if you would just look at the date that i posted that. it was yesterday. i posted that when i came home from camp. not after we spend the time together. i posted it in response to your blog. are you telling me that you have the right to post things about me but i have no rights to? yes i am breaking down inside. yes i am hurt, no i am not trying to make you feel guilty. why must you always be so negative. please i beg you to stop it. its is very very very very very very very tiring. i have no time left, can you don't do this please. we had such a great time, why must you always be like that. can't you not think negative for once. i am telling you this is how i feel. i don't want to make you feel guilty much less typing that blog with sacarsm.

i dunno what to do anymore. can you please teach me and tell me what you want? i enjoyed myself. if you can't see that. nevermind. i am at a lost for words now and i am booking in soon. i have exams coming up and guard duty the night. i really dunno what is it that you are looking for now. enlighten me if you will. i am lost, so lost, so tired, so torn out. WHY?!@!!!!??!!!!!!!!!!