Mar 12, 2006

As taken off sgforums here http://politics.sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=100015&page=0

July 2004

POTONG PASIR TOWN CENTRE
(Lift Upgrading Programme)

8. Mr Chiam See Tong asked the Minister for National Development whether, in the light of the recent National Day Rally speech where the Prime Minister said that Singapore must take good care of its senior citizens, his Ministry will now allow the Potong Pasir Town Council to make lifts stop at every floor in all the blocks of flats that are currently undergoing the town council's Lift Upgrading Programme.

The Minister of State for National Development (Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng) (for the Minister for National Development): Mr Speaker, Sir, all town councils, including the Potong Pasir Town Council, are free to carry out their own Lift Upgrading Programme which may include providing for lift access on every floor. What they cannot do is to finance such major upgrading works solely or substantially from town council funds. Let me explain.

Town councils (TCs) are largely funded by service and conservancy charges (S&CC) collected from residents as well as grants from the Government. The Government has to ensure that TCs use these funds prudently for the benefit of the majority of their residents over the long term. This is why TCs are required by the Town Councils Act to lock away 30% to 35% of their funds into a sinking fund, to ensure that they have adequate funds in the long term to do major cyclical works like repainting, re-roofing, replacing lifts and replacing water-supply systems. The remaining 65% to 70% of the funds are used for routine operating expenditure, such as cleaning, repairs and utility charges.

Lift upgrading works which will enable lifts to stop at every floor are major structural upgrading. They are very costly. Town councils' funds are neither intended nor adequate for this purpose. Therefore, under the Government's Lift Upgrading Programme, town councils fund only a small portion of the total cost and the bulk of the cost is borne by the Government.

Mr Chiam See Tong (Potong Pasir): Sir, I have got two supplementary questions for the Minister of State. What are the reasons for HDB in not allowing lifts to stop at every floor at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh, of the Potong Pasir Constituency? And will HDB Lift Upgrading Programme be implemented at Potong Pasir estate?

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, as I said earlier, town councils are free to do major upgrading programme for the lifts, including providing for lifts to stop at every floor. However, the town councils cannot use town council's funds to substantially finance such upgrading works. If I may refer the Member to the Potong Pasir Town Council's accounts, just as an example. Potong Pasir has a balance of $8 million in its sinking fund. If he does the cyclical repairs for the 12 blocks that he is right now doing, it will cost him $4 million. So he would have $4 million left. But if he were to do upgrading in a manner which allows lifts to stop at every floor, that would cost another $12 million for this LUP, which means he will be short of $8 million. So the Potong Pasir Town Council really does not have sufficient balance in its sinking fund to do major lift upgrading works.

Sir, the Member's second question is whether or not Potong Pasir Town Council will get the Government's Lift Upgrading Programme. To-date, the Government has done about 600 blocks of LUP and there are about 3,000 eligible blocks remaining. So we have completed roughly 17%. Lift upgrading is selected based on several criteria, ie, the block configuration, the needs of the residents, the geographical spread, and also the degree of support from the residents. We need to bear in mind that it is the whole range of Government policies and programmes that bring about budget surpluses that allow us to do such improvement programmes. Hence, all things being equal, residents who support and vote for the Government policies would be given higher priority in upgrading.

Mr Chiam See Tong: With due respect to the Minister of State, I have been the Chairman of the Potong Pasir Town Council for 15 years now. And I think we know what funds can be used for lift upgrading and what funds cannot be used. I can assure the Minister of State that we do have sufficient funds in the sinking fund to carry out both our Lift Upgrading Programme at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh, and also the R&R works that we are going to do at Potong Pasir estate. Of course, we have to get permission from HDB to do our lift upgrading at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh. But the HDB specifically says, "Ok, you can go ahead and do lift upgrading.", but they do not allow us to make the lifts to stop at every floor. So I want to know what is the reason. We do not spend $12 million, as the Minister has said. The lift upgrading for 29 lifts only cost us just over $2 million. I do not know where he gets his figures from.

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, as I said earlier, the town councils are free to do lift upgrading, including providing for lift access to every floor. What it cannot do is to use the sinking fund for such major structural works which include lift stops at every floor. And this is quite plain. Sinking fund is provided for all sorts of cyclical works, not just lift upgrading works. It could be replacement of lifts, water systems, and so forth. So if a particular town council were to use its sinking fund purely to do major structural upgrading works, like allowing lifts to stop at every floor, then it would be an inappropriate use of the sinking fund. Just a back-of-the-envelope calculation, for a 4-room flat, the Member would know that we collect about $50 per month for S&CC. So multiply that by 12, it is about $600 a year. And if one-third of $600 is set aside for sinking fund, that is $200. To do a lift upgrading programme which allows a lift to stop at every floor would cost per benefiting unit something like $4,000 at the lowest, that is, for common corridor type of flats. You take $4,000 and divide by 200, it will take you 20 years. You will have to collect 20 years of sinking fund from the residents.

Mr Chiam also has six segmented blocks and those cost a lot more, six times more or $24,000 to do lift upgrading works per benefiting unit. This means 20 x 6, or 120 years of collection of sinking fund from the residents before such works can be completed. So I think my numbers are clear. We have done our research. It will be very difficult and inappropriate for the town council to use its sinking fund for such purposes.

Mr Chiam See Tong: I think the Minister of State does not know what is happening at Lorong 8, Toa Payoh. When I said lift upgrading, actually what we are doing is replacing all the lifts there. We are ripping off all the old lifts which are about 30 years old, throwing them away and putting new computerised motors in them. And all these are paid for from the sinking fund. We have checked with HDB and we are allowed to use the sinking fund to replace the lifts, and I believe the Minister also said that earlier. When we talk of upgrading, it is a general term, but what we are actually doing is that we are replacing all the lifts there, and we do have enough funds for them. As I said, the total cost is just over $2 million. As the Minister has mentioned, we have got $8 million. I think we do have enough money. The point is that we have replaced the lifts in its present situation ---

Mr Speaker: Mr Chiam, you are making a speech. What is your question?

Mr Chiam See Tong: I still want to know the reasons why we are not allowed to make the lift to stop at every floor, especially the point block flats. No reasons are given. They said, we cannot. Why? We have got enough money.

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, Mr Chiam maintains that the Potong Pasir Town Council has enough money. It is granted that they have enough money to do the normal cyclical works which may even include replacement of the lifts. But what he is suggesting now is to allow the lift to stop at every floor. What that means is that you will have to do major structural works, creating lift landings where there are none today, knocking off part of the walls to create the lift landing. And for the six segmented blocks that Mr Chiam has in Toa Payoh Lorong 8, of which I have visited, he will need to create extra lift shafts on top of just creating the access to every floor. And our estimation - and we have much experience in doing lift upgrading works - for a single segmented block is that the lift shafts would cost $1.8 million or so. And upgrading of the lift landing to serve every floor is about $400,000. So the total cost is $2.2 million. So that is $24,000 per unit, considering the number of benefiting units there. So as I have just calculated, if he wants to use S&CC for this purpose, then he will need to collect 120 years worth of S&CC funds from his residents just to do this major lift upgrading work, which is clearly inappropriate because the town council would still need to commit the sinking fund for all other kinds of works that it needs to do in its cyclical repairs.

Mr Speaker: Mr Chiam, is it the same question? Otherwise, we can go on to the next question.

Mr Chiam See Tong: We need some explanation.

Mr Speaker: You are not specific. What is your question?

Mr Chiam See Tong: It is still the same question.

Mr Speaker: If it is the same question, the same answer will be given.

Mr Chiam See Tong: The point is that now the Minister mentions the segmented blocks. What we wrote to HDB was only for the point blocks for the lifts to stop at every floor. And at the moment, our contract price with the contractors is that the lifts are put in place with the machine to stop at every floor. So when permission is given, what we need to do is just to knock a hole in the wall, make a door for the lift to stop. It is easily adjusted. So the cost would not be as great as what the Minister says. I cannot give him offhand how much the contractors will charge us for knocking down the walls at every floor. But that is the situation and we do have enough money. So the money is not the question. But we still do not know the reasons why permission is not given.

Mr Cedric Foo Chee Keng: Sir, even for point blocks, HDB's experience, after conducting over 600 blocks of LUP, shows that it costs something like $600,000. Therefore, for the benefiting units there, it would cost about $8,000 per benefiting unit. So let me repeat again. If it is $8,000, it would take 40 years to collect S&CC charges. Moreover, if the Member proceeds to do so just for the six point blocks, even if it costs $600,000 per block and multiply it by 6, that is $3.6 million. That would be almost half the $8 million that the Member would have. The Member would have to justify to the rest of the residents why half of the sinking funds is committed to benefit only six blocks out of the 61 blocks that he has at Potong Pasir.

Mr Chiam See Tong rose ---

Mr Speaker: Mr Chiam, I think you are looking at it from a different perspective. I doubt we can resolve this. You will be getting the same answer anyway.

Mr Chiam See Tong: I am asking a straightforward question. Permission is not given to Potong Pasir for the lifts to stop at every floor. Is it because it is an Opposition ward?

Mr Speaker: I suggest we go to the next Question. Mdm Ho Geok Choo.

Mar 5, 2006

i have to protect you, no matter what it takes. even if it means i have to hurt myself. i have to protect you.

Feb 22, 2006

he died this morning, at 1040 in his dreams. this space will be closed till further notice. he would like to thank you for all the memories. take care.

