i cried while watching the amazing race just now. for those who didn't catch it, charla and mirna were eliminated. charla spoke when the host broke the news to them. and it was just so touching. charla said: "I just wanted to prove to the world how much I can do, and it's not easy when there's�always people thinking you can't do it and you have to work extra hard to do it�[but] you have to do it. You have to accomplish your dreams." A teary Phil told Charla, "You have an amazing spirit." sometimes people have to work doubly hard, or 3 times as hard just to prove that they can do it too and to me, how many people out there even come close to charla. her determination, her will power puts the rest of the contestant to shame, especially colin. brandon, tall handsome and hunky is humble and really nice guy, he was worried about how the mothers and the cousins would fare in africa, but colin couldn't care less and even resorted to underhand methods to get at charla and mirna. FUCK YOU COLIN, if you win you know you don't win in peace BASTARD MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN GO SUCK CHRISTIE CUNT ON THE FLIGHT HOME!@$@#%$#^$%&%^UI^*%@#T$%^&$%
ok i overdid it but i really hate colin.
makes me ponder, charla is not ashamed of her 'short'comings (sorry) her physical disadvantaged, and she work twice as hard to show that she's shorter but it doesn't mean anything. i don't understand why some people are so ashamed of being gay, why some people are so apologetic about being gay. why do they have to pretend to be straight when mixing around and using all sorts of excuse when they are in the gay crowd. i am not your alpha male sorta of guy and i don't pretend to be, i am soft at times, but it doesn't mean i can't do things. i am not in the army so i don't go outfield much, but when i was in brunei i lead my team all the way and we came in 1st. i wanted people to know, just because i behave like i am gay (yes i am) doesn't mean i can't do things. doesn't mean i have to go get myself downgraded before i enter ns and serve as a clerk or a storeman. being gay doesn't mean anything. there are strong (used very loosely here) straight people and weak straight people too. i just don't see why some gay people just let themselves rot and whats the word, argh forget it.
point is i am proud of being gay. i am. full stop. i won't apologise to anybody nor will i pretend to be straight, try to convince the world i like to fuck woman. NO I DON'T. are you gonna say "you haven't tried, how would you know?" how would you know i haven't tried. i am quite sure you straight obnoxious guy out there can't imagine, but scenario. i shove my prick up yours. don't like it? me too, and i really don't like shoving it anywhere else though.
so why go on hiding. why be so afraid that people might see us and know we're gay? why are you so afraid to wear bright colours? can't straight people wear bright red shirt? orange trunks? no? only gays wear them? so by wearing them you automatically become gay? so what if people see? so? whats the big fat deal anyway? who cares? who really gives a damn? those people you meet in the streets will know you the next week you walk past them? and people who know you just sees a little flamboyant shirt, so? what goes through their mind? nothing much, momentarily 'so gay, hahah' thats it. no more. so stop being apologetic and ashamed and stand up for yourself, if you can't do it, nobody's gonna do it for you. you've seen my wonderful straight friends stand by me, accepting me for who i am, so stop deluding yourself and live in your 17th century world.
Aug 17, 2004
i heard the forbidden word on television today. state controlled media channel 5. they were talking about the promise the new PM made, an open and inclusive singapore where people are allowed to be different. there was this seminar of sorts in NUS political science faculty where people stated their views and then the voice over said "amids the issues of the casino, gays and lesbian issues"
a senior lecturer thinks its possible because PM Lee is considered young, at 52 he can still hold 3-4 terms, and he needs us, therefore his policy must be tailored to us. well all this is only words and more words. long as gay sex is still illegal and where we are discriminated where newspaper article can flame us one baseless issues, long as we can't get our rights, not privillege just rights, equal rights as everybody, we won't and will not be a 'open and inclusive' singapore
a senior lecturer thinks its possible because PM Lee is considered young, at 52 he can still hold 3-4 terms, and he needs us, therefore his policy must be tailored to us. well all this is only words and more words. long as gay sex is still illegal and where we are discriminated where newspaper article can flame us one baseless issues, long as we can't get our rights, not privillege just rights, equal rights as everybody, we won't and will not be a 'open and inclusive' singapore
Aug 16, 2004
one of my friend complained about mundane blog entries, entries like:
today i woke up at 531 and brushed my teeth and took mrt to work. i had lunch at 12pm lalalalalallalalala
aiyo....
but anyway. i HATE work. this is the 4th time i am repainting the classroom, because lady boss and boss sir wouldn't agree with each other. other than sitting down together and talking things out and settle on colours BOTH can agree on, they should also seriously consider taking anger management classes.
nothing much to update. he's going outfield for 4days 3nights, without hp. can't contact him. haiz.
today i woke up at 531 and brushed my teeth and took mrt to work. i had lunch at 12pm lalalalalallalalala
aiyo....
but anyway. i HATE work. this is the 4th time i am repainting the classroom, because lady boss and boss sir wouldn't agree with each other. other than sitting down together and talking things out and settle on colours BOTH can agree on, they should also seriously consider taking anger management classes.
nothing much to update. he's going outfield for 4days 3nights, without hp. can't contact him. haiz.
Aug 15, 2004
we are 6months together! yay. well its considered an achievement from where i come from. people get together and break up in matter of days and weeks. went out with him to swim, but the pool was so crowded. so we just lazed around. and guess what while washing up, i thought it would be a good idea that he bathed first while i looked after the belongings, in comes this old fat and ugly guy who keeps staring at me and motioning me to follow him to some cubicle! GROSS! then he entered one and keeps looking out at me. its really really disgusting. i was like dying for my dear to come out and get me out of this situation. YUCKS, first time i encountered something like that. not that i look good in my trunks being all ribs and nothing else. eeeeeEEEEeee. i mean honestly if he looked somewhat like julian hee, or if he is julian, then maybe. oooops.
went out to eat, eat and eat. hahaha. show you guys the present he got for me later. sooo sweeeeeeeeet. ahhhhhhhh. anyway a quote stolen from junyi's blog.
"He who goes to bed with an itchy bottom wakes up with a smelly finger."
-Jean
hahahahhahahahahahahah ROTFL
went out to eat, eat and eat. hahaha. show you guys the present he got for me later. sooo sweeeeeeeeet. ahhhhhhhh. anyway a quote stolen from junyi's blog.
"He who goes to bed with an itchy bottom wakes up with a smelly finger."
