is dedicated to you-know-who and to my rest!

and i can't even celebrate my birthday cause my mommy will be away in malaysia =( no one to cook 鸡蛋面线 for me. no birthday celebration also because i have like 5 papers the week after my birthday.

let's partay after my exams!!!!

oh, in case you are still scratching your head over what to get me for my birthday, you can:

1. chip in to the 'help kiezin get his furniture fund"
2. a nice vest (size S, unless its really super tiny then m would be fine)
3. of course there's the customary expensive present that if you would want to get me, i would not reject, like er... well well, a... ok LCD television, 32inch and above???

stress!!!

progress is slow, only 3 chapters thus far, not very good huh! 3 chapters in 2 days, well granted they are the bigger chapters.

argh, so worried. can i even finish studying in time? =(

support yourself

jia you! exams are around the corner. you can do it. you can support yourself and tide through the exams. go see a doctor for your knee and your throat. at the very least, you must care for yourself.

in pain

ouch! silly me went to smash my knee against the benches today. and now i am limping everywhere. how gross right? hahahahaha

what greek names to not give ur children

so my teacher venus has a brother called uranus, like the planet. unfortunately...

other quasi greek sounding names:

myanus
hissanus
heranus
theiranus

If your are chinese, and ur surname is Lim, Lim Tao Huay is not a good name for your daughter. If you are a Cai, Cai Por Ng is also not a good name.

Finally jem wants me to tell j-en to never to change her name to jade, she'll be called jade teo.

i am still alive

Hello world, i am still quite alive. Too much school, but its going to over soon. The last mad dash for an essay and exams and that'll be it. More updates to come.

In other news, Jay's new album ROCKS. omg and he loooooks sooooooooooooooooooooooo damn gay and cute. *swoooons*

Heroes 2

is the MOST boring television series EVER. omg. the only why i am sitting through it is to see peter petrelli topless. and that's it.

my goodness. its such a horrible season. some shows just can't be dragged on forever. like prison break and lost. seriously....

fastest windows vista computer

PC world ran a series of benchmarking test at http://www.pcworld.com/article/id,136649-page,3-c,notebooks/article.html and guess what they found out?

the fastest laptop on earth running windows vista, is well a mac.

"The fastest Windows Vista notebook we've tested this year is a Mac. Try that again: The fastest Windows Vista notebook we've tested this year--or for that matter, ever--is a Mac."

there you go. you've heard that right.

the best computer running Mac and windows, is a mac

hell week #1

IS FINALLY OVER! omg. i survived this week, and the previous week. Its such an incredulously tiresome week. But i've survived. PHEW...

now for hell week #2 and hell week #3

on other news, i've finally bumped into zeeq and managed to get a quick catch up with her. haven't met and caught up with people proper for EONS....

tired

i am very very tired. please leave me alone

Leopard...

in more exciting news, other than the THIO-cracy and what a THIO-cratic country will with some THIO-logy



IT IS ARRIVING!!! i've pre-ordered it. hahahahahaha

this did not get published by ST

Dear Editor

I refer to the story "Factory worker jailed 4 months for molesting schoolgirls on bus" published on October 23 ST. In light of this story and recent events of the repealing of section 377a, I second Minister Ho Peng Kee's stand. He said, during Parliament Oct 22 that:

"There have been convictions over the years involving cases where minors were exploited and abused, or where male adults committed the offence in a public place such as a public toilet or back-lane." And because of issues like that we must retain 377a.

In light of the conviction of the factory workers and other convictions such as the father raping his daughters with the assistance of his wives, I propose that we ban heterosexual sexual activities too.

If we do not, the social fabric will be torn apart, and what will happen to our families?

Can you imagine the day where no children dare to step out into the public for fear of being molested by heterosexual and homosexual men? For the sake of our families and society, I urge the government to ban all forms of sexual activities.

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i am so worried one day there will be anarchy is singapore because the straight men are going to molest and rape all the girls over and on top of the gay men. what are we to do? singapore is going to collapse because we are all having sex! let us ban all forms of sex in singapore.

can you imagine that a straight women is sticking her tongue into a straight men's ass. or a straight men having anal sex with a women, that is like "sticking a straw up your nose" to quote ms thio. BAN ALL SEX NOW SINGAPORE!!!!!

small friend speaks about the repeal of 377a - Gay men have families too

Following the recent letters and the past conversations that have been given by the anti-gay factions, you would have noticed some common themes and arguments given by them. Some of these I have already addressed here. The issues were the medical arguments, the religious arguments and the family argument. For the legal preliminaries of the 377a ongoings, read here.

After reading some forum letters again I feel that there is an even greater need to address the family unit argument that is always put out in their defense. Summarizing the entire argument is Ms Lim Poh Suan, who wrote to Oct 17 Straits Times Forum.

I SUPPORT the retention of Section 377A of the Penal Code - a law criminalising gay sex - to uphold our moral and family values.



The petition by Nominated MP Siew Kum Hong does not serve the interests of Singapore as a whole but only of one small sector.



In fact, the removal of this law will lead to the disintegration of our social fabric, the family unit, which the Government has been establishing pro-actively.



I believe that strong families will lead to a strong nation.

I fully support the Government in keeping Section 377A. Gross indecencies must be penalised.

 For the survival of our nation and the welfare of the future generation, the petition by NMP Siew should be ignored.

The family argument has always been put in this manner: Allowing gay people to have sex will destroy the family unit, therefore we should continue to ban gay sex. This simplistic argument stops there.

This argument ignores the fact that gay men are part of the family unit that they speak about. That every gay men has a mother, has a father, has a family. Regardless of the law, the gay men will still continue to be part of this family. And so what family unit are they talking about? What family unit are we protecting? Are we protecting families without gay people?

Look at 2 different scenarios: Scenario A is the ‘family’ that does not accept their son to be gay, they hate it, they are angry. They force their son to go for therapy (which there is none, as a psychology student, I ASSURE YOU), they constantly have fights because they can’t see beyond their hate, their anger and their ‘face’. Because they think that it is deviant. That society doesn’t accept, and then they quote you the law and the arguments that have always been used. Is that a family unit that the anti-gay faction is looking for?

Or Scenario B, a family that after some blood and tears, come to accept their gay son for who he is, and continues to love him for who he is, not who they want him to be. They enquire about his boyfriend, sends Christmas greetings, talks about their future. And when the son feels overwhelmed by the societal discrimination, all they can do is to stand by their son and say that things will slowly change.

Which is the family unit that the anti-gay factions want? One that will tear people apart, or one that ties the family together? Keeping the law will only further deepened any societal discrimination, because at the end of the day, ‘symbolically’ speaking, gay sexual acts are still criminal. Now if you are saying that you can be gay and not have sex, you must be kidding yourself, if nobody had sex, you would not even be reading this today.

