its particularly hard, because i see you everywhere. even while waiting for an old friend, i end up tearing because we've been there before, to distribute flyers. your shadow is everywhere. even when i go out, i have to travel past your house, my 2nd home for 2 years plus.

but i soldier on. i know you don't read my blog anymore. so its ok, i end up writing a diary. gosh! can you believe it.

i stand strong and hold on the what little strength i can muster, just so that i would not be weak and irritate you. fate will bring us back together again. this is something i am very sure of. and i said, no matter where you are, who you are with, i will chase you back. next v-day i will definitely ask you out again, if we are not together by then, and i'll kneel before you and put the ring on your finger.

till then every night before i sleep, every morning when i wake you, its still you on my mind.