Jul 31, 2004
i feel like such a loser. i really do. today's the homecoming carnival. wanted to go back with mark and alanna and j and him. but everything just didn't turn out the way i thought it might be all fun, go back with everyone, play some stupid games and catch up. well i did meet up n alanna and siming in the end. it was nice and all, but i have like no friends. where's all my classmates? where's mark? didn't pick up my calls, didn't reply my msg. and to make everything worse, he didn't want to meet my friends. again. i am not going to dwell into that. we've been through enough of this. i just feel so lousy and so terrible. i feel almost sick. argh
Jul 26, 2004
nothing much going on lately. missing my dear loads. going for another exercise. sigh. its going to be a tough few weeks ahead for him. so i'll try my best to be there for him.
anyway its really nice to be lugging an ibook around. people would stop right beside to tell me that's a good powerful notebook i've got. muahaha. basking in all that attention. what could be better. oh yes the new ipod is out. its cheaper,smaller with longer battery life and looks better with improved features.20gb for 548 and 40gb for 748. how incredibly cheaper compared to zen touch, at 499, its 40 grams heavier, 0.3 inch thicker, bulkier, less user friendly features, an sad rip-off of ipod designs, no wonder people say singapore is running out of creative talents.
i wonder why some people are so resistant to the invasion of the ipods. i mean 60% of all mp3 players sold in the world are ipods, including your i-can-only-store-20-songs 128mb flash player. there's isn't really anything to argue about is there. hardware mag rated ipod the best mp3 player u can buy. side by side is the iriver, which has more features but less stunning design and an awkward joystick that lets u scroll song-by-song. so from say 'all my life' to say 'you and i both', given the 5000 song storage, it would take probably a flight from here to LA, whereas the ipod does it in less that 2 seconds!
-standing ovation-
anyway its really nice to be lugging an ibook around. people would stop right beside to tell me that's a good powerful notebook i've got. muahaha. basking in all that attention. what could be better. oh yes the new ipod is out. its cheaper,smaller with longer battery life and looks better with improved features.20gb for 548 and 40gb for 748. how incredibly cheaper compared to zen touch, at 499, its 40 grams heavier, 0.3 inch thicker, bulkier, less user friendly features, an sad rip-off of ipod designs, no wonder people say singapore is running out of creative talents.
i wonder why some people are so resistant to the invasion of the ipods. i mean 60% of all mp3 players sold in the world are ipods, including your i-can-only-store-20-songs 128mb flash player. there's isn't really anything to argue about is there. hardware mag rated ipod the best mp3 player u can buy. side by side is the iriver, which has more features but less stunning design and an awkward joystick that lets u scroll song-by-song. so from say 'all my life' to say 'you and i both', given the 5000 song storage, it would take probably a flight from here to LA, whereas the ipod does it in less that 2 seconds!
-standing ovation-
Jul 22, 2004
Jul 15, 2004
ok, i am done with all my ranting for now. the issue is settling down, and i'll see what ill effects are there, then i will decide on my next course of action. actually well, its more because my boy's outfield for the past 2 days, and he's sick some more, made me so worried. he couldn't really use to phone, so couldn't contact me for like 20 over hours. wah the whole day, i just kept thinking about him. sian, so lovelorn =(
i am just so thankful i've found him. its been more than 5 months le, going to be half a year since i first know him. every day is a totally different experience. yes there was periods of well, problems, largely my fault. i am so glad that is out of the way. ahhhh lovelorn again.. okok i shall stop it. nite folks
i am just so thankful i've found him. its been more than 5 months le, going to be half a year since i first know him. every day is a totally different experience. yes there was periods of well, problems, largely my fault. i am so glad that is out of the way. ahhhh lovelorn again.. okok i shall stop it. nite folks
Jul 14, 2004
ohmygod, channel u is featuring this talkshow (fei chang tou shi yan) on the issue of chinese prostitute soliciting on the streets. its a problem that is worsening. makes me really worried whether they would actually feature one episode on gay bars and spas in the near future. well mainly because the issues of chinese prostitutes was highlighted on wanbao, sinming and newpaper i think. its really very worrying. what if they start a whole anti gay sentiment. is anybody going to do anything? can we even do anything? the age of repression is here.
in an extremely well versed and wonderful letter to TODAY:
1. Context
As a daily reader of your paper, and an occasional contributor to your forum pages, I have been consistently encouraged by your journalistic integrity. Your articles span a broad range and you do not appear to shy from controversial topics, even when incurring the ire of certain political leaders for �foreign interference� in domestic issues.
The reason for my writing is this. In the last week, Lianhe Wanbao, published by your media rival Singapore Press Holdings, published a four-part expose in which it sought to perpetuate fallacious and scientifically unsustainable myths about homosexuality, for example, that people are homosexual because they have been raped, or lack a male role model (nevermind the blatant sexism). In addition, the four-parter was largely an amateurish account of gay saunas and clubs as hideouts for illicit sexual activity. They then propose that the police raid these spots.
I do not, for one moment, doubt the freedom of Wanbao to publish such material. However, it is clear that having chosen this particular angle on the homosexual issue, SPH is not likely to print contrary material. It is thus my hope � and the hope of others (both gay and straight) who are appalled at the lack of sensitivity and accuracy of this so-called expose � that your newspaper would find within itself the courage to counterbalance this report.
You have, in the past, allowed such gay activists as Mr Alex Au a full column to express his views on the rejection of PLU�s attempt to register as a society. You have a regular column by Constance Singham that highlights blindspots in our social landscape. In a country where SPH papers have long been careful about being politically correct, your newspaper�s brave attempts at creating awareness in important issues has not gone unnoticed.
2. The issue
It is not always immediately obvious to everyone why homosexuals (and discerning heterosexuals) are as persistent and anxious about such media portrayal. This is because, as you are undoubtedly aware, the media is often a powerful influence in shaping attitudes and beliefs. This is none the more so than in Singapore where not many Singaporeans avail themselves to the various foreign papers and online resources. They trust the local media to be fair. In this instance, that trust has been broken by Wanbao.
It is important to homosexuals (and those who care about them) that we do not set back what have been significant gains in the last decade or so � the cessation of systematic police raiding of gay hang-outs (I suppose Wanbao expects homosexuals to take their sexual liaisons to their homes, which will almost certainly result in familial ostracization, and I suppose Wanbao expects that homosexuals will no longer have places where they are safe from the prying eyes of homophobes and gay-bashers) and even the acknowledgment of homosexuals in the civil service by Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong.
