i'm back! yep where did i disapper to?? perth!! to do what?? visit the airforce school there so that i can get introduced to all the cute pilots. no lahz not that shallow. it was a sorta incentive trip to show us the good side or airforce and to clear any of our doubs about it. its a great place, the cadets are treated as humans, i mean, there's individual bedrooms, a tv room, a toilet with DOORS!, kitchen, heater, internet acess, all in one block! yesh and in the OMA, there's a wide screen tv with CABLE!, pool tables, table tennis, a bar with CHEAP beer... i mean what more can a trainee ask for?? but i got to see the bad side too. the stressful lifestyle, and i saw a guy getting "chopped" from the airforce. sigh.... but i am still going to join the airforce, cos flying is what i love...

something really wierd happened today. i was out with mel and we went to the bday party of this girl. and i saw my EX, ohmygod, you can't even begin to imagine how wierd it was. i was feeling so awkward, i'm with mel now and my ex is standin there. mel knows and he was enjoying the scene of how angry my ex must have felt.. but well.. its been so long and i've put it all behind. he hasn't : you know, you don't have to go and tell anybody anything.. i don't know any of them, what's the point of putting the blame on my, does it make you so happy to accuse me? yeah i stole the limelight again.. i always do, just because you are not the centre of attention whenever i'm around and that no girls fawn over u and ask you for ur number doesn't mean u have to do that. i'm fine, its over. there's no use in me explainin myself to them, cos most prob they don;t even wanna know. and if u really want to know what they think... ur plan failed - you almost made me cry but i didn't - to them u appear to be sooooo narrow hearted, so petty and they thought u were lying. i love him now and that's it ok. i don't want you back. not now, not ever.....