Moving beyond the micro-level of family unit argument, is that the social fabric argument, which also centres around the family argument. The anti-gay faction love to use the word social fabric will be torn, as if society is a tangible material that can be ripped apart, this is philosophically known as the false concreteness. But that is beyond the scope of this argument.

How the society is being torn apart however is never mentioned, and it still leaves me wanting to ask how does it happen. How does allowing gay sex causes society to fall apart? The last time I checked, USA is still a super-power, Hong Kong still exist, so does China, and the European countries. Now it is easy to say that, ‘Well they are a different society”. But wouldn’t that be biting their own tongue when on one hand, it is argued that allowing gay men to have sex will tear the social fabric, but on the other it only appears that it will tear Singapore’s fabric.

The next thing that is commonly forgotten is that with or without this law, gay men have always had sex, and will always continue to have sex. And that makes the entire argument fall flat, in a very unglam way. Since the building of Singapore from 1965 till now, gay sex has always been around, and has our fabric been torn?

One last very commonly heard argument is that, well I don’t want my son to see gay men and be gay. Well darling, if just by seeing another gay men makes your son gay, then I feel very sorry for your son. Suddenly I wonder if all our film censors are gay, lesbians, murderers and paedophiles, because they have to watch the film to censor it no? Also, I am sure some of you out there might know a gay friend, you have seen at least some gay people on screen, are all you reading this now gay? Again this logic falls flat. What about other behaviors then? When we see dogs walking on all fours, do all of us who owns and live with dogs start walking on all fours? Here again, we see that the anti-gay faction’s argument account only in ONE specific example and cannot be applied to anywhere else. As a theory, it has got to be the worse in the world. I am not even to ask if the entire UK, USA, China, Hong Kong or Australia is gay. Because well they’ve allowed gay sex.

Beyond all this abstract arguments are very real people, very real emotions, and very real families. For all the anti-gay people out there, do you actually personally know what some gay people go through? To Pastor Derek Hong who asserted that gay people are not discriminated, does he know any gay men who have been? Does he even know any gay men who have not?

How many of us really know what some gay men go through? Behind the smiles that may be sometimes put up, do we really know what the family situation is like? How many families truly love and accept their gay son?

Gay men have families too.

small friend speaks about the repeal of 377a - the preliminaries

If you've been reading the ST forum and following the news, you would have definitely known that NMP Siew Kum Hong is submitting a parliamentary petition for the repealing of the Penal Code Section 377a. As a preliminary, the penal code section 377 states that:

Unnatural offences.

377. Whoever voluntarily has carnal intercourse against the order of nature with any man, woman or animals, shall be punished with imprisonment for life, or with imprisonment for a term which may extend to 10 years, and shall also be liable to fine.

Explanation.
Penetration is sufficient to constitute the carnal intercourse necessary to the offence described in this section.

Outrages on decency.
377A. Any male person who, in public or private, commits, or abets the commission of, or procures or attempts to procure the commission by any male person of, any act of gross indecency with another male person, shall be punished with imprisonment for a term which may extend to 2 years.

This can be found at http://statutes.agc.gov.sg/


Now this may also surprise you, but our constitution, article 12 states that

Equal protection
12. —(1) All persons are equal before the law and entitled to the equal protection of the law.

(2) Except as expressly authorised by this Constitution, there shall be no discrimination against citizens of Singapore on the ground only of religion, race, descent or place of birth in any law or in the appointment to any office or employment under a public authority or in the administration of any law relating to the acquisition, holding or disposition of property or the establishing or carrying on of any trade, business, profession, vocation or employment.

Homosexuality is NEVER stated anywhere in the constitution that it is singled out to be discriminated, therefore as guaranteed by the constitution, homosexuals are entitled to EQUAL PROTECTION of the law.


With the recent Penal code amendments and changes, oral and anal sex between heterosexual adults are legal, but any sexual activity between homosexual MALE continues to be illegal. As such, there are many people, straight and gay, who are asking for the repealing of Section 377a, which specifically singles out gay men to be criminalized.

http://www.repeal377a.com/

http://www.repeal377a.com/

Repeal 377a now!

right or left?

story taken from http://www.news.com.au/heraldsun/story/0,21985,22556281-661,00.html




THE Right Brain vs Left Brain test ... do you see the dancer turning clockwise or anti-clockwise?

If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa.

Most of us would see the dancer turning anti-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it.

LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
knowing
acknowledges
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies
practical
safe

RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taking

I am feeling emo... 非你莫属

if you've read the papers today...

you might have noticed that 5 SDP members were arrested for holding placards outside the Istana. The story read a bit like a primary school's student piece of work. about how the police ask them to move here move there, then they move here move there, then they tell them its illegal then you know the rest....

you know i like news with a bit of punch, you know not reading news that takes the ministry words as the absolute truth without actually checking to see if the numbers are correct and adds up.

but anyway, the intelligent singaporean in me was just thinking..... here Singapore is, appearing to condemn the junta for their acts against human rights, and expressed 'revulsion' at the Junta, here in our backyard, the police have arrested the FOUR SDP members who are demonstrating and one guy who was videotaping.

i wonder if any international media got hold of this event.

Oh by the way, for those who do not yet know, you can actually find out about our laws and constitution here athttp://statutes.agc.gov.sg/.

go there click on constitutional documents, click on our constitution, then scroll down to Part IV, fundamental liberties, select '14 Freedom of speech, assembly and association'

it may surprise you, but it reads

Freedom of speech, assembly and association
14. —(1) Subject to clauses (2) and (3) —
(a) every citizen of Singapore has the right to freedom of speech and expression;
(b) all citizens of Singapore have the right to assemble peaceably and without arms; and
(c) all citizens of Singapore have the right to form associations.

(2) Parliament may by law impose —
(a) on the rights conferred by clause (1) (a), such restrictions as it considers necessary or expedient in the interest of the security of Singapore or any part thereof, friendly relations with other countries, public order or morality and restrictions designed to protect the privileges of Parliament or to provide against contempt of court, defamation or incitement to any offence;
(b) on the right conferred by clause (1) (b), such restrictions as it considers necessary or expedient in the interest of the security of Singapore or any part thereof or public order; and
(c) on the right conferred by clause (1) (c), such restrictions as it considers necessary or expedient in the interest of the security of Singapore or any part thereof, public order or morality.

(3) Restrictions on the right to form associations conferred by clause (1) (c) may also be imposed by any law relating to labour or education.

Is the police acting separate from what our government feels because of the fear of too much work, you all know how our civil service works! I am not even going to talk about the coffee breaks or tea breaks or lunches or reading of papers at 3pm and coming to work at 1030am......

or are they working at the directives of our government? Are there any middle level people who are trying to second guess what our leaders want and are playing on the safe side of things?

i am not sure, but oh well. go figure..

i think i fell in love with the '8th world wonder'

One blogpost for Burma

FREE BURMA

Free Burma! 04th October 2007!

reproduced from beautiful to behold

International bloggers are preparing an action to support the peaceful revolution in Burma. They want to set a sign for freedom and show their sympathy for these people who are fighting their cruel regime without weapons. These Bloggers are planning to refrain from posting to their blogs on 4th October but just put up one Banner, underlined with the words “Free Burma!”.
Preferred Action:

Choose a graphic from

http://www.flickr.com/groups/479791@N25/pool/
or http://flickr.com/photos/tags/freeburma/

with the text “Free Burma” so we can sync our global voice.