ALICE: I amuse you but I bore you.
DAN: No. No.
ALICE: You did love me?
DAN: I'll always love you. I hate hurting you.
ALICE: Why are you?
DAN: Because I'm selfish. And I think I'll be happier with her.
ALICE: You won't. You'll miss me. No one will ever love you as much as I do. Why isn't love enough?


"Don't say it. Don't you fucking say "You're too good for me." I am, but don't say it. You're making the mistake of your life. You're leaving me because you believe that you don't deserve happiness, but you do, Anna."
- Larry to Anna.

Jan 31, 2006

i went clubbing. yes i did. OMG right? woohooo! lesson 1: it is very fun to club with my dear! hugs. lesson 2: some people are just not cut out to dance, especially those who are flinging their stuff on stage. GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME. will update more tmr. nites folks

Jan 30, 2006

新年快乐!
Happy CNY folks. Hope its been great with plenty of ang paos! well this year's taking has been the same as last year. the rates are thereabouts. but this year CNY was a bit more fun, went to KTV with my cousins. and i spent a good amount of time talking to my grandma and my uncle. WOW i found out so many fasinating things. like my grandma can really drink alot, we are talking about half a bottle of brandy here. and my aunt is a fantastic drinker too.

found out things about my cousin who's never around. apparently she has serious issues with self-esteem. hahah. overall an alright new year. more visitations line up. gonna go to all my friends place to get more ang pao! ESPECIALLY MY DEAR! hahahah

alright, a little funny stuff to keep everybody entertained =) Cheerz folks, have a great new year ahead!

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Only in America...do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

Only in America......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.

Only in America.....do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

Only in America......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.

Only in America......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.

Only in America......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.

Only in America......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.


EVER WONDER ..

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

Jan 21, 2006

i think ling's blog pretty sums it all for me: thought process zero. somehow life happens and it seems to be at this juncture that everyone around me is feeling this way. zombified. like on a production line where we will all end up as meat patty and it is just so depressing to know people don't really care at all. after all, this is singapore. who gives a damn. unless it has something to do with their monies being taken away. but even that, as long as our government can mildly explain that "it is for your own good" then we wil accept, and continue moving on this production line, and continue to slog, and continue to be one of them, and eventually become a meat patty.

where is all the fun of my previous posts? what happened to me? why did i mellow down so much? why am i so listless when i used to be so restless? where did all my energy go? what did life do to me? why can't i fight back?

i can't even express my thoughts now. i am muted. silent.

but life trods on

Jan 8, 2006

for those windows uers, this was bill gates introduction of windows vista during CES enjoy!

http://homepage.mac.com/vito/real_vista_episode_1.mov

Jan 4, 2006

i need to grow up. i think too much of myself.

Dec 30, 2005

and i kena-ed a meme! from ling!

Rules:
1. Post the top 20 OR 30 OR 50 most frequently played songs in your player for the past one year.
2. Name five victims to pass the game on.

top 20 from iTunes since a year ago. with no 1. being the most played.

1. simple plan - untitled
2. 林俊杰 - 不懂
3. 周杰伦 - 分裂
4. toad the wet sprocket - windmills
5. 梁静茹 - 我是幸福的
6. 周杰伦 - 暗号
7. 林俊杰 - 一千年以后
8. Tom McRae - Walking to Hawaii
9. Snow Patrol - Run
10. 元味觉醒 - 天空
11. 孙燕姿 - 不能和你在一起
12. 蔡健雅 - 双栖动物
13. 蔡健雅 - 假想敌
14. 林俊杰 - 冻结
15. 静茹 - 给从前的爱
16. 张惠妹 - 灰姑娘
17. dido - white flag
18. 戴佩妮 - 爱疯了
19. 周杰伦 - 半岛铁盒
20. tori amos - a case of you

see, i have become such a cheena freak! haha this is my all time play list. can i please note in the past one month, i have also listened to good songs like

coldplay - fix you
michael buble - quando, quando, quando
kt tunstall - other side of the world
the killers - mr. brightside

but because my most played is all above 50 over times, its hard for my new song to break that list =)

and this meme goes on to:
1. mark
2. jun yi
3. chooz
4. and i can't think of anymore person as well who blogs and listens to music, so to whoever's interested.

Dec 23, 2005

i realised how unfair i have been to him. i don't really know why i was like that. its just that i was so engrossed in work. no its not a bad thing, but i really did let it affect us. i just took things for granted, and took him granted and really worked my ass off till such odd hours at night. and given that he had to wake up early, he can't really meet me after my work much, and he did try. that poor boy, and to think i blamed him for not wanting to meet me after my work.

am leaving for malaysia, will miss him alot.

Dec 19, 2005

what i really want for christmas (or belated birthday present)

1. 王子变青蛙DVD/VCD (aka The prince who turned into a frog)
2. Adidas orange (nederland - i think) jacket (size S)
3. Dishwalla CD
4. A good dermatologist to improve my skin
5. well if you can afford it, a saab 93 aero

Dec 17, 2005

walking along the sidewalks, from town to city. the mesmerizing lights, the glitz, the decor, the exhaust gas. almost painted a pink sky tonight. alone. dashboard confessional rining in my iPod.

its amazing really. how many things are happening at the same time. and how many of us are actually feeling the same. in the middle of life, facing death. escaping from life, facing life. living with life, coping with life. wars, peace talks, hunts, love, sex, harvest, suicides, births. all happening at the same moment.

makes me feel insignificant, yet amazed at the same time. that somewhere else, everyone feels the same. that you and me.

Dec 13, 2005

movies to watch, die die must catch!!

1. da vinci code
2. the world's fastest indian

don't know when will all these open

Dec 11, 2005

very bad case of hives. had 2 jabs in the past 3 days. seen 2 different doctors. gross. have absolutely no idea what caused it. could it be the tuna with the impurities? i am never allergic to anything sans dust. Erghz! its all over my body. in legions. its soooo itchy and so disgusting! ahhhhh

Dec 7, 2005

Chain Letter Type 1

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Oh please, they'll NEVER go out with you!!!
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Wasn't that fun? Hope you made a great wish. Now, to make you feel guilty, here's what I'll do. First of all, if you don't send this to 5096 people in the next 5 seconds, you will be raped by a mad goat and then thrown off a high building into a pile of manure. It's true! Because, you know, THIS letter isn't like all of those fake ones, THIS one is TRUE!! Really!!!

Here's how it goes:

*Send this to 1 person: One person will be pissed off at you for sending him/her a stupid chain letter.

*Send this to 2-5 people: 2-5 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*5-10 people: 5-10 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*10-20 people: 10-20 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*20 to 674, 951 1/2 people: 20 to 674, 951 1/2 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

Thanks!!!! Good Luck!!!


Chain Letter Type 2

Hello, and thank you for reading this letter. You see, there is a starving little boy in Baklaliviatatlaglooshen who has no arms, no legs, no parents, and no goats. This little boy's life could be saved, because for every time you pass this on, a dollar will be donated to the Little Starving Legless Armless Goatless Boy from Baklaliviatatlaglooshen Fund. Remember, we have no way of counting letters sent and this is all bull. So go on, reach out.

Send this to 5 people in the next 47 seconds. Oh, and a reminder-if you accidentally send this to 4 or 6 people, you will die instantly.

Thanks again!!


Chain Letter Type 3

Hi there!! This chain letter has been in existence since 1897. This is absolutely incredible because there was no email then and probably not as many little 8 year olds writing chain letters. So this is how it works. Pass this on to 1,5067 people in the next 7 minutes or something horrible will happen to you like:

Queer Horror Story #1
Miranda Pinsley was walking home from school on Saturday. She had recently received this letter and ignored it. She then tripped in a crack in the sidewalk, fell into the sewer, was gushed down a drainpipe in a flood of poopie, and went flying out over a waterfall. Not only did she smell nasty, she died.

This Could Happen To YOU!!!

Queer Horror Story #2
Dexter Bip, a 13 year old boy, got a chain letter in his mail and ignored it. Later that day, he was hit by a car and so was his boyfriend (hey, some people swing that way). They both died and went to hell. They continued to suffer in hell where they were both cursed to eat adorable kittens every day for eternity.

This Could Happen To You!!!

Remember, you could end up like Pinsley and Bip did. Just send this letter to all of your loser friends, and everything will be OK.


Chain Letter Type 4

As if you care, here is a poem that I wrote. Send it to every one of your friends.

Friends

-A friend is an angel, someone who is always at your side,
-A friend is someone who likes you even though you smell like poop,
-A friend is someone who likes you even though you're disgustingly ugly,
-A friend is someone who cleans up for you after you've soiled yourself,
-A friend is someone who stays with you all night while you cry about your loser life,
-A friend is someone who pretends they like you when they really think you should be raped by a mad goat and then thrown to vicious dogs,
-A friend is someone who scrubs your toilet and vacuums and then gets the check and leaves and doesn't speak much English, no sorry that's the cleaning lady,
-A friend is not someone who sends you chain letters because he wants his wish of his crush doing the nasty with him to come true.




There. Now that we've covered and dumped on the four main types of chain letters, onto the ironic part. In order for this to get any popularity, send it on!!! If you don't think it was funny at all, don't bother, but otherwise forward this sucker to everyone you know!!

If you don't, I don't care, but why not show this around? Take two minutes and forward it. Thanks!

