The Beautiful Imperfection

I've been saying that I want to blog a long post, but I never really got down to it because school life has gotten the better of me. But tonight, I saw a video clip (above) that really moved me and makes me want to share my thoughts. (You can watch this on my posted links)

Essentially the clip is about a woman who describes her late husband and his imperfections, and it struck a chord in me. Many times I have told and ask people, who are in relationships and are in one of the usual tiffs, if this is something they can live with. Because to me, there is no such thing as the perfect person, there is no such thing as the right person. The most important thing is to make your partner the right one. Which is why I ask if this is something they can live with.

Everyone will have their imperfections, will have difference in opinions, will have difference in character, there are no 2 person out there in perfect synergy (not even twins) where they agree to every single detail. The key to a perfect relationship is to learn to live with all this imperfections and to love it.

Sometimes there is no middle ground, sometimes you just have to give in and tolerate it, because for all you know there are many things that your partner is putting up with and giving in as well.

I can be a very patience person but there are times when I get high strung and lose it quite abruptly and quite suddenly. It is times like when I know how someone tolerates my nonsense and puts up with me scolding unnecessarily. Of course I put up with quite a fair share myself, but that's how it is, and that's how it works.

We have to learn be tolerant, to be patient, and at the end of the day know that for every complain, every flaw, every imperfection, there's something that they do that makes you smile, the brightens up your day, that tugs at your heart. It could be that simple smile, that comforting snore (yes j-en), the puppy eyes. And learning and knowing that "its the imperfections that make them perfect"

There's really the secret to it all.

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song of the moment

Taylor Swift |MTV Music

Quite a nice song.. sorta describes how a certain someone and i met, in a more fairytale setting.

I actually like to read long blog entries

Which is why I love to read Ms Alexis' long posting. While I do want to sincerely type longer and put up more pics, the will to blog just seems to elude me, and I wonder why Ms Alexis can do so. Only to realize that while she's chilling at home on a Saturday, I am sitting here reading so that I can attempt to finish some background review for an assignment which is due next week.

Having said that, instead of sitting here and typing a ridiculously long entry is a big no no, which I shall not do. Why did I not do my readings and stuff earlier? Because I have been procrastinating. Not that I wasn't doing anything; I was sitting in the lab for 4 hours a day making sure everything is alright with my participants. Adding in preparation and travel time, it makes for a good 5 hours plus just being in school over a recess week which I could have otherwise been more productive.

Anyway, so while being in the lab I suddenly realized that my second pair of Havs broke. My other pair broke about 3 months back I think. This pair is a much older pair that has seen me running around FOC with my lovely juniors, and many other torture, so it giving way 4 years later is a pretty good deal. The other pair however, has barely accompanied me to anything more tormenting than the school pavement and the tarmac outside my house.

Ok I promise I would go a good long post with pictures after I get through next week.

I foresee sleepless nights ahead

Crazy lar me

I can't believe that I'm actually missing him till i'm tearing. I can be looking at him and still miss him. Crazy lar.

The next 10 weeks will be tough. With FYP due, assignments, projects, and lastly exams. 2 big papers no less, and one more fluffier one. How will I survive? We all do lar, its just how tough the process is.

I want to see him in person like now!! and give him one good cuddle.

LDR is no joke lar...

ARGH!!!!

=(

When I'm stressed up

a few things happen. Usually I'll get a very bad tummy, which includes horrific diarrhea like this morning when I thought I was peeing from my ass (HAHAHAH, gross i know). Also there used to be a few occasions when I would bad a super bad tummy ache. People close to me will also know that aside from somatic symptoms, I would also be a bit flustered (or you know they call it mang zang). So all that happened this morning, except for the tummy ache.

Reason for stress, FYP, heavy-ass midterms, freelance and I just missed a pop-quiz. But yes aside from that things are still going good. We've a few more participants (everyone counts), things are moving, but I've got a bit more to do.

J's really adorable and sweet and cute today, well everyday lar, but yar. And I got my tickets booked and confirmed already!! I'm sooooooooo excited about heading down, gosh.. I really can't wait nor contain my excitement!!!!!!

