爱情不能做比较
Sorry.
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certain things hurt so bad, they will never go away.
Aug 31, 2007
random pictures
this sign is in NTU, yeah NTU has HORRIFIC spelling.
yeah i noe its gross right!!!!!! its my neighbour's cactus
Aug 28, 2007
its almost 1am
its been like sooooooo long since i am still up at 1am rushing my work. gosh! and i was just blogging about how we used to do that. the irony of life.
well if 1am sounds early to you, i wake up at about 7.30 to 8 daily. yeah even on weekends. so that should put things into perspective. ever since jem happened! i've been sleeping at about 11ish. melbourne is 2 hours ahead (or 3 if its daylight saving)
too much work too much work
HELP
well if 1am sounds early to you, i wake up at about 7.30 to 8 daily. yeah even on weekends. so that should put things into perspective. ever since jem happened! i've been sleeping at about 11ish. melbourne is 2 hours ahead (or 3 if its daylight saving)
too much work too much work
HELP
Aug 25, 2007
Aug 22, 2007
我要的只是你在我身边
school somehow drains me. i sleep well, i get about 7 to 8 hours daily i wake up bright and early at 8am mostly. but school takes it toll on me. i get rather tired by the end of the day that i don't feel like partaking in much activities.
school is picking up and going to be incredibly busy. many research to do. much more projects on my lap than i can perhaps handle and i still have to make time for tuition and some freelance work (hey they pay the bills) in between all this there are still much more administrative stuff to do.
i fondly remember a conversation with one of my old project group mate that it seems that CS students are just like that. this is of course not discounting our 'darling' engineers or what have you. but oftentimes CS students just seems to have so many things on our plate, of course i am generalizing here, but really. some people even handle volunteer work and dance classes and all. and we pull through.
but sometimes i wonder how we pull through. late nights in schools for projects, for chitchat, for studying. rushing madly to finish up editing, then rushing home for dinner. the days! gosh.
i have 3 massive projects, one of which involves a 40 page, 10'000 word report (this excludes references, tables, graphs) another involves many pages and a physical campaign, 2 research papers for professor. did i mention my freelance work??????
school is picking up and going to be incredibly busy. many research to do. much more projects on my lap than i can perhaps handle and i still have to make time for tuition and some freelance work (hey they pay the bills) in between all this there are still much more administrative stuff to do.
i fondly remember a conversation with one of my old project group mate that it seems that CS students are just like that. this is of course not discounting our 'darling' engineers or what have you. but oftentimes CS students just seems to have so many things on our plate, of course i am generalizing here, but really. some people even handle volunteer work and dance classes and all. and we pull through.
but sometimes i wonder how we pull through. late nights in schools for projects, for chitchat, for studying. rushing madly to finish up editing, then rushing home for dinner. the days! gosh.
i have 3 massive projects, one of which involves a 40 page, 10'000 word report (this excludes references, tables, graphs) another involves many pages and a physical campaign, 2 research papers for professor. did i mention my freelance work??????
Aug 18, 2007
Aug 16, 2007
Aug 15, 2007
what about me?
what about me?
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a blog i read said something and i thought that it is indeed so true:
"It’s scary how fast change is today. Yesterday i can say i love you, today i can scream at you for the slightest stupid mistake you made. I even saw people’s feelings change towards each other within hours. It’s alarming, i’d say. I saw how a promise made 24 years ago turn into dust as time rubs away traces of those words uttered. It’s sad, to say the least."
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there are some emails that i receive that i appreciate:
If we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the loved ones we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own loved ones,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
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a blog i read said something and i thought that it is indeed so true:
"It’s scary how fast change is today. Yesterday i can say i love you, today i can scream at you for the slightest stupid mistake you made. I even saw people’s feelings change towards each other within hours. It’s alarming, i’d say. I saw how a promise made 24 years ago turn into dust as time rubs away traces of those words uttered. It’s sad, to say the least."
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there are some emails that i receive that i appreciate:
If we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the loved ones we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own loved ones,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
Aug 12, 2007
its been awhile
hey all of you. its been awhile hasn't it? I've back safe and sound. the qantas flight back was much better than the flight there! there's quite a few things that i want to say but i am just deprived of energy to sit down and blog about it properly.
i'm good. how's everyone???
love to all, and especially you.
i'm good. how's everyone???
love to all, and especially you.