-Jean
hahahahhahahahahahahah ROTFL
Aug 10, 2004
to all those inconsiderate people who picks up some lost handphone and keeps it for yourself without even trying to contact the owner. i curse you. every single one of you. may you rot in hell for eternity and lose you sense of hearing and speech ability and thus never be able to use the handphone again in your entire life and death.
yes i lost my phone. so for all those who know me and have my number can i appeal to you guys to send me a message with your name on it (surname too and where are you from how i knew you) it sounds silly but i know like 5 pauls, 4 alvins, 3 justins and a couple of kelvins. so i have no idea who's who if you don't tell me right.
nothing much. been horribly busy. out most of the time because mommy decidedly got angry at me for no reasons and told me not to speak to her ever again. then ok, i never spoke to her for almost a week. suits herself. went out with him every single day over the extended weekend. hahaha. went to east coast to cycle, swam a bit and then met up with paul and stan for some dinner. we had black pepper crab!!!! then it was off for singapore idols
my goodness. i am not going to even cry about it here. just a small thought: i always thought singaporeans care alot about their image in public. guess not (all together now "i wonder how i wonder why yesterday you told me about a blue blue sky...." cue hands in victory sign swinging all over the place)
went through some old photos. my dear looks better a few years back, yes it is possible. i can't even give that a rating on my score board. seriously if you could ever see that coloured locks that cheeky smile, ahhhhh.
yes i lost my phone. so for all those who know me and have my number can i appeal to you guys to send me a message with your name on it (surname too and where are you from how i knew you) it sounds silly but i know like 5 pauls, 4 alvins, 3 justins and a couple of kelvins. so i have no idea who's who if you don't tell me right.
nothing much. been horribly busy. out most of the time because mommy decidedly got angry at me for no reasons and told me not to speak to her ever again. then ok, i never spoke to her for almost a week. suits herself. went out with him every single day over the extended weekend. hahaha. went to east coast to cycle, swam a bit and then met up with paul and stan for some dinner. we had black pepper crab!!!! then it was off for singapore idols
my goodness. i am not going to even cry about it here. just a small thought: i always thought singaporeans care alot about their image in public. guess not (all together now "i wonder how i wonder why yesterday you told me about a blue blue sky...." cue hands in victory sign swinging all over the place)
went through some old photos. my dear looks better a few years back, yes it is possible. i can't even give that a rating on my score board. seriously if you could ever see that coloured locks that cheeky smile, ahhhhh.
Aug 6, 2004
Aug 5, 2004
food for thought
my child has been 'turned' or 'recruited'
Almost all gay children are brought up to be straight, yet turn out otherwise. Likewise, it is doubtful that a straight child could be 'turned' gay, even if someone was trying.
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If you're older, you may be more nervous, if only because your friends have thought you're straight for longer. But really close friends may feel very proud and touched that you've chosen to tell them.
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go here to find out more
my child has been 'turned' or 'recruited'
Almost all gay children are brought up to be straight, yet turn out otherwise. Likewise, it is doubtful that a straight child could be 'turned' gay, even if someone was trying.
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If you're older, you may be more nervous, if only because your friends have thought you're straight for longer. But really close friends may feel very proud and touched that you've chosen to tell them.
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go here to find out more
don't you ever think that just because you are older than me, you are right, and just because i am younger therefore i am wrong. and don't you ever impose your thoughts on me. you know by now that i have agreed with you on most issues, even the solution to this issue, but i just can't take it down that you could ever use my age as an argument, by not discouting my age, you have already done that.
who do you think you are trying to protect? no one but yourself. you called me selfish for liberating myself and putting the burden on others. well go on and ask everybody, ask alanna, mark, siming, darrell, jeremiah, corrine, yihan, keefe, jasmin, christian and the countless other people i have told. how much burden is on them? you think the society is going to judge them just because they know i am gay? just because they have a little secret of mine to keep. you are wrong. they are more than happy to keep it because they are my close friends and they have no qualms about it. you are protecting no one but yourself. society is going to judge YOU, and you fear that. you are protecting yourself because you are afraid to be judge, that people won't take you for who you are because you are gay. wrong again.
you make youself out to be some self sacrifing matyr, that by not telling your closest friend, you are protecting her, you are not. you are lying to her. and deceit as you said it youself, is not the right thing. if your friendship is worth so much that you are willing to see her drift away, it says alot. and don't you EVER EVER say that i am selfish for liberating myself and burdening my friends because they know i am gay. don't you ever use my age against me.
you might not know this, but i might, i just might have known things you DON'T. i seen my friends die, i have seen my friends commit suicide. i have friends who are disowned by their fathers, i have friends who don't have fathers and not born with SILVER spoons and drive cars and have nothing much to fret about their daily lives. i have friends who live in 1 room flat and not a terrace house. i have friends who have next to nothing. i have seen what damage coming out can do, so don't you EVER EVER EVER discount me for my age and think i don't know.
i respect your view and no matter what compromise, me and kel will always have to give in. even if we are the majority unless the decision is to say because at the end of the day, when nothing is said, we have given in. because that one statement "it affects more than just you" that statement wins all argument. and yes you can then push your age around but i tell you, i hate that and i don't demand any apology because its pointless.
who do you think you are trying to protect? no one but yourself. you called me selfish for liberating myself and putting the burden on others. well go on and ask everybody, ask alanna, mark, siming, darrell, jeremiah, corrine, yihan, keefe, jasmin, christian and the countless other people i have told. how much burden is on them? you think the society is going to judge them just because they know i am gay? just because they have a little secret of mine to keep. you are wrong. they are more than happy to keep it because they are my close friends and they have no qualms about it. you are protecting no one but yourself. society is going to judge YOU, and you fear that. you are protecting yourself because you are afraid to be judge, that people won't take you for who you are because you are gay. wrong again.
you make youself out to be some self sacrifing matyr, that by not telling your closest friend, you are protecting her, you are not. you are lying to her. and deceit as you said it youself, is not the right thing. if your friendship is worth so much that you are willing to see her drift away, it says alot. and don't you EVER EVER say that i am selfish for liberating myself and burdening my friends because they know i am gay. don't you ever use my age against me.
you might not know this, but i might, i just might have known things you DON'T. i seen my friends die, i have seen my friends commit suicide. i have friends who are disowned by their fathers, i have friends who don't have fathers and not born with SILVER spoons and drive cars and have nothing much to fret about their daily lives. i have friends who live in 1 room flat and not a terrace house. i have friends who have next to nothing. i have seen what damage coming out can do, so don't you EVER EVER EVER discount me for my age and think i don't know.
i respect your view and no matter what compromise, me and kel will always have to give in. even if we are the majority unless the decision is to say because at the end of the day, when nothing is said, we have given in. because that one statement "it affects more than just you" that statement wins all argument. and yes you can then push your age around but i tell you, i hate that and i don't demand any apology because its pointless.
Aug 4, 2004
and i have something else to say
if you never used a mac, please keep your fucking mouth shut. just because i use the latest codec and some windows pc can't play it, its not my fucking mac fault. if you would only update your windows. so stop blaming my mac whenever you encounter some problems with your pc just like how many countless times programs have hanged and virus have killed your pc. its not my bloody problem.
if you have never ever used a mac, don't even think for once that it is lousier than yours because you DON'T KNOW, so stop complaining. it is my liking my preference. FUCK OFF.
if you never used a mac, please keep your fucking mouth shut. just because i use the latest codec and some windows pc can't play it, its not my fucking mac fault. if you would only update your windows. so stop blaming my mac whenever you encounter some problems with your pc just like how many countless times programs have hanged and virus have killed your pc. its not my bloody problem.
if you have never ever used a mac, don't even think for once that it is lousier than yours because you DON'T KNOW, so stop complaining. it is my liking my preference. FUCK OFF.
i wanted to type a long post but i don't think i have the energy to do it. don't worry it has nothing to do with him. am doing very very well with him. anyway we caught the house of flying daggers. it sucks. zilch plot. go read lunz blog on 29th july for a detailed sypnosis. 1/2 out of 5 stars only because takeshi and zhang ziyi looks so gorgeous.
going out with him later to watch the village.... oooooh. i'll come back and give a more detailed review on that. it better be as good as the return or even better.
yesyes for those who haven't already caught the return, you should really consider. its amazing, click here to find out more about the show.
