on channel 8 news, may 2nd 10pm

1st news: gomez on cctv, with PAP candidate and supporter claiming that he heard gomez seriously joking that it was all an act. he could not confirm though (negative)

2nd news: lee ask low to sack gomez, claimed gomez did it on purpose. said it shows something wrong with their character. (negative) - wait till you guys read www.escapefromparadise.com (6 minutes for the 1st 2 news)

3rd news: gomez said that discreditation news will be on everyday (neutral) - 10seconds

4th news: low said gomez mistake was purely unintentional. clarified that gomez was never going into amk. added that gomez apology is final. said that there were bigger issues. (factual) - 1minute

5th news: SM goh defended the FTA, claimed that while WP candidates have paper qualification, they may not have the calibre (neutral) - 20 seconds

6th news: DPM wong accuses gomez did on purpose, trying to undermine the electoral department. low cannot just brush it aside(negative) - 1minute

7th news: Yeo said that gomez in undermining the integrity of the system. Lim said WP should have more transparency in their working. - oh my, do they really wanna go that far to demand??. Yeo found it very strange that sylvia lim kept silent. accuses that is is "troubling silence" (negative) - 2 minutes

8th news: CCK SMC PAP candidate claimed he will have more upgrading (interim?) and quickly resolves problems. help the elderly (positive for PAP). 30seconds

9th news: CCK SMC SDA. #bad lighting in footage# wants to have policy to help children take care of eldery. (positive for SDA) 20seconds

10th news: Yacob said raising money takes too much time. said that the most important way to help the poor is to improve the economy. promises upgrading (positive for PAP)

11th news: Khaw - PAP said the most important way to campaign is to go door to door visit. said SDP does not knock on their doors, accuses SDP for having internal strife, and that it is dangerous for singapore to have a govt like SDP (positive for PAP, negative for SDP) - 1 minute

12th news: newbies VS old guards. WP newbies does not feel disadvantaged. SDA refutes the accusation of high qualification, low calibre allegation (neutral) - 1 minute

13th news: SDA is asking for minimum wage system (positive for SDA) - 20seconds

14th news: WP talks about the fact that singaporeans have CPF but very little to spend during retirement (factual, positive for WP)

15th news: #good lighting% PAP accuses that progress package can be kissed away without good economic progress. unlike proposed by SDA. said chiam is still working while he is an MP. (negative for SDA)

#1st break#

16th news: PAP said its good that our union is tied down to the government, so we can fight for higher wages. regarding the labour day speech #covered during yesterday news as well# (positive for PAP)

17th news: survey shows GOOD economic prospect in Singapore (positive for singapore government)

pictures u don't get to see because mediacorp and ST's camera were not working in their best conditioned.

*images were scoured from the web

PAP May 01 Hougang Rally



Workers Party Apr 30 Hougang Rally



Workers Party May 01 Joo Chiat, it was raining



Workers Party Kampong Glam.



this were all i could scour online, other parties crowd attendance could not be found at time of publishing.

alternatively, you could go to www.sgrally.com to see.

just like lucky tan, i like to read wikipedia too!


From Wikipedia
Character assassination is an intentional attempt to influence the portrayal or reputation of a particular person, whether living or a historical personage, in such a way as to cause others to develop an extremely negative, unethical or unappealing perception of him or her. By its nature, it involves deliberate exaggeration or manipulation of facts to present an untrue picture of the targeted person. For living individuals, this can cause the target to be rejected by his or her community, family, or members of his or her living or work environment. Such acts are typically very difficult to reverse or rectify, therefore the process is correctly likened to a literal assassination of a human life. The damage sustained can be life-long, or for historical personages, last for many centuries after their death.


In practice, character assassination usually consists of the spreading of rumors and deliberate misinformation on topics relating to one's morals, integrity, and reputation.

In politics, perhaps the most common form of character assassination is the spread of allegations that a candidate is a liar. Other common themes may include allegations that the candidate is a bad or unpopular member of his family, has a bad relationship with his spouse or children, is disrespected by his former co-workers, or routinely engages in disturbing, socially unacceptable behavior, such as sexual deviancy.

to quote lucky tan

"Wikipedia is so interesting isn't it?

Just to add, I would like to say that Singaporeans are so lucky to be living in a 1st World country where politicians conduct themselves in a gentlemanly manner and focus on the issues that matters most to Singaporeans. They don't engage in dirty politics such as character assasination which only takes place in 3rd world countries."

i really want you guys to read mr. brown!

http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/05/different_camer.html

i really want you guys to read mr. brown!

http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/05/different_camer.html

that day i went to the foodcourt, i saw so many cleaners, most were above 50 years old. at my coffeeshop at block 651, all the cleaners were very old. at holland village thereabouts, there's this coffeeshop and the cleaners were very old too. but they must be very happy to be cleaning at such an old age. they must be in the pink of health. unlike other old people in other countries who take vacation when they are old and have saved enough money to do volunteer work and travel the world. such old people must not be happy at all, they can't contribute by working at 60 years old.

i want to be just like these old people, so happy to be cleaning tables and toilets and selling tissues at 80! i remember this show the last time, where this cleaner had to work because if she don't work, she would have no money and our efficient country cannot give money to her although she has failing kidneys and a retarded mother. but i am quite sure that most of our cleaner elderly are not in similar condition whereby if they don't work, they will have no money. i am sure that they are working because the love to clean toilets! and love to contribute to the society.

by the way, our prime minister lee just spoke at the NTUC 45th anniversary. he said he saw 2 aunties about 83 years old, one was frying fried oyster egg (oh-lua) and the other, noodles.

i feel like a caged bird. you didn't believe me right, see i told you so. i have to avoid all areas. so fair right.

you can go everywhere you want to go, but i can't. i can't even EAT. its so fucking misogynistic. its not even that i want to go or anything. i didn't even want to go clubbing, its just that my friend wants to eat. EAT FOOD.

i can't. i can't. i can't. but said person can go clubbing, can go out with random internet personnels. but i can't. so fucking misogynistic

FUCKED UP!

my wet dream just came true, all 17 inch of it
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i just finish part one of packing my room, which is mostly filing notes and sending the useless paper for recycling.

phase 2 will consist of clearing my closet and digging out all those unwanted things to recycle.

phase 3 will be filing all my letters properly into different files.

i have too much ghee lurking in my tummy. i need to swim more and more sit-ups. target, 100 crunches and 100 push-ups per alternate night for the 1st week of my hols.

on another note, i wrote to the forum again, not sure if it will get published, but yeah

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I refer to the recent slew of election news coverage. It has been cited by many ministers that it is only right that upgrading be given to supporters of PAP first, and that the opposition wards should be the last in line.

The rationale given, according to my understanding, is that lift upgrading is presented in the manifesto, proposed by the PAP ministers and hence they should look after the residents in the PAP ward first.

While there is nothing inherently wrong with this rationale, it leaves the impression that some Singaporeans are more equal than others.

Section 12 of the Constitution guarantees the equality of all Singaporeans.

As lawful Singaporeans that pay all their taxes, it would difficult to comprehend the rationale of being last in line, rather than random lot drawing to decide which estate should be entitled to upgrading

In the parliament sitting in September 21, 2004, Mr Cedric Foo said that all town councils are free to carry out their lift upgrading, however they cannot finance solely or substantially from the town council fund. Mr Chiam replied that he had enough funds, just over $2million and not $12million as proposed by Mr Foo. HDB granted the request but did not allow the lifts to stop at every floor.

This incident and various news in recent times over funding and priority would no doubt leave many residents in the opposition ward feeling less than an equal Singaporean just because they are in the opposition ward.

If this is the trend, are we to expect other situations residents in the opposition wards are not privy to?

As the government of our country, party politics should not be tangled up with national politics. After all Singapore is a unique country, that focuses on Asian values; just because other countries like England, Australia and America governments look after their supporter first, does not mean we have follow their western paradigm.

In the run up to elections, focusing on the party cause is to be expected, however after the assumption of seats in Parliament, the country should be run as an entire nation without splitting into opposition or supporters.

Over the decades, Singaporeans have placed their trust and confidence in a government priding itself on its governance and impartiality. It would be unthinkable that such impartiality were to be compromised in view of party aspirations

this looked like fun so i did it.

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
Timmy Thomas - Dying Inside to Hold You (Charming)

Will I have a happy life?
MEST - Without You (this can't be true...)

What do my friends really think of me?
The Wallflowers - Three Marlenas

Do people secretly lust after me?
Dave Matthews Band - Crash Into Me (right... i seee)

How can I make myself happy?
Third Eye Blind - Jumper (so encouraging huh)

What should I do with my life?
Death Cab of Cutie - The Sound of Settling (do i see a trend here?)

Will I ever have children?
Gwen Stefanie - Cool (so what is that suppose to mean?)