This is when it gets real busy

but its kinda good because FYP has finally started!!! Our experiments are running and everything appears to be going alright. We need more participants so we'll see how that turns out. Hopefully with a reduced sample, we can still catch some good effects, possibly some gender stuff too.

things are going great. I'm watching J fall asleep, and to me that has gotta be the best thing in the world. To be the last person one sees before falling asleep and to be the person to wake up to, is really the sweetest. J's in the US though, and that's gonna make communication slightly tougher, because the time difference is greater, and this two weeks is also my experiment weeks, so that makes my hours in school ridiculous plus a heavy midterms... but we'll pull through, we always pull through

met up with D and Ah Yee for dinner and coffee last night after a looong day in the lab, but it was totally worth it for all the laughters and long overdue catch up. Nothing scheduled for the next 2 weeks though, I'm going to be a hermit!!

in other news, I'm going to head down under!!!! =p

xoxo, S

You know you're republican when...

You're a pro-lifer, but support the death penalty.

You believe global warming and tobacco's link to cancer are junk science, but creationism should be taught in schools. 

You think trade with Cuba is wrong because the country is Communist, but trade with China and Vietnam is vital to a spirit of international harmony.

You don't let your kids watch Sesame Street because you accuse Bert and Ernie of "sexual deviance".

You argue that you need 300 handguns, in case a bear ever attacks your home.

You've ever referred to someone as "my (insert racial or ethnic minority here) friend".

You believe every man, woman, child and fetus should be armed to the teeth with AK-47's, hand grenades, handguns, and any other weapon imaginable.

You actually believe that people own AK-47's for "hunting purposes".

You think the words feminist and lesbian are synonyms.

You believe the hole in the ozone layer to be a myth created by crazy liberals.

You're for prayer in schools, as long as you don't pray to Allah or Buddha.

You think God hates homosexuality, but loves the death penalty.

You think all artists are gay.

You ever based an argument on the phrase, "Well, tradition dictates..."

You think Bush deserves the title "leader of the free world".

No one likes FYP

Really, I don't think anyone actually likes FYP. Its like this constant irritant that you can't get rid off for a year. And as always it can get better if it actually starts earlier and on time, but for some reasons that can't be controlled everyone has to rush it at the end, knowing that this will happen.

And then there are some massive time spent on a course which I have already done to death but I needed to fulfill my course requirements, so I HAD to take a course which wasted a lot of my precious time, which also meant a very bad previous semester for me!!! (which included getting my LOWEST SCORE ON RECORD!!! A FREAKING B-)

Waking up at 5 a.m. was unexpected though, because I thought a certain lazy someone wanted to be up by 8 a.m.. So i drifted in and out of consciousness till the certain someone awoke, and it was quite a nice feeling......

Too happy to sleep?

So its 6am here, and I am awake after only having like what 4 hours plus of sleep because I tried to fall asleep but i can't.

Too happy to sleep bah.

"Those 3 words are said too much, they're not enough"

Updates

So D was saying that I need to blog a bit more, and blog i shall. Although at times i wonder why do i even blog these days. what's the purpose of it all. And i've been wondering about this quite often no?

Well life has been boring, I haven't had much thoughts these days. School's been less than exciting. FYP's been less than stellar. J's back in Melb, I've been missing J.

Finally convinced dad to go for a medical checkup, he's been getting frequent giddiness. So I hope he'll be alright.

That's it for now i guess.

I've 'come home'

from my cousin's wedding, and well pictures will be up soon. It was really really fun to see all of that, especially the part where they snatch the bride!! The food is really good too, but the groom's suit was too boring, just plain black.

i want my earth grey or white suit or light brown suit, with a nice shirt inside!! and bow tie??

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

When you like a person, you want to be with him, because he makes you happy; after you leave him, you might smile when you think of the him, and life goes on and you wish that one day might meet him again.

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？' 然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

When you love a person, you want to be with him, you don't want to let him go, you're afraid that he would suffer, afraid that he cannot take care of himself. When he is no longer in your life, you will also miss him, but you will sigh and wonder how is he doing now. Life goes on as normal and you hope that he would return to your side one day.

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

In your eyes, the person you like is like an angel, willing to do what you ask him to. The person you love however is just like a child in your eyes, the silly boy whose every action makes you want to laugh and cry at the same time.