Use the tag “Free Burma” with:
For Bloggers: “One blogpost for Burma”
For website owners: “One text for Burma”
For commenters: “One Keystroke for Burma”

Link: You can keep up with the changes by pointing your feedreader to
http://freeburma.stots.de/feed.php
.
When
This event will take place on October, 4th 2007.

Name
The name of the event will be “Free Burma”

Spread the Word
Help to spread the word about this event.

Media:
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=6760367115
http://digg.com/world_news/Support_Burma_International_Bloggers_Day_at_4th_Oct
http://www.technorati.com/wtf/free-burma/ (this is a so called WTF, please follow the link and vote)
.

What to do?
Theme Change - Change your blog’s theme to red color; send message to: Red Blogs for Burma

Blog about Burma; send message to: Blogger for Burma

oneblogpostforburma - “One Blogpost for Burma”

On thursday, everybody blogs exactly one post with the title “Free Burma!” and a red flag for the monks’ red robes in RGB 128,24,24 and in the format 3:2
OR The International Buddistist Flag but which might not be right for all, since it is also a religious statement. But everybody can choose what (s)he does. Here are both flags: Click on thumbnails. Sample posting: http://sprechblase.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/free-burma/

Silence
Do nothing - remain silent. Risk is that this might not be noticed. (What a stupid idea! Silence is exactly what Myanmar’s government is trying to achieve by shutting down the country’s internet connection! We need to be louder than the military. They must hear an international uproar throughout the media, the other governments, etc…!)
Here are photos about “Free Burma!”

The campaign: http://flickr.com/photos/tags/freeburma/, please respect Copyright and Some Rights!

Multilingual Wikipedia articles: http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Myanmar#Proteste_2007.

my mother

i really don't know what to say. i love my mom alot. i really do. i just don't understand sometimes how to communicate. sigh

some stupid americans

there are such retarded americans around, and these frivolous lawsuits can only be found in the US of A. such as this.

a women is suing apple for $1 million in damages AND wants the court to grant her 3 times the damages meaning $3 million, because apple dropped the price of the iphone, and ATT and Apple FORCED her into a 2 year contract with termination fee.

i feel so sad for this women, she must have never owned a cell in her life, nor purchase anything in her life. (plasma TV anyone? the price dropped liked in hundreds in matters of day).

i am camping outside NTUC, when the price of the apples (HAHAHAHA!!! pun) drop, i will sue NTUC for causing emotional trauma with damages of $1 million. Also i am going to stand outside Shell, when the petrol prices rise or drops, i am suing them

and of course the pre-emptive lawsuits against everyone, just in case.

kinda reminds you of the women who sued mcdonalds for not telling her that her hot coffee was hot huh!!!

why is no one telling me my ice cream is cold!! SUE SUE SUE!

how the govt makes me hate them even more

I hate it when to our beloved government, human lives are just numbers. We are sitting here, as the CHAIR of ASEAN, looking at Myanmar shoot their monks, Singaporean and other innocent civilians like that Japanese photographer, and all we can say is that we are practicing "QUIET DIPLOMACY"

WHAT THE FUCK IS QUIET DIPLOMACY. how many more lives needs to be lost before we do anything. how many more people have to die before it becomes a problem. human lives ARE NOT NUMBERS. you don't sit down there getting your million of dollars of pay and to say that well, i need so many people to die before we do something.

speaking about money, CPF is irritating me more and more and more. Don't you love how much the government believe in us. that they do not even believe that we can spend our own money. we are paid so lowly already, then a HUGEASS amount goes to the government right, but you can never take that money back EVER.

Even when you are about to die, now you need to take it back as annuity. why? because they believe that we would go and fuck around the moment we get our CPF. yes at this juncture the state times and other media would run sob stories about how indeed there are 2 such cases and then sobbing tales of the wives. WHAT ABOUT THE REST OF US!

read before i die to see how one person got into trouble with his CPF. and of course mr wang on how this guy was convicted of cheating HIMSELF of HIS OWN CPF monies.

Or................. could it be that they need more money to invest? Afterall the GIC (Government Investment Company) has a not so simple relationship with the CPF funds. don't you EVER WONDER what happens to our money. 2.5% interest. come on, investment funds do much better than that.

"To a question by opposition MP Low Thia Khiang (Hougang) on whether the Government of Singapore Investment Corporation (GIC) uses funds from the CPF funds to invest, Dr Ng said: "The answer is no."

"Later he rose to add: "The relationship is not so simple".

QUESTION PEOPLE. QUESTION. we all need to critically question every single thing. even religion, religious text. never let anyone draw wool over you. question every bloody thing.

i hate this place

i love xiaxue

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2007/09/its-disheartening.html

omg, i never thought much of xiaxue, but i think she rocks!!! there are many mean people who says very mean things about her, but she still holds her own view and still listens to you. yeah she slams many other people too, but hey if you actually read what she says, its well not that far from the truth

though admittedly she is a bit vulgar lah, but you've gotta salute her for being so bold, daring and frank.

I HATE STEVEN LIM TOO!!

test test

a day at a time

too much work! i don't think i am getting any sleep tonight, or tomorrow for that very matter! gosh....


love my mbp's backlit keyboard


lovely tarts at delifrance!

vitamin c and backaches

too much school is going to take its toll on me pretty soon, hence i started popping mom's vitamin C pills. Was still feeling really cold and shivery this morning, so i wore long sleeves out and now i'm feeling slightly better. will continue on my vitamin C regime. hahaha. i cannot fall sick in the next 2 weeks, need to be healthy so its many doses of vitamin C, healthy food and healthy thoughts.

was out for a better part of the day doing participant observations of cosplayer(s) shopping for their materials. part of our project, walking around the entire day!

my back hurts =(

breaking point

*snaps*

too much work

this semester is madness. every friend is feeling the weight of it. we're all up to our necks with work. taking it lightly with many smiles... gosh!

=)

our intelligent minister speaks

Mr Ho Peng Kee, our beloved minister of state said this to Mr Low in regards to a cycling permit for WP:

“If you listened very carefully Mr Low, I don’t know whether his hearing aid is with him because he wears one, I said there is a greater potential for law and order problems. You may be well-behaving, but there may be other people whom you come across when you cycle who may stop you, may want to debate with you and that may attract a crowd, and therefore will result in problems the police want to avoid.”

I don't know about you, but i think this REALLY speaks for itself. any commentary necessary?