What is some good advice for me?
Billie Myers - Kiss The Rain

How will I be remembered?
Broken Social Scene - Fire Eye'd Boy

What is my signature dancing song?
Sugar Ray - Mr Bartender (not really...)

What do I think my current theme song is?
Frou Frou - Psychobabble

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Cher - It's in Hiss Kiss

What song will play at my funeral?
JJ Lim - Shakespeare's Talent

What type of men/women do I like?
Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc
Emil Chou and Qi Yu - Tian Xia You Qing Ren

What is my day going to be like?
Simply Red - Sunrise

i would just like to state a disclaimer for this page.

This page practises self-censorship. The enlightened viewer can choose not read this page if he/she feels uncomfortable with the content that deals with sensitive issues such as human rights, personal rights and assorted life events

By ignoring this statement and reading onwards, you have given up all rights to be offended by this page and at no point in time, will you be allowed to voice your unhappiness and/or discontent.

don't you just hate two sided people who just have to pretend to be 'it'. so what if you are not the 'it' one, does it really matter. it is just so irritating to have "oh my god they rock, they are so good" then on another occasion it just becomes "they suck its crappy" just at the turn of the head. just because. just because of the extreme desire to be extremely different. no rhyme or reason. if they have it, its "so cool" or "its so hot", but when someone else has it, it suddenly becomes (cue affected tone) "thats so 2 hours ago"

its just bothers me that it is not casual for self entertainment bitching. its so two faced. gross. at least when i say something, i say the same behind the person's back and in front of the person. painfully honest yeah, but at least that much less hypocritical

reading about deforestation really gets to you. coupled with being bruised in exams, really dampens the mood. i left early simply because there was nothing else to write. everything i knew i wrote, i could not have arm-twisted any more facts out of my brain.

simply fell apart last night from studying. screamed my head off. first time i lost my head mugging huh. and the most embarassing thing was that halfway through the exams, i realised i didn't study one chapter. one out of 10. 10% gone. the girl next to me almost handed up a blank script.

double major in psych still?

i swear that this is the first i felt so dumbfounded as i sat there and digested the exam questions. i was motionless for about 5 minutes and i realised i don't have too much time to think. It was all within expectations, but the questions were so specific its hard to wring your way and arm-twist an argument without having concrete facts as required by the exams.

hope i do well. i absolutely cannot get a B, if i must endeavour on with my double major (which is nothing like SMU's double degree where they have overlapping modules) i need a helluva 13 extra modules which means i need to chalk up 29 more credits than normal people before i get my 2nd major, this also means i have to overload each semester and max out my summer sessions.

fantastic aei?

The funniest ms swan video i've seen to date

exams started yesterday. an alright start i must say. but i SUed the subject, so it doesn't really matter. Its just Satisfactory/Unsatisfactory. No ABCDEF to freak me out. I am too concerned about my grades. I went hysterical knowing i got a B for my term paper and presentation, but i was very upset because i don't think i deserve a B, it is the worse grade i've got. B. my only other B was an annotated biblio i did the night before; others spent weeks doing it. so i derserved that B. but for this, its just intsructor bias. She hates my political view, she says i am cynical, therefore i don't deserve an A. is it a crime to be cynical? am i not the product of this country that made me so anti-establishment, so cynical. i could murder that bitch. i must get my A!!!!! if i don't get 4.2 and above for this GPA and don't make dean's list i think i would just go and hang myself.

why? because all my fucking friends are scholars who are overseas. if they are in singapore they are all lawyers or people with 4.7 for their GPA in SMU they get 3.9. They have their own cars and mansions and i am just freaking loser. not because my parents can't provide for me (i will always provide for myself, if my dad can't afford a car, i'll get my own when i work)

pardon me, exam stress. a strange classmate who gets better grades than me told a friend that he thinks i am smart. i can play, i can skip lessons and i get my grades. he claims he's just a mugger. you know how i wish i was perfect. good skin, good figure, play fantastic guitar get my good grades and have a life too. i want to do everything. rich doesn't count because that is parents, i don't want to depend on my parents for my own narcissistic desires.

and every fucking single day of my life, i will kick myself in the ass for having a slipped disc. for not being able to be the pilot that i could be. and every single fucking day, seeing everyone with their wings on, hearing the plane roar past, hear all the amazing stories, i will feel that slightest want to just tear.

I quote you section 12 of the Constitution of The Republic of Singapore

Equal protection
12. ?(1) All persons are equal before the law and entitled to the equal protection of the law.
(2) Except as expressly authorised by this Constitution, there shall be no discrimination against citizens of Singapore on the ground only of religion, race, descent or place of birth in any law or in the appointment to any office or employment under a public authority or in the administration of any law relating to the acquisition, holding or disposition of property or the establishing or carrying on of any trade, business, profession, vocation or employment.
(3) This Article does not invalidate or prohibit ?
(a) any provision regulating personal law; or
(b) any provision or practice restricting office or employment connected with the affairs of any religion, or of an institution managed by a group professing any religion, to persons professing that religion.

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Everybody is fair and equal it seems,

So when PM Lee says "Whenever it comes to upgrading between the PAP and the opposition ward, it has to be the PAP first or else how do we explain to voters that they supported us and we did not pay attention to their needs? So that remains the policy. In Hougang and Potong Pasir, I think both Eric and Sitoh have ideas on what they want to do for their constituencies and these ideas include upgrading."

here http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/198692/1/.html

and SM Goh says :"My own view is Hougang should be upgraded, otherwise another five years, another 10 years, it would become rather derelict compared to other estates in Singapore."

"He is worried that the opposition wards of Hougang and Potong Pasir would be left behind. "
"After that, we got to ask ourselves whether the estate is worthwhile upgrading. I'm talking about Lorong 8. By then, the estate would be around 35 years old and the lease is only 99 years, so economically, is it worthwhile?
"My own view is Hougang should be upgraded, otherwise another five years, another 10 years, it would become rather derelict compared to other estates in Singapore."

here http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/199982/1/.html

and here http://sg.news.yahoo.com/060326/5/singapore199982.html

it sounded as if the opposition wards will not get any upgrades and will be less likely to be in line for government subsidies

everytime i watch the news or read the news the more disappointed i get. i get increasingly angry and totally fed-up. ain't the media suppose to report the news and not fabricate it? or angle it such that obviously someone is better off than the others. what is the point. OMG!

the frequency of my posting have not been amazing huh. oh well, life's an endless routine of mundanes with hilarious nuggets of scenes flashing in between on the long trecherous journey to death. exams are just around the bend, i mean seriously if you peeked over the corner, you can see my papers lining up. like those armarda of army contingents from world war 1. no rest in sight. and to top it up, i am feeling sick!

i can't take all this alone. i am not superman. i need somebody too.

"I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream

It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It’s not easy to be me" - Superman, Five for Fighting

something that always disturbs me to no end is how certain people can actually say that the killing as humane. As if killing can ever be humane. What exactly is humane; if humane means compassion as only a human can show, then i suppose its not that far off since humans are the only ones that can torture abuse and kill another fellow human, and/or animals without feeling anything about it.

i think the only species that ever deserves to go extinct is human. May we all kill ourselves soon so that the earth can be in peace once again.

i m happy.

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some shows like 'my brother' can really move any man to tears. its so amazing, how such a simple show can be so powerful. sob sob.

As taken off sgforums here http://politics.sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=100015&page=0

July 2004

POTONG PASIR TOWN CENTRE
(Lift Upgrading Programme)

8. Mr Chiam See Tong asked the Minister for National Development whether, in the light of the recent National Day Rally speech where the Prime Minister said that Singapore must take good care of its senior citizens, his Ministry will now allow the Potong Pasir Town Council to make lifts stop at every floor in all the blocks of flats that are currently undergoing the town council's Lift Upgrading Programme.

The Minister of State for National Development (Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng) (for the Minister for National Development): Mr Speaker, Sir, all town councils, including the Potong Pasir Town Council, are free to carry out their own Lift Upgrading Programme which may include providing for lift access on every floor. What they cannot do is to finance such major upgrading works solely or substantially from town council funds. Let me explain.

Town councils (TCs) are largely funded by service and conservancy charges (S&CC) collected from residents as well as grants from the Government. The Government has to ensure that TCs use these funds prudently for the benefit of the majority of their residents over the long term. This is why TCs are required by the Town Councils Act to lock away 30% to 35% of their funds into a sinking fund, to ensure that they have adequate funds in the long term to do major cyclical works like repainting, re-roofing, replacing lifts and replacing water-supply systems. The remaining 65% to 70% of the funds are used for routine operating expenditure, such as cleaning, repairs and utility charges.

Lift upgrading works which will enable lifts to stop at every floor are major structural upgrading. They are very costly. Town councils' funds are neither intended nor adequate for this purpose. Therefore, under the Government's Lift Upgrading Programme, town councils fund only a small portion of the total cost and the bulk of the cost is borne by the Government.