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apple concept store would be launch soon, i won't divulge much yet but its so cool. i can't wait already.
going out with him later to watch the village.... oooooh. i'll come back and give a more detailed review on that. it better be as good as the return or even better.
yesyes for those who haven't already caught the return, you should really consider. its amazing, click here to find out more about the show.
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apple concept store would be launch soon, i won't divulge much yet but its so cool. i can't wait already.
i wanted to type a long post but i don't think i have the energy to do it. don't worry it has nothing to do with him. am doing very very well with him. anyway we caught the house of flying daggers. it sucks. zilch plot. go read lunz blog on 29th july for a detailed sypnosis. 1/2 out of 5 stars only because takeshi and zhang ziyi looks so gorgeous.
going out with him later to watch the village.... oooooh. i'll come back and give a more detailed review on that. it better be as good as the return or even better.
yesyes for those who haven't already caught the return, you should really consider. its amazing, click here to find out more about the show.
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apple concept store would be launch soon, i won't divulge much yet but its so cool. i can't wait already.
going out with him later to watch the village.... oooooh. i'll come back and give a more detailed review on that. it better be as good as the return or even better.
yesyes for those who haven't already caught the return, you should really consider. its amazing, click here to find out more about the show.
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apple concept store would be launch soon, i won't divulge much yet but its so cool. i can't wait already.
Aug 2, 2004
i can't believe it has taken me soooo long. but i'm falling in love with ben folds. his songs are just soo amazing, wow. yes ben folds five too.
caught the return yesterday. i won't say much but it is a must watch, you'll be left craving for it, that i am going to ask, anybody wants company to watch, if you are going to treat that is =p
caught the return yesterday. i won't say much but it is a must watch, you'll be left craving for it, that i am going to ask, anybody wants company to watch, if you are going to treat that is =p
Jul 31, 2004
i feel like such a loser. i really do. today's the homecoming carnival. wanted to go back with mark and alanna and j and him. but everything just didn't turn out the way i thought it might be all fun, go back with everyone, play some stupid games and catch up. well i did meet up n alanna and siming in the end. it was nice and all, but i have like no friends. where's all my classmates? where's mark? didn't pick up my calls, didn't reply my msg. and to make everything worse, he didn't want to meet my friends. again. i am not going to dwell into that. we've been through enough of this. i just feel so lousy and so terrible. i feel almost sick. argh
Jul 26, 2004
nothing much going on lately. missing my dear loads. going for another exercise. sigh. its going to be a tough few weeks ahead for him. so i'll try my best to be there for him.
anyway its really nice to be lugging an ibook around. people would stop right beside to tell me that's a good powerful notebook i've got. muahaha. basking in all that attention. what could be better. oh yes the new ipod is out. its cheaper,smaller with longer battery life and looks better with improved features.20gb for 548 and 40gb for 748. how incredibly cheaper compared to zen touch, at 499, its 40 grams heavier, 0.3 inch thicker, bulkier, less user friendly features, an sad rip-off of ipod designs, no wonder people say singapore is running out of creative talents.
i wonder why some people are so resistant to the invasion of the ipods. i mean 60% of all mp3 players sold in the world are ipods, including your i-can-only-store-20-songs 128mb flash player. there's isn't really anything to argue about is there. hardware mag rated ipod the best mp3 player u can buy. side by side is the iriver, which has more features but less stunning design and an awkward joystick that lets u scroll song-by-song. so from say 'all my life' to say 'you and i both', given the 5000 song storage, it would take probably a flight from here to LA, whereas the ipod does it in less that 2 seconds!
-standing ovation-
anyway its really nice to be lugging an ibook around. people would stop right beside to tell me that's a good powerful notebook i've got. muahaha. basking in all that attention. what could be better. oh yes the new ipod is out. its cheaper,smaller with longer battery life and looks better with improved features.20gb for 548 and 40gb for 748. how incredibly cheaper compared to zen touch, at 499, its 40 grams heavier, 0.3 inch thicker, bulkier, less user friendly features, an sad rip-off of ipod designs, no wonder people say singapore is running out of creative talents.
i wonder why some people are so resistant to the invasion of the ipods. i mean 60% of all mp3 players sold in the world are ipods, including your i-can-only-store-20-songs 128mb flash player. there's isn't really anything to argue about is there. hardware mag rated ipod the best mp3 player u can buy. side by side is the iriver, which has more features but less stunning design and an awkward joystick that lets u scroll song-by-song. so from say 'all my life' to say 'you and i both', given the 5000 song storage, it would take probably a flight from here to LA, whereas the ipod does it in less that 2 seconds!
-standing ovation-
Jul 22, 2004
Jul 15, 2004
ok, i am done with all my ranting for now. the issue is settling down, and i'll see what ill effects are there, then i will decide on my next course of action. actually well, its more because my boy's outfield for the past 2 days, and he's sick some more, made me so worried. he couldn't really use to phone, so couldn't contact me for like 20 over hours. wah the whole day, i just kept thinking about him. sian, so lovelorn =(
i am just so thankful i've found him. its been more than 5 months le, going to be half a year since i first know him. every day is a totally different experience. yes there was periods of well, problems, largely my fault. i am so glad that is out of the way. ahhhh lovelorn again.. okok i shall stop it. nite folks
i am just so thankful i've found him. its been more than 5 months le, going to be half a year since i first know him. every day is a totally different experience. yes there was periods of well, problems, largely my fault. i am so glad that is out of the way. ahhhh lovelorn again.. okok i shall stop it. nite folks
Jul 14, 2004
ohmygod, channel u is featuring this talkshow (fei chang tou shi yan) on the issue of chinese prostitute soliciting on the streets. its a problem that is worsening. makes me really worried whether they would actually feature one episode on gay bars and spas in the near future. well mainly because the issues of chinese prostitutes was highlighted on wanbao, sinming and newpaper i think. its really very worrying. what if they start a whole anti gay sentiment. is anybody going to do anything? can we even do anything? the age of repression is here.
in an extremely well versed and wonderful letter to TODAY:
1. Context
As a daily reader of your paper, and an occasional contributor to your forum pages, I have been consistently encouraged by your journalistic integrity. Your articles span a broad range and you do not appear to shy from controversial topics, even when incurring the ire of certain political leaders for �foreign interference� in domestic issues.
The reason for my writing is this. In the last week, Lianhe Wanbao, published by your media rival Singapore Press Holdings, published a four-part expose in which it sought to perpetuate fallacious and scientifically unsustainable myths about homosexuality, for example, that people are homosexual because they have been raped, or lack a male role model (nevermind the blatant sexism). In addition, the four-parter was largely an amateurish account of gay saunas and clubs as hideouts for illicit sexual activity. They then propose that the police raid these spots.
I do not, for one moment, doubt the freedom of Wanbao to publish such material. However, it is clear that having chosen this particular angle on the homosexual issue, SPH is not likely to print contrary material. It is thus my hope � and the hope of others (both gay and straight) who are appalled at the lack of sensitivity and accuracy of this so-called expose � that your newspaper would find within itself the courage to counterbalance this report.
