yes, i have disappeared for a long time, not taking a hiatus actually, just that i was so busy preparing for my cca and all that i am left with no time to type. and the other thing is that whenever i do actually sit down and type, either blogger or the comp will fail on me, so it seems like fate that i don't get to blog. so many things have happened, and so much more that i can't say it over here. but i am really happy, and really contented. feeling really free, but at the same time a sense of loss. something that is so good, is going to end. i will miss walking out in the warmth sun, listening to my MD and feeling the surroundings.

life and relationships are always so complex. and yes i am not particularly happy about my current position. someone popped me the question. oh well, i didn't agree quite obviously. wonders what is wrong. but its oki, life will work things out, it usually does. anyhow its better to focus on my studies for now. and anyway i am in deep shit...

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lets just see, sbs profit (note that this is the amount they earn after they pay off all wages, dividend, etc) they are earning increasing from 3.9 billion to about 4.6 billion, dipping only to 4.2 billion last year due to some investment, smrt however has earned about 10 billion in the year 2000, and so they claim that operating cost is increasing after they have switched to energy saving air-con that has saved them 1.2 million in operating cost. is there something i am not getting here? economy recession -> lower wages -> retrenchment-> increase in prices? okie so the increase is only 3c to 5c. not a lot right, let just say that this amounts to an increase of about $8-$12 dollars in theory per person per month. and guess what the chairman of LTA or sbs or SMRT whatever said. well the consumers should expect a price revision every july. (price revision = price increase) fuck him. ask him to try to take his sbs bus and check out the freaking leg space and let him get irritated to no end by his tv-mobile. so smart, they add tv-mobile to one of the services, and say operating cost increased. DAMN everybody DON'T really want tv-mobile, so take the damn thing off and reduce your operating cost.

do you know that singapore is amongst the few country in the entire world that makes profit, and surprise surprise, we are proud commuters of one of the world's most expensive public transport. lets see, in japan, buses come at about 50-60 yen, train services is about 100+yen servicing tokyo. perth has 3 free train station, and from city to the other end, its about 70cents. WOW.. one station is singapore is 80cents. ok, the tube and the subway is not that expensive either. so maybe we have cheaper cabs.

you just can't freaking raise the price every year. i mean does anybody remember the days when one end to the other end is 1.20 cents. boon lay to pasir ris. and buses still comes in 30cents. not a lot what, 10c, 20c a year.. look how much issit now. 1.85cents. inflation, yesh, but comparing profit! i mean profit, if they are earning so much more than the 2.6 or isit 3.6 percent inflation.. 10 fucking billion dollars!!!!!!!!! now i am missing something. oh yeah, be prepared when u start working, cos average person spend about $100-$150 dollars on public transport, no i am not talking about cabs, just buses and/or trains. and price hike every july..

hahah i just typed some stuff and i accidentally closed the window again. was just saying that i am getting so sick of my layout and will be changing it when school reopens and i am more free. which is kinda ironic cos pple usually have more free time during the hols, but i spent my whole hols at my cca, and that my cca is gonna end in a week plus... real sad, will miss all the fun, and this guy from my course and this junior.. we kinda got really chummy for a good while, hope to keep in touch though.






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well well. great day till something happened, something along the lines of I LOST MY BLOODY WALLET ALONG WITH MY STUFFS!. but something else happened. see i was kinda like trying to find my wallet in the cinema, then there was this kinda good looking guy looking for something too, and i was just wondering whether i should use the good old pick-up line "looking for something too?" and to my suprise, that guy asked me.. and we ended up chatting, but due to certain prescence, we couldn't exchange numbers.. dammit.. but anyway.. tiring day today and the rest of the week and i swear one of my teachers/instructor is gonna skin me soon (X-files anybody?)

"hey, hey baby, i wanna know, if you be my girl"

there's just so much book that i have to get.. and i so need to settle my love life, ok, maybe fill up my lack of love life... i want you! not really, but i honestly do feel something. not my ex.. i just msged my ex, but yeah, its gonna be friends thats it. at max, wham bam thankyou mam. oki sick!.. sigh..i needa talk to so many pple. when my cca ends, i promise i would study with YOU (mark) as much as possible, call those friends and get a life. in the mean time, i still like you, but i guess i should stop ranting about it and dream about it instead

i am exclaiming out loud now that i have the hugest crush on WON BIN and it is not stopping. me and my sis have been going crazy over this guy for the past week, and argh.... this time its me and my sis drooling at the same time over the comp. sheesh!. and i am going to get myself that wonbin poster i saw, the really big one to paste on my wall.

actually i am not in a good mood, but i am not gonna say why. no point. i swear it that s**t is going on any longer, i am going to split into 2.