Mr Chiam See Tong (Potong Pasir): Sir, I have got two supplementary questions for the Minister of State. What are the reasons for HDB in not allowing lifts to stop at every floor at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh, of the Potong Pasir Constituency? And will HDB Lift Upgrading Programme be implemented at Potong Pasir estate?

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, as I said earlier, town councils are free to do major upgrading programme for the lifts, including providing for lifts to stop at every floor. However, the town councils cannot use town council's funds to substantially finance such upgrading works. If I may refer the Member to the Potong Pasir Town Council's accounts, just as an example. Potong Pasir has a balance of $8 million in its sinking fund. If he does the cyclical repairs for the 12 blocks that he is right now doing, it will cost him $4 million. So he would have $4 million left. But if he were to do upgrading in a manner which allows lifts to stop at every floor, that would cost another $12 million for this LUP, which means he will be short of $8 million. So the Potong Pasir Town Council really does not have sufficient balance in its sinking fund to do major lift upgrading works.

Sir, the Member's second question is whether or not Potong Pasir Town Council will get the Government's Lift Upgrading Programme. To-date, the Government has done about 600 blocks of LUP and there are about 3,000 eligible blocks remaining. So we have completed roughly 17%. Lift upgrading is selected based on several criteria, ie, the block configuration, the needs of the residents, the geographical spread, and also the degree of support from the residents. We need to bear in mind that it is the whole range of Government policies and programmes that bring about budget surpluses that allow us to do such improvement programmes. Hence, all things being equal, residents who support and vote for the Government policies would be given higher priority in upgrading.

Mr Chiam See Tong: With due respect to the Minister of State, I have been the Chairman of the Potong Pasir Town Council for 15 years now. And I think we know what funds can be used for lift upgrading and what funds cannot be used. I can assure the Minister of State that we do have sufficient funds in the sinking fund to carry out both our Lift Upgrading Programme at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh, and also the R&R works that we are going to do at Potong Pasir estate. Of course, we have to get permission from HDB to do our lift upgrading at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh. But the HDB specifically says, "Ok, you can go ahead and do lift upgrading.", but they do not allow us to make the lifts to stop at every floor. So I want to know what is the reason. We do not spend $12 million, as the Minister has said. The lift upgrading for 29 lifts only cost us just over $2 million. I do not know where he gets his figures from.

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, as I said earlier, the town councils are free to do lift upgrading, including providing for lift access to every floor. What it cannot do is to use the sinking fund for such major structural works which include lift stops at every floor. And this is quite plain. Sinking fund is provided for all sorts of cyclical works, not just lift upgrading works. It could be replacement of lifts, water systems, and so forth. So if a particular town council were to use its sinking fund purely to do major structural upgrading works, like allowing lifts to stop at every floor, then it would be an inappropriate use of the sinking fund. Just a back-of-the-envelope calculation, for a 4-room flat, the Member would know that we collect about $50 per month for S&CC. So multiply that by 12, it is about $600 a year. And if one-third of $600 is set aside for sinking fund, that is $200. To do a lift upgrading programme which allows a lift to stop at every floor would cost per benefiting unit something like $4,000 at the lowest, that is, for common corridor type of flats. You take $4,000 and divide by 200, it will take you 20 years. You will have to collect 20 years of sinking fund from the residents.

Mr Chiam also has six segmented blocks and those cost a lot more, six times more or $24,000 to do lift upgrading works per benefiting unit. This means 20 x 6, or 120 years of collection of sinking fund from the residents before such works can be completed. So I think my numbers are clear. We have done our research. It will be very difficult and inappropriate for the town council to use its sinking fund for such purposes.

Mr Chiam See Tong: I think the Minister of State does not know what is happening at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh. When I said lift upgrading, actually what we are doing is replacing all the lifts there. We are ripping off all the old lifts which are about 30 years old, throwing them away and putting new computerised motors in them. And all these are paid for from the sinking fund. We have checked with HDB and we are allowed to use the sinking fund to replace the lifts, and I believe the Minister also said that earlier. When we talk of upgrading, it is a general term, but what we are actually doing is that we are replacing all the lifts there, and we do have enough funds for them. As I said, the total cost is just over $2 million. As the Minister has mentioned, we have got $8 million. I think we do have enough money. The point is that we have replaced the lifts in its present situation ---

Mr Speaker: Mr Chiam, you are making a speech. What is your question?

Mr Chiam See Tong: I still want to know the reasons why we are not allowed to make the lift to stop at every floor, especially the point block flats. No reasons are given. They said, we cannot. Why? We have got enough money.

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, Mr Chiam maintains that the Potong Pasir Town Council has enough money. It is granted that they have enough money to do the normal cyclical works which may even include replacement of the lifts. But what he is suggesting now is to allow the lift to stop at every floor. What that means is that you will have to do major structural works, creating lift landings where there are none today, knocking off part of the walls to create the lift landing. And for the six segmented blocks that Mr Chiam has in Toa Payoh Lorong 8, of which I have visited, he will need to create extra lift shafts on top of just creating the access to every floor. And our estimation - and we have much experience in doing lift upgrading works - for a single segmented block is that the lift shafts would cost $1.8 million or so. And upgrading of the lift landing to serve every floor is about $400,000. So the total cost is $2.2 million. So that is $24,000 per unit, considering the number of benefiting units there. So as I have just calculated, if he wants to use S&CC for this purpose, then he will need to collect 120 years worth of S&CC funds from his residents just to do this major lift upgrading work, which is clearly inappropriate because the town council would still need to commit the sinking fund for all other kinds of works that it needs to do in its cyclical repairs.

Mr Speaker: Mr Chiam, is it the same question? Otherwise, we can go on to the next question.

Mr Chiam See Tong: We need some explanation.

Mr Speaker: You are not specific. What is your question?

Mr Chiam See Tong: It is still the same question.

Mr Speaker: If it is the same question, the same answer will be given.

Mr Chiam See Tong: The point is that now the Minister mentions the segmented blocks. What we wrote to HDB was only for the point blocks for the lifts to stop at every floor. And at the moment, our contract price with the contractors is that the lifts are put in place with the machine to stop at every floor. So when permission is given, what we need to do is just to knock a hole in the wall, make a door for the lift to stop. It is easily adjusted. So the cost would not be as great as what the Minister says. I cannot give him offhand how much the contractors will charge us for knocking down the walls at every floor. But that is the situation and we do have enough money. So the money is not the question. But we still do not know the reasons why permission is not given.

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, even for point blocks, HDB's experience, after conducting over 600 blocks of LUP, shows that it costs something like $600,000. Therefore, for the benefiting units there, it would cost about $8,000 per benefiting unit. So let me repeat again. If it is $8,000, it would take 40 years to collect S&CC charges. Moreover, if the Member proceeds to do so just for the six point blocks, even if it costs $600,000 per block and multiply it by 6, that is $3.6 million. That would be almost half the $8 million that the Member would have. The Member would have to justify to the rest of the residents why half of the sinking funds is committed to benefit only six blocks out of the 61 blocks that he has at Potong Pasir.

Mr Chiam See Tong rose ---

Mr Speaker: Mr Chiam, I think you are looking at it from a different perspective. I doubt we can resolve this. You will be getting the same answer anyway.

Mr Chiam See Tong: I am asking a straightforward question. Permission is not given to Potong Pasir for the lifts to stop at every floor. Is it because it is an Opposition ward?

Mr Speaker: I suggest we go to the next Question. Mdm Ho Geok Choo.

i have to protect you, no matter what it takes. even if it means i have to hurt myself. i have to protect you.

he died this morning, at 1040 in his dreams. this space will be closed till further notice. he would like to thank you for all the memories. take care.

ALICE: I amuse you but I bore you.
DAN: No. No.
ALICE: You did love me?
DAN: I'll always love you. I hate hurting you.
ALICE: Why are you?
DAN: Because I'm selfish. And I think I'll be happier with her.
ALICE: You won't. You'll miss me. No one will ever love you as much as I do. Why isn't love enough?


"Don't say it. Don't you fucking say "You're too good for me." I am, but don't say it. You're making the mistake of your life. You're leaving me because you believe that you don't deserve happiness, but you do, Anna."
- Larry to Anna.

i went clubbing. yes i did. OMG right? woohooo! lesson 1: it is very fun to club with my dear! hugs. lesson 2: some people are just not cut out to dance, especially those who are flinging their stuff on stage. GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME. will update more tmr. nites folks

新年快乐！
Happy CNY folks. Hope its been great with plenty of ang paos! well this year's taking has been the same as last year. the rates are thereabouts. but this year CNY was a bit more fun, went to KTV with my cousins. and i spent a good amount of time talking to my grandma and my uncle. WOW i found out so many fasinating things. like my grandma can really drink alot, we are talking about half a bottle of brandy here. and my aunt is a fantastic drinker too.

found out things about my cousin who's never around. apparently she has serious issues with self-esteem. hahah. overall an alright new year. more visitations line up. gonna go to all my friends place to get more ang pao! ESPECIALLY MY DEAR! hahahah

alright, a little funny stuff to keep everybody entertained =) Cheerz folks, have a great new year ahead!