Remember, the moral of the story is, if you get a chain letter, ignore it. If it's a joke or something, send it, sure, but if it's gonna make people feel guilty (i.e. the willieless boy from Baklaliviatatlaglooshen) or nervous (i.e. Miranda Pinsley who ended up in a waterfall of turds) just delete it. Do yourself a favor, and everyone else in the world, and say, "#$@%CHAIN LETTERS!!"

Dec 6, 2005

my baby has finally started working. very happy for him! haha but on my side. well i do love my job, i means its apple and anything apple just drives me nuts. my bosses are generally very nice, especially my direct supervisor. she is so extremely nice, and really dotes on me quite a fair bit. but but but, nothing in the world is perfect. there's also a downside to this job. the hours are really getting to me. i work retails hours, which means i start at 11 and i end at 9.30. you can add another half an hour to that hour for the pre-work prep and the post-work packing up.

yep the pay is good but long term wise, i am not so sure how feasible it is. i need to spend time with my dear, my family and my friends. haven't even seen my pop for such a long time. haha by the time i am home, he's asleep. when he leaves for work, i'm asleep. i miss mommy's food! haha eating at the food court can be such a dread! hrmm will see how lahz.

will see what the future holds before i start planning

Nov 28, 2005

my mom and my sis came down to visit me today. had a nice family dinner hehe. really happy to see my mom today. also ling came down with her friend. 2nd time she came to visit. so nice. she made a very interesting remark, about how happy i must be having so many visits. which indeed i am. and i love my job, long hours and all. meeting owners of massive organizations and every sort of people. thanks guy for all the visits and support. mark who came all the way down alone, and another with jeth n jiahui; sm, jere ling and co.; uni friends who happened to pop by, dillon, huiyi; my dearest gang of friends (they got me the best presents!)

yes they did, they fufilled my wishlist sans the iMac G5. i got 4 books and 2CDs wooohoo. it was a great night last night too. they visited me, gave me my presents and went to tcc for a simple celebration. ordered 4 desserts and we actually used them as 'cakes' since i didn't have any birthday cake this year. they decided to let me hv 4 birthday 'cakes' and i got to make 4 wishes. and honestly world peace was one of them! hahah, really enjoyed myself. thanks guys for being so thoughtful!!!

Nov 27, 2005

there's always this strange cocktail of emotions swirling around like some strange martini concotion. but then i think about it again, i'm not the only feeling like this. everyone else feels the same. i'm not the only one that feels strange at night, i'm not the only one that has skin worse than the surface of mars, i'm not the only one with issues, i'm not the only one with problems. what on earth is so special about me? we are unique, yet we are all scarily similar. we have similar needs, similar wants. different, yet the same. gosh.

natalie imbruglia - wrong impression

alanis - mary jane

swirling emotions AGAIN!

Nov 26, 2005

a very strange amalgamation of feelings.

just had a drink with my colleagues. the world of the straight guy is so amazing. this colleague of mine who is married tried to hook up this fat girl who's spilling over at all the wrong places. another one tried to borrow me to intro to the girls (which put me in such a awkward spot) luckily i had a female company. strangely, i can only communicate with females or gay men. its very difficult for me to talk to straight guys. oh well

the trip back home was rather interesting. bumped into fanny, my junior from JC. she's still so interesting bimbotic. but after she left, a very strange feeling surged out from nowhere. must be the songs from my iPod. can't really describe the feeling. just a very interesting one. hrmm.

Nov 23, 2005

why must you do this to me? will you only stop when i have reach my limit and i can't do anything anymore.

Nov 16, 2005

i just got back from work not too long ago. ate something my mom left for me.

everything is fine and dandy during the day. its just the nights that get to people. how the loneliness creeps in from every corner, even from my speaker. they surround you and breaks you down. every single night.

Nov 14, 2005

somehow it hurt alot more than i thought i would. i missed you a whole lot more than i thought i would.
you

Your Birthdate: November 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations.
You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you.
Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans.
You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot.

Your strength: Your ability to gain respect

Your weakness: Caring too much what others think

Your power color: Orange-red

Your power symbol: Letter X

Your power month: October




me

Your Birthdate: November 17

You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life.
And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others.
You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented.
Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage.

Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck

Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all

Your power color: Bronze

Your power symbol: Half Moon

Your power month: August

Nov 12, 2005

they are right, drowing your sorrows doesn't help. not a single bit.

Nov 11, 2005

i think i own the world. i am so dead idealistic, i think i am so perfect. but i am not. i am still human, and i still make mistakes. and truth is i am just not good enough. i can't believe that i can actually make you cry. again and again. sorry

Nov 8, 2005

its my exam tomorrow and its on singapore society. i can't help but feel thankful and loved in this magnificient country. lets take stock of what has happened recently.

::MORE murders despite our STRICT laws, we still have not had a month without murder yet, for quite a while already.

::transport fare RISED again despite posting RECORD profits

::CPF monies now can't be withdrew because we are not mature enough to save but will instead spend everything

::casino is allowed because we are mature enough to accept that it is vital for our economy

::ERP is rising but traffic condition is still horribly slow on CTE

::homosexual sites are banned and fined because we are too 'conservative' for that

::www.sammyboy.com is still allowed however

::GLC can now use our monies without being approved by the president or government of whatever along that lines

::we are going to hang someone else AGAIN, even though he was forced to traffic drug to help settle his brother's debt, despite him having earned a degree in IT, having many close friends, appeals and what not, despite activist calls

::bloggers are charged and jailed (understandly because they were so insensitive and rude and whatever, i still feel its too harsh though)

::white elephants (so cute and creative) are deemed to be making a political statement and warning

::4 peaceful protester outside CPF building was asked to leave by a platoon of RIOT SQUAD police (the law states that 5 and above is illegal gathering and you need to have a license)

::another singaporean complained about rude t-shirts

::SM goh speaks about press freedom and responsibility and likened the american press not showing nick berg's beheading to self censorship and said that even the western presses practice that though we do not strive to be like them

::reporters without borders rated us 140th out of 167th country in terms of press freedom (this we cannot accept because it is seen through western prism)

::world economic forum rated us 2nd in terms of transparency (this however we can accept because it is seen through a western prism)

what an exciting time we live in? this wonderful panopticon. don't you love it too?
as taken of sintercom here

Illogical comments by minister of state

Letter submitted to the Straits Times on 31 October 2005, refused by the newspaper on 3 Nov 2005.

To the Editor
I refer to the interview the Straits Times conducted with Minister of State Ho Peng Kee on 28 Oct 2005, specifically his comments about gays.



He repeats the claim that Singapore is a conservative society. This claim is suspect firstly because large numbers of Singaporeans think homophobia and discrimination is wrong, and secondly because the government itself, through its own censorship policies deny fair representation of gay people and modern views. To shape public opinion this way, and then claim that public opinion clamours for homophobic policies is disingenuous.

It was quite stunning to read that he feels heterosexuals should not be impeded by the law when it comes to non-procreative oral sex, and "even if they do it outside of marriage, it is still man and woman, which is still part of this mateship," yet he thinks our laws criminalising what gay people do in private should stay, even when they are in committed relationships.

It is extremely difficult to reconcile his views with the Prime Minister's assurance that the government is not homophobic.

The view that only heterosexuality is "natural" is a construct from the time of St Augustine (4th century). It is disputed among biblical scholars. It not universally accepted among Christians today, let alone other religions despite Ho's claim that "all the main religions in Singapore believe it's how we are made."

Just recently, a highly acclaimed Buddhist monk gave a talk to thousands at Bright Hill making it clear that homophobia, which is a form of hate and ill-will, is against Buddhist teaching.

Ho also used the slippery slope argument against repeal of anti-gay laws, when he said, "Once you move, where do you go to? So you'll talk about not just gay sex but also gay marriages, then gay adoptions..."

Throughout history, the slippery slope argument has been used every time anyone suggested any social progress. It was used when education for girls was first mooted, when giving the vote to women or to non-whites were first raised, when abolition of slavery was suggested.

The funny thing is, human civilisation gained strength with each of these moves despite initial fears.
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Background ? the relevant questions and answers from the Straits Times interview with Ho Peng Kee, by reporter Li Xueying, published 28 Oct 2005:

ST: Ministry of Home Affairs' (MHA) review of the Penal Code will be out at the end of this year. One aspect mentioned previously is the law on oral sex. Is it likely to be decriminalised?

Ho: That one we're looking at. Some of these laws were drafted in the past, so we have to contextualise some of these laws because society changes. It's a big exercise. The various ministries are still working on some of the details.

ST: What's your personal take?

Ho: My personal take is that between men and women, if you are an adult and there's no force, then what you do in the privacy of your bedroom that has no impact on the public, then you do what you want.

ST: What about gay sex?

Ho: We're still a conservative society. It's a slippery slope. Once you move, where do you go to? So you'll talk about not just gay sex but also gay marriages, then gay adoptions...

ST: But using the same argument, that you can do what you want in the privacy of your bedroom?
Ho: That's different because I think men and women having sex is natural. And it is also in a sense consistent with the whole idea of marriage. Of course even if they do it outside of marriage, it is still man and woman, which is still part of this mateship.

ST: As a Christian, do your religious beliefs affect you in your decision making?

Ho: You have to make decisions according to policies, what is right for Singapore, and Singapore is secular.