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

You will want the person you like to be by your side but in your heart, you could be thinking of the one you love. And if the one you love is sleeping beside you, seeing that peaceful and vulnerable face will bring a smile to your face and you will feel blessed.

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

If the person that you like hurts you, you would get angry and you would only forgive him after he has pacify you. But if the person you love hurts you, you would swallow it down because you don't want to scream at him. You would look at him in the eyes and when you see that his eyes is filled with remorse and guilt and even tears, you will 心疼 him so much that you will embrace him and tell him it is alright. In that moment, you are blessed and in bliss.

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，

You can like many people at the same time, and wish to be together with many of them, but after many years, you may realize that there's only one person whom you really love, and it has never changed. You may think that you have forgotten, but you were just to busy to remember.

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

You focus on the good points of the person you like, but for the person you love, you focus on his flaws, but these flaws are endearing to you, they are unique flaws in him that you find so cute.

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，

They say that loving a person is tiring, and indeed it is because you want to share any burden with him, but perhaps the biggest difference between love and like is that...

當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

.. when you're together with the person you love, you feel like you have come home.

让我照顾你

因为最关心你的人是我

Random shots over the days

I went cycling a couple of days back from East Coast all the way to Changi Village and had the nasi lemak there! Of course i needed to stop by the runway to look at the planes:

The SAF Ferry Terminal, such fond, and not-so-fond memories of my BMT days, waiting here for the ferry to bring us away from civilization:

Running around Haji Lane and Katong and Siglap:

Jem forgot to capture the shoes i was trying on into this shot!!

This is a damn good idea for a fish tank!

Inspired by Little Nonya, we had Peranakan food

Ip Man

Damn nice show!!!!!!! go watch

梁靜茹 - 可惜不是你

梁靜茹-可惜不是你

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉

像昨天今天同时在放映

我这句语气原来好像你

不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你

爱与被爱不一定成正比

我知道被疼是一种运气

但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变

却变不了预留的伏笔

以为在你身边那也算永远

仿佛还是昨天

可是昨天已非常遥远

但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後

曾一起走却走失那路口

感谢那是你牵过我的手

还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心

我想我更有权力关心你

可能你已走进别人风景

多希望也有星光的投影

努力为你改变

却变不了预留的伏笔

以为在你身边那也算永远

仿佛还是昨天

可是昨天已非常遥远

但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後

曾一起走却走失那路口

感谢那是你牵过我的手

还能感受那温柔

可惜不是你陪我到最後

曾一起走却走失那路口

感谢那是你牵过我的手

还能感受那温柔

感谢那是你牵过我的手

还能温暖我胸口

young men are too drama, old men are too jaded

Such a lovely title isn't it? Something of the sort where we can imagine collection of short stories, from love stories to the not-so-love-story.

I just realized that I haven't updated much here, and sometimes I wonder what is the purpose of a blog afterall these days. When I was much younger (refer to my 2001 posting for reference), I used to blog a whole lot more, and I remember that this blog is like a diary for me, for me to pen down the goings in my life, so that I can remember. I still remember this "code" that a blog is as much like a bedtime diary just that people can read. I also remember arguments we had (Alanna and I and others) have over other people's issue with our postings; essentially they had issues with what we said and I remember telling those people that if you don't like what you are reading, then stop reading it (like Duh!)

But as I grew older, I (well we actually) bought a real paper diary in which I pen down my most most personal thoughts, thoughts and feelings which I am starting to think that people should not and need not know about, as opposed to some other thoughts and feelings which I think can be shared. Its like there are things which I want to tell all my friends, and I would love to say it to them, but sometimes repeating it is quite tiring.

Then there are other reasons such as the issue itself, and public viewing. And as I am typing this, I think of times when I think of how to disguise what I am trying to say such that it is obvious but not obvious enough.

I am going to continue to blog, especially when my interest to 'bitch' about certain topics is still alive and burning. I am really starting to think about how much change one goes through as we grow and mature. Our personality stays the same but manifests itself in different manner. So what am I trying to say here?

Young men are too drama and old men are too jaded!!