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Only in America...do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

Only in America......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.

Only in America.....do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

Only in America......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.

Only in America......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.

Only in America......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.

Only in America......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.


EVER WONDER ..

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

i think ling's blog pretty sums it all for me: thought process zero. somehow life happens and it seems to be at this juncture that everyone around me is feeling this way. zombified. like on a production line where we will all end up as meat patty and it is just so depressing to know people don't really care at all. after all, this is singapore. who gives a damn. unless it has something to do with their monies being taken away. but even that, as long as our government can mildly explain that "it is for your own good" then we wil accept, and continue moving on this production line, and continue to slog, and continue to be one of them, and eventually become a meat patty.

where is all the fun of my previous posts? what happened to me? why did i mellow down so much? why am i so listless when i used to be so restless? where did all my energy go? what did life do to me? why can't i fight back?

i can't even express my thoughts now. i am muted. silent.

but life trods on

for those windows uers, this was bill gates introduction of windows vista during CES enjoy!

http://homepage.mac.com/vito/real_vista_episode_1.mov

i need to grow up. i think too much of myself.

and i kena-ed a meme! from ling!

Rules:
1. Post the top 20 OR 30 OR 50 most frequently played songs in your player for the past one year.
2. Name five victims to pass the game on.

top 20 from iTunes since a year ago. with no 1. being the most played.

1. simple plan - untitled
2. 林俊杰 － 不懂
3. 周杰伦 － 分裂
4. toad the wet sprocket - windmills
5. 梁静茹 － 我是幸福的
6. 周杰伦 － 暗号
7. 林俊杰 － 一千年以后
8. Tom McRae - Walking to Hawaii
9. Snow Patrol - Run
10. 元味觉醒 － 天空
11. 孙燕姿 － 不能和你在一起
12. 蔡健雅 － 双栖动物
13. 蔡健雅 － 假想敌
14. 林俊杰 － 冻结
15. 静茹 － 给从前的爱
16. 张惠妹 － 灰姑娘
17. dido - white flag
18. 戴佩妮 - 爱疯了
19. 周杰伦 - 半岛铁盒
20. tori amos - a case of you

see, i have become such a cheena freak! haha this is my all time play list. can i please note in the past one month, i have also listened to good songs like

coldplay - fix you
michael buble - quando, quando, quando
kt tunstall - other side of the world
the killers - mr. brightside

but because my most played is all above 50 over times, its hard for my new song to break that list =)

and this meme goes on to:
1. mark
2. jun yi
3. chooz
4. and i can't think of anymore person as well who blogs and listens to music, so to whoever's interested.

i realised how unfair i have been to him. i don't really know why i was like that. its just that i was so engrossed in work. no its not a bad thing, but i really did let it affect us. i just took things for granted, and took him granted and really worked my ass off till such odd hours at night. and given that he had to wake up early, he can't really meet me after my work much, and he did try. that poor boy, and to think i blamed him for not wanting to meet me after my work.

am leaving for malaysia, will miss him alot.

what i really want for christmas (or belated birthday present)

1. 王子变青蛙DVD/VCD (aka The prince who turned into a frog)
2. Adidas orange (nederland - i think) jacket (size S)
3. Dishwalla CD
4. A good dermatologist to improve my skin
5. well if you can afford it, a saab 93 aero

walking along the sidewalks, from town to city. the mesmerizing lights, the glitz, the decor, the exhaust gas. almost painted a pink sky tonight. alone. dashboard confessional rining in my iPod.

its amazing really. how many things are happening at the same time. and how many of us are actually feeling the same. in the middle of life, facing death. escaping from life, facing life. living with life, coping with life. wars, peace talks, hunts, love, sex, harvest, suicides, births. all happening at the same moment.

makes me feel insignificant, yet amazed at the same time. that somewhere else, everyone feels the same. that you and me.

movies to watch, die die must catch!!

1. da vinci code
2. the world's fastest indian

don't know when will all these open

very bad case of hives. had 2 jabs in the past 3 days. seen 2 different doctors. gross. have absolutely no idea what caused it. could it be the tuna with the impurities? i am never allergic to anything sans dust. Erghz! its all over my body. in legions. its soooo itchy and so disgusting! ahhhhh

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Wasn't that fun? Hope you made a great wish. Now, to make you feel guilty, here's what I'll do. First of all, if you don't send this to 5096 people in the next 5 seconds, you will be raped by a mad goat and then thrown off a high building into a pile of manure. It's true! Because, you know, THIS letter isn't like all of those fake ones, THIS one is TRUE!! Really!!!

Here's how it goes:

*Send this to 1 person: One person will be pissed off at you for sending him/her a stupid chain letter.

*Send this to 2-5 people: 2-5 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*5-10 people: 5-10 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*10-20 people: 10-20 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*20 to 674, 951 1/2 people: 20 to 674, 951 1/2 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

Thanks!!!! Good Luck!!!


Chain Letter Type 2

Hello, and thank you for reading this letter. You see, there is a starving little boy in Baklaliviatatlaglooshen who has no arms, no legs, no parents, and no goats. This little boy's life could be saved, because for every time you pass this on, a dollar will be donated to the Little Starving Legless Armless Goatless Boy from Baklaliviatatlaglooshen Fund. Remember, we have no way of counting letters sent and this is all bull. So go on, reach out.

Send this to 5 people in the next 47 seconds. Oh, and a reminder-if you accidentally send this to 4 or 6 people, you will die instantly.

Thanks again!!


Chain Letter Type 3

Hi there!! This chain letter has been in existence since 1897. This is absolutely incredible because there was no email then and probably not as many little 8 year olds writing chain letters. So this is how it works. Pass this on to 1,5067 people in the next 7 minutes or something horrible will happen to you like:

Queer Horror Story #1
Miranda Pinsley was walking home from school on Saturday. She had recently received this letter and ignored it. She then tripped in a crack in the sidewalk, fell into the sewer, was gushed down a drainpipe in a flood of poopie, and went flying out over a waterfall. Not only did she smell nasty, she died.

This Could Happen To YOU!!!

Queer Horror Story #2
Dexter Bip, a 13 year old boy, got a chain letter in his mail and ignored it. Later that day, he was hit by a car and so was his boyfriend (hey, some people swing that way). They both died and went to hell. They continued to suffer in hell where they were both cursed to eat adorable kittens every day for eternity.

This Could Happen To You!!!

Remember, you could end up like Pinsley and Bip did. Just send this letter to all of your loser friends, and everything will be OK.


Chain Letter Type 4

As if you care, here is a poem that I wrote. Send it to every one of your friends.

Friends

-A friend is an angel, someone who is always at your side,
-A friend is someone who likes you even though you smell like poop,
-A friend is someone who likes you even though you're disgustingly ugly,
-A friend is someone who cleans up for you after you've soiled yourself,
-A friend is someone who stays with you all night while you cry about your loser life,
-A friend is someone who pretends they like you when they really think you should be raped by a mad goat and then thrown to vicious dogs,
-A friend is someone who scrubs your toilet and vacuums and then gets the check and leaves and doesn't speak much English, no sorry that's the cleaning lady,
-A friend is not someone who sends you chain letters because he wants his wish of his crush doing the nasty with him to come true.




There. Now that we've covered and dumped on the four main types of chain letters, onto the ironic part. In order for this to get any popularity, send it on!!! If you don't think it was funny at all, don't bother, but otherwise forward this sucker to everyone you know!!

If you don't, I don't care, but why not show this around? Take two minutes and forward it. Thanks!