You have, in the past, allowed such gay activists as Mr Alex Au a full column to express his views on the rejection of PLU�s attempt to register as a society. You have a regular column by Constance Singham that highlights blindspots in our social landscape. In a country where SPH papers have long been careful about being politically correct, your newspaper�s brave attempts at creating awareness in important issues has not gone unnoticed.
2. The issue
It is not always immediately obvious to everyone why homosexuals (and discerning heterosexuals) are as persistent and anxious about such media portrayal. This is because, as you are undoubtedly aware, the media is often a powerful influence in shaping attitudes and beliefs. This is none the more so than in Singapore where not many Singaporeans avail themselves to the various foreign papers and online resources. They trust the local media to be fair. In this instance, that trust has been broken by Wanbao.
It is important to homosexuals (and those who care about them) that we do not set back what have been significant gains in the last decade or so � the cessation of systematic police raiding of gay hang-outs (I suppose Wanbao expects homosexuals to take their sexual liaisons to their homes, which will almost certainly result in familial ostracization, and I suppose Wanbao expects that homosexuals will no longer have places where they are safe from the prying eyes of homophobes and gay-bashers) and even the acknowledgment of homosexuals in the civil service by Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong.
Homosexuals and their advocates understand that the road is long and arduous. It was similarly difficult for racial minorities and women to be recognized � and even then, discrimination continues. (In Singapore, the constitution does not even explicitly protect women!) But what was always critical in moving public opinion, and eventually governmental posture, was the reporting and coverage of such historic events as African-American sit-ins at public places, and the lifting of anti-obscenity laws that prevented anyone even mentioning anti-Slavery arguments.
In parts of Europe, homosexual marriage is already a given. In Massachusetts, gay marriage is now legally possible thanks to a very brave Supreme Court, and the world has not crumbled. Cambodia�s monarch has openly suggested that gay marriage is ok. Not even China has laws against same-sex relations (though not marriage.) Asian values? Ours were imported in the 1980s from no less than American scholars, and have been argued to be a perversion of true Confucian thinking.
In Singapore, the government will only move if the people do. This is why they have decided to review the ban on oral sex � because the general public was outraged by such a law, and international ridicule followed.
Homosexuals, and their allies, do not seek special rights. They do not ask for more freedom than any other person. They have not even asked for marriage rights. They are merely asking to be left alone; and not to have some intellectually-shallow reporter fueling flames of hate. If it is politically incorrect to say certain races are stupid, and that women are weaker, why is it all right to say that homosexuals are freaks of nature?
I grant you that not everyone will come to accept homosexuals as persons equally capable of love, and equally deserving of basic dignity. At the least, they should tolerate gay men and women, and not confuse their own ignorance for fear and hate.
3. The proposal
What I ask, in my personal capacity, but representing, I believe, many others, is that you will consider publishing an article, or a series, painting a more positive light of homosexuals in Singapore. You will not find a paucity of homosexuals who are extremely intelligent, successful and even (as previous Straits Times articles pointed out) well-to-do. Every sector of society has its seedier elements. It would be hypocritical not to admit that even heterosexuals have their sojourns to Bali for sexual gratification, and the equivalent of gay saunas exit. The only reason why such activity becomes a reason for enforcing a homosexual dragnet is purely because those people like others of their own sex.
This is a matter that must concern all of us � homosexual or not. Clamping down on the private choices of individuals is always a bad thing because if the government believes that basic human rights can be denied without good reason, there is nothing to stop other incursions on our everyday life. As a newspaper required to apply for permits and licenses, you will understand this better than most.
I do not expect that you will lead a campaign for gay rights (although that would be great.) I do not even expect a one-sided article glorifying the right of homosexuals (although that would also be nice.) All I would ask is that you publish a balanced, neutral article that would sincerely provoke some real thinking. There is no shortage of literature on this subject, which can be concisely and simply presented. For once, replace the empty rhetorical hatred with some intellectual exposition and factual analysis.
I will understand if you do not feel that this is something you are able to do. Indeed, I write this in a somewhat delusionally optimistic state. But I would urge you to consider this. Not because it may be economically beneficial, or interesting or newsworthy, but because it would be right.
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my coach is just inspirational isn't he. i couldn't have said it better myself.
1. Context
As a daily reader of your paper, and an occasional contributor to your forum pages, I have been consistently encouraged by your journalistic integrity. Your articles span a broad range and you do not appear to shy from controversial topics, even when incurring the ire of certain political leaders for �foreign interference� in domestic issues.
The reason for my writing is this. In the last week, Lianhe Wanbao, published by your media rival Singapore Press Holdings, published a four-part expose in which it sought to perpetuate fallacious and scientifically unsustainable myths about homosexuality, for example, that people are homosexual because they have been raped, or lack a male role model (nevermind the blatant sexism). In addition, the four-parter was largely an amateurish account of gay saunas and clubs as hideouts for illicit sexual activity. They then propose that the police raid these spots.
I do not, for one moment, doubt the freedom of Wanbao to publish such material. However, it is clear that having chosen this particular angle on the homosexual issue, SPH is not likely to print contrary material. It is thus my hope � and the hope of others (both gay and straight) who are appalled at the lack of sensitivity and accuracy of this so-called expose � that your newspaper would find within itself the courage to counterbalance this report.
You have, in the past, allowed such gay activists as Mr Alex Au a full column to express his views on the rejection of PLU�s attempt to register as a society. You have a regular column by Constance Singham that highlights blindspots in our social landscape. In a country where SPH papers have long been careful about being politically correct, your newspaper�s brave attempts at creating awareness in important issues has not gone unnoticed.
2. The issue
It is not always immediately obvious to everyone why homosexuals (and discerning heterosexuals) are as persistent and anxious about such media portrayal. This is because, as you are undoubtedly aware, the media is often a powerful influence in shaping attitudes and beliefs. This is none the more so than in Singapore where not many Singaporeans avail themselves to the various foreign papers and online resources. They trust the local media to be fair. In this instance, that trust has been broken by Wanbao.
It is important to homosexuals (and those who care about them) that we do not set back what have been significant gains in the last decade or so � the cessation of systematic police raiding of gay hang-outs (I suppose Wanbao expects homosexuals to take their sexual liaisons to their homes, which will almost certainly result in familial ostracization, and I suppose Wanbao expects that homosexuals will no longer have places where they are safe from the prying eyes of homophobes and gay-bashers) and even the acknowledgment of homosexuals in the civil service by Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong.
Homosexuals and their advocates understand that the road is long and arduous. It was similarly difficult for racial minorities and women to be recognized � and even then, discrimination continues. (In Singapore, the constitution does not even explicitly protect women!) But what was always critical in moving public opinion, and eventually governmental posture, was the reporting and coverage of such historic events as African-American sit-ins at public places, and the lifting of anti-obscenity laws that prevented anyone even mentioning anti-Slavery arguments.
In parts of Europe, homosexual marriage is already a given. In Massachusetts, gay marriage is now legally possible thanks to a very brave Supreme Court, and the world has not crumbled. Cambodia�s monarch has openly suggested that gay marriage is ok. Not even China has laws against same-sex relations (though not marriage.) Asian values? Ours were imported in the 1980s from no less than American scholars, and have been argued to be a perversion of true Confucian thinking.
In Singapore, the government will only move if the people do. This is why they have decided to review the ban on oral sex � because the general public was outraged by such a law, and international ridicule followed.