Yeah I Dunno Why I'm Feeling Kinda Blue

Yeah I Dunno Why I'm Feeling Kinda Blue

We sailed over seven seas
Won't you let me catch you fall
What are you looking at
I'm ms american dream since i was 17

Goodnight sweetheart its time to go
When you beat on that drum
I'm trying not to stare
Some say the heart is just like a wheel

Mystery the moon
Who made up all the rules
And even though the moments passed me by
Dad your boy is about to fall

It's hard to remember how it felt before
There's another world inside of me
This is where the summer ends
If I am lost for a day try to find me

Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful

You're asking yourself what's real

Wait in line till your time

How can I tell you what I'm feeling

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Damn cool right? How did i do it? Put your mp3 on Shuffle and write the first line of the next 20 songs. The 21st song will be the title. I only used english songs! Amazing how this actually conveys how i feel!

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've been in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't sit her,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Whos waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There on no hole in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in backgroung]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

I WANT AN IPHONE~!!!!!

I WANT AN IPHONE!!

I want the 3G 16gb one, anybody, 2nd hand selling??!?!

Take my hand, I'll take the lead

DAMN FUNNY AD!!

I will follow you into the dark

The car's backseat

it takes very little

for us to realize how much someone means to you, and it takes even less for you to know why you loved that someone so much in the first place.

The Lucky 800 post, but its basically bitching...

about a lot of things.

I mean ARGH!! i am such a control freak. but how does one help it whenever I don't do as much, or control is as much, then things become sub-standard. There's really only so many people I can trust to let things go as they should and still have know that it will come out right.

Nothing really specific but more generic reflection of my personality. Friends have said I should loosen up, perhaps. Oh, but I am such a bitch some times! Its like I can't control the boiling feeling inside when things are sub-standard, or you know that things are happening that will have adverse effect when all that needs to be done is to shut up, move people away or do everything by myself. At least I can be sure of the quality, and if it sucks, then its all my fault, cos I suck (which incidentally i noted to ayline, mark and choo yuan that i indeed suck at many things!!! HAHAHAHA)

LOOSEN UP kiezin, don't be so anal retentive, take it easy and breathe!!

drooling over

The new Macbook Pros!!!! omg they are like sexiest thing alive. the build quality is sooooooo good (from one solid brick of aluminum) feels like its build by the aerospace industry.

and the new LED cinema display, that is the future of the new desktop!! Go home, plug in your laptops to the big screen LED (which also charges up your laptop, so you really only need one powerpoint) and when you're ready to go, just unplug the laptop. WOOOAAHH!!

Did I mention they are all LED display?!?!

2nd half of the semester

The 2nd half of the semester is always filled with ridiculous amount of work waiting to be handed in. Its always a punishment for lazy boys like me.

So i did manage to see someone for our 2nd anniversary!


This was the funniest thing i saw, i was kinda thinking that guy is damn cute, then lo and behold!! the billboard above


Trying on some bags..


I don't really know what i was doing.... so..




The customary cute food pic, yes my eyebags, someone kept me up all night looong

waltzing into our 3rd year

i can't believe that we've been together for more than 2 years already. monday was our 2nd anniversary; there was not much fanfare there but yes.

the boy was ridiculously sweet and it has just been the most amazing. have not been happier and definitely the best so far. i mean hey for the past 9 months, we've had 2 bigger quarrels, not too bad aei.

here's to 2 and for the many more to come.

=)

more post because alexis says so

alexis has been bugging me, you know how she's such a bugger right, so i am blogging more.

you guys just know that the rant about public transport is coming up, but that will be done later. right now, i can't get over how absolutely dazzling the new itunes visualizer is, i want to share it with all of you!!

voice of no reason

recently, while on an atheist forum, i encountered a very strange person arguing against evolution and proving the existence of god. what i found overwhelming was the use of ad hominem defense for any argument leverage against them, and if we give any evidence for evolution, it would be refuted by a statement claiming that its a circular logic without proving anything. so fine so be it. we then ask them to prove the existence of god.

what truly baffled me was the use of the existence A to show that without the existence of B, there would not be A. this is a fundamental fallacy in itself.