But as a mature religious person, your values are internalised. That's how you act, speak, present yourself. But you don't think, oh, as a Christian, what should this policy be?

At temples for instance, I attend festivals and so on, just that I don't hold joss sticks.

ST: You said gay sex is 'not natural'. Is that something that comes out of your religious beliefs?

Ho: Yes, could be. Well, I won't attribute it directly. I look at it more as a family bedrock thing, that a family is based on a man and a woman. I think all the main religions in Singapore believe it's how we are made.

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we must all stand up and do something. this panopticon is suffocating! join me my dear friends!

Nov 6, 2005

what is the point of living and working hard when in the end, its all nought. what are we here for? what's our purpose in life? why do we go through all of this when it all amounts to nothing. wouldn't it be better to be born as a simpleton or better yet, a nutcase with no cares in the world. or not to be born at all?

Nov 5, 2005

i am burying my head in my books now! my heaviest papers that take up 50% of the marks are back to back to back! gosh! how traumatising is that. this is over and on top some stupid asshole model who drag our entire project down due to his himboticness GOSH!!!!

ARGH, STRESS!

Nov 3, 2005

the singapore government has done it again. they have tried again to silence the homosexual community in singapore after declaring that they were not homophobic, but anybody who talks about homosexual content and promote the lifestyle should be silenced. is it even possible to promote a homosexual. just as it is not possible to promote a hetereosexual lifestyle, or promoting romance (going by the failure of romancing and the ever declining birthrate), how can anybody promote a homosexual lifestyle.

is it possible to do some petition so that government can hear our voices and let us live. first a fine, then a closing of a gay website, what is next? what is next? incaceration of all gay people? how can i be gay? i can love, but i touch any guys affectionately and no i most definitely can't have sex. what logic is that? i am going to write a term paper on this!
feels like you are never there when i need you to be. but i can fly down at 3am. surreal feeling
its a really strange feeling to see your coursemates from your JC batch getting so far in life, knowing what they want. the same people whom i graduated with, went on a trip with, whose abilities are about the same as mine, but they made it. made to the best flying school, in canada. but here i am in singapore mugging for my papers. all because of my slipped disc. all because of my injury. because i didn't know how to take care of myself. because i didn't train hard enough to have a better phsyical condition. its so surreal to look at them and envy and realised i could have been there too. i am such a loser!

Nov 2, 2005

i hate myself. let me go and die please. thanks

Nov 1, 2005

i need to be more productive! i need more drive, i need a car (LAME!). aiya, its always like that, i want to study and in the end, i end up getting stuck to my iBook (i think i'll name my iBook soon, hrmmm) okok back to my books and stop procrastinating!
this is depressing, my readership is going down =( awww. hahah. i am munching on ben & jerrys as i'm digesting my singapore society notes. oh well, life sucks. but i be glad that it is all cramped up in 4 days, break den 1 more paper, and that's it, off to enjoy my birthday!

not much energy to blog about big issues, and this page is damn due for a big revamp, so watch out world! in the mean time, drink as much as you can, get as drunk as you can and par-tay away (so i can get my A's muahahahahha)

Oct 30, 2005

its the showdown between 3 phones for me, the Sony Ericsoon w900 the panasonic vs7 or the nokia n70 tough choice so i must decide carefully!

anyhow, a few sites have caught my eye, and i'm adding it to my daily reads!

mr brown
diary of a lucky singaporean
talk rock
double yellow's musing

Oct 29, 2005

i need to put on more weight! prefably 8kg! that's gonna be a tough one. have started gymming already, but the past week has been incredulously busy with projects. and the exams are just around the bend, so well, after exams! look out arnold! (i think i have said this before, but oh well hahaha)

i've been compiling a playlist: 90s one hit wonders, you know songs that define the era, but its those one-hit wonders that really defined the 90s. for those with iTunes gift certificate, go get them off iTunes Essential

4 non blondes - what's up
the cardigans - lovefool
chumbawamba - tubthumping
cornershop - brimful of asha
deep blue something - breakfast at tiffany's
the divinyls - i touch myself
donna lewis - i love you always forever
len - if you steal my sunshine
meredith brooks - bitch
new radicals - you get what you give
the proclaimers - i'm gonna be (500 miles)
shawn mullins - lullaby
vertical horizon - everything you want
the verve - bitter sweet symphony
with exams lurking around the corner, i'm feeling the heat to mug really hard. maybe its self-expectation, or maybe i'm a 'perfectionist' like what a few of my friends tell me, i feel very horrible if i don't get my A's. but this is translating to insane mugging and i'm feeling somewhat afraid. sigh. its been god knows how many years since i last mugged, not saying that i didn't mug back in the airforce, but it's just so different. its all theories and concepts and what not, but oh well.

came across this incredibly funny maths question:



hahahahah

Oct 21, 2005

Greeks had many words to describe love. Eros - sexual love; Agape - giving, self-sacrificing love; Philia - friendship; Storge - affection.
If we fail to make the transition from eros to development of agape, philia and storge - intimacy, companionship and commitment - separation ensues.
my horoscope for the month:
Take extra care towards your health in case you pass your flu or cold to your partner. This is a busy and tiring month for most Scorpios so watch your mood. Be true to your feelings, if you have problems talking to your partner, solve this problem quickly or things could explode later.

Oct 19, 2005

oh, the horror! the horror! i got B for one of my subjects. i am not going to get all my A's ARGH!!!!!!!

Oct 17, 2005

gosh, i just realised how infrequently i am posting here. sorry to my regular readers. but oh well, i am going to do something very drastic to this place after my exams. and my exams are going to be here real soon, nov 7-14. and my birthday is just after that. for those who do not what to get me, refer to my wishlist, alternatively you can contact me =p

everything is falling into place now. school's been great. dear's been wonderful. my life is going just fine now. contented =)

in other news, do you know you can be fined if you don't pay the actual bus fares? like as if anybody bothers to tap earlier to save 10cents. and you must remember this rule came into effect after the bus fare hike and after SBS transit reported RECORD profit! guess i'll be cycling to school from now on.

Oct 11, 2005

http://www.theinquirer.net/?article=26808

A STORY stating that the Beast of Redmond had developed a technology which enabled DVDs to be played only once was much vilified on the Net. Some claimed it was a pure hoax. But the story's originator - The Business - has named now named its source.
Step forward one Alistair Baker, md with Microsoft in the UK. He claims that Microsoft's DRM software now gives the owner of content "total control over how it is viewed". That could mean that not only could the content be viewed only once but that the content could also have an expiry date and/or time of day.

Why would anyone want to introduce one-play DVDs, you might ask? To sell new hardware, of course. Baker describes the typical playing device as a "new DVD player from manufacturers like Toshiba supporting high-definition DVD and running Windows CE."

Now the British paper was inundated with emails and letters from hackers pointing out various ways around such DRM software. Granted even the dumbest of PC users could point a handycam at the PC's screen and retain a copy.

But that's not the point. Most users would simply not bother. Instead it indicates just how paranoid the major owners of content have become given that they would treat such an offering seriously. Particularly since the Beast is the supplier of the world's most ripped-off software.

The INQ also sympathises with those who are environmentally concerned. It's bad enough having PCs which destroy CDs by the dozen, every time you try to burn something. But a technology which is so wasteful the CD deliberately gets used only the once?

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Looks the the Inquirer hates WINDOZE as well! muahahahha
i realised that there are still a good number of people reading this blog. thanks guys, i really appreciate it. well it is kinda well, i don't really know how to say it, but it sorta makes me wanna post a bit more. but well, seriously, the recent CLAMPDOWN on bloggers is starting to get to me. but what the heck, i shall say what i want without crossing any boundary, seriously, i think its alright to call people a prude if they are really pruddish, and if you are a fat ass, then you are a fat ass, nobody can sue me for that, but however, racism that is not justified, well that is just dumb.

anyhow, read this:

Bryan says "A lot of Singaporeans are in deep sleep. They don't seem to realise that their lives revolve around the ideas of one man or a group of men. Their lives aren't their own." Of course, that "one man" he's talking about is Singapore's former Prime Minister Lee Kuan Yew, now the Minister Mentor. And the "group of men" he refers to is the core of the PAP cabinet

I had a dream last night in which i can predict the future so accurately that people would come up to me and ask for answers. LKY asked me about Singapore and I told him, 'Singapore will become the city of cities. But I also see the destruction of Singapore in 300 hundred years time. It will be over so fast that people can't imagine that there was this great city that stood in the middle of Southeast Asia.'

Brian explains that when he thinks of Singaporeans, he thinks of them as schoolchildren who still rely on authority figures to govern their conduct. Despite of or partly because of Singaporeans' reliance on top-down direction, he thinks that many Singaporeans don't form a deep attachment to the country. Hence, the transitory nature of the carpark setting for the schoolchildren's games.

Says Brian, "The carpark is a place that we don't live in. It's a place that we use, but don't form an attachment to. I think of our country as a carpark sometimes.

Oct 8, 2005

life gets to you. and you know life gets to you. but well aside from the bad times of life, its pretty good actually. enjoying struggling for my projects.

someone commented i am an idealist, and everything in works in clockwork precision in my head, and it just dawned upon me that it is absolutely true. i have a chaotic order in my head, and everything is possible in my dictionary. gosh now i know where my sleepness nights coming from.

