i don't know if any of you guys read the ZaoBao. but if you do, you might have remembered a shocking article written by a hwachongian on, well surprise surprise, gay issues. to put it more accurately, it is about friendship and love. here (http://www.geocities.com/edgartanch/friendsforever1.html) is the translated version of it. what i've got to say is that it is so true. something similar happened to me... well do check it out yar.

i've often associate different people with different songs. its like somehow there would be songs that reminds me of people close to me. for some strange reasons, most of the songs are by savage garden. it just kinda dawned upon me that music plays such a big part in my life, my friends life. music brings people together. and, well, arouse such strong emotions.

actually all this rambling is because i heard the savage garden songs and my past just crept back. reading the article above didn't help much. i feel so wierd. i mean i am happily attached and all (tmr's one month anniversary... ooh more on that later) but somehow the feelings don't disappear. like i've said it before, they hide in some corner and crawl out when you least expect them to. and now i wonder what went wrong? i mean we had something. it was more than friends, it was so much more. its been 2 years, won't you talk to me again? what if i told you i did that cos i loved you? what if we've talked instead of argued? what if?

but nothing's gonna change now. its over and done. i'm not talking to any of them. i would really love to call V up and apologise and ask for forgiveness, but i can't do that.

anyhow, tmr is our one month anniversary. what is it you said, one month is very short? well that's because u are straight dumbo. in a gay relationship, anything that last for more than a year is as rare as green pandas. well maybe not but you get the picture. anyhow i think one month is very special as it signifies the beginning of something long lasting, so it would celebrated in elaborate fashion.... well the original plan was an isolated beach with tons of sparkles and associated lights with mat and finger food and little details which you don't really wanna know, or should know. but then all the problems start setting in like the whether, the availability of a location, the lack of time... so i think i m savin that for another time. there's another grander plan though, something which i would not say now. maybe after it has been done yepyep. ok am very sick now, so going off to rest. tata