In other news, Young PAP removes night CYCLING item from its events calendar website

the smelliest person on earth

Indeed the smelliest person on earth isn't a smoker. but a smoker who exercises and does not BATHE!!! oh my god. have you ever smelled a smoker who exercises and does not bathe but proceeds to take public transport home? I have met just one such person, and yes he is smellier than a smoker (not as if smokers not are not smelly enough as it is). So this person plonked himself next to me on the mrt and i almost puked.

the smell of old smoke mixed with the body perspiration, mixed with whatever smell of the exercise environment, and the personal smell, wah lou rotten meat also not so smelly lah. smells like 'smoked rotten pork with salt'.

really!!!!!

smelly people should be banned from public transport. in fact smelly people should be given vouchers to buy perfume, cologne or deodorant.

best song ever by 'the police'

don't write me off

i m freaking stressed and busy too

and finally at 130am, i am done with all my stuff. and i din even have personal time! i am off to bed because tomorrow is another long day. good night folks

sleepless in singapore

怎么回开始对你有了感觉？ We just happen to be in the same state at the same place

爱情不能做比较

爱情不能做比较

Sorry.

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certain things hurt so bad, they will never go away.

random pictures

this sign is in NTU, yeah NTU has HORRIFIC spelling.

yeah i noe its gross right!!!!!! its my neighbour's cactus

its almost 1am

its been like sooooooo long since i am still up at 1am rushing my work. gosh! and i was just blogging about how we used to do that. the irony of life.

well if 1am sounds early to you, i wake up at about 7.30 to 8 daily. yeah even on weekends. so that should put things into perspective. ever since jem happened! i've been sleeping at about 11ish. melbourne is 2 hours ahead (or 3 if its daylight saving)

too much work too much work

HELP

i miss you

我要的只是你在我身边

school somehow drains me. i sleep well, i get about 7 to 8 hours daily i wake up bright and early at 8am mostly. but school takes it toll on me. i get rather tired by the end of the day that i don't feel like partaking in much activities.

school is picking up and going to be incredibly busy. many research to do. much more projects on my lap than i can perhaps handle and i still have to make time for tuition and some freelance work (hey they pay the bills) in between all this there are still much more administrative stuff to do.

i fondly remember a conversation with one of my old project group mate that it seems that CS students are just like that. this is of course not discounting our 'darling' engineers or what have you. but oftentimes CS students just seems to have so many things on our plate, of course i am generalizing here, but really. some people even handle volunteer work and dance classes and all. and we pull through.

but sometimes i wonder how we pull through. late nights in schools for projects, for chitchat, for studying. rushing madly to finish up editing, then rushing home for dinner. the days! gosh.

i have 3 massive projects, one of which involves a 40 page, 10'000 word report (this excludes references, tables, graphs) another involves many pages and a physical campaign, 2 research papers for professor. did i mention my freelance work??????

dates

01 jan
14 feb
09 april
09 july
22 september
17 nov
25 dec

start of semester

its only the start of the semester, and i am already feeling the heat! =(

what about me?

what about me?

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a blog i read said something and i thought that it is indeed so true:

"It’s scary how fast change is today. Yesterday i can say i love you, today i can scream at you for the slightest stupid mistake you made. I even saw people’s feelings change towards each other within hours. It’s alarming, i’d say. I saw how a promise made 24 years ago turn into dust as time rubs away traces of those words uttered. It’s sad, to say the least."

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there are some emails that i receive that i appreciate:

If we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the loved ones we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own loved ones,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?

its been awhile

hey all of you. its been awhile hasn't it? I've back safe and sound. the qantas flight back was much better than the flight there! there's quite a few things that i want to say but i am just deprived of energy to sit down and blog about it properly.

i'm good. how's everyone???

love to all, and especially you.

oh, its national day.

its just another day where we raise our leaders on a pedestal and go on endlessly about our motherland and what a long way we've come. together with synchronized dances and parades and a show of might. oh well.

in other news, did anyone catch those snippets of north korea where their dear leader is standing watching the troops march past and despite having such immense famine, they spend so much money celebrating with dances and parades and all??

you and i

follow the rotating pink dots

[ps: click on the image to load it fully after reading the instructions! you won't miss out, trust me]

If your eyes follow the movement of the rotating pink dot, the dots will remain
only one color, pink.

However if you stare at the black " + " in the center, the moving dot turns to green.

Now, concentrate on the black " + " in the center of the picture. After a short period, all the pink dots will slowly disappear, and you will only see only a single green dot rotating.

10 more days

before i have to face up to reality and take the long dreaded journey alone, back.

back to my bed. back to where you become a virtual reality for me.

part of this no more

i dun wanna be a part of this no more

scandals of the $ingapore government!

we all know about our government and their thinly veiled attempt to cover their asses. they have gone one step further!


Prison authorities withheld letter from man given extra strokes


The ministries have basically ignored calls for explanations or given vague and non-enlightening answers to issues such as:

1. The termination of playwright Alfian Sa’at’s position as a relief teacher in a secondary school.
2. The losses incurred in the UNSW debacle
3. The losses incurred in the Shin Corp saga
4. How ex-NKF chairman Richard Yong managed to give the authorities the slip and abscond
5. Investments of the GIC
6. The 5 day work week issue, particularly for teachers
7. Why the EDB was never audited by the Auditor General for 46 years before this year
8. Why are all voting sheets indexed?
9. Why do people who voted for the opposition party gets visit from the PAP
10. Why when shop-owner in opposition estate voice disagreement about PAP, they get their license revoked coincidentally?

FUCK lah. democracy leads the the tyranny of the majority. what about people like me who don't even get to vote! why? what about people who CHOSE that do not want such a tyrannical and opaque government.

the usual, read the online citizen

幸福的甜甜圈

the only way

i think the only way for any of us to feel better, and to stop feeling like a lesser citizen is to not see singapore as a country. but rather to see singapore as $ingapore. $ingapore is a business. As a thriving business, $ingapore has to be cold, ruthless, heartless and uncaring. why should a business spend money on the poor, the elderly, and the handicap, they don't contribute to the business but they are COST. A good business must always minimize COST and maximize REVENUE and PROFIT.

so as a business, $ingapore cares the most for the upper and the middle-upper class because they contribute the most. and morales of the employees of a company you say? what better way to boost morale than to make them work longer hours so that they have no time to care about morale. if they don't work, they can't even survive.

exactly the makings of a good business.

so people, stop thinking of singapore as country and wonder when the government would do something for you. instead see $ingapore as a business and realize that everything is about money here. if foreigners are cheaper and can make the bottomline lower, well hello foreigner and get lost you supposed citizen.

suddenly i feel disgusted by our national anthem and all those songs we sing during national day. makes me want to boo it the next time it comes up.

moment of the day

this gets filed in the moment of the day, or bimbotic moment #n... except it wasn't done by ME!! hahaha guess who was the one, come on. hahaha

so we were in the lab today where he had to scan in this document, and after a few scans, the scans juts did not get through, so we concluded that perhaps the scanner is spoiled and decided to take out the document to change computer only to realize that there was no document there after all.

hahahaha. sounds like something I would do??? who are you kidding!!!!

in other news, melbourne is SOOOO COLD, i am freezing my ass off. it is 8 degrees here in the DAY, but the windchill factor makes it feel like 3 degrees (according to www.accuweather.com)

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

9 more hours before i board the plane, 16 more before i see you again. and here is where it all started

"If you care too much about Singapore, first it’ll break your spirit, and finally it will break your heart."