Homosexuals and their advocates understand that the road is long and arduous. It was similarly difficult for racial minorities and women to be recognized � and even then, discrimination continues. (In Singapore, the constitution does not even explicitly protect women!) But what was always critical in moving public opinion, and eventually governmental posture, was the reporting and coverage of such historic events as African-American sit-ins at public places, and the lifting of anti-obscenity laws that prevented anyone even mentioning anti-Slavery arguments.
In parts of Europe, homosexual marriage is already a given. In Massachusetts, gay marriage is now legally possible thanks to a very brave Supreme Court, and the world has not crumbled. Cambodia�s monarch has openly suggested that gay marriage is ok. Not even China has laws against same-sex relations (though not marriage.) Asian values? Ours were imported in the 1980s from no less than American scholars, and have been argued to be a perversion of true Confucian thinking.
In Singapore, the government will only move if the people do. This is why they have decided to review the ban on oral sex � because the general public was outraged by such a law, and international ridicule followed.
Homosexuals, and their allies, do not seek special rights. They do not ask for more freedom than any other person. They have not even asked for marriage rights. They are merely asking to be left alone; and not to have some intellectually-shallow reporter fueling flames of hate. If it is politically incorrect to say certain races are stupid, and that women are weaker, why is it all right to say that homosexuals are freaks of nature?
I grant you that not everyone will come to accept homosexuals as persons equally capable of love, and equally deserving of basic dignity. At the least, they should tolerate gay men and women, and not confuse their own ignorance for fear and hate.
3. The proposal
What I ask, in my personal capacity, but representing, I believe, many others, is that you will consider publishing an article, or a series, painting a more positive light of homosexuals in Singapore. You will not find a paucity of homosexuals who are extremely intelligent, successful and even (as previous Straits Times articles pointed out) well-to-do. Every sector of society has its seedier elements. It would be hypocritical not to admit that even heterosexuals have their sojourns to Bali for sexual gratification, and the equivalent of gay saunas exit. The only reason why such activity becomes a reason for enforcing a homosexual dragnet is purely because those people like others of their own sex.
This is a matter that must concern all of us � homosexual or not. Clamping down on the private choices of individuals is always a bad thing because if the government believes that basic human rights can be denied without good reason, there is nothing to stop other incursions on our everyday life. As a newspaper required to apply for permits and licenses, you will understand this better than most.
I do not expect that you will lead a campaign for gay rights (although that would be great.) I do not even expect a one-sided article glorifying the right of homosexuals (although that would also be nice.) All I would ask is that you publish a balanced, neutral article that would sincerely provoke some real thinking. There is no shortage of literature on this subject, which can be concisely and simply presented. For once, replace the empty rhetorical hatred with some intellectual exposition and factual analysis.
I will understand if you do not feel that this is something you are able to do. Indeed, I write this in a somewhat delusionally optimistic state. But I would urge you to consider this. Not because it may be economically beneficial, or interesting or newsworthy, but because it would be right.
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my coach is just inspirational isn't he. i couldn't have said it better myself.
1. Context
As a daily reader of your paper, and an occasional contributor to your forum pages, I have been consistently encouraged by your journalistic integrity. Your articles span a broad range and you do not appear to shy from controversial topics, even when incurring the ire of certain political leaders for �foreign interference� in domestic issues.
The reason for my writing is this. In the last week, Lianhe Wanbao, published by your media rival Singapore Press Holdings, published a four-part expose in which it sought to perpetuate fallacious and scientifically unsustainable myths about homosexuality, for example, that people are homosexual because they have been raped, or lack a male role model (nevermind the blatant sexism). In addition, the four-parter was largely an amateurish account of gay saunas and clubs as hideouts for illicit sexual activity. They then propose that the police raid these spots.
I do not, for one moment, doubt the freedom of Wanbao to publish such material. However, it is clear that having chosen this particular angle on the homosexual issue, SPH is not likely to print contrary material. It is thus my hope � and the hope of others (both gay and straight) who are appalled at the lack of sensitivity and accuracy of this so-called expose � that your newspaper would find within itself the courage to counterbalance this report.
You have, in the past, allowed such gay activists as Mr Alex Au a full column to express his views on the rejection of PLU�s attempt to register as a society. You have a regular column by Constance Singham that highlights blindspots in our social landscape. In a country where SPH papers have long been careful about being politically correct, your newspaper�s brave attempts at creating awareness in important issues has not gone unnoticed.
2. The issue
It is not always immediately obvious to everyone why homosexuals (and discerning heterosexuals) are as persistent and anxious about such media portrayal. This is because, as you are undoubtedly aware, the media is often a powerful influence in shaping attitudes and beliefs. This is none the more so than in Singapore where not many Singaporeans avail themselves to the various foreign papers and online resources. They trust the local media to be fair. In this instance, that trust has been broken by Wanbao.
It is important to homosexuals (and those who care about them) that we do not set back what have been significant gains in the last decade or so � the cessation of systematic police raiding of gay hang-outs (I suppose Wanbao expects homosexuals to take their sexual liaisons to their homes, which will almost certainly result in familial ostracization, and I suppose Wanbao expects that homosexuals will no longer have places where they are safe from the prying eyes of homophobes and gay-bashers) and even the acknowledgment of homosexuals in the civil service by Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong.
Homosexuals and their advocates understand that the road is long and arduous. It was similarly difficult for racial minorities and women to be recognized � and even then, discrimination continues. (In Singapore, the constitution does not even explicitly protect women!) But what was always critical in moving public opinion, and eventually governmental posture, was the reporting and coverage of such historic events as African-American sit-ins at public places, and the lifting of anti-obscenity laws that prevented anyone even mentioning anti-Slavery arguments.
In parts of Europe, homosexual marriage is already a given. In Massachusetts, gay marriage is now legally possible thanks to a very brave Supreme Court, and the world has not crumbled. Cambodia�s monarch has openly suggested that gay marriage is ok. Not even China has laws against same-sex relations (though not marriage.) Asian values? Ours were imported in the 1980s from no less than American scholars, and have been argued to be a perversion of true Confucian thinking.
In Singapore, the government will only move if the people do. This is why they have decided to review the ban on oral sex � because the general public was outraged by such a law, and international ridicule followed.
Homosexuals, and their allies, do not seek special rights. They do not ask for more freedom than any other person. They have not even asked for marriage rights. They are merely asking to be left alone; and not to have some intellectually-shallow reporter fueling flames of hate. If it is politically incorrect to say certain races are stupid, and that women are weaker, why is it all right to say that homosexuals are freaks of nature?
