Jun 27, 2005

for all those who really wanted to know why gays are born and not a choice of life

#####

As far as I know, male homosexuality in Drosophila and Homo sapiens is hypothesised to be controlled by 2 totally different genes. While male homosexuality in Drosophila is indeed discovered to be influenced by the FRU gene, human male homosexuality is more correctly linked to the HMS1 gene in the Xq28 locus. This makes a lot of sense - since gays practically do not reproduce, why is there still a stable number of gays in the society IF it's really genetic?

One thing we ALL have to note is that whatever phenotypic outcome, there must be a genetic and environmental influence. As all who have touched the least bit on genetics should know, phenotypic variance = genetic variance + environmental variance. Hence, a portion of the "no inheritance" claim is eliminated by the environmental portion.

As for the genetic portion, the gay gene is identified on Xq28 - locus number 28 on the long arm of X chromosome. Sex-linked, and inherited from the mother. Since this HMS1 only takes effects on males, it has no effects on the mother. The mother is still straight but the son is gay.

Scientists studying the HMS1 allele also proposed that male homosexuality is actually part of nature's means to increase birth rate. HMS1 does not produce a protein signalling for male-male attraction but stimulates male attraction. If it's expressed in a female, she'll be more fertile, more attracted to males and hence, totally straight. When expressed in males, it prompts attraction to males instead of females, hence male homosexuality. As such, the HMS1 gene actually is NOT the same as the FRU gene which is specific to homosexuality. HMS1 is meant for increased female HETEROSEXUALITY which, in heritance to a male offspring, becomes a primer to male homosexuality.

or click
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/entrez/query.fcgi?db=gene&cmd=Retrieve&dopt=Graphics&list_uids=3165


#####

that bitch of a HOD which i yelled at and got a standing ovation from my colleagues, she came from city harvest where the other bitch comes from. you know the one who is sometimes a pastor, sometimes not a pastor, sometimes speaking in tongues, sometimes cure cancer and aids patient with a touch, sometimes spending 39 million BUCKs on a titanium church that changes colours somtimes wearing drop v armani dress sometimes driving an audi tt sometimes wearing a bvlgari sometimes chopard horse?

Jun 25, 2005

i don't like life to be in a mangled mess. i don't like to untie mess. i don't like naggy mom who ask me what letter i received even before i signed for the letter. i don't like to feel inferior. i don't like to be missing people badly that i forget myself. i don't like to have to think about things. i don't like explaining myself to others. i don't like to be misunderstood. i don't like ot be taken for granted. i don't like not getting what i want. i don't like myself being wishy washy. i don't like smokers. i don't like dust. i don't like stephanie sun. i don't like crockroaches. i don't like lizards. i don't like bitches like this HOD of mine. i don't people who only know how to 'delegate' work but forgetting to work themselves. i don't like rude people and i don't like a lot of things, like how i don't like myself not liking so many things.

i like coffee, i like rose tea, i like durians. i like myself. i like jeans. i like kinky stuff like ahem.... i like ropes. i like socks. (hahaha okok thats enough) i like APPLE, i like my iBook, i like iPod, i like my iPod Shuffle, i like my wireless mouse, i like my guitars, i like cds, i like maroon 5, i like lifehouse, i like britney spears, i like dashboard confessional, i like food at brazil churracia, i like to drink jyunbag at acid bar. i like wala wala, i like balaclava, i like to listen to songs, i like to look good.....

i love you.

Jun 19, 2005

why do i feel like i'm such a hopeless case?
movies to catch but no one to catch with and no time and no moolah but the primary reason is no one to catch it with =(

downfall
hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
madagascar
batman begins
unleashed
alot like love
in my father's den
mr and mrs smith
i might have posted this before but i think it makes so much sense i must post it up again.

#####

Those We Love the Best

It's been said that it's often the ones we love whom we hurt the most. Paradoxical, but plausible, given how easy it is to hurt our loved ones.

We are often gracious, tolerant and accommodating towards casual friends and acquaintances, even people we hardly know. That could be because we want to maintain a positive impression, in view of possible future collaboration or aid. It also could be because we don't wish to appear boorish, or because we are fearful of negative reactions.

