don't you ever think that just because you are older than me, you are right, and just because i am younger therefore i am wrong. and don't you ever impose your thoughts on me. you know by now that i have agreed with you on most issues, even the solution to this issue, but i just can't take it down that you could ever use my age as an argument, by not discouting my age, you have already done that.

who do you think you are trying to protect? no one but yourself. you called me selfish for liberating myself and putting the burden on others. well go on and ask everybody, ask alanna, mark, siming, darrell, jeremiah, corrine, yihan, keefe, jasmin, christian and the countless other people i have told. how much burden is on them? you think the society is going to judge them just because they know i am gay? just because they have a little secret of mine to keep. you are wrong. they are more than happy to keep it because they are my close friends and they have no qualms about it. you are protecting no one but yourself. society is going to judge YOU, and you fear that. you are protecting yourself because you are afraid to be judge, that people won't take you for who you are because you are gay. wrong again.

you make youself out to be some self sacrifing matyr, that by not telling your closest friend, you are protecting her, you are not. you are lying to her. and deceit as you said it youself, is not the right thing. if your friendship is worth so much that you are willing to see her drift away, it says alot. and don't you EVER EVER say that i am selfish for liberating myself and burdening my friends because they know i am gay. don't you ever use my age against me.

you might not know this, but i might, i just might have known things you DON'T. i seen my friends die, i have seen my friends commit suicide. i have friends who are disowned by their fathers, i have friends who don't have fathers and not born with SILVER spoons and drive cars and have nothing much to fret about their daily lives. i have friends who live in 1 room flat and not a terrace house. i have friends who have next to nothing. i have seen what damage coming out can do, so don't you EVER EVER EVER discount me for my age and think i don't know.

i respect your view and no matter what compromise, me and kel will always have to give in. even if we are the majority unless the decision is to say because at the end of the day, when nothing is said, we have given in. because that one statement "it affects more than just you" that statement wins all argument. and yes you can then push your age around but i tell you, i hate that and i don't demand any apology because its pointless.