"If you care too much about Singapore, first it’ll break your spirit, and finally it will break your heart." - Alfian Saat

and the saddest part about that is that it is true, most true. whenever i have conversations with my friends, close ones or otherwise, the most often heard remark to my concerns are "why do you care, there is nothing that you can do anyway." and indeed no matter how much the government tries to pull any wool over our eyes that we can make a difference, we all know that nothing we do can change anything.

like mr wang said, does anyone sincerely believe that our government is working for our good? we have to pay them millions to make them work, not because they are patriotic and genuinely want to make things better.

in fact, the most depressing thing is that people whom sincerely wants to make singapore place will be crushed, in one way or another. and when you get past the government, there's still the minority religious conservatives.

in so many ways i hate singapore. the only reason why i am even going to stay here is only because of my family and friends. singapore stifles you, makes your life unbreathable. holds you by the neck and demand that you be a good slave. a good dog. bark as you are commanded and your life will be good.

and our government still wonders why singaporeans are so apathetic. isn't this what they want? "yes sir yes sir 3 bags full"

new machines!!

staying up all night to read about updates from apple was seriously the most underwhelming event this year. i expected so much, but it was all nothing! but on the other hand, i've just ordered a BRAND NEW MACBOOK PRO! I'm so hoping it arrives before i fly off to see him =)

its a 15inch LED backlight LCD display
1440 X 990 pixels
2.2ghz Intel Core 2 Duo (Santa Rosa)
2gb @ 667mhz DDR2 RAM
128mb GeForce 8800M GT
160gb HDD
all of 2.5 kg, 1 inch thin AND 6 hours of battery life.

and he's got his hands on a iMac because his sony is aging!

i heart apple, but of course i heart jem more

the boyfriend

there always come a point in time when the boyfriend will reassess and reevaluate himself. its probably something everyone does at some point in their life, especially when it comes to planning and what the boyfriend can give. and at this point of time, the boyfriend might feel somewhat inadequate when he realizes that what he can give is far below what the other wants.

definitely, these are indeed just all plans and things are all still far far away (c.f. shrek). but a chopard or a jaeger lecoultre is really quite far away from a tag heuer, which incidentally is still quite far away from casio.

of cos all these are just words and plans, and nothing may come to materialize, but the boyfriend would still be reevaluating himself. the boyfriend must be able to hold his own ground and be the best that he can be, if the best is only a tag heuer.

because the boyfriend knows that he is loved for being the boyfriend, and not for the chopard, jaeger lecoultre or tag heuer, or even just a casio.

crap

i'm feeling very lousy, feeling very crappy

quote of the day 2

"whatever you do, that's your problem, don't drag me down with you"

the fallacies of a supposed infallible government; RETURN ME MY $6.2 MILLION

i think we all know how i feel about our government. we should give credit where it is due, but when there are mistakes, it should be out in the open for public scrutiny, no one is immune. we are all human, and we are all fallible. what you are going to read below, is the absolute truth.

According to the Auditor General Office (AGO), the recent audit of our statutory board and 12 ministries revealed a loss of $6.2 MILLION of public monies, that is still unaccounted for.

This does not take into account the outstanding sum under the Ministry of Health: $136.2 MILLION for Phase III of the National University Hospital development project has still not been recovered despite having been completed in 1996.

Nor does it include the Ministry of Home Affairs which charged rental far below the market rate, forgoing $2.38 MILLION that should have gone into state coffers.

you can read the full report here:

part 1
part 2
part 3
part 4

Trying to say an opinion without getting my ass sued off is going to be quite a challenge. Can i get sued for saying that? Probably not. Hopefully not.

From the above reports, and the fact that EDB underwent its FIRST audit in FORTY SIX years (yes you read right), it leaves much more questions than anything the government can throw up. How can something like that happen in Singapore? When our ministers and supposed to be the best in the world (that's why we are paying them about 3 - 6 peanuts remember? - one peanut cost $600,000).

Naturally the STATE times did not carry this report. The state times reported on the Parliamentary debate on the Public Accounts Committee set to examine this AGO report. Why the state times did not get hold on the actual AGO report is still a question that no one can yet answer, and of course we must not speculate!

Of course this report is, as the AGO report said "not intended to reveal all errors and irregularities." This leaves the Singaporean wondering if there are any more errors? Aren't our ministers suppose to catch any inefficiency, or for that very matter, accounting problems? why is this the FIRST time EDB is undergoing audits in FORTY SIX BLOODY years. Isn't the government suppose to be accountable to the public? Aren't the government, the government for the people? WHY ARE SINGAPOREANS SO PASSIVE as to accept that the government is always right?

They are human and they will make mistakes. Are we still going to treat them like super-heroes in white, now that we know that $6.2 MILLION is MISSING and HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS of dollars are forfeited or not collected back into the state coffers.

Isn't it time we have proper checks and balances in the government, like more opposition party who would demand absolute transparency, or a press that would investigate and hold the government accountable. or at the very least PUBLISH SOME GOD-DAMN NEWS THAT MATTER!!!!!!

LIKE HOW HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF MY FUCKING TAX MONIES IS GONE THANKS TO OUR GOOD GOVERNANCE.

read the online citizen for a change.

happy

only you can make me smile like a silly nut! and make me so happier, that i can only wonder how much happier i can be, but you surprise me each and everything.

=)

of regrets and a tuition kid

i really hate phone calls after 11pm (or so) and before i wake up. actually in the first hour of my waking up, i do not quite enjoy my phone ringing as well. understandably, this is compounded by the fact that my handphone has a really loud ring tone. i don't quite like phone calls at such time, because these times are rather private to me. after 11pm its essentially my time, and time with jem, and of course sleep is sleep, and right when i wake up i just want some private time to do my morning routine.

so horror of horror when today at 738 am, right when i woke up, i received a phone call from my tuition kid's mom. now we all know how i feel about her, and her absolute refusal to pay a poor student on time. apparently her son asked why does he need tuition even in the holidays, and she is concerned because she wants him to do well, and not later on in life regret that he did not have enough tuition.

seriously.

who would ever later on in their life regret that they do not have enough tuition? there are many things to regret, like not studying hard enough, or not putting in that extra effort. but not having enough tuition? that's quite new. so now aside from being their tutor in english math and science. i have to teach chinese, help out with art, burn CD for the mother and now the resident family therapist/counsellor. i'm not even going to tell you how pathetically i am paid.

speaking about regrets, something i've read on mr wang really made me think. he was talking about his career as a lawyer then and his kids. he quit his job as a lawyer despite liking what he does because of his children. he said:

"Then my first child was born. Six months later, I quit the job. Mrs Wang quit private practice too. The kind of work/family balance we wanted was not going to happen, in a law firm environment.

