”一定会是我“

你说听了歌，会哭。但是我说我没有。就算有，也不会让你知道。

你说：“可惜不是你”，我却偷偷的说：“一定会是我”。

牵了你那小小的手，也牵了4年了。你的好，你的坏，你的美，你的不完美，我还不了解吗？我也很清楚知道你是多么的了解我。我懂你知道，但我不懂你懂我知道吗？

有哭吗？我说我没有。你懂我有吗？

我好想好想好想你。也是多么多么的爱你。你快点把该做的事做完，把论文写好，赶快回来。因为你深爱的男孩已经不行了，他想你想到都不能呼吸了。

“一定会是我，一定会是我“

Your Love

This is such a sweet post, stolen off a junior's blog.

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If you see your love everyday
Make every moment special
Don't get bored

If you don't have a love
It's not because you aren't hot
Wait for the right TA

If you only get your love on weekends
Phone-kiss him on Monday
Shag him on Sunday

If your love is silly and doesn't get you
Be determined and get her to change
Let go when she stops trying

If your love has a big ego
Leave him
It doesn't compensate for his small dick

If your love lives a different life from you
Don't fight about things that made you
Make her build the future with you

If your love makes you a meal at 3AM
He'll need to stay in bed till 4PM
Perfect excuse to reward him with action between sheets before nightfall

If your love is fat and unwilling to run
Don't watch porn
Screw her hot best friend

If your love goes camping at Ubin with you
And she absolutely hates creepy crawlies
Make her laugh and scream when you see one

If your love is 10 732km away
You've beaten the odds by finding him
The fairytale ending is yours

If your love forgives you
Kiss him till his lips are numb
He's decided his pain is nothing compared to your love

If your love loves you
Like no one ever would
Don't ever let go

happiness comes in the little things

like seeing you on my computer screen while i am doing work, and hearing you disturb me (okok, entertaining) me with your singing...

=)

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Should i try the scruffy look??




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I can't believe that I am going to see the boy in just a few weeks time! It might even be earlier than expected so YAY, we'll see how it turns out.

It's still quite unbelievable that all my 16 years of education will be ending soon. It was quite an uninspiring end, without fanfare. But when the fact dawned on me, it was quite an emo moment. No more seeing my beloved gang in school, sitting by the benches and just talk and bitch. Thank goodness for that fyp day, where in a kismet, we all just gathered there are started to live the good old days. Pity Ms Cheong was NOT AROUND!!! if not it would be complete... ok there's also ling kai who wasn't there.

And now I'm reading and thinking, again the punishment for lazy boys like me who decides to not keep up with the reading during school term is a lot of readings to do at the end of the semester. Jem can spank me!!

Ok now back to my books.

The Beautiful Imperfection

I've been saying that I want to blog a long post, but I never really got down to it because school life has gotten the better of me. But tonight, I saw a video clip (above) that really moved me and makes me want to share my thoughts. (You can watch this on my posted links)

Essentially the clip is about a woman who describes her late husband and his imperfections, and it struck a chord in me. Many times I have told and ask people, who are in relationships and are in one of the usual tiffs, if this is something they can live with. Because to me, there is no such thing as the perfect person, there is no such thing as the right person. The most important thing is to make your partner the right one. Which is why I ask if this is something they can live with.

Everyone will have their imperfections, will have difference in opinions, will have difference in character, there are no 2 person out there in perfect synergy (not even twins) where they agree to every single detail. The key to a perfect relationship is to learn to live with all this imperfections and to love it.

Sometimes there is no middle ground, sometimes you just have to give in and tolerate it, because for all you know there are many things that your partner is putting up with and giving in as well.

I can be a very patience person but there are times when I get high strung and lose it quite abruptly and quite suddenly. It is times like when I know how someone tolerates my nonsense and puts up with me scolding unnecessarily. Of course I put up with quite a fair share myself, but that's how it is, and that's how it works.

