i would have had soo much to type, but there's so much to be said, of which so much can't be said, or typed, whatever. i don't feel like i'm up to it to even explain to the world. trust is so important, it can never be overrated. in a relationship trust HAS to exist and it has to be the number one thing. and when trust is lost, it takes a lot to find it back, and it never comes back fully. something will be missing. you can love someone so much that you can even forgive the gravest mistake, but sometimes, you can't trust the person. and it hurts so bad when it happens, knowing that you love someone but you can't trust that someone. forgiveness doesn't change the past, but it does enlarge the future. but what comes after forgiveness? do we forget after we forgive? do we bury the hatchet? do we just shove it aside?

and i wonder if i can fall asleep tonight.