i hate myself. i saw my friends picture of them in australia, after a flight, and i missed it so much. ARGH why did i have to get this stupid injury. now i can't fly anymore. NOT ever and it just kinda stinks cos i almost went with my coursemates. but here i am waiting for university. my future just took a 180 degrees change.

whatever convinced me to convince myself? its all nonsense. i guess i can never live with this. i lost. i suck and i hate myself. ARGH!