you made me so happy. then you made me so confused. sigh.

i don't know what to think, or don't know what to do. i miss you so much. i miss you everyday, and everyday i love you more. i brought the old nokia to US, to get a US line, and i accidentally read your old messages to me. they meant so much. you loved me so so much. what happened. do you not love me anymore?

i just want to spend my life with you, taking trips every year. be happy. and now, all i can think of is just the memories of us. and maybe sometime in the future we could be together, and we could go overseas to the grand canyon. i can show you the place. i have been driving around another area called sedona, and all i think of is you.

but everything moves on. i enjoy myself. i enjoyed myself tremendously, its a beautiful place. its so gorgeous over here in grand canyon and sedona. and i just think of you inside.

why must all of this happen to me. can't i ever get my happy ending. i thought you were the one i would spend my life with. are you still the one. i hope i can still love you.

thanks for still caring.