I grant you that not everyone will come to accept homosexuals as persons equally capable of love, and equally deserving of basic dignity. At the least, they should tolerate gay men and women, and not confuse their own ignorance for fear and hate.
3. The proposal
What I ask, in my personal capacity, but representing, I believe, many others, is that you will consider publishing an article, or a series, painting a more positive light of homosexuals in Singapore. You will not find a paucity of homosexuals who are extremely intelligent, successful and even (as previous Straits Times articles pointed out) well-to-do. Every sector of society has its seedier elements. It would be hypocritical not to admit that even heterosexuals have their sojourns to Bali for sexual gratification, and the equivalent of gay saunas exit. The only reason why such activity becomes a reason for enforcing a homosexual dragnet is purely because those people like others of their own sex.
This is a matter that must concern all of us � homosexual or not. Clamping down on the private choices of individuals is always a bad thing because if the government believes that basic human rights can be denied without good reason, there is nothing to stop other incursions on our everyday life. As a newspaper required to apply for permits and licenses, you will understand this better than most.
I do not expect that you will lead a campaign for gay rights (although that would be great.) I do not even expect a one-sided article glorifying the right of homosexuals (although that would also be nice.) All I would ask is that you publish a balanced, neutral article that would sincerely provoke some real thinking. There is no shortage of literature on this subject, which can be concisely and simply presented. For once, replace the empty rhetorical hatred with some intellectual exposition and factual analysis.
I will understand if you do not feel that this is something you are able to do. Indeed, I write this in a somewhat delusionally optimistic state. But I would urge you to consider this. Not because it may be economically beneficial, or interesting or newsworthy, but because it would be right.
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my coach is just inspirational isn't he. i couldn't have said it better myself.
pple pple, i am not upset because i visit gay spas of what, i can't be bothered if they are closed down really, but what really bothers me its the negative light the article portrays. i really don't want to type too much now, but the whole point of over simplifying the gay issues, and the social repercussion of further making people believe that aids is a gay-related disease, and that only gays have oral and anal sex. it doesn't serve to educate anybody but further foster more misconception. and it is sickening to a point where they even target gay clubs. for saint fuck's sake i have brought many girls to why not and tabs before, and they love it there. guys, since when do we ever give girls wierd stares, unless of course the reporter looks worse than abigail. but then she would get looks even at zouk. so look just leave me my space to hold my boyfriend's hand and hug him and not get strage stares and go fuck yourself because i think no FUCKING PERSON WOULD WANNA FUCK THAT STUPID REPORTER!!!
i am feeling so upset and so distressed. look i don't know why everybody wants to adopt a sit and wait attitude. i want my freedom, not to fuck anybody in public. but i just want to be me. i just want to be like you, being able to go out with your girlfriend and hold her hands and kiss her goodbye without having the possibility of being thrown in jail; or like you, being able to snuggle up to your boyfriend in the bus, without any worries. yes i can do that at home, but does anybody know how repressed, how terrible it feels not being able to do any of that.
the only sanctity, the only haven where i can have the slightest intimacy with the one i love (no not sex in a gay spa) is being threatened. what else can i do but sit here and rant? the police would have to raid as a show of force although nothing much is going to happen because like paul said, we have no opposition so that is not going to be a wedge issue. but what if wanbao does a follow up and show that gay clubs still exist. what is the police going to do. granted they shut down gay spas because they are sleazy and cheap, but what about the clubs? is it really so wrong to be affectionate to someone i love. the government says they will allow gay people to be in the civil sector, so much for allowing gays to exist but to criminalise every single action. i truly await the day the government will slam the papers that give any discriminatory remark (be it sex, race, religion, sexual preference), till then i have to suffer everyday of my life.
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how does gay threaten any body, and society for that matter.
i am feeling so upset and so distressed. look i don't know why everybody wants to adopt a sit and wait attitude. i want my freedom, not to fuck anybody in public. but i just want to be me. i just want to be like you, being able to go out with your girlfriend and hold her hands and kiss her goodbye without having the possibility of being thrown in jail; or like you, being able to snuggle up to your boyfriend in the bus, without any worries. yes i can do that at home, but does anybody know how repressed, how terrible it feels not being able to do any of that.
the only sanctity, the only haven where i can have the slightest intimacy with the one i love (no not sex in a gay spa) is being threatened. what else can i do but sit here and rant? the police would have to raid as a show of force although nothing much is going to happen because like paul said, we have no opposition so that is not going to be a wedge issue. but what if wanbao does a follow up and show that gay clubs still exist. what is the police going to do. granted they shut down gay spas because they are sleazy and cheap, but what about the clubs? is it really so wrong to be affectionate to someone i love. the government says they will allow gay people to be in the civil sector, so much for allowing gays to exist but to criminalise every single action. i truly await the day the government will slam the papers that give any discriminatory remark (be it sex, race, religion, sexual preference), till then i have to suffer everyday of my life.
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how does gay threaten any body, and society for that matter.
Jul 13, 2004
wanbao is getting more audacious. i can assure you, my mom was never ill treated by my father. and its official. 99.99% of all pastors are either retarted, dumb, or stupid to focus on the fact that hey, you are gay, i can change you. its not right. f*** you. go to my downloads and download 'a controversial discourse on biblical homosexuality'
also do visit here to see the original article and some professional point of view on the issue
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The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 4
Lianhe Wanbao 12 July 2004 Monday
GAY BAR GET MORE SINFUL AS THE NIGHT GROWS OLD
CUSTOMERS MOLEST BAR WAITER'S BUM
FORWARD
It is not acceptable and against the law for homosexuals to expose themselves, kiss or have intimacy in the public.
However many homosexuals are still defiling the law and openly have unnatural sex.
For the past few days we had reported on the increase in gay saunas which are providing place of convenience for homosexuals to have illegal sex.
At the same time the numbers of gay bars discos had been increasing like the falling raindrops on the ground.
In this issue we are turning our focus on such gay bars discos to reveal the secrets behind.
End of Forward
If by chance some ladies step into a gay bar, she will be greeted with surprise and strange stares from the staff and the homo customers.
Although Peter had not been working very long in the gay bar but he had understood the happenings here.
He told our reporters that although the shop did not specified itself as a gay bar, therefore ladies can come in but the customers here will treat the ladies with strange stares.