Homosexuals, and their allies, do not seek special rights. They do not ask for more freedom than any other person. They have not even asked for marriage rights. They are merely asking to be left alone; and not to have some intellectually-shallow reporter fueling flames of hate. If it is politically incorrect to say certain races are stupid, and that women are weaker, why is it all right to say that homosexuals are freaks of nature?
I grant you that not everyone will come to accept homosexuals as persons equally capable of love, and equally deserving of basic dignity. At the least, they should tolerate gay men and women, and not confuse their own ignorance for fear and hate.
3. The proposal
What I ask, in my personal capacity, but representing, I believe, many others, is that you will consider publishing an article, or a series, painting a more positive light of homosexuals in Singapore. You will not find a paucity of homosexuals who are extremely intelligent, successful and even (as previous Straits Times articles pointed out) well-to-do. Every sector of society has its seedier elements. It would be hypocritical not to admit that even heterosexuals have their sojourns to Bali for sexual gratification, and the equivalent of gay saunas exit. The only reason why such activity becomes a reason for enforcing a homosexual dragnet is purely because those people like others of their own sex.
This is a matter that must concern all of us � homosexual or not. Clamping down on the private choices of individuals is always a bad thing because if the government believes that basic human rights can be denied without good reason, there is nothing to stop other incursions on our everyday life. As a newspaper required to apply for permits and licenses, you will understand this better than most.
I do not expect that you will lead a campaign for gay rights (although that would be great.) I do not even expect a one-sided article glorifying the right of homosexuals (although that would also be nice.) All I would ask is that you publish a balanced, neutral article that would sincerely provoke some real thinking. There is no shortage of literature on this subject, which can be concisely and simply presented. For once, replace the empty rhetorical hatred with some intellectual exposition and factual analysis.
I will understand if you do not feel that this is something you are able to do. Indeed, I write this in a somewhat delusionally optimistic state. But I would urge you to consider this. Not because it may be economically beneficial, or interesting or newsworthy, but because it would be right.
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my coach is just inspirational isn't he. i couldn't have said it better myself.
pple pple, i am not upset because i visit gay spas of what, i can't be bothered if they are closed down really, but what really bothers me its the negative light the article portrays. i really don't want to type too much now, but the whole point of over simplifying the gay issues, and the social repercussion of further making people believe that aids is a gay-related disease, and that only gays have oral and anal sex. it doesn't serve to educate anybody but further foster more misconception. and it is sickening to a point where they even target gay clubs. for saint fuck's sake i have brought many girls to why not and tabs before, and they love it there. guys, since when do we ever give girls wierd stares, unless of course the reporter looks worse than abigail. but then she would get looks even at zouk. so look just leave me my space to hold my boyfriend's hand and hug him and not get strage stares and go fuck yourself because i think no FUCKING PERSON WOULD WANNA FUCK THAT STUPID REPORTER!!!
i am feeling so upset and so distressed. look i don't know why everybody wants to adopt a sit and wait attitude. i want my freedom, not to fuck anybody in public. but i just want to be me. i just want to be like you, being able to go out with your girlfriend and hold her hands and kiss her goodbye without having the possibility of being thrown in jail; or like you, being able to snuggle up to your boyfriend in the bus, without any worries. yes i can do that at home, but does anybody know how repressed, how terrible it feels not being able to do any of that.
the only sanctity, the only haven where i can have the slightest intimacy with the one i love (no not sex in a gay spa) is being threatened. what else can i do but sit here and rant? the police would have to raid as a show of force although nothing much is going to happen because like paul said, we have no opposition so that is not going to be a wedge issue. but what if wanbao does a follow up and show that gay clubs still exist. what is the police going to do. granted they shut down gay spas because they are sleazy and cheap, but what about the clubs? is it really so wrong to be affectionate to someone i love. the government says they will allow gay people to be in the civil sector, so much for allowing gays to exist but to criminalise every single action. i truly await the day the government will slam the papers that give any discriminatory remark (be it sex, race, religion, sexual preference), till then i have to suffer everyday of my life.
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how does gay threaten any body, and society for that matter.
i am feeling so upset and so distressed. look i don't know why everybody wants to adopt a sit and wait attitude. i want my freedom, not to fuck anybody in public. but i just want to be me. i just want to be like you, being able to go out with your girlfriend and hold her hands and kiss her goodbye without having the possibility of being thrown in jail; or like you, being able to snuggle up to your boyfriend in the bus, without any worries. yes i can do that at home, but does anybody know how repressed, how terrible it feels not being able to do any of that.
the only sanctity, the only haven where i can have the slightest intimacy with the one i love (no not sex in a gay spa) is being threatened. what else can i do but sit here and rant? the police would have to raid as a show of force although nothing much is going to happen because like paul said, we have no opposition so that is not going to be a wedge issue. but what if wanbao does a follow up and show that gay clubs still exist. what is the police going to do. granted they shut down gay spas because they are sleazy and cheap, but what about the clubs? is it really so wrong to be affectionate to someone i love. the government says they will allow gay people to be in the civil sector, so much for allowing gays to exist but to criminalise every single action. i truly await the day the government will slam the papers that give any discriminatory remark (be it sex, race, religion, sexual preference), till then i have to suffer everyday of my life.
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how does gay threaten any body, and society for that matter.
Jul 13, 2004
wanbao is getting more audacious. i can assure you, my mom was never ill treated by my father. and its official. 99.99% of all pastors are either retarted, dumb, or stupid to focus on the fact that hey, you are gay, i can change you. its not right. f*** you. go to my downloads and download 'a controversial discourse on biblical homosexuality'
also do visit here to see the original article and some professional point of view on the issue
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The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 4
Lianhe Wanbao 12 July 2004 Monday
GAY BAR GET MORE SINFUL AS THE NIGHT GROWS OLD
CUSTOMERS MOLEST BAR WAITER'S BUM
FORWARD
It is not acceptable and against the law for homosexuals to expose themselves, kiss or have intimacy in the public.
However many homosexuals are still defiling the law and openly have unnatural sex.
For the past few days we had reported on the increase in gay saunas which are providing place of convenience for homosexuals to have illegal sex.
At the same time the numbers of gay bars discos had been increasing like the falling raindrops on the ground.
In this issue we are turning our focus on such gay bars discos to reveal the secrets behind.
End of Forward
If by chance some ladies step into a gay bar, she will be greeted with surprise and strange stares from the staff and the homo customers.
Although Peter had not been working very long in the gay bar but he had understood the happenings here.
He told our reporters that although the shop did not specified itself as a gay bar, therefore ladies can come in but the customers here will treat the ladies with strange stares.
Our reporters saw some flamboyant gay customers cruising inside the disco.
Some of the dressings are very exposing and for those with a well built body are exposing their shoulders and even the bums to attract the other gay customers who are ogling at them. Some are in deep intimacy.
This disco in the downtown opened everyday and the customers even molests the waiters working there.
We understood that there are many gay bars and discos opening here recently.
There is no difference from other straight bars or discos only the customers is all gay here.
After being informed our reporters went there to have a feel of the place. It is crowded with men and everyone is dressed to kill, tight shirt, embroidered with flowers shirts and the most 'in' is the sleeveless T shirts.
