being gay has always meant the same few things, the stereotype. pride - being proud to be gay, shame - ashamed to be gay. fanciful clothes, good looking, gym going, know the difference between micro-dermabrasion and exfoliation, can tell you which eye cream is the best for you, and will never be seen without his hair done. your stereotypical gay guy.

and most of us live for now. the present. at most we live for the immediate future because is there really a future? the saddest thing about being gay is the fact that we can't have children. well i know that many straight couple and straight people do not have children too but stay with me.

we all die, and we all will. sooner or later. whether we accept it or not, we are all dead afraid of being dead (pun intended). even if you have a life partner, so what, at one point in time, one will move on before the other and all that is left in the world is just you. alone.

the scariest thing about death is that you have to do it alone.

at least memory lives on, yes that is true. we are physically gone, but our spirits may remain and memories never fades. but at some point in time, everybody that remembers you would have been dead, and that is when you are truly dead. when you don't exist in anyone memories anymore.

what does having a children entail? the ability to immortalizes ourselves. so that we live on in our children. so that we live something behind.

is that the biggest punishment for being gay?