I had absolutely no regrets. If I thought only in terms of the cost to my career, I would have had regrets. But the wiser thing to do was to consider life as a total package. I looked at my life as a whole, and the correct decision became quite clear to me. So I left private practice without hesitation, quite happily, and much to the dismay of my then-bosses. And I haven't looked back."

indeed many times in life, almost everything is an either-or situation, an opportunity cost. if we do something we have to forfeit something. and sometimes there are regrets. but there are certain things we never regret. nobody, 20 years down in their career would regret putting aside their career for their family. in the bigger picture, it does not matter how much we've put into a career, because there's no end to that, but time never turns back. time lost with your children/family/loved ones is forever lost. one can go about with their career thinking that when everything is settled and their career has taken off then they can spend time with their family, but they never do.

because the higher one gets in their career, the busier they get. and the day they want to spend with their loved ones may never come to materialize. maybe the kids grew up, maybe family members passed away, or maybe their loved ones are just too old to partake in all the activities that they've always wanted.

have no regrets my friend. always think about what is most important to you. if money is most important, more important than your children/family/loved ones, then you know what you must do. but remember, certain things will always be around, certain things will never be.

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Sil: thanks for your comment, its been noted and i will address it in the next posting =) btw, do you want to introduce yourself?

A case for fertilization techniques

I read with interest the recent events of a father raping his daughters, a teenage monster who molest and rape his victims; this even brings to mind the old case of Took Ah Hao and his victim Huang Na.

It is with great shock and disgust that I realized what our society has degenerated to, and in light of the recent debate on decriminalizing homosexuality, I feel that not only should we not decriminalize gay sex, we must also ban all forms of sex.

As we can see from all the above events, heterosexual sex is hedonistic and they even violate the modesty of the girls. Because of the want for sex, the criminals above resort to actions such as molest and even rape to satisfy their needs.

To put an end to all this moral problems, and to prevent the society from degenerating into one with no values other than to satisfy our lust, we must ban all forms of sex, putting it in line with penal code 377, where we give life imprisonment to anybody who wants to have sex, heterosexual or homosexual.

Scientific advancement have led to many successful fertilization technique, as such there is no excuse for having sex for procreation purposes, besides many people do not indulge in sexual activities for procreation purposes.

Singapore is conservative country and if we continue to allow heterosexual couples to have sex, I fear what might become of our society, what comes next after raping your own daughters? If we do not ban all forms of sexual activities, the society may be too dangerous for the next generation

Homosexuality - why it should bother you

The most widely talked about topic in the recent weeks is something close to heart indeed. After Minister Mentor Lee made a statement that could be interpreted as either about removing laws that discriminate homosexuality or maintain status quo and not enforcing the current laws, the english speaking community went into a fury. Some are for equality for all, others like Jonathan, Agnes of course who can forget Yvonne Lee from NUS Law school (who is currently going through a tough period from a huge backlash) and others decided that homosexuals are less than human and they should be banished, if not continued to be illegal or a 'sub'-culture.

Now the most interesting thing is that when you look at both sides of the issues, there are far bigger implications and many logical fallacies. Why should we continue incriminating homosexuals? Well because the bible says so. Period. (for an in-depth read on homosexuality and christianity, this is a speech by Rev Dr Yap Kim Hao. I am no expert in Christianity, so I'll let the expert do the talking - please read that nette)

I wrote once about why religion should never be mixed into law. Some may argue that law came from religion, but i beg to differ. The premises of law came not only from religion, but along the way many other thinkers and philosophers and movements throughout history have shaped law. Obviously laws that came before the bible must have came from somewhere no? So to argue that law as we know of today descended from biblical interpretation, is as best being ethnocentric.

Religion should be removed from law simply because all religions are equal, why should we incriminate what one religion feels that is wrong onto others whom have no opinion. Simply stated, our Muslim brothers do not consume pork, should we then ban all pork? Hence the key word we are looking at is secularism, whereby policies and initiatives are created without religious biases.

After removing religion from the debate of homosexuality, we then come down to 2 other arguments, the medical argument, and the family values and society argument. Now proponents of the medical arguments are, ironically all christians! They claim that the American Psychological Association (APA) removed homosexuality as a disease back in the 70's due to pressure from the gay right movement. What they did not tell you is that later on in 1994, long after the gay rights movement, APA stood up and reasserted themselves that homosexuality is not a mental disease and they did not removed it due to pressure from gay groups.

The other medical argument would of course be the nature and nurture argument. The problem with this is that people who cite research do not know the basic premise of research, the double negative nature of research. As an example, if a group of scientist embark on a research to show the nature/biological causes of homosexuality, and they do not find support, it DOES NOT mean that therefore it proves the nurture argument. it simply means that in their sample population, they have not enough evidence to prove nature. period. that is all there is to it.

Furthermore holding a nature OR nurture view is highly simplistic. Research will show you that gender, intelligence, race are all nurture AND nature. Its a case of both because both are so highly intertwined that they cannot be separated, for every scientific research done on one, we can find another scientific research that shows the other, and that is the spirit of academia, to arrive at an eventual reasonable range of explanation.

Proponents of the medical argument will also often cite Dr Spritzer's research on reparative therapy proving that gay men can turn straight. Well I'll have you know that the very people who started this therapy ended up breaking away from the church after they were caught in gay bars and were publicized in the media as one big hypocrisy. Moving on the Dr Spritzer's research, his research was not to show that reparative therapy works on homosexual. Rather he gathered a group of homosexual who went through therapy (they were volunteers by the way) and then assessed them. Now this is a group motivated for change, 97% of them are of christian background, and 93% of them said that religion were extremely important to them. Now the study he did showed that TWO-THIRDS (63%) of this motivated group still had feelings towards the same gender. This figure is higher amongst gay men (at 86%). Even Dr Spritzer himself came up and expressed his disappointment at anti-gay religious groups misquoting his studies. One also must remember that Dr Spritzer himself was one of the instrumental figure who help in the declassification of homosexuality as a mental illness

Still on the case of medical arguments, recently Dr Alan Chin Yew Liang (i think that's his name) claimed that homosexuality is a disease because being homosexual shortens life-span, and by his definition of a disease, that its a condition that shortens life-span. Well it must then surprise all of us than being male is a disease, and being left handed is a disease, and being members of different race is a disease then. As we all know, males have shorter life expectancy than females, left-handed people live shorter than right handed people, members of different countries and race have different life expectancies. Furthermore, Dr Chin justified his conclusion by using a report that shows than being homosexual shortens life-span because of the high prevalence of HIV in this population. For my unbiased reader, it must be then obvious that it is HIV that is the disease that shortens the life-span and not homosexual. Going by Dr Chin's logic, heterosexual men whom visits prostitutes and have unprotected sex must then be a disease, since they are by far, the population with the highest prevalence of HIV.