Remember, the moral of the story is, if you get a chain letter, ignore it. If it's a joke or something, send it, sure, but if it's gonna make people feel guilty (i.e. the willieless boy from Baklaliviatatlaglooshen) or nervous (i.e. Miranda Pinsley who ended up in a waterfall of turds) just delete it. Do yourself a favor, and everyone else in the world, and say, "#$@%CHAIN LETTERS!!"

my baby has finally started working. very happy for him! haha but on my side. well i do love my job, i means its apple and anything apple just drives me nuts. my bosses are generally very nice, especially my direct supervisor. she is so extremely nice, and really dotes on me quite a fair bit. but but but, nothing in the world is perfect. there's also a downside to this job. the hours are really getting to me. i work retails hours, which means i start at 11 and i end at 9.30. you can add another half an hour to that hour for the pre-work prep and the post-work packing up.

yep the pay is good but long term wise, i am not so sure how feasible it is. i need to spend time with my dear, my family and my friends. haven't even seen my pop for such a long time. haha by the time i am home, he's asleep. when he leaves for work, i'm asleep. i miss mommy's food! haha eating at the food court can be such a dread! hrmm will see how lahz.

will see what the future holds before i start planning

my mom and my sis came down to visit me today. had a nice family dinner hehe. really happy to see my mom today. also ling came down with her friend. 2nd time she came to visit. so nice. she made a very interesting remark, about how happy i must be having so many visits. which indeed i am. and i love my job, long hours and all. meeting owners of massive organizations and every sort of people. thanks guy for all the visits and support. mark who came all the way down alone, and another with jeth n jiahui; sm, jere ling and co.; uni friends who happened to pop by, dillon, huiyi; my dearest gang of friends (they got me the best presents!)

yes they did, they fufilled my wishlist sans the iMac G5. i got 4 books and 2CDs wooohoo. it was a great night last night too. they visited me, gave me my presents and went to tcc for a simple celebration. ordered 4 desserts and we actually used them as 'cakes' since i didn't have any birthday cake this year. they decided to let me hv 4 birthday 'cakes' and i got to make 4 wishes. and honestly world peace was one of them! hahah, really enjoyed myself. thanks guys for being so thoughtful!!!

there's always this strange cocktail of emotions swirling around like some strange martini concotion. but then i think about it again, i'm not the only feeling like this. everyone else feels the same. i'm not the only one that feels strange at night, i'm not the only one that has skin worse than the surface of mars, i'm not the only one with issues, i'm not the only one with problems. what on earth is so special about me? we are unique, yet we are all scarily similar. we have similar needs, similar wants. different, yet the same. gosh.

natalie imbruglia - wrong impression

alanis - mary jane

swirling emotions AGAIN!

a very strange amalgamation of feelings.

just had a drink with my colleagues. the world of the straight guy is so amazing. this colleague of mine who is married tried to hook up this fat girl who's spilling over at all the wrong places. another one tried to borrow me to intro to the girls (which put me in such a awkward spot) luckily i had a female company. strangely, i can only communicate with females or gay men. its very difficult for me to talk to straight guys. oh well

the trip back home was rather interesting. bumped into fanny, my junior from JC. she's still so interesting bimbotic. but after she left, a very strange feeling surged out from nowhere. must be the songs from my iPod. can't really describe the feeling. just a very interesting one. hrmm.

why must you do this to me? will you only stop when i have reach my limit and i can't do anything anymore.

i just got back from work not too long ago. ate something my mom left for me.

everything is fine and dandy during the day. its just the nights that get to people. how the loneliness creeps in from every corner, even from my speaker. they surround you and breaks you down. every single night.

somehow it hurt alot more than i thought i would. i missed you a whole lot more than i thought i would.

you

Your Birthdate: November 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations. You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you. Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans. You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot. Your strength: Your ability to gain respect Your weakness: Caring too much what others think Your power color: Orange-red Your power symbol: Letter X Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

me

Your Birthdate: November 17

You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life. And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others. You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented. Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage. Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Half Moon Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

they are right, drowing your sorrows doesn't help. not a single bit.

i think i own the world. i am so dead idealistic, i think i am so perfect. but i am not. i am still human, and i still make mistakes. and truth is i am just not good enough. i can't believe that i can actually make you cry. again and again. sorry

its my exam tomorrow and its on singapore society. i can't help but feel thankful and loved in this magnificient country. lets take stock of what has happened recently.

::MORE murders despite our STRICT laws, we still have not had a month without murder yet, for quite a while already.

::transport fare RISED again despite posting RECORD profits

::CPF monies now can't be withdrew because we are not mature enough to save but will instead spend everything

::casino is allowed because we are mature enough to accept that it is vital for our economy

::ERP is rising but traffic condition is still horribly slow on CTE

::homosexual sites are banned and fined because we are too 'conservative' for that

::www.sammyboy.com is still allowed however

::GLC can now use our monies without being approved by the president or government of whatever along that lines

::we are going to hang someone else AGAIN, even though he was forced to traffic drug to help settle his brother's debt, despite him having earned a degree in IT, having many close friends, appeals and what not, despite activist calls

::bloggers are charged and jailed (understandly because they were so insensitive and rude and whatever, i still feel its too harsh though)

::white elephants (so cute and creative) are deemed to be making a political statement and warning

::4 peaceful protester outside CPF building was asked to leave by a platoon of RIOT SQUAD police (the law states that 5 and above is illegal gathering and you need to have a license)

::another singaporean complained about rude t-shirts

::SM goh speaks about press freedom and responsibility and likened the american press not showing nick berg's beheading to self censorship and said that even the western presses practice that though we do not strive to be like them

::reporters without borders rated us 140th out of 167th country in terms of press freedom (this we cannot accept because it is seen through western prism)

::world economic forum rated us 2nd in terms of transparency (this however we can accept because it is seen through a western prism)

what an exciting time we live in? this wonderful panopticon. don't you love it too?

as taken of sintercom here

Illogical comments by minister of state

Letter submitted to the Straits Times on 31 October 2005, refused by the newspaper on 3 Nov 2005.

To the Editor
I refer to the interview the Straits Times conducted with Minister of State Ho Peng Kee on 28 Oct 2005, specifically his comments about gays.



He repeats the claim that Singapore is a conservative society. This claim is suspect firstly because large numbers of Singaporeans think homophobia and discrimination is wrong, and secondly because the government itself, through its own censorship policies deny fair representation of gay people and modern views. To shape public opinion this way, and then claim that public opinion clamours for homophobic policies is disingenuous.

It was quite stunning to read that he feels heterosexuals should not be impeded by the law when it comes to non-procreative oral sex, and "even if they do it outside of marriage, it is still man and woman, which is still part of this mateship," yet he thinks our laws criminalising what gay people do in private should stay, even when they are in committed relationships.

It is extremely difficult to reconcile his views with the Prime Minister's assurance that the government is not homophobic.

The view that only heterosexuality is "natural" is a construct from the time of St Augustine (4th century). It is disputed among biblical scholars. It not universally accepted among Christians today, let alone other religions despite Ho's claim that "all the main religions in Singapore believe it's how we are made."

Just recently, a highly acclaimed Buddhist monk gave a talk to thousands at Bright Hill making it clear that homophobia, which is a form of hate and ill-will, is against Buddhist teaching.

Ho also used the slippery slope argument against repeal of anti-gay laws, when he said, "Once you move, where do you go to? So you'll talk about not just gay sex but also gay marriages, then gay adoptions..."

Throughout history, the slippery slope argument has been used every time anyone suggested any social progress. It was used when education for girls was first mooted, when giving the vote to women or to non-whites were first raised, when abolition of slavery was suggested.

The funny thing is, human civilisation gained strength with each of these moves despite initial fears.
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Background ? the relevant questions and answers from the Straits Times interview with Ho Peng Kee, by reporter Li Xueying, published 28 Oct 2005:

ST: Ministry of Home Affairs' (MHA) review of the Penal Code will be out at the end of this year. One aspect mentioned previously is the law on oral sex. Is it likely to be decriminalised?

Ho: That one we're looking at. Some of these laws were drafted in the past, so we have to contextualise some of these laws because society changes. It's a big exercise. The various ministries are still working on some of the details.

ST: What's your personal take?

Ho: My personal take is that between men and women, if you are an adult and there's no force, then what you do in the privacy of your bedroom that has no impact on the public, then you do what you want.

ST: What about gay sex?

Ho: We're still a conservative society. It's a slippery slope. Once you move, where do you go to? So you'll talk about not just gay sex but also gay marriages, then gay adoptions...

ST: But using the same argument, that you can do what you want in the privacy of your bedroom?
Ho: That's different because I think men and women having sex is natural. And it is also in a sense consistent with the whole idea of marriage. Of course even if they do it outside of marriage, it is still man and woman, which is still part of this mateship.

ST: As a Christian, do your religious beliefs affect you in your decision making?

Ho: You have to make decisions according to policies, what is right for Singapore, and Singapore is secular.

But as a mature religious person, your values are internalised. That's how you act, speak, present yourself. But you don't think, oh, as a Christian, what should this policy be?

At temples for instance, I attend festivals and so on, just that I don't hold joss sticks.

ST: You said gay sex is 'not natural'. Is that something that comes out of your religious beliefs?

Ho: Yes, could be. Well, I won't attribute it directly. I look at it more as a family bedrock thing, that a family is based on a man and a woman. I think all the main religions in Singapore believe it's how we are made.

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we must all stand up and do something. this panopticon is suffocating! join me my dear friends!

what is the point of living and working hard when in the end, its all nought. what are we here for? what's our purpose in life? why do we go through all of this when it all amounts to nothing. wouldn't it be better to be born as a simpleton or better yet, a nutcase with no cares in the world. or not to be born at all?

i am burying my head in my books now! my heaviest papers that take up 50% of the marks are back to back to back! gosh! how traumatising is that. this is over and on top some stupid asshole model who drag our entire project down due to his himboticness GOSH!!!!