the reasoning goes as such, there is the existence of a golden ratio. if there was no existence of god, how can there be a golden ratio. hence since there is golden ratio therefore god exist.

this is a very fundamental logic error that we humans are very prone to fall into. one must first establish that because of the existence of god therefore there is a golden ratio first for the above logic to stand, if not we can simply substitute the logic above with anything and it will still stand.

for e.g. there is the existence of a golden ratio. if there was no existence of Santa Claus, how can there be a golden ratio. hence since there is golden ratio therefore Santa Claus exist.

or even less subtly, there are poisonous apples in this world. if there was no Cinderella, how can there be poisonous apples. hence since there are poisonous, there are Cinderellas

And the weirdest thing is that this poster was obviously  out for a verbal sparring without even wanting to listen to anything posited, hence i said to the rest of them, there's no need to give any scientific evidence at all, since nothing will be believed.

Their research method seems to be:

1. Hypothesis - Evolution is wrong (or [insert random event] is wrong)

2. Methods - Check the Bible

3. Conclusion - Evolution is wrong / right depending which denomination and country you come from / [insert whatever the Bible says]

Critical thinking?

besides hot guys

Besides hot guys (1), what have i been up to?

mostly i have been keeping up with school work and that is making me busy enough.

I was just having a conversation with amy that day, and she noted that she wasn't feeling particularly motivated in school. But for me, i am feeling one notch lower, i feel unmotivated. (note the fine difference between not particularly motivated and unmotivated).

It just appears that there's this certain air of gloom surrounding year 4s, i saw it in my seniors and i wondered why, and now i am feeling it for myself.

i am almost very sure that i had enough of school and i don't want anymore of it. i am ready to be an adult and to go out there and rule the world!

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1. and by hot guys, i don't mean that i have been sleeping with them!!! i have been exercising my eyes on the web

hot guys for you to drool!!

hahahaha feast your eyes out!

So sweeet

Isn't this just the sweetest?? =)

updates

I have been told to update my blog. Hahaha. its strange that i should update so much less that i am here in melbourne. but i reckon i owe everyone just a really quick summary. I have been here in melbourne for 5 weeks already, and in another 2 weeks i'll be back in sunny singapore.

Spending a lot of quality time with you-know-who, and we even went for a short trip to tasmania. it's such a lovely lovely place, and i promise i will put the pictures up on facebook. we also went for some road trips and in fact this weekend we will be going for another two road trip.

things have been quite ok with everything. work has been pretty alright, but mundane. not exactly learning as much as i would have love to, but still its a job. in other good news, i am going for my interview on wednesday with Whybin\TBWA\Melbourne!!! I am so excited and looking forward to that.

Well what i have been doing? i have been going extremely high listening to remixes!



I miss everyone! see you guys real soon and yes i will blog more

Uniquely Singapore...

In other countries, when there are massive securities lapse, such as the escape of the most wanted terrorist, the minister who's in charge will usually take responsibility in one way or another.

Only in Singapore, we do it the Singapore way.

Minister Wong Kan Seng said, "There is no doubt that Mas Selamat escaped" (....Noooooooooooo)

And of course its everyone else's fault. The guards who took too long to inform, the window, the fence. Everyone else BUT the ministry.

But of course, we're Uniquely Singapore. Its ok, our Ministers are human and they make mistakes. PAP ministers that is. BUT if you are in the opposition and just declare your race wrongly, OOOHHH that is damn grave error and you'll single handedly squander away all our reserves.

It is however ok that as the Minister of State, that you make a grievous, such as letting the most wanted terrorist escape. Yeap Singapore!

Loves me country to death

the boy insists

The boy insist that it his, due credits must be given to the sweet boy

"Missing someone gets easier everyday.
Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other,
it is one day closer to the next time you will…"

- Jem

One of those days

Today is one of those days whereby after talking incessantly to the boy, we both started to frantically - well not that frantically but you get the idea - look for tickets to any location that is in between both of us. And obviously it has to be next week or the week after because neither of us can wait any longer.


