this is going to be a bit mushy but bear with it ok? for those who don't wanna read, just you know click on any of my links, that includes the ipod mini, i would love to receive it in metallic blue, thank you all =)
it was a rather tough week, but we survived it. and things are so sweet now i don't think anything can begin to describe how happy i am now. for all those who are feeling disillusioned and down, don't worry, everything can be resolved. it takes time and a lot of thinking to find out what is the root of any problem, and openly and honestly talk about it. very importantly, is to talk about things that matter, what can be done and needs to be done. and finally, after all that talking, remember to stop talking and start doing.
dear i am glad we got all those things aside. brighter days ahead!
May 27, 2004
May 23, 2004
May 13, 2004
May 6, 2004
haha, le fran?ais de poteau, ce ne pourrait pas ?tre pr?cis mais
ours avec lui.
soupir parfois que je me demande sait-il je me sens ? je veux dire je
sais qu'il m'aime tout ? fait un bit juste, les choses qu'il , ses
actions, mais il ne puisse pas obtenir des somethings parfois. je sais
que je suis un bit ?go?ste parfois, mais l'amour est ?go?ste,
droit ? par exemple, il le redoute vraiment quand je vais ? son
endroit ; il n'y aurait aucun probl?me quand son en retard ? la nuit
et ? personne autour, mais si quelqu'un est autour, il mourrait
plut?t que pour m'apporter ? son endroit. j'essaye de comprendre
est-ce que mais je ne le re?ois pas ce qui est erron? avec ?tre vu
avec moi ? ainsi ce qui est les parents suspecteraient. il pense trop
; 'l'extr?mit? mindset de monde '.
parfois je me demande s'il m'apporte la maison seulement pour la
fabrication d'amour. j'appr?cie le sexe avec lui certainement, l?
tellement se sent et ?motion, mais il n'y a pas d?sormais non apr?s
entretien de sexe. j'ai appris qu'il est fatigu?, mais de fa?on ou
d'autre je ne tiens toujours pas une priorit?. je lui ai parl? ?
son sujet que je me sens que beaucoup d'issues est en raison de
priorit?. j'ai appris que je peux exiger parfois, mais dans toute
l'honn?tet?, je ne vois pas ce qui est tellement mal au sujet de ma
demande s?rieusement.
d'o? est-ce que tout ceci ranting est venu ? nous allons ? la place
de notre ami au sleepover ce soir de sorte qu'il soit plus commode
d'attraper notre vol demain. ainsi j'ai pens? ? l'arr?t par son
endroit et l'aide ? faire du dernier emballage minutieux avant que
nous rencontrions notre ami mais il a mis? un rond entier juste pour
dire qu'il ne me veut pas vraiment autour de la maison, cela qu'il
vaudrait mieux d'attendre le stanley en bas de son endroit, de sorte
que sa famille n'ait pas besoin de me voir du tout.
je sais pourquoi mais je ne vois pas pourquoi non cher, j'aime trop,
que je pense trop parfois soupir
ours avec lui.
soupir parfois que je me demande sait-il je me sens ? je veux dire je
sais qu'il m'aime tout ? fait un bit juste, les choses qu'il , ses
actions, mais il ne puisse pas obtenir des somethings parfois. je sais
que je suis un bit ?go?ste parfois, mais l'amour est ?go?ste,
droit ? par exemple, il le redoute vraiment quand je vais ? son
endroit ; il n'y aurait aucun probl?me quand son en retard ? la nuit
et ? personne autour, mais si quelqu'un est autour, il mourrait
plut?t que pour m'apporter ? son endroit. j'essaye de comprendre
est-ce que mais je ne le re?ois pas ce qui est erron? avec ?tre vu
avec moi ? ainsi ce qui est les parents suspecteraient. il pense trop
; 'l'extr?mit? mindset de monde '.
parfois je me demande s'il m'apporte la maison seulement pour la
fabrication d'amour. j'appr?cie le sexe avec lui certainement, l?
tellement se sent et ?motion, mais il n'y a pas d?sormais non apr?s
entretien de sexe. j'ai appris qu'il est fatigu?, mais de fa?on ou
d'autre je ne tiens toujours pas une priorit?. je lui ai parl? ?
son sujet que je me sens que beaucoup d'issues est en raison de
priorit?. j'ai appris que je peux exiger parfois, mais dans toute
l'honn?tet?, je ne vois pas ce qui est tellement mal au sujet de ma
demande s?rieusement.
d'o? est-ce que tout ceci ranting est venu ? nous allons ? la place
de notre ami au sleepover ce soir de sorte qu'il soit plus commode
d'attraper notre vol demain. ainsi j'ai pens? ? l'arr?t par son
endroit et l'aide ? faire du dernier emballage minutieux avant que
nous rencontrions notre ami mais il a mis? un rond entier juste pour
dire qu'il ne me veut pas vraiment autour de la maison, cela qu'il
vaudrait mieux d'attendre le stanley en bas de son endroit, de sorte
que sa famille n'ait pas besoin de me voir du tout.
je sais pourquoi mais je ne vois pas pourquoi non cher, j'aime trop,
que je pense trop parfois soupir
May 4, 2004
go read this taken from the straits times. its rather interesting
Just because there is no major crisis such as adultery or abuse doesn't mean that a relationship is a good one.