The staff told us frankly that this is a gay bar. Why do you work here then?
One of the straight waiter Peter told us that he and his friends came here to work for extra income, they had a full time job in the day.
Peter then complained to our reporters that he had been molested before by the customers here.
Where do they touched you?
They squeezed my bum.
What did you do then? Dun you feel bad?
We cannot offend the customers, so we pushed off their hands lightly. When we worked here we have no choice. This is our job.
After some conversation we found out that the majority of the waiters here are not gay, they have 'normal sex inclination' they are real men and some do have girlfriends already.
When we arrived around 10pm there was hardly any customers. But towards the midnight it started to get crowded and there was 10 waiters and some 100 customers.
From informed sources this is the most famous gay bar disco in town.
GAYS PERFORMING 'RA' SHOW IN THE BAR
Some gays are very daring here, openly kissing and stroking each other.
There is a group of very gorgeous 20s over young gays sitting upstairs.
They seem to be getting very high and openly kissing and stroking each other.
Although this was only a few seconds but it was very eye opening and 'RA'
The daring intimacy is something unacceptable by non-homosexuals.
At the bar counter there was 3 guys and apparently two of them are lovers. Within a few seconds they are holding hand in hand and stroking each other.
HOMOSEXUALS CAN SEEK EXTERNAL HELP IF THEY WANT TO CHANGE
If homosexuals want to change their lifestyles and accept the opposite sex again should seek external help.
A local famous pastor Mr. Tan Han Sek had counseled many gays before.
He said that among them some had witnessed their mothers being ill treated by their fathers. This had hurt them very deeply. When they grow up they have anal intercourse with other men, trying to imagining that they are enjoying other men for their mothers.
Because of some post environmental influences some had turned gay but they are not really homosexuals. These people should seek external help and treatment, Pastor Tan concluded.
Some are struggling alone but this is very hard. The most direct way is to seek external help like religion or psychiatric treatment. This is the better way.
Pastor Tan admitted that there is no difference in the love-relationship for gays or straights. They both have sad and broken heart times before.
Some gays left their male partners to marry a woman because they wanted to have a family and children.
But there are others who are like butterflies flying from one flower to the next seeking for new same sex partners.
RAINBOW FLAG SYMBOL OF HOMOSEXUALITY
If you think that local homosexuals are still in the closet, never see the sun you are wrong. The numbers of gay bars and discos opening here are like raindrops falling on the ground.
Not only that, local gays had walked out of the closet and openly admit that they are gays.
When our reporters visited two of the downtown gay bars, did we realised that there are so many gays who had walked out of the closet and out in open. They do not bother what others think about them. On weekend they openly socialize in the clubs.
Our reporters had observed that all these gay places are hanging the six colours rainbow flag as symbol for gay. Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue and Purple.
However the interior decor of such places is not much different from the straights.
But obviously those who patronized them are mostly gay.
END
also do visit here to see the original article and some professional point of view on the issue
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The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 4
Lianhe Wanbao 12 July 2004 Monday
GAY BAR GET MORE SINFUL AS THE NIGHT GROWS OLD
CUSTOMERS MOLEST BAR WAITER'S BUM
FORWARD
It is not acceptable and against the law for homosexuals to expose themselves, kiss or have intimacy in the public.
However many homosexuals are still defiling the law and openly have unnatural sex.
For the past few days we had reported on the increase in gay saunas which are providing place of convenience for homosexuals to have illegal sex.
At the same time the numbers of gay bars discos had been increasing like the falling raindrops on the ground.
In this issue we are turning our focus on such gay bars discos to reveal the secrets behind.
End of Forward
If by chance some ladies step into a gay bar, she will be greeted with surprise and strange stares from the staff and the homo customers.
Although Peter had not been working very long in the gay bar but he had understood the happenings here.
He told our reporters that although the shop did not specified itself as a gay bar, therefore ladies can come in but the customers here will treat the ladies with strange stares.
Our reporters saw some flamboyant gay customers cruising inside the disco.
Some of the dressings are very exposing and for those with a well built body are exposing their shoulders and even the bums to attract the other gay customers who are ogling at them. Some are in deep intimacy.
This disco in the downtown opened everyday and the customers even molests the waiters working there.
We understood that there are many gay bars and discos opening here recently.
There is no difference from other straight bars or discos only the customers is all gay here.
After being informed our reporters went there to have a feel of the place. It is crowded with men and everyone is dressed to kill, tight shirt, embroidered with flowers shirts and the most 'in' is the sleeveless T shirts.
The staff told us frankly that this is a gay bar. Why do you work here then?
One of the straight waiter Peter told us that he and his friends came here to work for extra income, they had a full time job in the day.
Peter then complained to our reporters that he had been molested before by the customers here.
Where do they touched you?
They squeezed my bum.
What did you do then? Dun you feel bad?
We cannot offend the customers, so we pushed off their hands lightly. When we worked here we have no choice. This is our job.
After some conversation we found out that the majority of the waiters here are not gay, they have 'normal sex inclination' they are real men and some do have girlfriends already.
When we arrived around 10pm there was hardly any customers. But towards the midnight it started to get crowded and there was 10 waiters and some 100 customers.
From informed sources this is the most famous gay bar disco in town.
GAYS PERFORMING 'RA' SHOW IN THE BAR
Some gays are very daring here, openly kissing and stroking each other.
There is a group of very gorgeous 20s over young gays sitting upstairs.
They seem to be getting very high and openly kissing and stroking each other.
Although this was only a few seconds but it was very eye opening and 'RA'
The daring intimacy is something unacceptable by non-homosexuals.
At the bar counter there was 3 guys and apparently two of them are lovers. Within a few seconds they are holding hand in hand and stroking each other.
HOMOSEXUALS CAN SEEK EXTERNAL HELP IF THEY WANT TO CHANGE
If homosexuals want to change their lifestyles and accept the opposite sex again should seek external help.
A local famous pastor Mr. Tan Han Sek had counseled many gays before.
He said that among them some had witnessed their mothers being ill treated by their fathers. This had hurt them very deeply. When they grow up they have anal intercourse with other men, trying to imagining that they are enjoying other men for their mothers.
Because of some post environmental influences some had turned gay but they are not really homosexuals. These people should seek external help and treatment, Pastor Tan concluded.
Some are struggling alone but this is very hard. The most direct way is to seek external help like religion or psychiatric treatment. This is the better way.
Pastor Tan admitted that there is no difference in the love-relationship for gays or straights. They both have sad and broken heart times before.
Some gays left their male partners to marry a woman because they wanted to have a family and children.
But there are others who are like butterflies flying from one flower to the next seeking for new same sex partners.
RAINBOW FLAG SYMBOL OF HOMOSEXUALITY
If you think that local homosexuals are still in the closet, never see the sun you are wrong. The numbers of gay bars and discos opening here are like raindrops falling on the ground.
Not only that, local gays had walked out of the closet and openly admit that they are gays.
When our reporters visited two of the downtown gay bars, did we realised that there are so many gays who had walked out of the closet and out in open. They do not bother what others think about them. On weekend they openly socialize in the clubs.
Our reporters had observed that all these gay places are hanging the six colours rainbow flag as symbol for gay. Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue and Purple.
However the interior decor of such places is not much different from the straights.
But obviously those who patronized them are mostly gay.
