something shocking happened today, i think i bumped into my ex. i saw this (cute) guy in cchs pe t-shirt - he caught my eye cos it was the same sch my ex was in - then i realised that guy looked alot like my ex. the diff is prob that he is taller. honestly i was quite shocked. i really wanted to go back up to see if he indeed is my ex but my fren stopped me, reminding me that i am suppose to hate him. its not that i am liking him or anything, but it is not easy to hate and i don't really hate people.

its been so long and i have finally got the answers. not exactly answers that i want to hear, but answers nonetheless. i must say that it is never easy to come to terms with something, even though it was quite obvious all along. its like the feeling of emptiness, like the entire heart just collapsed into itself and the excessive grief caused such immense gravitational force that it pulls itself into a black hole.

its not all that bad though. after a while, it feels great, a sense of release. like the emotional bondage is broken. it helps to have a really cute and sweet friend by my side doing excessively nice things for me =P.