Our loved ones though, are often not so fortunate. Because we are certain of their love for us, we tend to abuse that love and take it for granted. We may do selfish things that bring them distress or use harsh language when we're upset because we know that they will probably bear it and forgive us. Or we may not express our love enough or spend little quality time with our loved ones because we assume that they'll always be there.

But our loved ones feel pain and neglect as keenly as any one of our friends and colleagues. Even more so, since it is someone they love who is dealing out such thoughtless afflictions. And like everyone else, they may not be around for the rest of our lives.

This is a poem written by an unknown author, about the disturbing reality of how we treat the ones we love.

They say the world is round,
Yet I often think it's square,
So many little hurts we get
From corners here and there;

But there's one truth in life I've found
While journeying East and West,
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.

We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those we love the best.

Jun 18, 2005

i hate myself. i saw my friends picture of them in australia, after a flight, and i missed it so much. ARGH why did i have to get this stupid injury. now i can't fly anymore. NOT ever and it just kinda stinks cos i almost went with my coursemates. but here i am waiting for university. my future just took a 180 degrees change.

whatever convinced me to convince myself? its all nonsense. i guess i can never live with this. i lost. i suck and i hate myself. ARGH!

Jun 16, 2005

Horoscope June 2005, Scorpio

If you have plans to travel abroad, avoid temptations or flings as it might turn out negative. Spending on an exotic getaway trip or taking up a new hobby with your loved one will be ideal. Watch your spending though as such indulgences could burn a hole in your wallet. Tell your loved one how much you appreciate their being here with you, you might be surprised how much your words mean to them.
feeling extremely lonely.

another teary night

Jun 14, 2005

ALRIGHT! MAC users who longed to use iChat but couldn't can now use iChat with the AIM's webmail. simply go to mail.aol.com sign up for a new 2GB account and voila we can sign in using iChat. Windows users can take advantage of it too of the 2GB mail and AIM messenger. its damn cool try it and let me know. i'll add all of you =)
woke up today with puffy eyes. so we all know what that means. So puffy even my clerk was asking what happened to me. how fascinating. it just sucks knowing that it doesn't matter what i do, because nothing i do can make a difference. even having to beg for something, nothing changes.

Jun 13, 2005

i can't stand it. i can't stand self-censorship because i hate to be controlled. NOBODY CONTROLS ME but sadly i am being controlled and manipulated. everytime i want to blog i have to hold back. but i don't want to hold back. if i don't blog i feel miserable. but if i blog, i feel miserable. what's with this whole fucking issue anyway? don't like what you see, don't see. it is so simple with the web. NOBODY FORCED YOU TO READ MY WEBPAGE. if you didn't click on a link, or purposefully typed my webpage on the address bar, you wouldn't be here.

GO AWAY!
ARGH!!!!

Jun 10, 2005

you would have thought that people working in diplomatic positions would have wiser choice of their language:

Speaking to the press after Singaporean boy and his cousins were lost in malaysia, the sultan of pahang noted that "The children told [them] they were not eating but drinking stream water. At night they got together, hugging one another, loving one another and saying their prayers."

RIGHT.......

Jun 5, 2005

i am not dead. i just have nothing to say

Jun 4, 2005

For a friend.

张惠妹 - 解脱

爱是不夜城 回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾 我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人 越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨 阳光替房间开了灯
想 若结局一样 又何苦再想
伤 若让人成长 我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱 是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走 我有自由好好过
解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔 我总会实现一个梦
心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我

May 30, 2005

WE MUST NOT LET OUR PUBLIC TRANSPORT OPERATORS HAVE THIER WAY. we shall all boycott the public transport service on july 1st. it maybe a few cents, but a few cents will eventually accumulate to alot, especially since their profit was record high EVER in the past year, can you imagine what they will do when they start making losses?

why do they compare singapore bus fares with london fares and to make it more deceiving they make it look as if londoners have it more expensive, but we forget the londoners earn their dough in pounds and medical bills are free!!!!!