"Missing someone gets easier everyday.
Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other,
it is one day closer to the next time you will…"

He tried to pass this off as his, but i know better =p

Its still the sweetest thing nonetheless.

this time of the year

It is always at this time of the year where times get just a bit tougher. It's always at about slight more than halfway through, because its just a bit too long since there we saw each other, but yet not near enough till we see each other again.

tough times will pass definitely and in just more than a few weeks i get to see you again.

doesn't make it less tough, but i can see the light getting brighter.

mom says 1 year apart is short. i think 6 months is way too long.

=)

updating

gabby says i haven't been updating alot. well work's been super busy. i wish i could say more but, i'm feeling all weird out. so i'm off to bed.

i want a cuddle

you know you are gay (part 2)...

you know you are gay when:

1. your bag is coveted by your sis and your mom
2. you use sister's blusher
3. you know more about beauty than your sis and mom combined
4. they need your stamp of approval before stepping out of the house
5. when you listen to kylie's in my arms, you start shaking to every single beat!!!!! with THAT look on your face

freakingly accurate

What Kie Zin Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

hell hole

if you're on internship like me, you might be tempted to think that i am complaining about my internship and that it is a hellhole. well actually no. I have been quite enjoying my internship actually. some days there are really quite a lot of work, but i really enjoy working with my team, they are all very nice.

then why hell hole? what am i talking about? why, i am talking about singapore here! it is getting increasingly like a hell hole. my patience is running very thin here and i am not the only one. its getting so crowded in singapore, its really making sick and nauseated even. at tanjong pagar, i could queue for like 10min to just get up the escalator. and boon lay isn't a ride in the park either.

oh what about town? what about town i say. its so fucking crowded i want to avoid it like the plague, BUT wait what else is there to do in singapore if we don't shop. ok lets to the park. why all the parks are also damn fucking pack. even with a car to drive you to some far flunk places, there will always be at least a few pockets of people at best. there is way way way too many humans. just today as i was looking at the train of human beings making their way down the escalator exiting the station, i being to think that humans are like virus. we do nothing but destroy the host (host being mother earth) ARGH.

i want to get out of singapore to a place that is less crowded. somewhere where i can have peace strolling down the streets. somewhere where i can just be alone with him.

somewhere

damn good use of media

Chinese and the little things

Because we are Chinese, we value family and we value commitment. But all too often, we are exposed to the Western notion of things, such as romantic love. When we see movies, we always see the courtship and then the leads get together, and that's it. No movies discuss about commitment, about maintaining a relationship.

As Jeth says, after being together for 5 years, surely the flame will not be burning. Passion and romantic feeling fades, 爱情变成了感情. And it is perhaps 感情 that matters more, because its a commitment. The passion becomes a sort of concern and regard, and even dependence and habit. In my opinion, I think its a good thing. Sister tells me she's worried its a habit, and I say be happy its a habit, because it means that you guys are dependent on each other for something, and that is a good thing. TV always shows these impossible ideals.

A companion that drives the lonely nights away. Someone to just come home to. To be cooking braised pork, veggies and rice while waiting for him to come home from work. And he knows that you haven't had your coffee yet. Its in all these little things that says the most. More than any big expressions.

Because at the end of the day, we all need each other for something, making use? maybe in the most technical definition, yes. But in these small little things, we see more than just that. From always making sure you are around in a gathering, to knowing all your bad habits, telling you to stop it. To the care and concern about your family.

handling my mom

is such a damn tiring affair.. omg i am so drained. this is what happens when many many years of repressed feelings comes flying out

in other news, my room is coming along well, mom seems to like that. she likes my chair too!

but of cos she nags

i am flat broke

I have no 10 cents to my name, because the year is ending and i have spent every single cent, ARGH. I can't go out anymore. flat flat broke. still waiting for moolah to come in from peeps who owe me moolahs.