ARGH, STRESS!

the singapore government has done it again. they have tried again to silence the homosexual community in singapore after declaring that they were not homophobic, but anybody who talks about homosexual content and promote the lifestyle should be silenced. is it even possible to promote a homosexual. just as it is not possible to promote a hetereosexual lifestyle, or promoting romance (going by the failure of romancing and the ever declining birthrate), how can anybody promote a homosexual lifestyle.

is it possible to do some petition so that government can hear our voices and let us live. first a fine, then a closing of a gay website, what is next? what is next? incaceration of all gay people? how can i be gay? i can love, but i touch any guys affectionately and no i most definitely can't have sex. what logic is that? i am going to write a term paper on this!

feels like you are never there when i need you to be. but i can fly down at 3am. surreal feeling

its a really strange feeling to see your coursemates from your JC batch getting so far in life, knowing what they want. the same people whom i graduated with, went on a trip with, whose abilities are about the same as mine, but they made it. made to the best flying school, in canada. but here i am in singapore mugging for my papers. all because of my slipped disc. all because of my injury. because i didn't know how to take care of myself. because i didn't train hard enough to have a better phsyical condition. its so surreal to look at them and envy and realised i could have been there too. i am such a loser!

i hate myself. let me go and die please. thanks

i need to be more productive! i need more drive, i need a car (LAME!). aiya, its always like that, i want to study and in the end, i end up getting stuck to my iBook (i think i'll name my iBook soon, hrmmm) okok back to my books and stop procrastinating!

this is depressing, my readership is going down =( awww. hahah. i am munching on ben & jerrys as i'm digesting my singapore society notes. oh well, life sucks. but i be glad that it is all cramped up in 4 days, break den 1 more paper, and that's it, off to enjoy my birthday!

not much energy to blog about big issues, and this page is damn due for a big revamp, so watch out world! in the mean time, drink as much as you can, get as drunk as you can and par-tay away (so i can get my A's muahahahahha)

its the showdown between 3 phones for me, the Sony Ericsoon w900 the panasonic vs7 or the nokia n70 tough choice so i must decide carefully!

anyhow, a few sites have caught my eye, and i'm adding it to my daily reads!

mr brown
diary of a lucky singaporean
talk rock
double yellow's musing

i need to put on more weight! prefably 8kg! that's gonna be a tough one. have started gymming already, but the past week has been incredulously busy with projects. and the exams are just around the bend, so well, after exams! look out arnold! (i think i have said this before, but oh well hahaha)

i've been compiling a playlist: 90s one hit wonders, you know songs that define the era, but its those one-hit wonders that really defined the 90s. for those with iTunes gift certificate, go get them off iTunes Essential

4 non blondes - what's up
the cardigans - lovefool
chumbawamba - tubthumping
cornershop - brimful of asha
deep blue something - breakfast at tiffany's
the divinyls - i touch myself
donna lewis - i love you always forever
len - if you steal my sunshine
meredith brooks - bitch
new radicals - you get what you give
the proclaimers - i'm gonna be (500 miles)
shawn mullins - lullaby
vertical horizon - everything you want
the verve - bitter sweet symphony

with exams lurking around the corner, i'm feeling the heat to mug really hard. maybe its self-expectation, or maybe i'm a 'perfectionist' like what a few of my friends tell me, i feel very horrible if i don't get my A's. but this is translating to insane mugging and i'm feeling somewhat afraid. sigh. its been god knows how many years since i last mugged, not saying that i didn't mug back in the airforce, but it's just so different. its all theories and concepts and what not, but oh well.

came across this incredibly funny maths question:



hahahahah

Greeks had many words to describe love. Eros - sexual love; Agape - giving, self-sacrificing love; Philia - friendship; Storge - affection.
If we fail to make the transition from eros to development of agape, philia and storge - intimacy, companionship and commitment - separation ensues.

my horoscope for the month:
Take extra care towards your health in case you pass your flu or cold to your partner. This is a busy and tiring month for most Scorpios so watch your mood. Be true to your feelings, if you have problems talking to your partner, solve this problem quickly or things could explode later.

oh, the horror! the horror! i got B for one of my subjects. i am not going to get all my A's ARGH!!!!!!!

gosh, i just realised how infrequently i am posting here. sorry to my regular readers. but oh well, i am going to do something very drastic to this place after my exams. and my exams are going to be here real soon, nov 7-14. and my birthday is just after that. for those who do not what to get me, refer to my wishlist, alternatively you can contact me =p

everything is falling into place now. school's been great. dear's been wonderful. my life is going just fine now. contented =)

in other news, do you know you can be fined if you don't pay the actual bus fares? like as if anybody bothers to tap earlier to save 10cents. and you must remember this rule came into effect after the bus fare hike and after SBS transit reported RECORD profit! guess i'll be cycling to school from now on.

http://www.theinquirer.net/?article=26808

A STORY stating that the Beast of Redmond had developed a technology which enabled DVDs to be played only once was much vilified on the Net. Some claimed it was a pure hoax. But the story's originator - The Business - has named now named its source.
Step forward one Alistair Baker, md with Microsoft in the UK. He claims that Microsoft's DRM software now gives the owner of content "total control over how it is viewed". That could mean that not only could the content be viewed only once but that the content could also have an expiry date and/or time of day.

Why would anyone want to introduce one-play DVDs, you might ask? To sell new hardware, of course. Baker describes the typical playing device as a "new DVD player from manufacturers like Toshiba supporting high-definition DVD and running Windows CE."

Now the British paper was inundated with emails and letters from hackers pointing out various ways around such DRM software. Granted even the dumbest of PC users could point a handycam at the PC's screen and retain a copy.

But that's not the point. Most users would simply not bother. Instead it indicates just how paranoid the major owners of content have become given that they would treat such an offering seriously. Particularly since the Beast is the supplier of the world's most ripped-off software.

The INQ also sympathises with those who are environmentally concerned. It's bad enough having PCs which destroy CDs by the dozen, every time you try to burn something. But a technology which is so wasteful the CD deliberately gets used only the once?

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Looks the the Inquirer hates WINDOZE as well! muahahahha

i realised that there are still a good number of people reading this blog. thanks guys, i really appreciate it. well it is kinda well, i don't really know how to say it, but it sorta makes me wanna post a bit more. but well, seriously, the recent CLAMPDOWN on bloggers is starting to get to me. but what the heck, i shall say what i want without crossing any boundary, seriously, i think its alright to call people a prude if they are really pruddish, and if you are a fat ass, then you are a fat ass, nobody can sue me for that, but however, racism that is not justified, well that is just dumb.

anyhow, read this:

Bryan says "A lot of Singaporeans are in deep sleep. They don't seem to realise that their lives revolve around the ideas of one man or a group of men. Their lives aren't their own." Of course, that "one man" he's talking about is Singapore's former Prime Minister Lee Kuan Yew, now the Minister Mentor. And the "group of men" he refers to is the core of the PAP cabinet

I had a dream last night in which i can predict the future so accurately that people would come up to me and ask for answers. LKY asked me about Singapore and I told him, 'Singapore will become the city of cities. But I also see the destruction of Singapore in 300 hundred years time. It will be over so fast that people can't imagine that there was this great city that stood in the middle of Southeast Asia.'

Brian explains that when he thinks of Singaporeans, he thinks of them as schoolchildren who still rely on authority figures to govern their conduct. Despite of or partly because of Singaporeans' reliance on top-down direction, he thinks that many Singaporeans don't form a deep attachment to the country. Hence, the transitory nature of the carpark setting for the schoolchildren's games.

Says Brian, "The carpark is a place that we don't live in. It's a place that we use, but don't form an attachment to. I think of our country as a carpark sometimes.

life gets to you. and you know life gets to you. but well aside from the bad times of life, its pretty good actually. enjoying struggling for my projects.

someone commented i am an idealist, and everything in works in clockwork precision in my head, and it just dawned upon me that it is absolutely true. i have a chaotic order in my head, and everything is possible in my dictionary. gosh now i know where my sleepness nights coming from.

LJ Friends Meme by

? You must tell 23 people about this game.
? alex is the one that you love.
? alvin tan is one you like but can't work out.
? You care most about colin.
? mark is the one who knows you very well.
? dillon is your lucky star.
? a lack of color is the song that matches with alex.
? counting down the days is the song for alvin tan.
? someday (i'll understand) is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
? and bu dong is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz

The New York Times

Maureen Dowd


Shirt-sleeves rolled up, W. finally landed in Hell yesterday and chuckled about his wild boozing days in "the great city" of N'Awlins. He was clearly moved. "You know, I'm going to fly out of here in a minute," he said on the runway at the New Orleans International Airport, "but I want you to know that I'm not going to forget what I've seen." Out of the cameras' range, and avoided by W., was a convoy of thousands of sick and dying people, some sprawled on the floor or dumped on baggage carousels at a makeshift M*A*S*H unit inside the terminal.