We have to learn be tolerant, to be patient, and at the end of the day know that for every complain, every flaw, every imperfection, there's something that they do that makes you smile, the brightens up your day, that tugs at your heart. It could be that simple smile, that comforting snore (yes j-en), the puppy eyes. And learning and knowing that "its the imperfections that make them perfect"

There's really the secret to it all.

Crazy lar me

I can't believe that I'm actually missing him till i'm tearing. I can be looking at him and still miss him. Crazy lar.

The next 10 weeks will be tough. With FYP due, assignments, projects, and lastly exams. 2 big papers no less, and one more fluffier one. How will I survive? We all do lar, its just how tough the process is.

I want to see him in person like now!! and give him one good cuddle.

LDR is no joke lar...

When I'm stressed up

a few things happen. Usually I'll get a very bad tummy, which includes horrific diarrhea like this morning when I thought I was peeing from my ass (HAHAHAH, gross i know). Also there used to be a few occasions when I would bad a super bad tummy ache. People close to me will also know that aside from somatic symptoms, I would also be a bit flustered (or you know they call it mang zang). So all that happened this morning, except for the tummy ache.

Reason for stress, FYP, heavy-ass midterms, freelance and I just missed a pop-quiz. But yes aside from that things are still going good. We've a few more participants (everyone counts), things are moving, but I've got a bit more to do.

J's really adorable and sweet and cute today, well everyday lar, but yar. And I got my tickets booked and confirmed already!! I'm sooooooooo excited about heading down, gosh.. I really can't wait nor contain my excitement!!!!!!

This is when it gets real busy

but its kinda good because FYP has finally started!!! Our experiments are running and everything appears to be going alright. We need more participants so we'll see how that turns out. Hopefully with a reduced sample, we can still catch some good effects, possibly some gender stuff too.

things are going great. I'm watching J fall asleep, and to me that has gotta be the best thing in the world. To be the last person one sees before falling asleep and to be the person to wake up to, is really the sweetest. J's in the US though, and that's gonna make communication slightly tougher, because the time difference is greater, and this two weeks is also my experiment weeks, so that makes my hours in school ridiculous plus a heavy midterms... but we'll pull through, we always pull through

met up with D and Ah Yee for dinner and coffee last night after a looong day in the lab, but it was totally worth it for all the laughters and long overdue catch up. Nothing scheduled for the next 2 weeks though, I'm going to be a hermit!!

in other news, I'm going to head down under!!!! =p

xoxo, S

No one likes FYP

Really, I don't think anyone actually likes FYP. Its like this constant irritant that you can't get rid off for a year. And as always it can get better if it actually starts earlier and on time, but for some reasons that can't be controlled everyone has to rush it at the end, knowing that this will happen.

And then there are some massive time spent on a course which I have already done to death but I needed to fulfill my course requirements, so I HAD to take a course which wasted a lot of my precious time, which also meant a very bad previous semester for me!!! (which included getting my LOWEST SCORE ON RECORD!!! A FREAKING B-)

Waking up at 5 a.m. was unexpected though, because I thought a certain lazy someone wanted to be up by 8 a.m.. So i drifted in and out of consciousness till the certain someone awoke, and it was quite a nice feeling......

Too happy to sleep?

So its 6am here, and I am awake after only having like what 4 hours plus of sleep because I tried to fall asleep but i can't.

Too happy to sleep bah.

"Those 3 words are said too much, they're not enough"

让我照顾你

因为最关心你的人是我

Take my hand, I'll take the lead

2nd half of the semester

The 2nd half of the semester is always filled with ridiculous amount of work waiting to be handed in. Its always a punishment for lazy boys like me.

So i did manage to see someone for our 2nd anniversary!


This was the funniest thing i saw, i was kinda thinking that guy is damn cute, then lo and behold!! the billboard above


Trying on some bags..


I don't really know what i was doing.... so..