Their idea of peace on earth is to inflict their psychoses on others.

i don't know what to do anymore.. and it is not like you don't know, i told u way before that. and argh!

i am back, been away for the past few days. had some pretty enriching experience. but mostly disturbing. my ex called. for no rime of reason. actually a rather lame excuse to ask me about someone whom i obviously know nuts about and then claiming that this other person had been calling him quite often; bad start if u ask me. it was kinda inconvienient to talk, so i said i would call back when i could. and i did not. felt very wierd. it has been so long, no communications, nothing. he decided to aviod me and subsequently, i decided i should get over him, and i pretty much did. i am feeling rather upset by the fact that our relationship does not bother me anymore. but anyhow, i don't care and i don't know what i should do. its just that. it has been so long, so much hurt, so much pain, so much tears...but i should be more concerned about what is going on now. will not elababorate. in case it gets too obvious about who i happen to be still liking.

i don't know how to chat properly! its not that i lack inter-personal skill/social skill. its that i can't talk over the icq.. i can talk on the phone, go on lengthy emails with my net friends, but somehow, i found out, much to my displeasure, that i cannot initiate a proper nice conversation like i can do over the phones. 'tis not a bad thing, but sometimes, when u can't call the person as yet, and u are too lazy to type a complete email, icq seems to do the trick. but still, thats not the point. the point is, i am trying to talk to this person over icq, this particular person, and i think i am making a bad impression. but still, i am highly jaded by relationships still. still pondering over the possibilty of love, over the possibility of someone remaining faithful, whether both party will really ever like each other and not one party likes me because i like him. still jaded. still crushed.

death and life isn't that much difference is it? they are just 2 sides to the same coin. actually there's always 2 side to everything.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
-frost-

its always about choices isn't it? and now i guess i should choose.

chesire, don't feel that upset. parents are like that. and sister are almost always irritating just like younger brothers. we all go through some shit like this. its ongoing. come now, take it easy, you know u love ur mother, and that would prevail one day. my mother loved gramps so much, but gramps never did find out until the last days of her life, and if u heard what gramps said to mother, you would tear. but mom always know in the end who really care for them. take care...

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Virtues: You look for immense creativity and individuality in people, including yourself. You're not happy with anything less than brilliant, and you focus on being expressive. You value energy, liveliness, and upbeat personalities, but you're not supportive of moodiness when you yourself can be unreliably moody. Seeking activity, you like the bustle of business but need the secluded atmosphere of a studio or private corner.

Aspirations: You feel the need to express your talents, whether it be through writing, drawing, singing, dancing, composing, performing, or photographing. While you strive to ever improve your work, you want to display it as soon as possible when your impatience kicks in. You want to be a prodigy but you might not have the means right at your fingertips. Trust me, do NOT move to New York to do it. Yeesh!

Quirks: Conformists bother you because of their lack of individuality. You're often late or unreliable. You're showy and refuse to share the spotlight. You only tell little white lies. You worm your way into the hearts of others, but be careful; some people despise the show-offs.

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Future: Show business or not, you'll settle down happily if you're among those who appreciate your natural talents and desire to perform. Don't stay in one place too long, and don't be too hasty in defining your relationships. Who are you to judge what only time will tell?

bumped around today, did nothing much essentially.. alanna you look GREAT with you short hair, maybe short (hehe) of kirsten dunst, but still great nonetheless. actually i haven't been particularly free, and i am feeling kinda guilty cos i haven't been doing much homework. oki i admit, i haven't done any. been busying myself with stuff like hanging out with friends, going for my cca and doing alot of other stuff...

i was browsing through the times magazine, and was pretty shocked and upset over this particular article. nahz its not so much about pakistan and india, they have been fighting since eons ago and peace will never prevail until one of the old dying folk dies. it was this article about this sailor that made history when he sailed across pacific ocean 2 decades back on somee primitive boat (i think it is reed or prypus or something like that). he tried to sail the same road again earlier this year and was shocked at how much the ocean has changed, he said that there was so much rubbish, plastic bottles, cans, bags, amongst others; the water has become very sticky to the extent of feeling slickish. he said that it was so contaminated that he and the sailors don't even dare to dip their toothbrush in the water sometimes. isn't it sad how fast we are destroying the environment. in a span of 20 years, or 50 since industrailisation, we have altered the face of the earth more than the 4.6 billion years, and none of the change is reversible. goodness. can we progress without harming the earth?

bumped around today, did nothing much essentially.. alanna you look GREAT with you short hair, maybe short (hehe) of kirsten dunst, but still great nonetheless. actually i haven't been particularly free, and i am feeling kinda guilty cos i haven't been doing much homework. oki i admit, i haven't done any. been busying myself with stuff like hanging out with friends, going for my cca and doing alot of other stuff...

i was browsing through the times magazine, and was pretty shocked and upset over this particular article. nahz its not so much about pakistan and india, they have been fighting since eons ago and peace will never prevail until one of the old dying folk dies. it was this article about this sailor that made history when he sailed across pacific ocean 2 decades back on somee primitive boat (i think it is reed or prypus or something like that). he tried to sail the same road again earlier this year and was shocked at how much the ocean has changed, he said that there was so much rubbish, plastic bottles, cans, bags, amongst others; the water has become very sticky to the extent of feeling slickish. he said that it was so contaminated that he and the sailors don't even dare to dip their toothbrush in the water sometimes. isn't it sad how fast we are destroying the environment. in a span of 20 years, or 50 since industrailisation, we have altered the face of the earth more than the 4.6 billion years, and none of the change is reversible. goodness. can we progress without harming the earth?