Why does this self-styled "can do" president always lapse into such lame "who could have known?" excuses.

Who on earth could have known that Osama bin Laden wanted to attack us by flying planes into buildings? Any official who bothered to read the trellis of pre-9/11 intelligence briefs.

Who on earth could have known that an American invasion of Iraq would spawn a brutal insurgency, terrorist recruiting boom and possible civil war? Any official who bothered to read the C.I.A.'s prewar reports.

Who on earth could have known that New Orleans's sinking levees were at risk from a strong hurricane? Anybody who bothered to read the endless warnings over the years about the Big Easy's uneasy fishbowl.

Ron Fournier of The Associated Press reported that the Army Corps of Engineers asked for $105 million for hurricane and flood programs in New Orleans last year. The White House carved it to about $40 million. But President Bush and Congress agreed to a $286.4 billion pork-filled highway bill with 6,000 pet projects, including a $231 million bridge for a small, uninhabited Alaskan island.

Just last year, Federal Emergency Management Agency officials practiced how they would respond to a fake hurricane that caused floods and stranded New Orleans residents. Imagine the feeble FEMA's response to Katrina if they had not prepared.

Michael Brown, the blithering idiot in charge of FEMA - a job he trained for by running something called the International Arabian Horse Association - admitted he didn't know until Thursday that there were 15,000 desperate, dehydrated, hungry, angry, dying victims of Katrina in the New Orleans Convention Center.

Was he sacked instantly? No, our tone-deaf president hailed him in Mobile, Ala., yesterday: "Brownie, you're doing a heck of a job."


It would be one thing if President Bush and his inner circle - Dick Cheney was vacationing in Wyoming; Condi Rice was shoe shopping at Ferragamo's on Fifth Avenue and attended "Spamalot" before bloggers chased her back to Washington; and Andy Card was off in Maine - lacked empathy but could get the job done. But it is a chilling lack of empathy combined with a stunning lack of efficiency that could make this administration implode.

Spontaneous and adaptable "balance in life" seeker

You like to be in touch with the in-crowd, in touch with what's new, and making sure you have the best of it. You appreciate design, and quality. You can give a 120% when you need to, but know that you don't need to 100% of the time. You know that life is for living, and you're smart enough to make sure that you have time to relax, chill and just be yourself.

You come across to many as a patient, people person who is a good listener, adaptable and accommodating to others. You have the ability to "go with the flow" of your surroundings. This ability is both your biggest strength and weakness; at best, you're very accepting and supportive of others as they really are, but at worst you can sometimes forget who you yourself are, passively agreeing with others and reticent to assert your own desires.

You may have a particularly hard time when making painful decisions, like firing someone, because you also see the other person's predicament, and hate to force confrontations. Sometimes you can find it hard to get started on things. However, this inertia can also work to your advantage, because once started you will make slow-but-steady progress, becoming determined and relentless in your pursuits.

Famous people who share these traits include:
Bill Clinton, Carl Jung, Nelson Mandela, Tiger Woods, Prince Charles, Ronald Reagan, Albert Einstein, Dwight Eisenhower

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

i could fit 32'000 songs on my ipod shuffle! wooohoooo. yes a whoooping 32'000 songs on my 1gb shuffle. how did i do that? simple, i followed dell's way. i make each of my song 30seconds, and encode it at 8kbps. isn't that so smart of dell, to claim that their latest mfugly (mother fucking ugly) dj ditty (not to be confused with p. diddy, or diddy or puff daddy) can store a helluva 100 songs more than the iPod shuffle. both of 512mb. but armed with a microscope to read the fine prints, this 220 songs came about because dell assumes that we will all encode at 64kbps and the songs are 3 or isit 4 minutes.

what an ingenious move. who would have thought of it. next time i will tell creative to market their zen as the 1st mp3 player to store a MILLION SONGS!

the iPod Nano, that is only 0.7cm thin! OMG buy it for me, its only $438 =)

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caught the unexpected band at walas! THEY REALLY ROCK THE HOUSE DOWN, far better than EIC, and shirlyn sang a song for us =) it was soo coooool, and i think its because me j and sm really couldn't care much, we just head bobbed like nobody's business, everybody soon let their hair down. we were really cheering very hard for unexpected. they even played sweet child by guns. they rock! go get their cd at walas!!!

I have a dream, that one day the red dot that I live in, will finally allow people to speak, to speak without fear

WOOOHOOOO!, read this CNet's News

VIRUS INFECTED CREATIVE ZEN!!!!!!

WOOOHOOOOO!!!!!

not one, not 2, not 3 but 13 different people i know owning zen micro had to sent it for repairs within the 1st 3 months of ownerships. it just totally sucks and how can sim wong who be so cocky.

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Creative Technology Ltd. on Tuesday announced that on Aug. 9 it won what the company calls the "Zen Patent," which covers the user interface for its Zen and Nomad MP3 players. In a statement, Creative added that the patented interface is also "found in some competing players, such as the Apple iPod and iPod mini."

Creative CEO and chairman Sim Wong Hoo, who earlier this year declared "war" on Apple, said in the statement: "The first portable media player based upon the user interface covered in our Zen Patent was our NOMAD Jukebox MP3 player. We shipped the NOMAD Jukebox to U.S. retail customers in September of 2000. The Apple iPod was only announced in October 2001, 13 months after we had been shipping the NOMAD Jukebox based upon the user interface covered by our Zen Patent."

Mr. Sim went on to say: "Before this invention, there was no intuitive and efficient way to deal with the large number of tracks that could be stored on a high-capacity player."

The patent, which Creative applied for on Jan. 5, 2001, specifically covers "a method of selecting at least one track from a plurality of tracks stored in a computer-readable medium of a portable media player configured to present sequentially a first, second, and third display screen on the display of the media player, the plurality of tracks accessed according to a hierarchy, the hierarchy having a plurality of categories, subcategories, and items respectively in a first, second, and third level of the hierarchy."
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Upon further look, one would realise how far the fucker is digging into his own grave. I OWN the nomad jukebox and the user interface in no way resembles the iPod. iPod is so user friendly, only people who are less than idiots won't know how to use it. Further more, "hierarchal structure" applies for everything, from your handphone to your computer explorer folders sytem (if you don't own a mac) or the finder (if you are a mac owner) while it can claim to have sold the jukebox 1st and hence claim patent to the invention, it can't claim apple copied them. back in the 1980's people already written the hierarchail menu

in fact like how EVERYBODY will tell you, how creative copied apple, from the design of their remote control to the user MENU where even the battery placing is in the same spot with the same font.

WAKE UP SIM WONG WHO!? WE ALL HATE YOU! I'LL M*RD*R YOU AND V*ND*L*S* YOUR BUILDING!

its like lookin into the mirror and realizing that the person staring back isn't who you think it is. like the reflection on the broken mirror because you smashed it. different angles, different perspective. but just not who you think the reflection is. Stuck in a time warp where reality moved far faster but the mind preserved in an ancient form of self delusion, self worship. and the realization destroys every bit of sanity, reality in that ancient preservation. then the hanging gardens of babylon no longer stays, but slowly and suddenly crumbles. crumbles to pieces. just like the broken that you smashed into. different angles, different perspective.

my friend was saving powerpoint onto her creative zen neon, it crashed and died. and her project was gone. said person was so ashamed of her zen, she spent money on ipod earphones so people will think she uses an ipod, and she isn't the only one. i have known more than 3 person who does that.

nownow the zen neon is really very compact and small. it does look kinda nice. but but but. there is always a monkey wrench. you can't speed scroll down in the 2500 songs you can hold. there's no touch scroll like the one they RIPPED off the ipod, instead its back to the old interface where you had to use a jog scroll to scroll one song by one song from a to z. well interesting, now we all know why despite mr sim wong who?'s effort to create an ipod killer. it has never ever killed any ipod. it has even manage to hurt the ipod. yup yup.

This is best joke i've heard for the century, taken off here

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The attractive couple on the television screen gracefully moved their bodies into the next yoga pose: arms extended, head tilted slightly back, a deep breath in. In front of the TV set, a seven-year-old girl and her mother did their best to mimic the posture. The little girl, Laurette, loved this special time with her mom.

It was 1965, and Laurette's mom, Jacquie, didn't think twice about exercising along with this yoga program that came on the TV after Jack La Lanne. She developed a passion for yoga, and began instructing free classes in her home. Laurette served as the demonstration model for her mom. The young girl relished the attention?and her family never suspected this seemingly innocent exercise would open the door to a New Age lifestyle that would affect Laurette for the next 22 years.

