i feel empty. i feel gone. my heart has bled till no more blood runs. its just a strange period of quietness and nothingness. perhaps a realisation of the facts. that i have already lost you?

why don't you just follow your heart. because i heard you calling out to me so loudly. i heard you telling me that you need me to take care of you. i know you love me deeply. but you also keep it so deep down.

2 and a half years. 864 days of love. it wasn't only a relationship, its building a life with you. and now my life has gone. if something like that can disappear, how do i have faith anymore. how can i believe that something i worked so bloody hard for will work out again. i have no wish to love again, other than you.

but move on i will. because i must. because i can't stay in this sorry state forever. i will be by your side, as a guardian angel, as your friend till that day.