have i lost you forever already? did i just let you out of my hands more than a month ago? was everything i did too little too late? i tried my best to make it work. but i guess i wasn't good enough.

my days go on. you told me that i must take care of myself. you told me that i must take my mind off stuffs and relax.

how can i not love you? how can i really just walk away from all the memories like this. how can i just look back at all these memories of my life, from NS all the way till now and not hope that one day things will be like before, or better than before. where we spend so much time together.

you may think that we always quarrel. my friends, they squabble every day, but they are still so loving. we don't always quarrel you know. we spend our time at east coast alot. we have our suppers, our walks. you came over to my place and we'll always have coffee. i'll walk over and meet you before your flight if i can to have coffee with you. i would always complain but still i would sit you down and get you your tall latte. or if you are tired, your tall latte with extra short. unsweetened.

the biggest regret in my life, is that if we never ever get back, that its all my fault, that i would have to spend my life, loving you without having you by my side.

how can i not love you.

you who loves hazelnut
you who loves unsweetened latte
you who doesn't really eat brinjal
you and your silly smirk
you and your silly antics
you and your "imagine this" thing
you and your hugs
you who loves adidas
you who i always say i don't know what i love about, but in all honesty, i love everything about you.
you who is irreplaceable in my heart.