Statistics from Malaysia

On the Straits Times today, page 8, they published some statistics from the Malaysian Indian Congress (MIC) to rebuff the HINDRAF, saying that the Indians in Malaysia are "NOT that badly off"

According to the statistics, which Datuk Seri S Samy Vellu DID not say where the statistics came from (1):

11.5% are professionals and managers
19.4% are associate professors, lecturers and nurses
22.9% are sales personnel
4.9% are agricultural wokers
9.4% are craft and trade workers
20.1% are machine operators
16.3% are elementary workers

not that bad you say? well the figures add up to 104.5% and not 100%.... hrmmmmmmmmmmmmmm well Datuk Seri Samy is quick to add that it was due to rounding errors. Now what is rounding errors? rounding errors refer to the error makes when a person rounds up or down a figure to make it more manageable. So assuming that Datuk Seri Samy did round up all the figures, to cause such an increase, lets attempt to correct it. I'll minus 0.1% from all the figures, so instead of having a rounded up figure, it is now either the correct or a rounded down figure

11.4%
19.3%
22.8%
4.8%
9.3%
20%
16.2%

and that adds up to 103.9%. WHERE THE HELL DID MIC get their statistics from????????

insomnia

i'm having a very strange bout of insomnia. i can't seem to fall asleep.

too many things on my mind, must be.

desperate housewives

while watching season 4 of desperate housewives, this particular episode really strikes a chord with me. the part where andrew decided to move out because of the following conversation

##
Orson: After two nights of sleepless bonding with my son I nearly dozed off while repairing Mrs. Colby's cracked molar. I doubt if the crown I put in will last her a year.

Bree: So, you'll replace it for free.

Orson: That's not the point. How is a dentist supposed to feel when he can't give a 90-year-old a lifetime guarantee? Bree, I'm sorry but this whole family bed thing has to stop.

Bree: Oh, give it some time. We're still adjusting, and Benjamin is sleeping so soundly.

Orson: He can sleep just as soundly in a crib. From what you've told me, you and Rex didn't haul Andrew into bed with you.

Bree: No, and I wish we had. If we did he mightn't have turned out so...

Andrew: So, what? Stupid? Lazy? Short?

Bree: I was going to say angry.
##

then andrew decided to get a place of his own. bree went to visit and was absolutely appalled at the living conditions. but andrew wanted her to know its ok, he can make it. she couldn't see that he has changed. in her eyes, he still the same spoilt angry brat. and he was trying to tell her that he only wished she's noticed he has changed. he changed his way and even got a job to make ends meet.

the show ends with mary-alice saying "by denying the past, we are condemned to repeat it"

which is why i've learnt from the past, so that it doesn't repeat, so that things can be better.

i am damn naggy!

hahaha yes i am super naggy. ARGH!!!!

anyway love the new template?!?!? alexis loves it. i love it too! and its going to be an exciting weekend. dance boot camp in the morning, evening will be with my darling huiyi getting her new mac! yes everyone's getting it. why not you?!?!

then on sunday its furniture shopping with alexis (hopefully) and j-en. hehehehe

so many new stuffs in my life.

but but but there's always work. ARGH!!!!

oh jem wants me to add a new note to myself: to not be distracted by other stuff when talking to him. hahahah

note to self

learn how to say no, and stop piling yourself up with all these ad-hoc nonsense! omg.

i so badly need a break

oh my god! my eyes!!!!

If you think during chingay and seeing some our MPs rapping and dancing to bling was the last of it. you are so wrong!! in an attempt to CONNECT with the youths, they are RAPPING to MDA's annual report.... oh my 天.

watch that at MDA's website. ITS TERRIBLE

In other news, watch how the singapore police behaving ridiculously silly especially Mr Michael and this other police officer.

getting so restless

argh, its so hard to study!!! hrmmmmm.......

my fav ad this chrismas

from my psychology textbook

Expectancy confirmation: People’s beliefs about personality characteristics of others cause them to evoke in others actions that are consistent with initial beliefs

the intelligent minister yet again

this times its our PM Lee. While i sincerely respect him for whatever he has done, the way PAP deals with opposition makes me lose respect. i feel that PM Lee is even downright rude this time. As a leader of a nation, although he is from a political party, surely PAP can afford more grace than that, to say:

"Our five men are working hard, but the opposition's five have scattered like monkeys when the tree fell... They call it their A team, I say its A for AWOL."

dear mr prime minister. Unlike the PAP MPs and ministers who gets paid hundreds of thousands to millions a year, other people actually have to WORK! what on earth do you expect them to do? sit around till the next election with no income?