Aug 9, 2007
oh, its national day.
its just another day where we raise our leaders on a pedestal and go on endlessly about our motherland and what a long way we've come. together with synchronized dances and parades and a show of might. oh well.
in other news, did anyone catch those snippets of north korea where their dear leader is standing watching the troops march past and despite having such immense famine, they spend so much money celebrating with dances and parades and all??
in other news, did anyone catch those snippets of north korea where their dear leader is standing watching the troops march past and despite having such immense famine, they spend so much money celebrating with dances and parades and all??
Aug 1, 2007
Jul 25, 2007
follow the rotating pink dots
[ps: click on the image to load it fully after reading the instructions! you won't miss out, trust me]
If your eyes follow the movement of the rotating pink dot, the dots will remain
only one color, pink.
However if you stare at the black " + " in the center, the moving dot turns to green.
Now, concentrate on the black " + " in the center of the picture. After a short period, all the pink dots will slowly disappear, and you will only see only a single green dot rotating.
Jul 24, 2007
10 more days
before i have to face up to reality and take the long dreaded journey alone, back.
back to my bed. back to where you become a virtual reality for me.
back to my bed. back to where you become a virtual reality for me.
Jul 16, 2007
Jul 5, 2007
scandals of the $ingapore government!
we all know about our government and their thinly veiled attempt to cover their asses. they have gone one step further!
Prison authorities withheld letter from man given extra strokes
The ministries have basically ignored calls for explanations or given vague and non-enlightening answers to issues such as:
1. The termination of playwright Alfian Sa’at’s position as a relief teacher in a secondary school.
2. The losses incurred in the UNSW debacle
3. The losses incurred in the Shin Corp saga
4. How ex-NKF chairman Richard Yong managed to give the authorities the slip and abscond
5. Investments of the GIC
6. The 5 day work week issue, particularly for teachers
7. Why the EDB was never audited by the Auditor General for 46 years before this year
8. Why are all voting sheets indexed?
9. Why do people who voted for the opposition party gets visit from the PAP
10. Why when shop-owner in opposition estate voice disagreement about PAP, they get their license revoked coincidentally?
FUCK lah. democracy leads the the tyranny of the majority. what about people like me who don't even get to vote! why? what about people who CHOSE that do not want such a tyrannical and opaque government.
the usual, read the online citizen
Prison authorities withheld letter from man given extra strokes
The ministries have basically ignored calls for explanations or given vague and non-enlightening answers to issues such as:
1. The termination of playwright Alfian Sa’at’s position as a relief teacher in a secondary school.
2. The losses incurred in the UNSW debacle
3. The losses incurred in the Shin Corp saga
4. How ex-NKF chairman Richard Yong managed to give the authorities the slip and abscond
5. Investments of the GIC
6. The 5 day work week issue, particularly for teachers
7. Why the EDB was never audited by the Auditor General for 46 years before this year
8. Why are all voting sheets indexed?
9. Why do people who voted for the opposition party gets visit from the PAP
10. Why when shop-owner in opposition estate voice disagreement about PAP, they get their license revoked coincidentally?
FUCK lah. democracy leads the the tyranny of the majority. what about people like me who don't even get to vote! why? what about people who CHOSE that do not want such a tyrannical and opaque government.
the usual, read the online citizen
Jun 29, 2007
Jun 21, 2007
the only way
i think the only way for any of us to feel better, and to stop feeling like a lesser citizen is to not see singapore as a country. but rather to see singapore as $ingapore. $ingapore is a business. As a thriving business, $ingapore has to be cold, ruthless, heartless and uncaring. why should a business spend money on the poor, the elderly, and the handicap, they don't contribute to the business but they are COST. A good business must always minimize COST and maximize REVENUE and PROFIT.
so as a business, $ingapore cares the most for the upper and the middle-upper class because they contribute the most. and morales of the employees of a company you say? what better way to boost morale than to make them work longer hours so that they have no time to care about morale. if they don't work, they can't even survive.
exactly the makings of a good business.