The customary cute food pic, yes my eyebags, someone kept me up all night looong

waltzing into our 3rd year

i can't believe that we've been together for more than 2 years already. monday was our 2nd anniversary; there was not much fanfare there but yes.

the boy was ridiculously sweet and it has just been the most amazing. have not been happier and definitely the best so far. i mean hey for the past 9 months, we've had 2 bigger quarrels, not too bad aei.

here's to 2 and for the many more to come.

=)

So sweeet

Isn't this just the sweetest?? =)

updates

I have been told to update my blog. Hahaha. its strange that i should update so much less that i am here in melbourne. but i reckon i owe everyone just a really quick summary. I have been here in melbourne for 5 weeks already, and in another 2 weeks i'll be back in sunny singapore.

Spending a lot of quality time with you-know-who, and we even went for a short trip to tasmania. it's such a lovely lovely place, and i promise i will put the pictures up on facebook. we also went for some road trips and in fact this weekend we will be going for another two road trip.

things have been quite ok with everything. work has been pretty alright, but mundane. not exactly learning as much as i would have love to, but still its a job. in other good news, i am going for my interview on wednesday with Whybin\TBWA\Melbourne!!! I am so excited and looking forward to that.

Well what i have been doing? i have been going extremely high listening to remixes!



I miss everyone! see you guys real soon and yes i will blog more

the boy insists

The boy insist that it his, due credits must be given to the sweet boy

"Missing someone gets easier everyday.
Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other,
it is one day closer to the next time you will…"

- Jem

One of those days

Today is one of those days whereby after talking incessantly to the boy, we both started to frantically - well not that frantically but you get the idea - look for tickets to any location that is in between both of us. And obviously it has to be next week or the week after because neither of us can wait any longer.


"Missing someone gets easier everyday.
Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other,
it is one day closer to the next time you will…"

He tried to pass this off as his, but i know better =p

Its still the sweetest thing nonetheless.

this time of the year

It is always at this time of the year where times get just a bit tougher. It's always at about slight more than halfway through, because its just a bit too long since there we saw each other, but yet not near enough till we see each other again.

tough times will pass definitely and in just more than a few weeks i get to see you again.

doesn't make it less tough, but i can see the light getting brighter.

mom says 1 year apart is short. i think 6 months is way too long.

=)

hell hole

if you're on internship like me, you might be tempted to think that i am complaining about my internship and that it is a hellhole. well actually no. I have been quite enjoying my internship actually. some days there are really quite a lot of work, but i really enjoy working with my team, they are all very nice.

then why hell hole? what am i talking about? why, i am talking about singapore here! it is getting increasingly like a hell hole. my patience is running very thin here and i am not the only one. its getting so crowded in singapore, its really making sick and nauseated even. at tanjong pagar, i could queue for like 10min to just get up the escalator. and boon lay isn't a ride in the park either.

oh what about town? what about town i say. its so fucking crowded i want to avoid it like the plague, BUT wait what else is there to do in singapore if we don't shop. ok lets to the park. why all the parks are also damn fucking pack. even with a car to drive you to some far flunk places, there will always be at least a few pockets of people at best. there is way way way too many humans. just today as i was looking at the train of human beings making their way down the escalator exiting the station, i being to think that humans are like virus. we do nothing but destroy the host (host being mother earth) ARGH.

i want to get out of singapore to a place that is less crowded. somewhere where i can have peace strolling down the streets. somewhere where i can just be alone with him.

somewhere

i am damn naggy!

hahaha yes i am super naggy. ARGH!!!!

anyway love the new template?!?!? alexis loves it. i love it too! and its going to be an exciting weekend. dance boot camp in the morning, evening will be with my darling huiyi getting her new mac! yes everyone's getting it. why not you?!?!

then on sunday its furniture shopping with alexis (hopefully) and j-en. hehehehe

so many new stuffs in my life.

but but but there's always work. ARGH!!!!

oh jem wants me to add a new note to myself: to not be distracted by other stuff when talking to him. hahahah