Sep 30, 2005

LJ Friends Meme by

? You must tell 23 people about this game.
? alex is the one that you love.
? alvin tan is one you like but can't work out.
? You care most about colin.
? mark is the one who knows you very well.
? dillon is your lucky star.
? a lack of color is the song that matches with alex.
? counting down the days is the song for alvin tan.
? someday (i'll understand) is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
? and bu dong is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz
The New York Times

Maureen Dowd


Shirt-sleeves rolled up, W. finally landed in Hell yesterday and chuckled about his wild boozing days in "the great city" of N'Awlins. He was clearly moved. "You know, I'm going to fly out of here in a minute," he said on the runway at the New Orleans International Airport, "but I want you to know that I'm not going to forget what I've seen." Out of the cameras' range, and avoided by W., was a convoy of thousands of sick and dying people, some sprawled on the floor or dumped on baggage carousels at a makeshift M*A*S*H unit inside the terminal.

Why does this self-styled "can do" president always lapse into such lame "who could have known?" excuses.

Who on earth could have known that Osama bin Laden wanted to attack us by flying planes into buildings? Any official who bothered to read the trellis of pre-9/11 intelligence briefs.

Who on earth could have known that an American invasion of Iraq would spawn a brutal insurgency, terrorist recruiting boom and possible civil war? Any official who bothered to read the C.I.A.'s prewar reports.

Who on earth could have known that New Orleans's sinking levees were at risk from a strong hurricane? Anybody who bothered to read the endless warnings over the years about the Big Easy's uneasy fishbowl.

Ron Fournier of The Associated Press reported that the Army Corps of Engineers asked for $105 million for hurricane and flood programs in New Orleans last year. The White House carved it to about $40 million. But President Bush and Congress agreed to a $286.4 billion pork-filled highway bill with 6,000 pet projects, including a $231 million bridge for a small, uninhabited Alaskan island.

Just last year, Federal Emergency Management Agency officials practiced how they would respond to a fake hurricane that caused floods and stranded New Orleans residents. Imagine the feeble FEMA's response to Katrina if they had not prepared.

Michael Brown, the blithering idiot in charge of FEMA - a job he trained for by running something called the International Arabian Horse Association - admitted he didn't know until Thursday that there were 15,000 desperate, dehydrated, hungry, angry, dying victims of Katrina in the New Orleans Convention Center.

Was he sacked instantly? No, our tone-deaf president hailed him in Mobile, Ala., yesterday: "Brownie, you're doing a heck of a job."


It would be one thing if President Bush and his inner circle - Dick Cheney was vacationing in Wyoming; Condi Rice was shoe shopping at Ferragamo's on Fifth Avenue and attended "Spamalot" before bloggers chased her back to Washington; and Andy Card was off in Maine - lacked empathy but could get the job done. But it is a chilling lack of empathy combined with a stunning lack of efficiency that could make this administration implode.

Sep 26, 2005

Spontaneous and adaptable "balance in life" seeker

You like to be in touch with the in-crowd, in touch with what's new, and making sure you have the best of it. You appreciate design, and quality. You can give a 120% when you need to, but know that you don't need to 100% of the time. You know that life is for living, and you're smart enough to make sure that you have time to relax, chill and just be yourself.

You come across to many as a patient, people person who is a good listener, adaptable and accommodating to others. You have the ability to "go with the flow" of your surroundings. This ability is both your biggest strength and weakness; at best, you're very accepting and supportive of others as they really are, but at worst you can sometimes forget who you yourself are, passively agreeing with others and reticent to assert your own desires.

You may have a particularly hard time when making painful decisions, like firing someone, because you also see the other person's predicament, and hate to force confrontations. Sometimes you can find it hard to get started on things. However, this inertia can also work to your advantage, because once started you will make slow-but-steady progress, becoming determined and relentless in your pursuits.

Famous people who share these traits include:
Bill Clinton, Carl Jung, Nelson Mandela, Tiger Woods, Prince Charles, Ronald Reagan, Albert Einstein, Dwight Eisenhower

Sep 23, 2005

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.
i could fit 32'000 songs on my ipod shuffle! wooohoooo. yes a whoooping 32'000 songs on my 1gb shuffle. how did i do that? simple, i followed dell's way. i make each of my song 30seconds, and encode it at 8kbps. isn't that so smart of dell, to claim that their latest mfugly (mother fucking ugly) dj ditty (not to be confused with p. diddy, or diddy or puff daddy) can store a helluva 100 songs more than the iPod shuffle. both of 512mb. but armed with a microscope to read the fine prints, this 220 songs came about because dell assumes that we will all encode at 64kbps and the songs are 3 or isit 4 minutes.

what an ingenious move. who would have thought of it. next time i will tell creative to market their zen as the 1st mp3 player to store a MILLION SONGS!

Sep 18, 2005





the iPod Nano, that is only 0.7cm thin! OMG buy it for me, its only $438 =)

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caught the unexpected band at walas! THEY REALLY ROCK THE HOUSE DOWN, far better than EIC, and shirlyn sang a song for us =) it was soo coooool, and i think its because me j and sm really couldn't care much, we just head bobbed like nobody's business, everybody soon let their hair down. we were really cheering very hard for unexpected. they even played sweet child by guns. they rock! go get their cd at walas!!!

Sep 15, 2005

I have a dream, that one day the red dot that I live in, will finally allow people to speak, to speak without fear

Sep 5, 2005

WOOOHOOOO!, read this CNet's News

VIRUS INFECTED CREATIVE ZEN!!!!!!

WOOOHOOOOO!!!!!

Aug 31, 2005

not one, not 2, not 3 but 13 different people i know owning zen micro had to sent it for repairs within the 1st 3 months of ownerships. it just totally sucks and how can sim wong who be so cocky.

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Creative Technology Ltd. on Tuesday announced that on Aug. 9 it won what the company calls the "Zen Patent," which covers the user interface for its Zen and Nomad MP3 players. In a statement, Creative added that the patented interface is also "found in some competing players, such as the Apple iPod and iPod mini."

Creative CEO and chairman Sim Wong Hoo, who earlier this year declared "war" on Apple, said in the statement: "The first portable media player based upon the user interface covered in our Zen Patent was our NOMAD Jukebox MP3 player. We shipped the NOMAD Jukebox to U.S. retail customers in September of 2000. The Apple iPod was only announced in October 2001, 13 months after we had been shipping the NOMAD Jukebox based upon the user interface covered by our Zen Patent."

Mr. Sim went on to say: "Before this invention, there was no intuitive and efficient way to deal with the large number of tracks that could be stored on a high-capacity player."

The patent, which Creative applied for on Jan. 5, 2001, specifically covers "a method of selecting at least one track from a plurality of tracks stored in a computer-readable medium of a portable media player configured to present sequentially a first, second, and third display screen on the display of the media player, the plurality of tracks accessed according to a hierarchy, the hierarchy having a plurality of categories, subcategories, and items respectively in a first, second, and third level of the hierarchy."
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Upon further look, one would realise how far the fucker is digging into his own grave. I OWN the nomad jukebox and the user interface in no way resembles the iPod. iPod is so user friendly, only people who are less than idiots won't know how to use it. Further more, "hierarchal structure" applies for everything, from your handphone to your computer explorer folders sytem (if you don't own a mac) or the finder (if you are a mac owner) while it can claim to have sold the jukebox 1st and hence claim patent to the invention, it can't claim apple copied them. back in the 1980's people already written the hierarchail menu

in fact like how EVERYBODY will tell you, how creative copied apple, from the design of their remote control to the user MENU where even the battery placing is in the same spot with the same font.

WAKE UP SIM WONG WHO!? WE ALL HATE YOU! I'LL M*RD*R YOU AND V*ND*L*S* YOUR BUILDING!

Aug 29, 2005

its like lookin into the mirror and realizing that the person staring back isn't who you think it is. like the reflection on the broken mirror because you smashed it. different angles, different perspective. but just not who you think the reflection is. Stuck in a time warp where reality moved far faster but the mind preserved in an ancient form of self delusion, self worship. and the realization destroys every bit of sanity, reality in that ancient preservation. then the hanging gardens of babylon no longer stays, but slowly and suddenly crumbles. crumbles to pieces. just like the broken that you smashed into. different angles, different perspective.

Aug 20, 2005

my friend was saving powerpoint onto her creative zen neon, it crashed and died. and her project was gone. said person was so ashamed of her zen, she spent money on ipod earphones so people will think she uses an ipod, and she isn't the only one. i have known more than 3 person who does that.

nownow the zen neon is really very compact and small. it does look kinda nice. but but but. there is always a monkey wrench. you can't speed scroll down in the 2500 songs you can hold. there's no touch scroll like the one they RIPPED off the ipod, instead its back to the old interface where you had to use a jog scroll to scroll one song by one song from a to z. well interesting, now we all know why despite mr sim wong who?'s effort to create an ipod killer. it has never ever killed any ipod. it has even manage to hurt the ipod. yup yup.

Aug 16, 2005

This is best joke i've heard for the century, taken off here

^^^^^^^

The attractive couple on the television screen gracefully moved their bodies into the next yoga pose: arms extended, head tilted slightly back, a deep breath in. In front of the TV set, a seven-year-old girl and her mother did their best to mimic the posture. The little girl, Laurette, loved this special time with her mom.

