its all over. its all over. i am not strong when it comes down to this. i am so weak.

i couldn't get up properly today. i lay in my bed and thoughts of everything came rushing in. i tried to get out, but i can't. i had to drag myself out of bed to work. my client came and we did the video all the way till midnight. he left. and you left.

tears started running again. how can i just let it go? how can i? after what happened. is it all my fault?

its so painful. its so painful.