so people, stop thinking of singapore as country and wonder when the government would do something for you. instead see $ingapore as a business and realize that everything is about money here. if foreigners are cheaper and can make the bottomline lower, well hello foreigner and get lost you supposed citizen.
suddenly i feel disgusted by our national anthem and all those songs we sing during national day. makes me want to boo it the next time it comes up.
so as a business, $ingapore cares the most for the upper and the middle-upper class because they contribute the most. and morales of the employees of a company you say? what better way to boost morale than to make them work longer hours so that they have no time to care about morale. if they don't work, they can't even survive.
exactly the makings of a good business.
so people, stop thinking of singapore as country and wonder when the government would do something for you. instead see $ingapore as a business and realize that everything is about money here. if foreigners are cheaper and can make the bottomline lower, well hello foreigner and get lost you supposed citizen.
suddenly i feel disgusted by our national anthem and all those songs we sing during national day. makes me want to boo it the next time it comes up.
moment of the day
this gets filed in the moment of the day, or bimbotic moment #n... except it wasn't done by ME!! hahaha guess who was the one, come on. hahaha
so we were in the lab today where he had to scan in this document, and after a few scans, the scans juts did not get through, so we concluded that perhaps the scanner is spoiled and decided to take out the document to change computer only to realize that there was no document there after all.
hahahaha. sounds like something I would do??? who are you kidding!!!!
in other news, melbourne is SOOOO COLD, i am freezing my ass off. it is 8 degrees here in the DAY, but the windchill factor makes it feel like 3 degrees (according to www.accuweather.com)
so we were in the lab today where he had to scan in this document, and after a few scans, the scans juts did not get through, so we concluded that perhaps the scanner is spoiled and decided to take out the document to change computer only to realize that there was no document there after all.
hahahaha. sounds like something I would do??? who are you kidding!!!!
in other news, melbourne is SOOOO COLD, i am freezing my ass off. it is 8 degrees here in the DAY, but the windchill factor makes it feel like 3 degrees (according to www.accuweather.com)
Jun 18, 2007
Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
9 more hours before i board the plane, 16 more before i see you again. and here is where it all started
Jun 16, 2007
"If you care too much about Singapore, first it’ll break your spirit, and finally it will break your heart."
"If you care too much about Singapore, first it’ll break your spirit, and finally it will break your heart." - Alfian Saat
and the saddest part about that is that it is true, most true. whenever i have conversations with my friends, close ones or otherwise, the most often heard remark to my concerns are "why do you care, there is nothing that you can do anyway." and indeed no matter how much the government tries to pull any wool over our eyes that we can make a difference, we all know that nothing we do can change anything.
like mr wang said, does anyone sincerely believe that our government is working for our good? we have to pay them millions to make them work, not because they are patriotic and genuinely want to make things better.
in fact, the most depressing thing is that people whom sincerely wants to make singapore place will be crushed, in one way or another. and when you get past the government, there's still the minority religious conservatives.
in so many ways i hate singapore. the only reason why i am even going to stay here is only because of my family and friends. singapore stifles you, makes your life unbreathable. holds you by the neck and demand that you be a good slave. a good dog. bark as you are commanded and your life will be good.
and our government still wonders why singaporeans are so apathetic. isn't this what they want? "yes sir yes sir 3 bags full"
and the saddest part about that is that it is true, most true. whenever i have conversations with my friends, close ones or otherwise, the most often heard remark to my concerns are "why do you care, there is nothing that you can do anyway." and indeed no matter how much the government tries to pull any wool over our eyes that we can make a difference, we all know that nothing we do can change anything.
like mr wang said, does anyone sincerely believe that our government is working for our good? we have to pay them millions to make them work, not because they are patriotic and genuinely want to make things better.
in fact, the most depressing thing is that people whom sincerely wants to make singapore place will be crushed, in one way or another. and when you get past the government, there's still the minority religious conservatives.
in so many ways i hate singapore. the only reason why i am even going to stay here is only because of my family and friends. singapore stifles you, makes your life unbreathable. holds you by the neck and demand that you be a good slave. a good dog. bark as you are commanded and your life will be good.
and our government still wonders why singaporeans are so apathetic. isn't this what they want? "yes sir yes sir 3 bags full"
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