It was 1965, and Laurette's mom, Jacquie, didn't think twice about exercising along with this yoga program that came on the TV after Jack La Lanne. She developed a passion for yoga, and began instructing free classes in her home. Laurette served as the demonstration model for her mom. The young girl relished the attention?and her family never suspected this seemingly innocent exercise would open the door to a New Age lifestyle that would affect Laurette for the next 22 years.

Speaking Out
Now 46, Christian speaker/author Laurette Willis tells everyone she meets about the dangers of yoga. The Oklahoma resident addresses groups across the country, speaking from personal experience and her knowledge as a certified personal trainer and aerobics instructor. She's developed a prominent presence on the Internet, largely due to her new exercise program, PraiseMoves, which she calls "a Christian alternative to yoga." She shares her testimony on the website (www.PraiseMoves.com) in a pull-no-punches style, and responds to numerous e-mails?some curious, others critical of her stance on yoga. Additionally, she posts comments on the message boards of other fitness and religion websites. She's also self-published a book and video about PraiseMoves.

So what caused Laurette to become vocal about yoga? And is yoga really all that bad? Her testimony is a bold answer to both questions.

Throughout her childhood, Laurette's family regularly attended church. "If someone had asked us, we would have said we were Christians," she says. "But we never heard the message of salvation at our church." Lacking knowledge about the Christian faith, Laurette's mom found herself drawn to New Age practices, and began reading books by Nostradamus and Edgar Cayce (both claimed to have psychic abilities) and taking Laurette to an ashram, a Hindu yoga retreat.

As an adult, Laurette immersed herself in every New Age and metaphysical practice she came across: chanting, crystals, tarot cards, psychics, channeling spirits.

"I tried everything?Kabbalah, Universalism, Taoism, Zoroastrianism ?because I was spiritually hungry," Laurette says. "I call the New Age movement 'Burger King' because it's like the fast-food restaurant's motto: 'Have it your way.' That's what the New Age movement tries to do, to achieve God on its terms."

There was one thing Laurette wasn't remotely interested in pursuing: Christianity. "I thought Christians just wanted to give me a bunch of rules and dogma," she says. "I didn't know they were speaking about a relationship with Jesus."

But in Laurette's quest to find herself, she only found a deepening sense of loneliness. "God will use whatever it takes to bring you to your knees," she says. "I'd made a mess of my life. I was an alcoholic. I'd been promiscuous. I tried every form of religion, never coming to any knowledge of the truth."

One day in 1987, a thought popped into Laurette's head: What if everything I thought about God was completely wrong? Two days later, she fell to her knees. "I didn't know anything about the Bible or Jesus. I just cried out to God from the depths of my soul, 'I give up! You win! If you can do something with my life, you can have it.' "As Laurette asked God to take control of her life, she felt a physical weight lift from her body.

"I learned much later that the weight was sin," she says. "I hadn't realized sin was real. New Agers think the word 'sin' is an acronym for 'self-inflicted nonsense.' That's the deception of the Enemy, because if there's no sin, then you don't need a Savior."

She remembers the change at the moment she accepted Christ: "I felt peace descend upon me for the first time in my life."

Exercise Plus Praise
After giving her life to God, Laurette began devouring the Bible. She burned her New Age books and disengaged from everything associated with her turbulent past?including yoga.

For years, Laurette never gave yoga a second thought. But in 2001, an idea popped into her head: What if there was an alternative to yoga that provided exercise while spiritually moving Christians to praise the Lord? She spent a good deal of time in prayer, wanting to be certain this idea was God's will.

After two years of planning, Laurette self-published a PraiseMoves book and video in 2003. She began certifying PraiseMoves instructors across the country last fall.

The PraiseMoves program utilizes gentle stretches that correlate with Scripture verses. There's "The Eagle" stretch, where the arms are pulled back to resemble a bird in flight. While students hold this stretch, Laurette reads Isaiah 40:31: "But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles" (NKJV). Other stretches include "The Angel" (Psalm 91:11), "The Rainbow" (Genesis 9:16), and "The Altar" (Romans 12:1). At each session's end, students are asked to prayerfully consider a verse from the Bible, or to spend some quiet time expressing gratitude to God.

The Problem with Yoga
Laurette wanted PraiseMoves to provide all the physical benefits for which yoga is often touted: improved flexibility, weight loss, reduced stress, and improved circulation, to name a few. But she wanted the similarities to end there.

The goal of all yoga, Laurette explains, is to obtain oneness with the universe. That's also known as the process of enlightenment, or union with Brahman (Hinduism's highest god). The word "yoga" means "union" or "to yoke."

"Yoga wants to get students to the point of complete numbness in their minds. God, on the other hand, wants you to be transformed by the renewing of your mind through his Word," Laurette says.

Before she became a Christian, Laurette used subliminal tapes to train her mind to empty itself. These tapes are often used in yoga classes, she says. She also taught yoga classes and instructed her students in astral projection, or "stepping outside" of the body, which Laurette says poses a serious spiritual danger.

"If there's nothing in your mind, you're open to all kinds of deception. After coming to Christ, I wondered who?or what?came into my body when I 'stepped out.' While I don't believe Christians can become possessed, I do believe we can become oppressed by demonic spirits of fear, depression, lust, false religion, etc. These are all things designed to draw us away from Jesus Christ."

But what about hatha yoga, the less overtly spiritual form of yoga taught at most gyms? Even in this format, Laurette says there are commonly used words and poses antithetical to God's Word. For example, the word "namaste," often said at the close of yoga classes, means, "I bow to the god within you." The sound "om," chanted in many yoga classes, is meant to bring students into a trance so they can join with the universal mind. And the "salute to the sun" posture, used at the beginning of most classes, pays homage to the Hindu sun god. Laurette believes it's impossible to extract Hindu spiritualism from yoga?and she's gotten a bit of confirmation on this from an unlikely source:

"I received an e-mail from a staff member of the Classical Yoga Hindu Academy in New Jersey. The staff member wrote, 'Yes, all of yoga is Hinduism. Everyone should be aware of this fact.' This staff member included that she didn't appreciate my 'running down the great Hindu/Yogic religion,'" Laurette says.

Her statements about yoga have also drawn criticism from some Christians. Some accuse Laurette of being judgmental. Others say her fears about yoga are irrational. She's quick to tell critics PraiseMoves isn't for everybody, but she doesn't back down from her stance on yoga. When she speaks with Christians who practice yoga, she encourages them to pay close attention to any hesitation they feel?and then to check out the facts for themselves.

Numerous Christian women have told Laurette they decided to quit yoga after learning about its Hindu roots. It's a hard decision for those who've invested many years and many dollars into the practice.

Laurette says, "I tell people that if their reasoning is, 'But I've already paid for these yoga classes,' or 'But I just bought these cool yoga pants and a yoga DVD,' to ask themselves: Am I willing to give these things up to know the truth?"

Holly Vicente Robaina, a TCW regular contributor, lives in California. Laurette's new book, BASIC Steps to Godly Fitness, will be published by Harvest House this April.

Proceed with Caution
There's a new practice popping up at churches and fitness clubs around the country. Dubbed "Christian yoga" or "yoga for Christians," these programs supposedly offer the physical benefits of yoga along with Christian spirituality. But is it really possible for yoga to be transformed into a practice for Christians?

Doug Groothuis, author of Confronting the New Age and a professor of philosophy at Denver Seminary, says proponents of "Christian yoga" are misled?and are misleading others.

"'Christian yoga' is an oxymoron. Yoga is rooted in Hinduism and cannot be separated from it," he says. "There's nothing wrong with stretching and calming down one's breathing. But yoga isn't really about that; it's aimed at transforming human consciousness to experience the Hindu god, which is a false god."

TCW found several "Christian yoga" instructors who are affiliated with secular yoga organizations that have a Hindu or New Age bent.

When investigating a Christian yoga class, be on the lookout for:

Sanskrit language. Many words commonly used in yoga pay homage to Hindu deities.

Metaphysical jargon. Phrases such as "breathing in positive energy and breathing out negative energy," "focusing on the third eye," and "getting in touch with the divinity within you" have New Age implications.

Projection. Beware being told to empty your mind or to step outside your body.

Feelings of discomfort. Pay attention to those feelings. Even if you can't pinpoint why you're uncomfortable, this may be the Holy Spirit's way of letting you know the class isn't for you.

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now come on, seriously? when can all of you ridiculous stupid people start to respect others.!!!!

Aug 13, 2005

still alive, if alive means breathing and being able to go to school and eating. something life takes such unexpected twist, we do not even know how, when or why. life, oh life.

the past few nights weren't easy. we all know how it feels like late in the night. i don't suppose you are having it easy too.


元卫觉醒 - 天空

听着自己的心跳 没有规则的跳跃
我安静的在思考 并不想被谁打扰
失去了你的引导 寂寞在一旁嘲笑
它笑我无处可逃 我变的好渺小

时间分割成对角 停止你对我的好 瓦解我们的依靠

在你离开之后的天空 不像再有晴朗的梦
雨后的天空 是否再有放晴后的笑容
我静静的望着天空 试着寻找一绺的彩虹
哭过的面容 期待着就为出现的笑容

Aug 9, 2005

i wished you were beside me yesterday.
i know now how lonely it can get, watching the fireworks all by myself. strolling down the esplanade, listening to my iPod. walking across that place, with the song "hands to heaven" playin on the iPod/

Jul 21, 2005

my mind is clouded with emptiness. nothing to say, don't know where to begin. i am still alive. happiness is but a mask worn with skill and deceit.

