actually i wanted to post all the messages up and return his words back to him, but then i decided not to. i decided that nahz, it would be too childish and that it would just be me but not in my most sanest of moods. then i deleted all the messages. it was quite hard though, honestly. but well, nobody really cared anyway, so off it went. then it just kinda struck me and made me realise with so much disgust that i don't even want to believe it. that i don't even want to acknowledge, but i have to. nobody asked for justification so don't.

and well, i called alvin t today. he's with his girlfriend. ahh, its kinda nice but i am soo jealous. i do miss him so much. am i insane? he asked me to go to his commissioning parade. but i have this overwhelming feeling that his well girlfriend might be going. argh.

and i haven't slept for the past 2 weeks. i am so so so tired now. i don't even know why i am still here typingg this. oh yar i am waiting for supper. think i am too tired to wait liao. good nite guys have a great year ahead.

i have only 2 wishes, one of which is world peace, and the other is to make myself happy like i am now, no worries and at peace with myself!