END
Jul 11, 2004
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. i hate i absolutely hate and abhor the lianhewanbao, i soo need to do something about it. this is killing me. it is so upsetting.
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 3
Lianhe Wanbao 11 July 2004 Sunday
ANOTHER GAY CLUB PROVIDES THAI BOYS
AS PROSTITUTES AND NUDE SHOW
To attract customers to the door, another gay club in the town had employed foreigners to perform disgusting strip-tease show and further offer 3 parts service.
The club called it the ¨shower boys〃 service providing showering and massage and extra service as customerˇs sex partner.
This club had a very simple frontage with bright opaque glass front door. Within the white painting you will never expect what is happening inside.
Informed sources said that since last month the club had started to bring in two gorgeous boys in their 20s to provide showering and massage services.
A foreign student confirmed such services when interviewed with our reporter.
The anonymous student told us that recently the club had bring in two young boys from Thailand.
They provide showering and massage services for customers and if required they can provide special service too. (you meant sex service�K?)�K..yes.
These shower boys came in once a month and there are two of them.
They not only provide services but also perform (�Kstrip-tease show you meant�K)�Kyes. They perform strip- tease show.
The club normally arranges a few sessions in a month.
One staff told our reporter that this is a new venture by the club and is very popular. Our boys are from Thailand, do you like foreign boys? Disgusting�K.
The club also published boldly on the web site about its strip-tease show and shower boys services.
Our reporter try getting in and was told by a staff that ¨Do you know what is this place? This is a gay club, you want to go in must be a member first.〃
The club is also providing photography service to customers who want to take nude pictures.
The club catered to those who like to take nude pictures but are unable to find a photographer to bring in extra income.
Customers can arrange with the club for the time and place for such photographs. But most of the time is within the club premise as background.
The club has its own photographer and customers can choose to take semi nude or full nude pictures.
According to a senior lawyer interviewed ( Miss Lee) the owner of such gay club had broken the law once they allowed men to men unnatural sex in their premise.
Sauna and massage service is very common and even in a men only club is not illegal. But if customers had unnatural sex inside the premise will constitute as illegal business and can be prosecuted.
Their license can be cancelled.
As for those accidental customers who patronised the club without knowing the activities can report to the police, suggested Miss Lee.
If they felt that they are being harassed or forced to join into the gay sexual activities, they can complained against them and let the police investigated into the matter.
Since 9 July when our series of articles The Secrets of the Glass Circle was published; revealing the dark sides of the gay scene here, we have received many calls from our hotlines condemning such wild and illegal activities and places.
Our reporters after receiving such information and conducted a thorough investigation had found out the increase in the opening of new saunas is actually to provide a place of convenience for gays.
Many readers felt that it is disgusting and urged to take action against such activities.
One reader responded saying that it seem that homosexuals are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex altogether. If the police do not take action now this will degrade our social morality.
End.
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 3
Lianhe Wanbao 11 July 2004 Sunday
ANOTHER GAY CLUB PROVIDES THAI BOYS
AS PROSTITUTES AND NUDE SHOW
To attract customers to the door, another gay club in the town had employed foreigners to perform disgusting strip-tease show and further offer 3 parts service.
The club called it the ¨shower boys〃 service providing showering and massage and extra service as customerˇs sex partner.
This club had a very simple frontage with bright opaque glass front door. Within the white painting you will never expect what is happening inside.
Informed sources said that since last month the club had started to bring in two gorgeous boys in their 20s to provide showering and massage services.
A foreign student confirmed such services when interviewed with our reporter.
The anonymous student told us that recently the club had bring in two young boys from Thailand.
They provide showering and massage services for customers and if required they can provide special service too. (you meant sex service�K?)�K..yes.
These shower boys came in once a month and there are two of them.
They not only provide services but also perform (�Kstrip-tease show you meant�K)�Kyes. They perform strip- tease show.
The club normally arranges a few sessions in a month.
One staff told our reporter that this is a new venture by the club and is very popular. Our boys are from Thailand, do you like foreign boys? Disgusting�K.
The club also published boldly on the web site about its strip-tease show and shower boys services.
Our reporter try getting in and was told by a staff that ¨Do you know what is this place? This is a gay club, you want to go in must be a member first.〃
The club is also providing photography service to customers who want to take nude pictures.
The club catered to those who like to take nude pictures but are unable to find a photographer to bring in extra income.
Customers can arrange with the club for the time and place for such photographs. But most of the time is within the club premise as background.
The club has its own photographer and customers can choose to take semi nude or full nude pictures.
According to a senior lawyer interviewed ( Miss Lee) the owner of such gay club had broken the law once they allowed men to men unnatural sex in their premise.
Sauna and massage service is very common and even in a men only club is not illegal. But if customers had unnatural sex inside the premise will constitute as illegal business and can be prosecuted.
Their license can be cancelled.
As for those accidental customers who patronised the club without knowing the activities can report to the police, suggested Miss Lee.
If they felt that they are being harassed or forced to join into the gay sexual activities, they can complained against them and let the police investigated into the matter.
Since 9 July when our series of articles The Secrets of the Glass Circle was published; revealing the dark sides of the gay scene here, we have received many calls from our hotlines condemning such wild and illegal activities and places.
Our reporters after receiving such information and conducted a thorough investigation had found out the increase in the opening of new saunas is actually to provide a place of convenience for gays.
Many readers felt that it is disgusting and urged to take action against such activities.
One reader responded saying that it seem that homosexuals are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex altogether. If the police do not take action now this will degrade our social morality.
End.
that is the last straw. i am so going to call up lianhe wanbao after this, and berate them and i'm so going to fucking call up all their so called 'counsellors' and screw them up properly so they bloody hell know that
NO!1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
NO!2. Influence of friends who are gay.
NO!3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
NO!4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
NO!5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
NO!6. Following fashion and trend.
NO!7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
NO!8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
fucking hell i was gay in pri 4!!!!!
NO!1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
NO!2. Influence of friends who are gay.
NO!3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
NO!4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
NO!5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
NO!6. Following fashion and trend.
NO!7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
NO!8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
fucking hell i was gay in pri 4!!!!!
i'll have u know that i m damn FUCKING PISSED!!!!!!!
translated:
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 1
Lianhe Wanbao 9 July 2004 Friday
CRAMPED IN A DARK ROOM OF A SAUNA GYM
50 MUSCULAR HUNKS PARTICIPATED IN MASS ORGY.
Forward
The relationship between the same sex is forever a controversial topic. Some feel that we should go with time and accept them while others cannot betray their conventional values and accept such same sex relationship.
Regardless of whether you can accept or not, it is unlawful for gays to expose, kiss, have intimate contact and indecent behaviour in public.
However many gays are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex in public parks, sea side, and even cemetery.
Our reporter have received information that these gays are shifting their playground recently.
After some investigation, we had found that some gyms and saunas in town are providing sex on demand convenience for men to men only.
Our reporter will be exposing such dark sides in the coming series of articles. And we will be inviting experts and readers to share their views.
End of Forward.
50 muscular hunks are cramping in a room to have mass orgy.
Downtown a men only gym and sauna is opening 24 hours, there are about 8000 membership. Informed sources said that the men are coming here on the pretext of gymning, sauna and de-stress but in actual fact is to have sex with other men.