Our reporters saw some flamboyant gay customers cruising inside the disco.
Some of the dressings are very exposing and for those with a well built body are exposing their shoulders and even the bums to attract the other gay customers who are ogling at them. Some are in deep intimacy.
This disco in the downtown opened everyday and the customers even molests the waiters working there.
We understood that there are many gay bars and discos opening here recently.
There is no difference from other straight bars or discos only the customers is all gay here.
After being informed our reporters went there to have a feel of the place. It is crowded with men and everyone is dressed to kill, tight shirt, embroidered with flowers shirts and the most 'in' is the sleeveless T shirts.
The staff told us frankly that this is a gay bar. Why do you work here then?
One of the straight waiter Peter told us that he and his friends came here to work for extra income, they had a full time job in the day.
Peter then complained to our reporters that he had been molested before by the customers here.
Where do they touched you?
They squeezed my bum.
What did you do then? Dun you feel bad?
We cannot offend the customers, so we pushed off their hands lightly. When we worked here we have no choice. This is our job.
After some conversation we found out that the majority of the waiters here are not gay, they have 'normal sex inclination' they are real men and some do have girlfriends already.
When we arrived around 10pm there was hardly any customers. But towards the midnight it started to get crowded and there was 10 waiters and some 100 customers.
From informed sources this is the most famous gay bar disco in town.
GAYS PERFORMING 'RA' SHOW IN THE BAR
Some gays are very daring here, openly kissing and stroking each other.
There is a group of very gorgeous 20s over young gays sitting upstairs.
They seem to be getting very high and openly kissing and stroking each other.
Although this was only a few seconds but it was very eye opening and 'RA'
The daring intimacy is something unacceptable by non-homosexuals.
At the bar counter there was 3 guys and apparently two of them are lovers. Within a few seconds they are holding hand in hand and stroking each other.
HOMOSEXUALS CAN SEEK EXTERNAL HELP IF THEY WANT TO CHANGE
If homosexuals want to change their lifestyles and accept the opposite sex again should seek external help.
A local famous pastor Mr. Tan Han Sek had counseled many gays before.
He said that among them some had witnessed their mothers being ill treated by their fathers. This had hurt them very deeply. When they grow up they have anal intercourse with other men, trying to imagining that they are enjoying other men for their mothers.
Because of some post environmental influences some had turned gay but they are not really homosexuals. These people should seek external help and treatment, Pastor Tan concluded.
Some are struggling alone but this is very hard. The most direct way is to seek external help like religion or psychiatric treatment. This is the better way.
Pastor Tan admitted that there is no difference in the love-relationship for gays or straights. They both have sad and broken heart times before.
Some gays left their male partners to marry a woman because they wanted to have a family and children.
But there are others who are like butterflies flying from one flower to the next seeking for new same sex partners.
RAINBOW FLAG SYMBOL OF HOMOSEXUALITY
If you think that local homosexuals are still in the closet, never see the sun you are wrong. The numbers of gay bars and discos opening here are like raindrops falling on the ground.
Not only that, local gays had walked out of the closet and openly admit that they are gays.
When our reporters visited two of the downtown gay bars, did we realised that there are so many gays who had walked out of the closet and out in open. They do not bother what others think about them. On weekend they openly socialize in the clubs.
Our reporters had observed that all these gay places are hanging the six colours rainbow flag as symbol for gay. Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue and Purple.
However the interior decor of such places is not much different from the straights.
But obviously those who patronized them are mostly gay.
END
also do visit here to see the original article and some professional point of view on the issue
----------
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 4
Lianhe Wanbao 12 July 2004 Monday
GAY BAR GET MORE SINFUL AS THE NIGHT GROWS OLD
CUSTOMERS MOLEST BAR WAITER'S BUM
FORWARD
It is not acceptable and against the law for homosexuals to expose themselves, kiss or have intimacy in the public.
However many homosexuals are still defiling the law and openly have unnatural sex.
For the past few days we had reported on the increase in gay saunas which are providing place of convenience for homosexuals to have illegal sex.
At the same time the numbers of gay bars discos had been increasing like the falling raindrops on the ground.
In this issue we are turning our focus on such gay bars discos to reveal the secrets behind.
End of Forward
If by chance some ladies step into a gay bar, she will be greeted with surprise and strange stares from the staff and the homo customers.
Although Peter had not been working very long in the gay bar but he had understood the happenings here.
He told our reporters that although the shop did not specified itself as a gay bar, therefore ladies can come in but the customers here will treat the ladies with strange stares.
Our reporters saw some flamboyant gay customers cruising inside the disco.
Some of the dressings are very exposing and for those with a well built body are exposing their shoulders and even the bums to attract the other gay customers who are ogling at them. Some are in deep intimacy.
This disco in the downtown opened everyday and the customers even molests the waiters working there.
We understood that there are many gay bars and discos opening here recently.
There is no difference from other straight bars or discos only the customers is all gay here.
After being informed our reporters went there to have a feel of the place. It is crowded with men and everyone is dressed to kill, tight shirt, embroidered with flowers shirts and the most 'in' is the sleeveless T shirts.
The staff told us frankly that this is a gay bar. Why do you work here then?
One of the straight waiter Peter told us that he and his friends came here to work for extra income, they had a full time job in the day.
Peter then complained to our reporters that he had been molested before by the customers here.
Where do they touched you?
They squeezed my bum.
What did you do then? Dun you feel bad?
We cannot offend the customers, so we pushed off their hands lightly. When we worked here we have no choice. This is our job.
After some conversation we found out that the majority of the waiters here are not gay, they have 'normal sex inclination' they are real men and some do have girlfriends already.
When we arrived around 10pm there was hardly any customers. But towards the midnight it started to get crowded and there was 10 waiters and some 100 customers.
From informed sources this is the most famous gay bar disco in town.
GAYS PERFORMING 'RA' SHOW IN THE BAR
Some gays are very daring here, openly kissing and stroking each other.
There is a group of very gorgeous 20s over young gays sitting upstairs.
They seem to be getting very high and openly kissing and stroking each other.
Although this was only a few seconds but it was very eye opening and 'RA'
The daring intimacy is something unacceptable by non-homosexuals.
At the bar counter there was 3 guys and apparently two of them are lovers. Within a few seconds they are holding hand in hand and stroking each other.
HOMOSEXUALS CAN SEEK EXTERNAL HELP IF THEY WANT TO CHANGE
If homosexuals want to change their lifestyles and accept the opposite sex again should seek external help.