Moving on from medical to family and society arguments. A very fascinating thing to note is that very definition of both ideas. It appears that for those anti-gay people, they assume that a family must comprise of a father, mother and children. And that if there were gay people around who are minding their own business and having sex with their own partners, somehow their family unit will fall apart. I am not quite following their logic, are you? What about single parent families then? What about unwed mothers then? How will their family fall apart? Definitions for family do not take into considerations culture as well, in many parts of the world, fathers and mothers do not look after their children, it is other members who do so; also what about families with adopted children? So what exactly is a family? Psychologist have seek to define family as a group of people who live together have established relationship and care for each other. You might also be interested to show that studies done, such as that by Tasker and Golombok (1997) shows that an overwhelming majority of children growing up in gay families have a heterosexual orientation.

How does families then fall apart? How does society fall apart?

The biggest misunderstanding is that society is an entity, that it exist as something concrete and thus can be destroyed. That is not the case, society exist because humans exists and there are interactions with one another. Because society always exist, because it is not an entity, it cannot be destroyed. For all those who say that if everyone is homosexual, there would be no society, here's Dr John Corvino's reply "with all due respect, if the whole world becomes roman catholic priest, there will be no society too". The case in point is that either society exist, or, when humans eventually become extinct, it does not exist. There's is no destroying of a society.

So why should it bother each and everyone of us? The very idea of tolerance, acceptance and love. At no point should we discriminate anyone because they are different. We have seen many of such instances in the past and even today. African Americans were overtly and very much discriminated against in the past, today such discrimination may not exist overtly, but implicit attitudes test measured still shows some form of discrimination. Gender discrimination was also something that existed and continue to exist, women were not able to attend institutes of higher educations, some are not even allowed to work in other countries. Even in home ground, despite what we would like to believe, discrimination against other races can be observed, such as sitting beside members of the same race when there are seats available besides members of different races as well.

Why should we fear people who are different?

Even if we can't change the fact that there will always be some form of discrimination, should we then inscribe in law that some groups are less equal than others and hence they should be discriminated. Some people might argue that majority of the population is not ready, but if we look closer, all major shifts in mindset happens at a time where 'majority of the people are not ready'. During the civil rights movement for the blacks, majority of the Southerners were not ready. I assure you that many men today still don't think women should have equal rights, but then should we use this and justify that women therefore should not have equal rights.

Furthermore, homosexuals in Singapore are not even asking for additional rights, not to be treated as special, but to be treated as human. That we have a right to love, and a right to express our love. Why should it be that an expression of love is as guilty as culpable homicide not amounting to murder? Why can't gay men love? There is absolutely no reason to deny anyone of a basic fundamental human rights of love and expression of love.

For anyone who wants to extend this to bestiality, pedophilia, necrophilia, or even screwing a tree, think again. The point here is that this is 2 consenting adults who can make their own choice, they are not forced. I don't really know how an animal, dead people or a tree can give their consent, please do enlighten me. As for pedophiles, we are not talking in the same league, because the law and the medical world assumes that children cannot make choices, hence everything a child does requires parental consent. This is also why children are considered juvenile and trial differently from logically reasoning adults.

It boils down to one thing, homosexuals are human, if we continue to discriminate against them, because anti-gay religious people dictates so, then where do we stop? who are we going to attack next? Are we going to discriminate against people who do not have the same religious inclination? Are we going to use an interpretation of a religious text and come up with new laws (this brings to mind the prohibition of alcohol in the US in the 70s). Homosexuals have been having sex since and will continue to have sex; homosexuals have loved each other and will continue to do so. Why should we then, decide that the lives of others are less worthy than ours, and deny them of their rights?

If we want to continue to incriminate them? What is next? Sexuality cleansing? Systematically murder all homosexuals?

What is next? Love for all? Compassion for all? Or a situation as Yvonne Lee fondly puts it, equality for all, but all means some.

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its been awhile

its been awhile since i've blogged, well what have i been up to? plenty! its the holidays but *drum roll* i am still studying and *more drum rolls please* i'm also working, freelance plus giving tuition. so that makes me busy. but the super busy week's over, and now its a short rest period, because next week i've got my presentationS, yeah that's plural for you. and then i've got 2 weeks break before my exam and then, and then.............. *one last drum roll* I AM OFF TO MELBOURNE to find you-know-who.

people whom are close to me would probably have heard me gripe about this, but for those who haven't, i have issues with people who don't pay up. and i have issues asking them to pay me! i suppose this is in part of perhaps a chinese culture. but then this leads to the question, what exactly is the chinese culture, or the 'asian value' argument put forth, and of course the favourite argument' of our ministers.

all chinese love money right? after all, 吃喝嫖赌 are the essence of what makes us chinese no? we want money, more money. everything we do is about money. so why do i feel difficult in opening my mouth to ask for what i rightfully deserve? i rendered my services, and i don't get paid on time, EVERY SINGLE TIME, because of . i mean how cash strapped can a family be, when they can afford a CAR, a MAID, DOUBLE WORKING PARENTS, and that they even want to hire bloody expensive tutors, but they can't afford to pay a poor student. bullocks i say.

honestly, i have many many things to say, especially recently there's been much debate and talk about issues close to heart, homosexuality, ministerial pay raise, possible bus fare hike (AGAIN!, yes i know, after posting RECORD PROFIT AGAIN!), GST hikes and all, but again i would say that i need time to sit down and write a proper entry, i've got work to do now, and i suppose that's the one thing our government tries to achieve, work all of us to death, such that we don't have the time to ever bother with these. after we all want money don't we?

what else in life is there that is more attractive than money? you tell me!

S.H.E - 触电

风走在我们前面
甩裙摆画着圆圈
花美得兴高采烈
那香味有点阴险
你在我旁边的旁边
但影子却肩碰肩
偷看一眼
你的唇边
是不是也有笑意明显
明明是昨天的事情
怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题
我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里
但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电
就够我快乐熔化
我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电
一直甜蜜触电
直到爆炸
像一年四个季节
都被你变成夏天
我才会在你面前
总是被晒红了脸
像一百万个秋千
在我心里面叛变
被你指尖
碰到指尖
我瞬间就被荡到天边

Rain

i have always loved rainy days. when i was a little kid, i remember there was this really huge storm that turned the whole sky grey; i couldn't even see the trees in front of my house. but in the deep grey outdoors, there was this silhouette of a lone big tree. the picture was so beautiful. so sad, poignant yet of an unspoken beauty. Loneliness. creeping all over the tree. Solitude. somewhat a reflection of life. more often than not, we are with and by ourselves, we have to learn and stand up against the storm. in the end, its only you.

the tree survived that torrential downpour. but i saw no rainbow. the sky however, cleared up. rainbow doesn't always appear after a storm, but the storm always clears up eventually. even now, watching the raindrops fall from the sky still evokes many feelings. 伤感, because grey is a sad colour. lifeless. i have this romanticised notion of rain, standing by the big window watching the rain fall drop by drop, in the warm embrace of the one i love, listening to the slow and gentle music, saying "i love you" with the soul of my eyes. Silent.