COME LETS ALL BOYCOTT AND NOT GO TO WORK/SCHOOL/WHEREVER ON JULY 1st on the account that it is too expensive. if we all do it together the consumers will win. how can we let public transport be privatised. i mean they can charge $4 per trip and we still would have no choice but to go public.

May 28, 2005

all you PC users have now been infected by a virus because of your absolutely stupidity not to use a macintosh, and i was happening to be using my brother's disgusting pc. i have no idea how to fixed it, but my previous mail happen to contain a virus and it has generated email to every single on of you. so now you silly pc users should switch to a mac or format your comp or i really don't know what is gonna happen.

if the world's department of defense like australia, usa n nasa and part of SAF, and all the IT heads i've encountered in airforce, my sec school, my current school prefers and/or have used mac for their servers and all because of its stability and its ZERO virus, its time to change!

I HATE ALL PC USERS. ALL OF YOU ARE FUCKED UP STUPID ASSHOLES. IF YOU ARE GOING TO SWITCH THEN SMART ON YOU AND I LOVE YOU. BUT IF FOR 1 SECOND YOU THINK PC IS GOOD AND NOTHING WILL HAPPEN. THEN I CURSE YOU, LIKE HOW 7 OF MY FRIENDS HAD EVERYTHING THEY CHERISHED WIPED OUT OF THIER COMPUTER IN 3 MONTHS. THEN I CURSE YOU, LIKE HOW MY FRIEND LOST HIS MONEY BECAUSE SOMEONE SENT A SPYWARE N STOLE HIS INTERNET BANKING PASSWORD. I CURSE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU PC USERS
i apologise to all my regular readers for not posting anything in quite awhile. well it has been a very busy few weeks. too many things to do, too tired, and most often when i finally have the time, i am left with little or no energy to blog or to even give some minor updates.

well i just finished my stint as a relief teacher and i am now working as a technical assistant in the same school. had the best time in the school. the colleagues were very helpful, i had the grestest students. i really did loved it there.

well other than that? nothing to much to update now. other than the wondering. wondering about how pragmatic humans can be. how when one person is attached, he would make sure, and even go at lengths to make sure that another couple is asked to go out together; but when said person becomes single, said person goes at length to avoid going out with couples, resulting in severe inconvenience. and it is so odd when one declares that he has given up hope on his friends when he's attached but when he's single, suddenly they are the bestest of friends again.

which is why like i always said, we have to make time for our friends. even if it is little time, we have to let them know we care. we don't have to be physically going out every weekend, but at least we keep in contact. less we declare all our friends to be hopeless.

anyhow dearest colin met up with me yesterday, and though we were both exhausted, we had a great time catching up. over the years, i realised how i always taken colin for granted sometimes. but now, looking back at all the old times, we survived a lot of things. silly quarrels, silly arguments and all. thank you!

May 15, 2005

after the whole woohaa about blogs and all the legal stuff associated with it. i thought i would just say a few things before i dig my head back into the exam scripts. firstly i owe nobody any apology. if you do not like what you see in my blog, get the fuck out of here. i will always type with asterisk so as not to implicate any organisation. i shall complain at will and bitch at will. but it will be good old general bitching.

i can't imagine the next day our "gahmen" decides to "suuu" (*crosses finger and hopes only people who needs to understand will) some scholar because his diary had some personal complains. its like, i can just imagine the reason "a diary can be read by anyone who has broken into your house, or invited and we need to protect the reputation of sillypore. so because of that, you shall not write or talk or think anything that might defame or sillypore nation."

i mean like duh, the website was password protected, just as hackers can hack, burglars can break into your house, steal your diary and tell the whole world that every sillyporean with a diary actually writes horrible stuff about sillypore!

off to marking, hoping to teach the next generation of sillyporeans how to be a better sillyporean (in my context)

May 8, 2005

buy wallet for her during mother's day also kena scolded. RIDICULOUS! say what why i buy the wallet is 1cm wider from her old one. complain that her old wallet is still very new with mould growing inside. yes in her exact words. see her use her wallet for so many years, buy her a new one also kena scolding.