A local famous pastor Mr. Tan Han Sek had counseled many gays before.
He said that among them some had witnessed their mothers being ill treated by their fathers. This had hurt them very deeply. When they grow up they have anal intercourse with other men, trying to imagining that they are enjoying other men for their mothers.
Because of some post environmental influences some had turned gay but they are not really homosexuals. These people should seek external help and treatment, Pastor Tan concluded.
Some are struggling alone but this is very hard. The most direct way is to seek external help like religion or psychiatric treatment. This is the better way.
Pastor Tan admitted that there is no difference in the love-relationship for gays or straights. They both have sad and broken heart times before.
Some gays left their male partners to marry a woman because they wanted to have a family and children.
But there are others who are like butterflies flying from one flower to the next seeking for new same sex partners.
RAINBOW FLAG SYMBOL OF HOMOSEXUALITY
If you think that local homosexuals are still in the closet, never see the sun you are wrong. The numbers of gay bars and discos opening here are like raindrops falling on the ground.
Not only that, local gays had walked out of the closet and openly admit that they are gays.
When our reporters visited two of the downtown gay bars, did we realised that there are so many gays who had walked out of the closet and out in open. They do not bother what others think about them. On weekend they openly socialize in the clubs.
Our reporters had observed that all these gay places are hanging the six colours rainbow flag as symbol for gay. Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue and Purple.
However the interior decor of such places is not much different from the straights.
But obviously those who patronized them are mostly gay.
END
Jul 11, 2004
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. i hate i absolutely hate and abhor the lianhewanbao, i soo need to do something about it. this is killing me. it is so upsetting.
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 3
Lianhe Wanbao 11 July 2004 Sunday
ANOTHER GAY CLUB PROVIDES THAI BOYS
AS PROSTITUTES AND NUDE SHOW
To attract customers to the door, another gay club in the town had employed foreigners to perform disgusting strip-tease show and further offer 3 parts service.
The club called it the ¨shower boys〃 service providing showering and massage and extra service as customerˇs sex partner.
This club had a very simple frontage with bright opaque glass front door. Within the white painting you will never expect what is happening inside.
Informed sources said that since last month the club had started to bring in two gorgeous boys in their 20s to provide showering and massage services.
A foreign student confirmed such services when interviewed with our reporter.
The anonymous student told us that recently the club had bring in two young boys from Thailand.
They provide showering and massage services for customers and if required they can provide special service too. (you meant sex service�K?)�K..yes.
These shower boys came in once a month and there are two of them.
They not only provide services but also perform (�Kstrip-tease show you meant�K)�Kyes. They perform strip- tease show.
The club normally arranges a few sessions in a month.
One staff told our reporter that this is a new venture by the club and is very popular. Our boys are from Thailand, do you like foreign boys? Disgusting�K.
The club also published boldly on the web site about its strip-tease show and shower boys services.
Our reporter try getting in and was told by a staff that ¨Do you know what is this place? This is a gay club, you want to go in must be a member first.〃
The club is also providing photography service to customers who want to take nude pictures.
The club catered to those who like to take nude pictures but are unable to find a photographer to bring in extra income.
Customers can arrange with the club for the time and place for such photographs. But most of the time is within the club premise as background.
The club has its own photographer and customers can choose to take semi nude or full nude pictures.
According to a senior lawyer interviewed ( Miss Lee) the owner of such gay club had broken the law once they allowed men to men unnatural sex in their premise.
Sauna and massage service is very common and even in a men only club is not illegal. But if customers had unnatural sex inside the premise will constitute as illegal business and can be prosecuted.
Their license can be cancelled.
As for those accidental customers who patronised the club without knowing the activities can report to the police, suggested Miss Lee.
If they felt that they are being harassed or forced to join into the gay sexual activities, they can complained against them and let the police investigated into the matter.
Since 9 July when our series of articles The Secrets of the Glass Circle was published; revealing the dark sides of the gay scene here, we have received many calls from our hotlines condemning such wild and illegal activities and places.
Our reporters after receiving such information and conducted a thorough investigation had found out the increase in the opening of new saunas is actually to provide a place of convenience for gays.
Many readers felt that it is disgusting and urged to take action against such activities.
One reader responded saying that it seem that homosexuals are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex altogether. If the police do not take action now this will degrade our social morality.
End.
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 3
Lianhe Wanbao 11 July 2004 Sunday
ANOTHER GAY CLUB PROVIDES THAI BOYS
AS PROSTITUTES AND NUDE SHOW
To attract customers to the door, another gay club in the town had employed foreigners to perform disgusting strip-tease show and further offer 3 parts service.
The club called it the ¨shower boys〃 service providing showering and massage and extra service as customerˇs sex partner.
This club had a very simple frontage with bright opaque glass front door. Within the white painting you will never expect what is happening inside.
Informed sources said that since last month the club had started to bring in two gorgeous boys in their 20s to provide showering and massage services.
A foreign student confirmed such services when interviewed with our reporter.
The anonymous student told us that recently the club had bring in two young boys from Thailand.
They provide showering and massage services for customers and if required they can provide special service too. (you meant sex service�K?)�K..yes.
These shower boys came in once a month and there are two of them.
They not only provide services but also perform (�Kstrip-tease show you meant�K)�Kyes. They perform strip- tease show.
The club normally arranges a few sessions in a month.
One staff told our reporter that this is a new venture by the club and is very popular. Our boys are from Thailand, do you like foreign boys? Disgusting�K.
The club also published boldly on the web site about its strip-tease show and shower boys services.
Our reporter try getting in and was told by a staff that ¨Do you know what is this place? This is a gay club, you want to go in must be a member first.〃
The club is also providing photography service to customers who want to take nude pictures.
The club catered to those who like to take nude pictures but are unable to find a photographer to bring in extra income.
Customers can arrange with the club for the time and place for such photographs. But most of the time is within the club premise as background.
The club has its own photographer and customers can choose to take semi nude or full nude pictures.
According to a senior lawyer interviewed ( Miss Lee) the owner of such gay club had broken the law once they allowed men to men unnatural sex in their premise.
Sauna and massage service is very common and even in a men only club is not illegal. But if customers had unnatural sex inside the premise will constitute as illegal business and can be prosecuted.
Their license can be cancelled.
As for those accidental customers who patronised the club without knowing the activities can report to the police, suggested Miss Lee.
If they felt that they are being harassed or forced to join into the gay sexual activities, they can complained against them and let the police investigated into the matter.