30/01/02

i just want to be happy

by Jeff Thomas

because

you really love some so much. every single action, every single word hurts many times more.

looks out agnes chua

there's a look that never fails to amuse CS students. the looks on the engineers face before their exams. its like one gigantic ball of stress. but come tomorrow morning, i'll be sporting that i'm-really-stress look. its so fashionable.

who is agnes you ask? she's this bitch on straits time forum page, after my exam tomorrow, i am writing an in-depth reply to her absolutely factually incorrect forum article.

i'll bitch slap till she sports my second favourite look. the i'm-the-loser-bitch look! WOHOOOOOOOO


19 more hours.

no life

guess what i was doing today?!?!?! the same that i do everyday, try and take over the world pinky!.... no not really, i've been studying in school, on a sunday! how depressing huh? and what is the worse thing, its statistics. statistics is not really that bad. really. i just HATE and abhor the manual calculating. its not like its damn easy lor. seriously, its like the moment i have one decimal wrong, my whole answer is wrong.

but of course i will persevere and pull through! after tomorrow, i will be free!!!! until thursday that is. tuition starts, and monday school reopens for me, who takes special semester just so i can clear modules for my double major. i have no life!!!

sigh.....

you, 你

Jeff Thomas 总是以漫画说出我心中的话

quote of today!

"make something idiot-proof, and they will build you a better idiot!"

edit: tag changed from humor to humour as per jiaz request. she kinda detest american spelling. but i am more with the americans on thru. seriously whats with through, repeat after me, rough... th-rough...

MUST WATCH

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=6578225891784504536

this is sylvia lim in parliament. i can't seem to use google video to post it here, so click on the link and watch her debate on the pay rise, and watch as she dissects ministers argument to bits!

i can't really say much because i've got an exam to study for, and scholarship to apply for. but i wondered who thought of a pay rise? and makes me also wonder about our GST hike. and many many other things. but oh well

on another note, much love to ayline and zeeq for their comforting notes. yeah the paper is over! and many more to go. thanks for video ayline, i've watched it before, but it still made me smile =)

cheers

i need a shoulder

i need a shoulder. someone, anyone.

tough and trying

its been tough and trying. i didn't sleep a wink because the night before i had a panic attack - that was the most frightening experience of my life - and i just woke up and started screaming at the top of my lungs. last night, i was too afraid to fall asleep. and so many times, i just broke down, because i've got a paper today.

FUCK

i couldn't sleep, really. i can't even control my tears. its sooo tough, but hang on i must. *wipes tears* need to start my day, final revisions and go to school for paper

as my friend said "when the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping!' after the exams, i am buying myself a lanvin ketucky tote that cost $2000. nahz, i am not that rich, buying myself an EDC tote!

i love myself, do you love me?????

where? 哪里？

世界这么的大，我却那么的小。

a+b=c
1+2=3
x+y=z

这么多的方程式，我又在谁的方程式里呢？在方程式的哪里？

Eddie Izzard

you guys HAVE to watch him, he is the FUNNIEST standup comedian i've seen. much better than russell and margaret. HILARIOUS

tired, 有一点累

读了一整天的书了，好累哦！加油！我的宝贝也在忙啊。

change, 改变

刚刚在课本读到一为女生很感人的告白。其实也不能算是告白，比较是她的感想吧。

"I see a problem and i say, 'How can I make a difference?'.... I can't take on world, even though I can try to... I'm moving forward but I want to make sure I'm bringing people with me"

哇！我也是这样想。来我们一起改变世界吧。

＃＃＃＃＃＃
今天好热哦！刚刚在车站等了半小时才等到179。都快疯了！快溶化了。

冷

好冷喔。好冷。独自的在这发抖。

为什么不在读书呢？我也不知道。大概是太冷了吧。

Emotional pain is real, says scientists

full story here http://www.guardian.co.uk/international/story/0,3604,1059990,00.html

"The pain of rejection is more than mere metaphor. A team of scientists have found that to the brain, a social snub is just like stubbing a toe.

Brain scans carried out on volunteers showed that when they suffered a social snub, the brain's "pain centre" went into overdrive. The finding suggests that any emotional stress, such as the demise of a relationship or the loss of a loved one, might be far more closely linked to real pain than previously thought."

click on the link to read more

2 down, 4 to go

yeah, that's right, 2 down and 4 more to go. 4 more highly theoretical papers that require big brains and big application skills. haha the first 2 papers were alright i must say. although my hands were practically paralyzed from writing like 12 pages of essays.

project's done too, and freelance work was done through the night till 5am this morning! and what made me take so long to do it? ask alexis. STUPID MICROSOFT POWERPOINT. oh my god. i can't even begin to tell you how ugly powerpoint is and counter-intuitive. i spent 1 hour trying to change font size, when they keep changing it back!

the whole world should use mac!

then guess what, there was a damn BIG cockroach that flew into my room. i am mortally terrified of them and they love to find me. gosh, i was soooooo stressed out over powerpoint and then a cockroach, i went out to my living room and started crying. thank god daddy caught it.

then guess what's next, there was a tiny lizard that dropped onto my hand. i am alright with lizards, just quite a shock that's all. still getting the creeps with the roach though. i become a full blown woman i tell you!

spent a long long time talking to baby! hahahaha, conversation's so silly but its the small talk that really keeps it going =)

*sprinkles luck* on all those who needs it for exams, not that we really need it huh? we're like oh-so-smart!

absoultely cute, 超可爱

你不觉得这些漫画超级可爱吗？它们都是这位可爱的 Jeff Thomas 的作品。

都是我想对你说的话。

you don't say, google

and what is so interesting about the picture? well someone wanted to drive from New York to Paris, so click on the picture and look at #23, driving instructions 23....

cheers!

its tomorrow

in just a little over 13 hours, i will be facing my first exam paper - Social Psychology! *jitters* but what to do, its going to be a long and arduous exam journey, with 6 papers spread over 2 weeks.

after my exams, i get a week break and special semester starts (who ask me so act smart go and take double major), for 3 weeks, then a 2 week break, then its exam day. then then then..... i fly to melbourne (to see you know who)

here's to all those mugging away with me, and to all those who think about mugging!

cheers for the A's and the A-'s and maybe one B+???????? please...............................