Very often, it is what my friend calls the 'stealth problems' that end up choking love.
'It's not like a heart attack that gets your attention right away, but a cancer that eats away at your body without you realising.
'That's where the danger lies, because you will brush aside the little aches and pains until it's too late, like when you get married, and things become unbearable with no way out.'
snippets of the article.
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just came back from a little nights out with him. went for an incredible food binging session, ate "ba chor mee", fried oysters, satay, and bbq chicken wing. yes between the 2 of us. hahaha, i am going to grow fat because of him.
the article above really sums up one i feel is the building block of a successful relationship, or as damien puts it, the denominator : communication. when there is any small problem, it cannot be brushed aside, nor swept under the carpet, because one day, it will find its way back during a major argument. one party will bring up something from the past. communication i feel is the most important; even though it might be uneasy or even tense up the relationship at that point in time, talking it out and discussing it openly and honestly will make both party see another view point and help to meet at a centre point. i admit that me and him are not exactly the best couple, we have communication problems now and then; but only because we are afraid what we say will hurt each other. and we are trying to move out of that mindset to that of saying what we feel using the correct words because we are trying every day to make it work.
it was a long ride home, and many things are on my mind. and i realised so many things that i didn't see in the past that some people warned me of. thanks guys, and i know this one is different, i am sure you all can see it and feel it too =) lets face it, gay relationships are difficult, but i am not one that quits especially in the fields of love, i am sure most you know that by now. even if it takes all of me, i will make it last.
Just because there is no major crisis such as adultery or abuse doesn't mean that a relationship is a good one.
Very often, it is what my friend calls the 'stealth problems' that end up choking love.
'It's not like a heart attack that gets your attention right away, but a cancer that eats away at your body without you realising.
'That's where the danger lies, because you will brush aside the little aches and pains until it's too late, like when you get married, and things become unbearable with no way out.'
snippets of the article.
----------
just came back from a little nights out with him. went for an incredible food binging session, ate "ba chor mee", fried oysters, satay, and bbq chicken wing. yes between the 2 of us. hahaha, i am going to grow fat because of him.
the article above really sums up one i feel is the building block of a successful relationship, or as damien puts it, the denominator : communication. when there is any small problem, it cannot be brushed aside, nor swept under the carpet, because one day, it will find its way back during a major argument. one party will bring up something from the past. communication i feel is the most important; even though it might be uneasy or even tense up the relationship at that point in time, talking it out and discussing it openly and honestly will make both party see another view point and help to meet at a centre point. i admit that me and him are not exactly the best couple, we have communication problems now and then; but only because we are afraid what we say will hurt each other. and we are trying to move out of that mindset to that of saying what we feel using the correct words because we are trying every day to make it work.
it was a long ride home, and many things are on my mind. and i realised so many things that i didn't see in the past that some people warned me of. thanks guys, and i know this one is different, i am sure you all can see it and feel it too =) lets face it, gay relationships are difficult, but i am not one that quits especially in the fields of love, i am sure most you know that by now. even if it takes all of me, i will make it last.
May 2, 2004
had a haircut and a great bitching session with my stylist. he was recounting to me all his escapades when he was in national service, how they made out in the bunk, the stores, the bathroom, with driver and i was like totally AMAZED. now where were all the cute guys when i was duty (oops) anyway it is really fun to have a gay stylist. he makes sure i look my best! haha. anyway then there was this shampoo girl who is REALLY DAMN VERY GOOD. she not only shampoos, but she massages my neck, my temples, providing just the right amount of pressure and all. i was smiling happily (i was quite embarrassed by my smiles actually). really a straight guy would have came on the spot. i am serious. she knows all the pressure points on the head and the neck. and she took the longest time to shampoo and till now i wished it didn't stop.
haha now i know how dear feels when he gets massaged =p
back to camp. boring
haha now i know how dear feels when he gets massaged =p
back to camp. boring
just came back from his place, had such a great time =)
anyway we caught 50 first dates, it was a good show, very very romantic, hilarious and your typical adam sandler show. definitely worth catching for a good 90min of laughter and walk out feeling in the mood for lurrveee. hahaha.
driving test in 2 weeks time. hope i pass first time. and oh yar, colin has joined the tp network. he'll be putting his site up soon, so wait up for some interesting stuff.
anyway we caught 50 first dates, it was a good show, very very romantic, hilarious and your typical adam sandler show. definitely worth catching for a good 90min of laughter and walk out feeling in the mood for lurrveee. hahaha.
driving test in 2 weeks time. hope i pass first time. and oh yar, colin has joined the tp network. he'll be putting his site up soon, so wait up for some interesting stuff.
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