Since 9 July when our series of articles The Secrets of the Glass Circle was published; revealing the dark sides of the gay scene here, we have received many calls from our hotlines condemning such wild and illegal activities and places.
Our reporters after receiving such information and conducted a thorough investigation had found out the increase in the opening of new saunas is actually to provide a place of convenience for gays.
Many readers felt that it is disgusting and urged to take action against such activities.
One reader responded saying that it seem that homosexuals are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex altogether. If the police do not take action now this will degrade our social morality.
End.
that is the last straw. i am so going to call up lianhe wanbao after this, and berate them and i'm so going to fucking call up all their so called 'counsellors' and screw them up properly so they bloody hell know that
NO!1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
NO!2. Influence of friends who are gay.
NO!3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
NO!4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
NO!5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
NO!6. Following fashion and trend.
NO!7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
NO!8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
fucking hell i was gay in pri 4!!!!!
NO!1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
NO!2. Influence of friends who are gay.
NO!3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
NO!4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
NO!5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
NO!6. Following fashion and trend.
NO!7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
NO!8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
fucking hell i was gay in pri 4!!!!!
i'll have u know that i m damn FUCKING PISSED!!!!!!!
translated:
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 1
Lianhe Wanbao 9 July 2004 Friday
CRAMPED IN A DARK ROOM OF A SAUNA GYM
50 MUSCULAR HUNKS PARTICIPATED IN MASS ORGY.
Forward
The relationship between the same sex is forever a controversial topic. Some feel that we should go with time and accept them while others cannot betray their conventional values and accept such same sex relationship.
Regardless of whether you can accept or not, it is unlawful for gays to expose, kiss, have intimate contact and indecent behaviour in public.
However many gays are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex in public parks, sea side, and even cemetery.
Our reporter have received information that these gays are shifting their playground recently.
After some investigation, we had found that some gyms and saunas in town are providing sex on demand convenience for men to men only.
Our reporter will be exposing such dark sides in the coming series of articles. And we will be inviting experts and readers to share their views.
End of Forward.
50 muscular hunks are cramping in a room to have mass orgy.
Downtown a men only gym and sauna is opening 24 hours, there are about 8000 membership. Informed sources said that the men are coming here on the pretext of gymning, sauna and de-stress but in actual fact is to have sex with other men.
A 40 over business man with many years of experience know as John revealed to us that the sauna is using different theme each night to attract customers. Their ages is between 18 to 60 years old.
Some are young gorgeous NS boys, others are retired personnel and all sort of people came here.
According to John there is a Jacuzzi with about 10 rooms inside.
Our reporter ask what is the rooms used for?
Used for doing that thing (ie man and man doing that thing)
One or many doing?
No limits as long as you like you can have 30 to 50 people inside having orgy.
We have all races participating in the orgy. When the light is off everyone rush into the room and it does not matter who is who in the pitch darkness.
Our reporter visited the place and found that the facade of the shop house is new and painted white obviously having gone through renovation.
The sauna is in a corner with a rainbow flag hanging outside. Behind is the entrance with two sides one for members, the other for non-members.
The business is best on weekends and every Wednesday when entry is free, attracting many locals and overseas visitors.
To John $12 entrance is a bit expensive. I know some only charged $8.
The place is in business since two years ago. The facilities included a gym, sauna, steam room, bar counter, sun tan deck, rest rooms, internet access, video room, dance room and a canteen.
This disguised sauna is offering different themes each night to attract different gays to come for fun.
The theme nights include Malay night on every Tuesday, chubs night on Friday and Indian night on Saturday.
For example on every Tuesday Malay night, Malays paid only $6 for single entry while others paid $12.
The place also conducts a foam party every Friday till the next morning.
The place also catered to the older gays. One of the room had a small opening to let these older gays who cannot find a match to watch others having fun inside the room.
According to sources, there is a big dark room inside with air-con. Once a gay had his prey will go into the dark room to have immoral activities including oral sex, anal intercourse and even mass orgy etc.
There is a 10 by 1 inches opening on the door to let the older gays to peep and satisfied themselves at the same time.
The place in keeping with time have it own web site to inform their customers. Our reporter did a search on the internet and found that the sauna had dare to put up its own web site. The web site is very informative, probably to attract foreign visitors and local gays.
The web site details all the facilities, special promotions, theme nights and entrance charges. There are nude pictures of men and men kissing men on the web site. Very daring.
Local psychiatrist said that gays having mass orgy is harmful and can transmit sexual diseases. POLICE SHOULD RAID SUCH PLACES.
A famous local psychiatrist revealed to our reporter that although Singapore is an open society but men to men sex is unnatural and against the law.
Such places in disguise are providing place of convenience for mass orgy is harmful to the body and mind.
The psychiatrist said that when everyone is high, taking drugs and alcohol will harm the body.
Gays in protecting their real identities, sexual inclination had given the operators opportunity to learn the pink dollars when they shifted their activities indoor.
Operators had found good profits in this business and while the authority are still not taking any action yet, the opening of such places had increased.
The police should take action to stop such sexual activities before they become a trend and run out of control.
End.
----------
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 2
Lianhe Wanbao 10 July 2004 Saturday
¨Downtown another gay club organised a full moon
nude orgy monthly. Gays from overseas flied in to join
the party.〃
Downtown a premier club is holding a nudist party on every full moon of the month. All men are to be in nude and it had attracted overseas gays to fly in to attend the party.
In this issue we are exposing another dark side of the gay saunas in Singapore. This is a club for over 18. We understand that this club is holding different theme nights and the most popular is the full moon party. This party is well received by both the local and overseas gays. Gays from Asia will fly in every month for this full moon party.
The most despising thing about this party is that all members had to removed their clothing and not even towels are allowed.
When interviewed outside the club, 27 years old Chris admitted that he is gay and he came to this club after work to de-stress himself. He is a designer.
Normally Chris came alone and look for suitable candidates but he does not insist.
Another skin head revealed that although he is gay but he had not much interest in gay sauna activities. The reason he is here is because of friends and he only spent an hour here. He preferred to find partners on the internet.
When asked whether any straights come to this club? His reply was hardly any, most of them here are gays.
We understand that the members here are mainly youngsters and many are still in the NS.
Over the two hours of observation our reporter had found out that the customers going in and out are mainly in their 20s wearing T-shirts and jeans. Our reporter had also spotted a few ang mos.
Some are lone ranger while others come in groups to seek for fun.
