back to camp today. needed some adjustment to get use to a do nothing much whole day lifestyle. i realise its the perfect way to catch up on my reading. haha. i am so broke so broke, but i did something sensible. but for those kind enough to donate to "help scott fund" please you know how to contact me. for the early bird, we have a special lucky draw worth 500 000 dollars in cash and prizes. muahahaha

enough of that. i am missing someone particularly badly now. he's outfield now and he just said something that was so sweet. i really wished i had known him so much earlier. and if i could i would just pack him into my luggage and lug him to auz with me. i think it says alot when someone asks "what can i do to make you feel better" and not "why must you be like that". i am glad we resolved some issues. i just can't bear the thought of leaving.

we just sent off the previous course not too long ago. and it was quite an emotional scene. girlfriends were crying, mommies were on the brink of tears. well which is why i hope for a gigantic group to send me off, to aviod tears and all. while i doubt that i would cry bucketloads, i think i would actually tear quite abit. i am so gonna hug everybody, especially him, right before i enter the gate. *sobs* i can even tear thinking about it. sigh....