Speaking Out
Now 46, Christian speaker/author Laurette Willis tells everyone she meets about the dangers of yoga. The Oklahoma resident addresses groups across the country, speaking from personal experience and her knowledge as a certified personal trainer and aerobics instructor. She's developed a prominent presence on the Internet, largely due to her new exercise program, PraiseMoves, which she calls "a Christian alternative to yoga." She shares her testimony on the website (www.PraiseMoves.com) in a pull-no-punches style, and responds to numerous e-mails?some curious, others critical of her stance on yoga. Additionally, she posts comments on the message boards of other fitness and religion websites. She's also self-published a book and video about PraiseMoves.

So what caused Laurette to become vocal about yoga? And is yoga really all that bad? Her testimony is a bold answer to both questions.

Throughout her childhood, Laurette's family regularly attended church. "If someone had asked us, we would have said we were Christians," she says. "But we never heard the message of salvation at our church." Lacking knowledge about the Christian faith, Laurette's mom found herself drawn to New Age practices, and began reading books by Nostradamus and Edgar Cayce (both claimed to have psychic abilities) and taking Laurette to an ashram, a Hindu yoga retreat.

As an adult, Laurette immersed herself in every New Age and metaphysical practice she came across: chanting, crystals, tarot cards, psychics, channeling spirits.

"I tried everything?Kabbalah, Universalism, Taoism, Zoroastrianism ?because I was spiritually hungry," Laurette says. "I call the New Age movement 'Burger King' because it's like the fast-food restaurant's motto: 'Have it your way.' That's what the New Age movement tries to do, to achieve God on its terms."

There was one thing Laurette wasn't remotely interested in pursuing: Christianity. "I thought Christians just wanted to give me a bunch of rules and dogma," she says. "I didn't know they were speaking about a relationship with Jesus."

But in Laurette's quest to find herself, she only found a deepening sense of loneliness. "God will use whatever it takes to bring you to your knees," she says. "I'd made a mess of my life. I was an alcoholic. I'd been promiscuous. I tried every form of religion, never coming to any knowledge of the truth."

One day in 1987, a thought popped into Laurette's head: What if everything I thought about God was completely wrong? Two days later, she fell to her knees. "I didn't know anything about the Bible or Jesus. I just cried out to God from the depths of my soul, 'I give up! You win! If you can do something with my life, you can have it.' "As Laurette asked God to take control of her life, she felt a physical weight lift from her body.

"I learned much later that the weight was sin," she says. "I hadn't realized sin was real. New Agers think the word 'sin' is an acronym for 'self-inflicted nonsense.' That's the deception of the Enemy, because if there's no sin, then you don't need a Savior."

She remembers the change at the moment she accepted Christ: "I felt peace descend upon me for the first time in my life."

Exercise Plus Praise
After giving her life to God, Laurette began devouring the Bible. She burned her New Age books and disengaged from everything associated with her turbulent past?including yoga.

For years, Laurette never gave yoga a second thought. But in 2001, an idea popped into her head: What if there was an alternative to yoga that provided exercise while spiritually moving Christians to praise the Lord? She spent a good deal of time in prayer, wanting to be certain this idea was God's will.

After two years of planning, Laurette self-published a PraiseMoves book and video in 2003. She began certifying PraiseMoves instructors across the country last fall.

The PraiseMoves program utilizes gentle stretches that correlate with Scripture verses. There's "The Eagle" stretch, where the arms are pulled back to resemble a bird in flight. While students hold this stretch, Laurette reads Isaiah 40:31: "But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles" (NKJV). Other stretches include "The Angel" (Psalm 91:11), "The Rainbow" (Genesis 9:16), and "The Altar" (Romans 12:1). At each session's end, students are asked to prayerfully consider a verse from the Bible, or to spend some quiet time expressing gratitude to God.

The Problem with Yoga
Laurette wanted PraiseMoves to provide all the physical benefits for which yoga is often touted: improved flexibility, weight loss, reduced stress, and improved circulation, to name a few. But she wanted the similarities to end there.

The goal of all yoga, Laurette explains, is to obtain oneness with the universe. That's also known as the process of enlightenment, or union with Brahman (Hinduism's highest god). The word "yoga" means "union" or "to yoke."

"Yoga wants to get students to the point of complete numbness in their minds. God, on the other hand, wants you to be transformed by the renewing of your mind through his Word," Laurette says.

Before she became a Christian, Laurette used subliminal tapes to train her mind to empty itself. These tapes are often used in yoga classes, she says. She also taught yoga classes and instructed her students in astral projection, or "stepping outside" of the body, which Laurette says poses a serious spiritual danger.

"If there's nothing in your mind, you're open to all kinds of deception. After coming to Christ, I wondered who?or what?came into my body when I 'stepped out.' While I don't believe Christians can become possessed, I do believe we can become oppressed by demonic spirits of fear, depression, lust, false religion, etc. These are all things designed to draw us away from Jesus Christ."

But what about hatha yoga, the less overtly spiritual form of yoga taught at most gyms? Even in this format, Laurette says there are commonly used words and poses antithetical to God's Word. For example, the word "namaste," often said at the close of yoga classes, means, "I bow to the god within you." The sound "om," chanted in many yoga classes, is meant to bring students into a trance so they can join with the universal mind. And the "salute to the sun" posture, used at the beginning of most classes, pays homage to the Hindu sun god. Laurette believes it's impossible to extract Hindu spiritualism from yoga?and she's gotten a bit of confirmation on this from an unlikely source:

"I received an e-mail from a staff member of the Classical Yoga Hindu Academy in New Jersey. The staff member wrote, 'Yes, all of yoga is Hinduism. Everyone should be aware of this fact.' This staff member included that she didn't appreciate my 'running down the great Hindu/Yogic religion,'" Laurette says.

Her statements about yoga have also drawn criticism from some Christians. Some accuse Laurette of being judgmental. Others say her fears about yoga are irrational. She's quick to tell critics PraiseMoves isn't for everybody, but she doesn't back down from her stance on yoga. When she speaks with Christians who practice yoga, she encourages them to pay close attention to any hesitation they feel?and then to check out the facts for themselves.

Numerous Christian women have told Laurette they decided to quit yoga after learning about its Hindu roots. It's a hard decision for those who've invested many years and many dollars into the practice.

Laurette says, "I tell people that if their reasoning is, 'But I've already paid for these yoga classes,' or 'But I just bought these cool yoga pants and a yoga DVD,' to ask themselves: Am I willing to give these things up to know the truth?"

Holly Vicente Robaina, a TCW regular contributor, lives in California. Laurette's new book, BASIC Steps to Godly Fitness, will be published by Harvest House this April.

Proceed with Caution
There's a new practice popping up at churches and fitness clubs around the country. Dubbed "Christian yoga" or "yoga for Christians," these programs supposedly offer the physical benefits of yoga along with Christian spirituality. But is it really possible for yoga to be transformed into a practice for Christians?

Doug Groothuis, author of Confronting the New Age and a professor of philosophy at Denver Seminary, says proponents of "Christian yoga" are misled?and are misleading others.

"'Christian yoga' is an oxymoron. Yoga is rooted in Hinduism and cannot be separated from it," he says. "There's nothing wrong with stretching and calming down one's breathing. But yoga isn't really about that; it's aimed at transforming human consciousness to experience the Hindu god, which is a false god."

TCW found several "Christian yoga" instructors who are affiliated with secular yoga organizations that have a Hindu or New Age bent.

When investigating a Christian yoga class, be on the lookout for:

Sanskrit language. Many words commonly used in yoga pay homage to Hindu deities.

Metaphysical jargon. Phrases such as "breathing in positive energy and breathing out negative energy," "focusing on the third eye," and "getting in touch with the divinity within you" have New Age implications.

Projection. Beware being told to empty your mind or to step outside your body.

Feelings of discomfort. Pay attention to those feelings. Even if you can't pinpoint why you're uncomfortable, this may be the Holy Spirit's way of letting you know the class isn't for you.

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now come on, seriously? when can all of you ridiculous stupid people start to respect others.!!!!

still alive, if alive means breathing and being able to go to school and eating. something life takes such unexpected twist, we do not even know how, when or why. life, oh life.

the past few nights weren't easy. we all know how it feels like late in the night. i don't suppose you are having it easy too.


元卫觉醒 - 天空

听着自己的心跳 没有规则的跳跃
我安静的在思考 并不想被谁打扰
失去了你的引导 寂寞在一旁嘲笑
它笑我无处可逃 我变的好渺小

时间分割成对角 停止你对我的好 瓦解我们的依靠

在你离开之后的天空 不像再有晴朗的梦
雨后的天空 是否再有放晴后的笑容
我静静的望着天空 试着寻找一绺的彩虹
哭过的面容 期待着就为出现的笑容

i wished you were beside me yesterday.
i know now how lonely it can get, watching the fireworks all by myself. strolling down the esplanade, listening to my iPod. walking across that place, with the song "hands to heaven" playin on the iPod/