This club situated in the south of the town is very strict in the entry of customers and the attendants are very careful.
There are many doors and one leads to another and only when you had paid up the fees can you gain access inside.
Our reporter had tried to gain entry as foreigner but was rejected.
Our reporter first enquired about the charges and facilities and asked whether there is any special services provided. The counter staff insisted on our reporter to fill up a form and paid up the $10 membership fee before allowing in.
The counter staff had also asked our reporter for his IC and visa.
Our reporter requested for a preview before joining and was rejected by the guy who worn a ear ring at the counter.
On further enquiry the staff explained that this is a man only club and there are no ladies around. Repeated attempts to view the club facilities was rejected.
Do parents know that their children are visiting sex clubs?
According to a local senior counsellor she had some cases when parents seek help from them.
¨I have come across some parents who cannot accept their sons are gay and they are very worried and helpless as if this is the end of the world.〃
According to her years of experience in counselling the reasons for turning gay are:
1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
2. Influence of friends who are gay.
3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
6. Following fashion and trend.
7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
She had tried to understand their background and experience before giving the right counselling.
End.
translated:
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 1
Lianhe Wanbao 9 July 2004 Friday
CRAMPED IN A DARK ROOM OF A SAUNA GYM
50 MUSCULAR HUNKS PARTICIPATED IN MASS ORGY.
Forward
The relationship between the same sex is forever a controversial topic. Some feel that we should go with time and accept them while others cannot betray their conventional values and accept such same sex relationship.
Regardless of whether you can accept or not, it is unlawful for gays to expose, kiss, have intimate contact and indecent behaviour in public.
However many gays are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex in public parks, sea side, and even cemetery.
Our reporter have received information that these gays are shifting their playground recently.
After some investigation, we had found that some gyms and saunas in town are providing sex on demand convenience for men to men only.
Our reporter will be exposing such dark sides in the coming series of articles. And we will be inviting experts and readers to share their views.
End of Forward.
50 muscular hunks are cramping in a room to have mass orgy.
Downtown a men only gym and sauna is opening 24 hours, there are about 8000 membership. Informed sources said that the men are coming here on the pretext of gymning, sauna and de-stress but in actual fact is to have sex with other men.
A 40 over business man with many years of experience know as John revealed to us that the sauna is using different theme each night to attract customers. Their ages is between 18 to 60 years old.
Some are young gorgeous NS boys, others are retired personnel and all sort of people came here.
According to John there is a Jacuzzi with about 10 rooms inside.
Our reporter ask what is the rooms used for?
Used for doing that thing (ie man and man doing that thing)
One or many doing?
No limits as long as you like you can have 30 to 50 people inside having orgy.
We have all races participating in the orgy. When the light is off everyone rush into the room and it does not matter who is who in the pitch darkness.
Our reporter visited the place and found that the facade of the shop house is new and painted white obviously having gone through renovation.
The sauna is in a corner with a rainbow flag hanging outside. Behind is the entrance with two sides one for members, the other for non-members.
The business is best on weekends and every Wednesday when entry is free, attracting many locals and overseas visitors.
To John $12 entrance is a bit expensive. I know some only charged $8.
The place is in business since two years ago. The facilities included a gym, sauna, steam room, bar counter, sun tan deck, rest rooms, internet access, video room, dance room and a canteen.
This disguised sauna is offering different themes each night to attract different gays to come for fun.
The theme nights include Malay night on every Tuesday, chubs night on Friday and Indian night on Saturday.
For example on every Tuesday Malay night, Malays paid only $6 for single entry while others paid $12.
The place also conducts a foam party every Friday till the next morning.
The place also catered to the older gays. One of the room had a small opening to let these older gays who cannot find a match to watch others having fun inside the room.
According to sources, there is a big dark room inside with air-con. Once a gay had his prey will go into the dark room to have immoral activities including oral sex, anal intercourse and even mass orgy etc.
There is a 10 by 1 inches opening on the door to let the older gays to peep and satisfied themselves at the same time.
The place in keeping with time have it own web site to inform their customers. Our reporter did a search on the internet and found that the sauna had dare to put up its own web site. The web site is very informative, probably to attract foreign visitors and local gays.
The web site details all the facilities, special promotions, theme nights and entrance charges. There are nude pictures of men and men kissing men on the web site. Very daring.
Local psychiatrist said that gays having mass orgy is harmful and can transmit sexual diseases. POLICE SHOULD RAID SUCH PLACES.
A famous local psychiatrist revealed to our reporter that although Singapore is an open society but men to men sex is unnatural and against the law.
Such places in disguise are providing place of convenience for mass orgy is harmful to the body and mind.
The psychiatrist said that when everyone is high, taking drugs and alcohol will harm the body.
Gays in protecting their real identities, sexual inclination had given the operators opportunity to learn the pink dollars when they shifted their activities indoor.
Operators had found good profits in this business and while the authority are still not taking any action yet, the opening of such places had increased.
The police should take action to stop such sexual activities before they become a trend and run out of control.
End.
----------
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 2
Lianhe Wanbao 10 July 2004 Saturday
¨Downtown another gay club organised a full moon
nude orgy monthly. Gays from overseas flied in to join
the party.〃
Downtown a premier club is holding a nudist party on every full moon of the month. All men are to be in nude and it had attracted overseas gays to fly in to attend the party.
In this issue we are exposing another dark side of the gay saunas in Singapore. This is a club for over 18. We understand that this club is holding different theme nights and the most popular is the full moon party. This party is well received by both the local and overseas gays. Gays from Asia will fly in every month for this full moon party.
The most despising thing about this party is that all members had to removed their clothing and not even towels are allowed.
When interviewed outside the club, 27 years old Chris admitted that he is gay and he came to this club after work to de-stress himself. He is a designer.
Normally Chris came alone and look for suitable candidates but he does not insist.
Another skin head revealed that although he is gay but he had not much interest in gay sauna activities. The reason he is here is because of friends and he only spent an hour here. He preferred to find partners on the internet.
When asked whether any straights come to this club? His reply was hardly any, most of them here are gays.
We understand that the members here are mainly youngsters and many are still in the NS.
Over the two hours of observation our reporter had found out that the customers going in and out are mainly in their 20s wearing T-shirts and jeans. Our reporter had also spotted a few ang mos.
Some are lone ranger while others come in groups to seek for fun.
This club situated in the south of the town is very strict in the entry of customers and the attendants are very careful.