Jul 13, 2005

having blogged about NKF and their lies before, it gives me immense pleasure to see that NKF's attempt at sueing SPH has failed terribly, and causing much more backlash that includes vandalism and a possible countersuit of their laundering of public's money.

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a translated excerpt of what happened in the courtroom show's just exactly how dark and conniving the organisation is

as stated in front of the judge, NKF has $ 262'000'000 in reserves. now NKF collects $24.4mil from their patients and spents $31.6mil on their patient. this means that they spend $7.1 million a year on their patients. so therefore their reserves will last for about THIRTY to FOURTY years should there be no more donations.

what was also revealed during court proceedings was that during 9th April '04, where NKF declared that their reserve will only last for 3 years was INDEED a LIE! furthermore, NKF puts in money during their donation drives. mr durai tried to argue that the reserves will have to spent during their yearly activities, and therefore it would not last 30 years. however when grilled on by Senior Cousel Davinder Singh (henceforth known as lawyer), mr dulai admitted that without any more donation drives or any activities, the reserves will last 30 to 40 years.

when further pressed by the lawyer "mr dulai, what was the intention behind to publish and emphasised on a INCORRECT information? what was the exact intention? has it got anything to do with the more donations poured in, the more bonus you will get" mr durai avoided the question saying he worked for the sake of NKF and their patients.

what was also revealed was the Mr dulai took home $ 1'800'000 dollars for the past 3 years of work and that his bonus for 2004 was 12 bloody months

Mr Durai also admitted that NKF provides EIGHT cars. of which the road tax was all paid for by our kind donations. upon further questioning mr dulai also admitted that HIS SERVICING AND ROAD TAX was also paid for with our kind donations

however mr durai felt that a $990 tap was inexpensive for a family whose income is $1000 a month

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Lawyer: "we know that your payslip is $60'000 a year, which is why you felt that a $990 tap is inexpensive. but would you tell us, for a citizen who's income is $1000-$2000 a month, would this $990 tap be expensive"

Mr Durai: "He might think that it is expensive"

Lawyer: "he might? please tell the truth"

Mr Durai: "I can't speak for him. This depends on the structure of the contruction, the usage of the tap...."

Lawyer: "a person living in a 1, 2, 3 room flat with montly income of $1000, $2000, $3000, will he find a $1000 tap expensive, even with 10% discount?"

Mr Durai: "maybe, yes"

Lawyer: "is that a yes or a no"

Mr Durai: "if he is educated and knows the usage of a tap, he won't find it expensive"

now we all know how mr durai thinks. firstly he thinks those of us living in flats are uneducated, secondly he believes family that has difficulty putting 3 meals to a table will find a $990 tap inexpensive if they're educated and knows the purpose of a tap. interesting

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now further into the interrogation of the 1st class flights that mr durai is accustomed to. Mr Durai's travel perks also came under scrutiny.

Not only had the NKF maintained consistently - as recently as in the April 19 article - that none of its executives flew first class, it had threatened to sue people who said Mr Durai did so.

At least two people have had to apologise publicly and pay damages and costs for saying they had seen Mr Durai travel first class, as the NKF said this implied he was wasting donors' funds.

Under questioning, he admitted he had flown first class on some airlines. His explanation: The NKF board allowed this as long as he did not bust the Singapore Airlines business-class rate.

Mr Singh countered: 'Isn't it your duty as a trustee of people's monies to make sure that you get best value on a business-class seat instead of deploying this clever tactic... using it for first class on another plane?'

Mr Durai replied: 'This is a decision made by the board. I used the entitlement.' The entitlement, he added, kicked in only in the past two years. Previously, when he flew first class, he had paid the difference out of his own pocket, he maintained.

Mr Singh noted that although he now flew first class, Mr Durai did not correct his chairman Richard Yong's assertion in the April 19 article that 'there is no such thing as first-class travel'.

'The reason you hide the truth is because you know that that is the wrong thing to do, using people's money, and you know that is mismanagement of donations.'

Mr Durai was asked if he should now 'do the right thing' by the two individuals who had paid him damages and costs for saying what he had now admitted in court. He said no, sticking to his claim that at that time, he did not travel first class using NKF funds and when he did so, he paid the difference himself.

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The hearing yesterday was delayed by the NKF's application for special damages of $3.24 million, which it claimed was what it lost in donations following the publication of the article. Justice Tan Lee Meng threw out the application and ordered the NKF to pay SPH's legal cost for its last-minute move.

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Also a very interesting thing to note was Mr Durai's amazing belief that a family living in a 1 room flat will be able to sit in a first class seat to travel. hrmmm

Lawyer: "as the trusted personnel who is suppose to handle the public monies with care, are u suppose to ensure that you get the best value for money air tickets"

Durai: "yes"

Lawyer: "when you fly by business class, why did you need the experience of flying by business class?"

Durai: "the perks were permitted by the board...."

Judge: "that is not the question of Senior Counsel Davinder Singh"

Lawyer: "you used the donation of a man living in a 1 room flat, who might have problems putting 3 meals on his table"

Durai: "yes"

Lawyer: "do you think it is possible for such a man to ever see what it is like to be in a first class seat?"

Durai: "i'm not sure"

WOW he is not sure. hrmm very interesting nugget of information

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[taken from dominicsoon.com]
Using numbers from the NKF website, I calculated that 55% of expenditures actually go to charitable programs while about a fifth are swallowed up by operating costs including, by the way, Mr Durai’s salary. (See Figure 1.) This is laughable compared to the 95% of the American Kidney Fund (AKF) which has similar revenues (roughly S$86 million.)

Figure 1: The NKF - Internationally Competitive?


Click on image to expand
Source: http://www.charitynavigator.org/

But wait - in the fiscal year of 2003, the AKF actually ran a deficit ? that is, it spent more money than it received. Perhaps the NKF strategy of saving around 34% of its revenues is a sound one? I constructed an alternative scenario, supposing that the AKF saved 34% of its revenue and took this out of its program expenses, reducing them by around US$20 million. The share of expenditure on charitable programs hardly budged (it fell to 93%) because their administration costs were so small to begin with.

The NKF is also not particularly efficient at revenue generation, despite its high profile activities:

Table 1: Fund-Raising Activities to Donations Ratio in 2003
Includes public relations expenditures
Organization Amount raised per dollar
NKF S$3.93
SPCA S$14.54
Kidney Dialysis Foundation S$5.87
American Kidney Fund US$22.95

Source: Various company websites. All are local charities except the American Kidney Fund.

Two out of every three Singaporeans donate to the NKF. After the recent scandal, that number is going to fall. Hopefully that will translate into more resources for other worthier, more efficient organizations, such as the Kidney Dialysis Foundation, a smaller outfit in the middle of Kreta Ayer which has revenues about a twentieth of the NKF. In case you’re interested in what their expenses look like, here’s the graph.

Figure 2: Figure 2: Kidney Dialysis Foundation - Expenses


Source: http://www.kdf.org.sg

Part of a longer work in progress. All errors are mine and unintentional.
[ends here]
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of cos now we must all sign the petition to remove mr durai and hopefully more transperency in NKF and how they misappropiate our funds, you can sign the petition hereor you can goto http://www.petitiononline.com/nkfs/petition-sign.html? to have mr durai remove.

but of course if you want to see more of NKF flying SQ business class or the equivalent or driving 8 cars, and using your money to service and pay the road tax of his private car used by his wife of would love for your money to go to his 12 month bonus, or that the fact that NKF purposely OVERSTATED their number of patients on 3 occasions (remember that there was the childrens fund where it was 3000 over patients, there's actually less than 2000, NKF itself tends to only 3000 over patients but they have 1000 over staff and they pay VERY well, over $9 per hour for a person who takes your pulse during your free medical examination after which they force you to donate money) remember the hotline

1900 112 6868 for 1 call
1900 112 6833 for 3 calls
1900 112 6855 for 5 calls and 10 CHANCES TO WIN IN A LUCKY DRAW
1900 112 6888 FOR 8 CALLS AND 20 CHANCES TO WIN IN THE AMAZING LUCKY DRAW!!!!


p/s the information above are as accurate as my translation, information are taken off several newspaper, including ST's website stated below, and www.dominicsoon.com
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some very interesting links to keep you busy
when i grow up,i wanna be NKF's CEO

Oikonk - In Defense

more dirt on day 2

tales from chambana NKF - a personal view

the mail order bride - would you still donate?

today's reader open letter to NKF

dominic soon's detailed analysis of NKF, KDF and other's organisation

of cos our own ST's report on MR Durai

mr brown

Jul 8, 2005

"Crying Out Love in the Centre of the World"

hope to catch this show with my pooh bear

Jul 6, 2005

梁静茹 - 我是幸福的

黄昏过后 暖暖的晚风中 在小公园里头 眼眶红了
看老公公和老婆婆在散步着 把手牢牢握着
星星亮了 我觉得幸福就是这样的

几十年后 你也变老公公 我当你的拐杖 扶着你走
眼睛花了 你老花眼镜就是我 把时间忘了 慢慢走
美丽风景 我为你转播不让你错过

能和你牵手 我是幸福的 你就像温柔又顽固的石头
用心盖了座 最美的城堡叫永久 圈住我
不管过再久也会幸福的 我们都走过了动摇的时候
爱已变成树 就算是有风会平息的

