i typed an entire chunk of words about something which i felt. but then it didn't come out quite the way i wanted it to. well you see, i read something regarding a past love. it kinda hurts when you read about someone you used to like possibly liking someone else. but the point is that it didn't upset me much, i just felt kinda wierd... i don't know if that is the correct description, but you get the idea? maybe i have moved on involuntarily. i think i want to stay in love but i don't really love him? could that be it? could it be that 10 months of liking someone is too much and that eventually it all has to end... could it be that?

i am going to announce officially that my crush for wildcat is going to come to an end. not that i am liking him less, but i have decided it is pointless to keep running away from a relationship by developing crushes on half the world half the time. but then again, i'm gay, i should be drooling over all the guys like there's this really cute guy that i've met that day, he's................

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