There are many doors and one leads to another and only when you had paid up the fees can you gain access inside.
Our reporter had tried to gain entry as foreigner but was rejected.
Our reporter first enquired about the charges and facilities and asked whether there is any special services provided. The counter staff insisted on our reporter to fill up a form and paid up the $10 membership fee before allowing in.
The counter staff had also asked our reporter for his IC and visa.
Our reporter requested for a preview before joining and was rejected by the guy who worn a ear ring at the counter.
On further enquiry the staff explained that this is a man only club and there are no ladies around. Repeated attempts to view the club facilities was rejected.
Do parents know that their children are visiting sex clubs?
According to a local senior counsellor she had some cases when parents seek help from them.
¨I have come across some parents who cannot accept their sons are gay and they are very worried and helpless as if this is the end of the world.〃
According to her years of experience in counselling the reasons for turning gay are:
1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
2. Influence of friends who are gay.
3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
6. Following fashion and trend.
7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
She had tried to understand their background and experience before giving the right counselling.
End.
Jun 22, 2004
Jun 21, 2004
having just watch extreme makeover, i feel inadequate. i think i'm need on an extreme makeover too. i want nicer hair! better skin (on its way now much thanks to dr loke) and i need a pectoral implants, a lot of workout and some magical muscles all over my body. then i would be drop dead gorgeous and i can proudly wear that shirt. before that i am just me. sigh. hahahah
people people i have amazing news! yesyes i passed my driving test! yay! i am so happy finally. 6 demerit points. but a pity it wasn't a first time pass. but still i've got my license nonetheless. so anybody wants me to drive them around yet? just hand me a car and i would be pleased to serve you (nahz).
well well i was reading through some old messages between me and him, specifically those a few days ago, and well, i thought i was really being unreasonable and ridiculous. sigh i mean of course i have my reasons for kicking up a big fuss, but on hind sight, i don't think they were valid reasons. oh well, gotta have a stronger mind than the heart. most of you guys should have known this by now, my heart rules my mind. sad sadz
anyway alanna, yesyes i do want to go and see P & G, but guess you caught it before me, wanna accompany me there again? i saw the reviews today and they seem great!!! hahah, yes the models too, like jiro, who's so droolsomely (ok i know this word doesn't exist but...) cute!!!!!! wonders whether will i ever get to be a coverboy... hrmmm
well well i was reading through some old messages between me and him, specifically those a few days ago, and well, i thought i was really being unreasonable and ridiculous. sigh i mean of course i have my reasons for kicking up a big fuss, but on hind sight, i don't think they were valid reasons. oh well, gotta have a stronger mind than the heart. most of you guys should have known this by now, my heart rules my mind. sad sadz
anyway alanna, yesyes i do want to go and see P & G, but guess you caught it before me, wanna accompany me there again? i saw the reviews today and they seem great!!! hahah, yes the models too, like jiro, who's so droolsomely (ok i know this word doesn't exist but...) cute!!!!!! wonders whether will i ever get to be a coverboy... hrmmm
Jun 20, 2004
i hate vicious cycles. because it is just so darn hard to break out of it. one thing leads to another, and that would affect something which would make things worse. wouldn't it be wonderful if everything could be in balance. i don't want to talk too much about it, i have not much energy to, but things are ok, don't worry. i think i am a terrible boyfriend sometimes. i don't know why but sometimes i just behave the way that i do. even though i know what is the correct way to do things, i just can't seem to convince myself. i am too pre-occupied with my own feelings, my own selfish feelings. i suck, i am a lousy boyfriend =( sigh.
Jun 19, 2004
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Jun 17, 2004
people look wot i've got.yesyes my new visa mini.haha alex got his too =) its sooo cute isn't it? but i really do think it is too small, quite easy to lose it. but wth, it looks too good and stylish and the perks are just amazing. so we got it. and guys guys i would ORDing 2 months earlier. ohmygod. isn't that like the best news in the world. i absolutely hate the SAF yes for those who intend to sign on DON'T there's is nothing nice at all. people sign on because they can do a single thing anywhere else. don't listen to all the crap they give you. really really. i just want to go start my own business and spend my time with him.... and not serving some country that doesn't even appreciate me. or accept that gays do exist and it ain't a crime!!!!!
Jun 15, 2004
Jun 13, 2004
well well, weekends are just so wierd without him. he had a busy time yesterday because of some dinner thingy, and today's plan had to be ditched last minute cos one of his close friends decided to hold a birthday celebration today. oh well. colin noted that most of my blog is about my love life, well how true. in fact i think i've mentioned this some time before. well he's a big part of my life, and there's nothing interesting anyway. there's only so much i can talk about bush before it gets really really boring. and my camp life, well no life to talk about.
i just realise that, ok maybe not just, but its something i have been thinking about. i can click well with most people, on the surface at least, but there's where it ends. as in, i find it absolutely impossible to get close to somebody without telling that person i am gay. i find it exceedingly hard to lie. so that explains my camp life and my school life. i can only get so close to people who don't know about my sexuality. so in camp, i am the sorta 'loner' not exactly cos i do hang around a couple of guys. and well, they are the more 'intellectual' sorts as in not nerds but people who would give an intelligent reply when we talk about a certain senior minister of a country south of malaysia and the peanuts farmer turned president guy. well get what i mean?
i am not advocating that the world should come out of the closet. but for me, i find it hard to stay in to people i am close to.
anyway i got him a mogu and quiksilver slippers for the 4th month. hahaha you should have seen his face when he saw the mogu, ahhhh so absolutely cute! *faints*
alanna: you ok? worried for you take care k....
i just realise that, ok maybe not just, but its something i have been thinking about. i can click well with most people, on the surface at least, but there's where it ends. as in, i find it absolutely impossible to get close to somebody without telling that person i am gay. i find it exceedingly hard to lie. so that explains my camp life and my school life. i can only get so close to people who don't know about my sexuality. so in camp, i am the sorta 'loner' not exactly cos i do hang around a couple of guys. and well, they are the more 'intellectual' sorts as in not nerds but people who would give an intelligent reply when we talk about a certain senior minister of a country south of malaysia and the peanuts farmer turned president guy. well get what i mean?
i am not advocating that the world should come out of the closet. but for me, i find it hard to stay in to people i am close to.
anyway i got him a mogu and quiksilver slippers for the 4th month. hahaha you should have seen his face when he saw the mogu, ahhhh so absolutely cute! *faints*
alanna: you ok? worried for you take care k....
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