几十年后 你也变老公公 我当你的拐杖 扶着你走
眼睛花了 你老花眼镜就是我 把时间忘了 慢慢走
美丽风景 我为你转播不让你错过

能和你牵手 我是幸福的 你就像温柔又顽固的石头
用心盖了座 最美的城堡叫永久 圈住我
不管过再久也会幸福的 我们都走过了动摇的时候
爱已变成树 就算是有风会平息的

被懂我的人爱着 我是幸福的 连沉默都能是交流
你总是能给我比我想的还要多 我爱你
不做你的公主 要做你的快乐

Jul 5, 2005

梁静茹 - 勇气

终于做了这个决定 别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语只要你一个眼神肯定
我爱你的意义(我的爱就有意义)我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起 人潮拥挤我能感觉你放在我手心
你的真心如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急 更害怕错过你
梁静茹 - 一夜长大

末班车回家 雨一直下
整夜忍的泪 他不听话
我不想去擦 就这样吧
爱让这女孩 一夜长大 一夜长大
想要说的话 竟然忘了啊
我总是很少说 不懂得表达
分手我不怕 你知道吗 你知道的啊
只是 那几乎成真 我们的家 你真的不想吗
那这些年的专心无猜 你只当我是朋友吗
我以为雨声会遮住你的回答 它却那么清楚啊
让这个你曾深爱的女孩 一夜长大
原因一定很多 就随你吧
究竟为什么 我不管它
分手我不怕 你知道吗 你知道了吧
只是 那几乎成真 我们的家 你再也不想吗
那这些年的专心无猜 当朋友都不好吗
我多想雨中听不清你的回答 它却那么清楚啊
让这个你曾深爱的女孩 一夜长大
那几乎成真 我们的家 你从此不想吗
那这些年的专心无猜 你只当我是朋友吗
我以为雨中听不见你的回答 它却那么清楚啊
让这个你曾深爱的女孩 一夜长大
一夜长大 一夜长大

Jul 1, 2005

i want my pooh bear

Jun 27, 2005

for all those who really wanted to know why gays are born and not a choice of life

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As far as I know, male homosexuality in Drosophila and Homo sapiens is hypothesised to be controlled by 2 totally different genes. While male homosexuality in Drosophila is indeed discovered to be influenced by the FRU gene, human male homosexuality is more correctly linked to the HMS1 gene in the Xq28 locus. This makes a lot of sense - since gays practically do not reproduce, why is there still a stable number of gays in the society IF it's really genetic?

One thing we ALL have to note is that whatever phenotypic outcome, there must be a genetic and environmental influence. As all who have touched the least bit on genetics should know, phenotypic variance = genetic variance + environmental variance. Hence, a portion of the "no inheritance" claim is eliminated by the environmental portion.

As for the genetic portion, the gay gene is identified on Xq28 - locus number 28 on the long arm of X chromosome. Sex-linked, and inherited from the mother. Since this HMS1 only takes effects on males, it has no effects on the mother. The mother is still straight but the son is gay.

Scientists studying the HMS1 allele also proposed that male homosexuality is actually part of nature's means to increase birth rate. HMS1 does not produce a protein signalling for male-male attraction but stimulates male attraction. If it's expressed in a female, she'll be more fertile, more attracted to males and hence, totally straight. When expressed in males, it prompts attraction to males instead of females, hence male homosexuality. As such, the HMS1 gene actually is NOT the same as the FRU gene which is specific to homosexuality. HMS1 is meant for increased female HETEROSEXUALITY which, in heritance to a male offspring, becomes a primer to male homosexuality.

or click
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/entrez/query.fcgi?db=gene&cmd=Retrieve&dopt=Graphics&list_uids=3165


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that bitch of a HOD which i yelled at and got a standing ovation from my colleagues, she came from city harvest where the other bitch comes from. you know the one who is sometimes a pastor, sometimes not a pastor, sometimes speaking in tongues, sometimes cure cancer and aids patient with a touch, sometimes spending 39 million BUCKs on a titanium church that changes colours somtimes wearing drop v armani dress sometimes driving an audi tt sometimes wearing a bvlgari sometimes chopard horse?

Jun 25, 2005

i don't like life to be in a mangled mess. i don't like to untie mess. i don't like naggy mom who ask me what letter i received even before i signed for the letter. i don't like to feel inferior. i don't like to be missing people badly that i forget myself. i don't like to have to think about things. i don't like explaining myself to others. i don't like to be misunderstood. i don't like ot be taken for granted. i don't like not getting what i want. i don't like myself being wishy washy. i don't like smokers. i don't like dust. i don't like stephanie sun. i don't like crockroaches. i don't like lizards. i don't like bitches like this HOD of mine. i don't people who only know how to 'delegate' work but forgetting to work themselves. i don't like rude people and i don't like a lot of things, like how i don't like myself not liking so many things.

i like coffee, i like rose tea, i like durians. i like myself. i like jeans. i like kinky stuff like ahem.... i like ropes. i like socks. (hahaha okok thats enough) i like APPLE, i like my iBook, i like iPod, i like my iPod Shuffle, i like my wireless mouse, i like my guitars, i like cds, i like maroon 5, i like lifehouse, i like britney spears, i like dashboard confessional, i like food at brazil churracia, i like to drink jyunbag at acid bar. i like wala wala, i like balaclava, i like to listen to songs, i like to look good.....

i love you.

Jun 19, 2005

why do i feel like i'm such a hopeless case?
movies to catch but no one to catch with and no time and no moolah but the primary reason is no one to catch it with =(

downfall
hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
madagascar
batman begins
unleashed
alot like love
in my father's den
mr and mrs smith
i might have posted this before but i think it makes so much sense i must post it up again.

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Those We Love the Best

It's been said that it's often the ones we love whom we hurt the most. Paradoxical, but plausible, given how easy it is to hurt our loved ones.

We are often gracious, tolerant and accommodating towards casual friends and acquaintances, even people we hardly know. That could be because we want to maintain a positive impression, in view of possible future collaboration or aid. It also could be because we don't wish to appear boorish, or because we are fearful of negative reactions.

Our loved ones though, are often not so fortunate. Because we are certain of their love for us, we tend to abuse that love and take it for granted. We may do selfish things that bring them distress or use harsh language when we're upset because we know that they will probably bear it and forgive us. Or we may not express our love enough or spend little quality time with our loved ones because we assume that they'll always be there.

But our loved ones feel pain and neglect as keenly as any one of our friends and colleagues. Even more so, since it is someone they love who is dealing out such thoughtless afflictions. And like everyone else, they may not be around for the rest of our lives.

This is a poem written by an unknown author, about the disturbing reality of how we treat the ones we love.

They say the world is round,
Yet I often think it's square,
So many little hurts we get
From corners here and there;

But there's one truth in life I've found
While journeying East and West,
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.

We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those we love the best.

Jun 18, 2005

i hate myself. i saw my friends picture of them in australia, after a flight, and i missed it so much. ARGH why did i have to get this stupid injury. now i can't fly anymore. NOT ever and it just kinda stinks cos i almost went with my coursemates. but here i am waiting for university. my future just took a 180 degrees change.

whatever convinced me to convince myself? its all nonsense. i guess i can never live with this. i lost. i suck and i hate myself. ARGH!

Jun 16, 2005

Horoscope June 2005, Scorpio

If you have plans to travel abroad, avoid temptations or flings as it might turn out negative. Spending on an exotic getaway trip or taking up a new hobby with your loved one will be ideal. Watch your spending though as such indulgences could burn a hole in your wallet. Tell your loved one how much you appreciate their being here with you, you might be surprised how much your words mean to them.
feeling extremely lonely.

another teary night

Jun 14, 2005

ALRIGHT! MAC users who longed to use iChat but couldn't can now use iChat with the AIM's webmail. simply go to mail.aol.com sign up for a new 2GB account and voila we can sign in using iChat. Windows users can take advantage of it too of the 2GB mail and AIM messenger. its damn cool try it and let me know. i'll add all of you =)
woke up today with puffy eyes. so we all know what that means. So puffy even my clerk was asking what happened to me. how fascinating. it just sucks knowing that it doesn't matter what i do, because nothing i do can make a difference. even having to beg for something, nothing changes.

Jun 13, 2005

i can't stand it. i can't stand self-censorship because i hate to be controlled. NOBODY CONTROLS ME but sadly i am being controlled and manipulated. everytime i want to blog i have to hold back. but i don't want to hold back. if i don't blog i feel miserable. but if i blog, i feel miserable. what's with this whole fucking issue anyway? don't like what you see, don't see. it is so simple with the web. NOBODY FORCED YOU TO READ MY WEBPAGE. if you didn't click on a link, or purposefully typed my webpage on the address bar, you wouldn't be here.

GO AWAY!
ARGH!!!!

Jun 10, 2005

you would have thought that people working in diplomatic positions would have wiser choice of their language:

Speaking to the press after Singaporean boy and his cousins were lost in malaysia, the sultan of pahang noted that "The children told [them] they were not eating but drinking stream water. At night they got together, hugging one another, loving one another and saying their prayers."

RIGHT.......

Jun 5, 2005

i am not dead. i just have nothing to say

Jun 4, 2005

For a friend.

张惠妹 - 解脱

爱是不夜城 回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾 我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人 越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨 阳光替房间开了灯
想 若结局一样 又何苦再想
伤 若让人成长 我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱 是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走 我有自由好好过
解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔 我总会实现一个梦
心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我