SERIOUSLY!

you've got ZERO respect from me when it comes to dealing with opposition.

its today!

my first paper is today! wooohoo. luck.

our 'intelligent' minister speaks again

this time its minister lim hng kiang, minister of trade and industry.

replying to rising cost of living, he said: “Switching to cheaper products can reduce the cost of living despite a rise in the CPI.”

ok seriously!!!!! do i even need to explain this one? so if everything becomes more expensive, how the fuck am i suppose to find cheaper things to buy????

of school and uncelebrated birthdays

i am in school now, studying hard for my exam which starts in 2 days. haha, around the corner you say. this semester is pretty overwhelming, notice the drop in blog post? haha mostly time is so consumed that whatever time left is dedicated to you-know-who and to my rest!

and i can't even celebrate my birthday cause my mommy will be away in malaysia =( no one to cook 鸡蛋面线 for me. no birthday celebration also because i have like 5 papers the week after my birthday.

let's partay after my exams!!!!

oh, in case you are still scratching your head over what to get me for my birthday, you can:

1. chip in to the 'help kiezin get his furniture fund"
2. a nice vest (size S, unless its really super tiny then m would be fine)
3. of course there's the customary expensive present that if you would want to get me, i would not reject, like er... well well, a... ok LCD television, 32inch and above???

of school and uncelebrated birthdays

i am in school now, studying hard for my exam which starts in 2 days. haha, around the corner you say. this semester is pretty overwhelming, notice the drop in blog post? haha mostly time is so consumed that whatever time left is dedicated to you-know-who and to my rest!

and i can't even celebrate my birthday cause my mommy will be away in malaysia =( no one to cook 鸡蛋面线 for me. no birthday celebration also because i have like 5 papers the week after my birthday.

let's partay after my exams!!!!

oh, in case you are still scratching your head over what to get me for my birthday, you can:

1. chip in to the 'help kiezin get his furniture fund"
2. a nice vest (size S, unless its really super tiny then m would be fine)
3. of course there's the customary expensive present that if you would want to get me, i would not reject, like er... well well, a... ok LCD television, 32inch and above???

stress!!!

progress is slow, only 3 chapters thus far, not very good huh! 3 chapters in 2 days, well granted they are the bigger chapters.

argh, so worried. can i even finish studying in time? =(

support yourself

jia you! exams are around the corner. you can do it. you can support yourself and tide through the exams. go see a doctor for your knee and your throat. at the very least, you must care for yourself.

in pain

ouch! silly me went to smash my knee against the benches today. and now i am limping everywhere. how gross right? hahahahaha

what greek names to not give ur children

so my teacher venus has a brother called uranus, like the planet. unfortunately...

other quasi greek sounding names:

myanus
hissanus
heranus
theiranus

If your are chinese, and ur surname is Lim, Lim Tao Huay is not a good name for your daughter. If you are a Cai, Cai Por Ng is also not a good name.

Finally jem wants me to tell j-en to never to change her name to jade, she'll be called jade teo.

i am still alive

Hello world, i am still quite alive. Too much school, but its going to over soon. The last mad dash for an essay and exams and that'll be it. More updates to come.

In other news, Jay's new album ROCKS. omg and he loooooks sooooooooooooooooooooooo damn gay and cute. *swoooons*

Heroes 2

is the MOST boring television series EVER. omg. the only why i am sitting through it is to see peter petrelli topless. and that's it.

my goodness. its such a horrible season. some shows just can't be dragged on forever. like prison break and lost. seriously....

fastest windows vista computer

PC world ran a series of benchmarking test at http://www.pcworld.com/article/id,136649-page,3-c,notebooks/article.html and guess what they found out?

the fastest laptop on earth running windows vista, is well a mac.

"The fastest Windows Vista notebook we've tested this year is a Mac. Try that again: The fastest Windows Vista notebook we've tested this year--or for that matter, ever--is a Mac."

there you go. you've heard that right.

the best computer running Mac and windows, is a mac

hell week #1

IS FINALLY OVER! omg. i survived this week, and the previous week. Its such an incredulously tiresome week. But i've survived. PHEW...

now for hell week #2 and hell week #3

on other news, i've finally bumped into zeeq and managed to get a quick catch up with her. haven't met and caught up with people proper for EONS....