A 40 over business man with many years of experience know as John revealed to us that the sauna is using different theme each night to attract customers. Their ages is between 18 to 60 years old.
Some are young gorgeous NS boys, others are retired personnel and all sort of people came here.
According to John there is a Jacuzzi with about 10 rooms inside.
Our reporter ask what is the rooms used for?
Used for doing that thing (ie man and man doing that thing)
One or many doing?
No limits as long as you like you can have 30 to 50 people inside having orgy.
We have all races participating in the orgy. When the light is off everyone rush into the room and it does not matter who is who in the pitch darkness.
Our reporter visited the place and found that the facade of the shop house is new and painted white obviously having gone through renovation.
The sauna is in a corner with a rainbow flag hanging outside. Behind is the entrance with two sides one for members, the other for non-members.
The business is best on weekends and every Wednesday when entry is free, attracting many locals and overseas visitors.
To John $12 entrance is a bit expensive. I know some only charged $8.
The place is in business since two years ago. The facilities included a gym, sauna, steam room, bar counter, sun tan deck, rest rooms, internet access, video room, dance room and a canteen.
This disguised sauna is offering different themes each night to attract different gays to come for fun.
The theme nights include Malay night on every Tuesday, chubs night on Friday and Indian night on Saturday.
For example on every Tuesday Malay night, Malays paid only $6 for single entry while others paid $12.
The place also conducts a foam party every Friday till the next morning.
The place also catered to the older gays. One of the room had a small opening to let these older gays who cannot find a match to watch others having fun inside the room.
According to sources, there is a big dark room inside with air-con. Once a gay had his prey will go into the dark room to have immoral activities including oral sex, anal intercourse and even mass orgy etc.
There is a 10 by 1 inches opening on the door to let the older gays to peep and satisfied themselves at the same time.
The place in keeping with time have it own web site to inform their customers. Our reporter did a search on the internet and found that the sauna had dare to put up its own web site. The web site is very informative, probably to attract foreign visitors and local gays.
The web site details all the facilities, special promotions, theme nights and entrance charges. There are nude pictures of men and men kissing men on the web site. Very daring.
Local psychiatrist said that gays having mass orgy is harmful and can transmit sexual diseases. POLICE SHOULD RAID SUCH PLACES.
A famous local psychiatrist revealed to our reporter that although Singapore is an open society but men to men sex is unnatural and against the law.
Such places in disguise are providing place of convenience for mass orgy is harmful to the body and mind.
The psychiatrist said that when everyone is high, taking drugs and alcohol will harm the body.
Gays in protecting their real identities, sexual inclination had given the operators opportunity to learn the pink dollars when they shifted their activities indoor.
Operators had found good profits in this business and while the authority are still not taking any action yet, the opening of such places had increased.
The police should take action to stop such sexual activities before they become a trend and run out of control.
End.
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The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 2
Lianhe Wanbao 10 July 2004 Saturday
¨Downtown another gay club organised a full moon
nude orgy monthly. Gays from overseas flied in to join
the party.〃
Downtown a premier club is holding a nudist party on every full moon of the month. All men are to be in nude and it had attracted overseas gays to fly in to attend the party.
In this issue we are exposing another dark side of the gay saunas in Singapore. This is a club for over 18. We understand that this club is holding different theme nights and the most popular is the full moon party. This party is well received by both the local and overseas gays. Gays from Asia will fly in every month for this full moon party.
The most despising thing about this party is that all members had to removed their clothing and not even towels are allowed.
When interviewed outside the club, 27 years old Chris admitted that he is gay and he came to this club after work to de-stress himself. He is a designer.
Normally Chris came alone and look for suitable candidates but he does not insist.
Another skin head revealed that although he is gay but he had not much interest in gay sauna activities. The reason he is here is because of friends and he only spent an hour here. He preferred to find partners on the internet.
When asked whether any straights come to this club? His reply was hardly any, most of them here are gays.
We understand that the members here are mainly youngsters and many are still in the NS.
Over the two hours of observation our reporter had found out that the customers going in and out are mainly in their 20s wearing T-shirts and jeans. Our reporter had also spotted a few ang mos.
Some are lone ranger while others come in groups to seek for fun.
This club situated in the south of the town is very strict in the entry of customers and the attendants are very careful.
There are many doors and one leads to another and only when you had paid up the fees can you gain access inside.
Our reporter had tried to gain entry as foreigner but was rejected.
Our reporter first enquired about the charges and facilities and asked whether there is any special services provided. The counter staff insisted on our reporter to fill up a form and paid up the $10 membership fee before allowing in.
The counter staff had also asked our reporter for his IC and visa.
Our reporter requested for a preview before joining and was rejected by the guy who worn a ear ring at the counter.
On further enquiry the staff explained that this is a man only club and there are no ladies around. Repeated attempts to view the club facilities was rejected.
Do parents know that their children are visiting sex clubs?
According to a local senior counsellor she had some cases when parents seek help from them.
¨I have come across some parents who cannot accept their sons are gay and they are very worried and helpless as if this is the end of the world.〃
According to her years of experience in counselling the reasons for turning gay are:
1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
2. Influence of friends who are gay.
3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
6. Following fashion and trend.
7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
She had tried to understand their background and experience before giving the right counselling.
End.
translated:
The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 1
Lianhe Wanbao 9 July 2004 Friday
CRAMPED IN A DARK ROOM OF A SAUNA GYM
50 MUSCULAR HUNKS PARTICIPATED IN MASS ORGY.
Forward
The relationship between the same sex is forever a controversial topic. Some feel that we should go with time and accept them while others cannot betray their conventional values and accept such same sex relationship.
Regardless of whether you can accept or not, it is unlawful for gays to expose, kiss, have intimate contact and indecent behaviour in public.
However many gays are disregarding the law and having unnatural sex in public parks, sea side, and even cemetery.
Our reporter have received information that these gays are shifting their playground recently.
After some investigation, we had found that some gyms and saunas in town are providing sex on demand convenience for men to men only.
Our reporter will be exposing such dark sides in the coming series of articles. And we will be inviting experts and readers to share their views.
End of Forward.
50 muscular hunks are cramping in a room to have mass orgy.
Downtown a men only gym and sauna is opening 24 hours, there are about 8000 membership. Informed sources said that the men are coming here on the pretext of gymning, sauna and de-stress but in actual fact is to have sex with other men.
A 40 over business man with many years of experience know as John revealed to us that the sauna is using different theme each night to attract customers. Their ages is between 18 to 60 years old.
Some are young gorgeous NS boys, others are retired personnel and all sort of people came here.
According to John there is a Jacuzzi with about 10 rooms inside.
Our reporter ask what is the rooms used for?
Used for doing that thing (ie man and man doing that thing)
One or many doing?
No limits as long as you like you can have 30 to 50 people inside having orgy.
We have all races participating in the orgy. When the light is off everyone rush into the room and it does not matter who is who in the pitch darkness.
Our reporter visited the place and found that the facade of the shop house is new and painted white obviously having gone through renovation.
The sauna is in a corner with a rainbow flag hanging outside. Behind is the entrance with two sides one for members, the other for non-members.
The business is best on weekends and every Wednesday when entry is free, attracting many locals and overseas visitors.
To John $12 entrance is a bit expensive. I know some only charged $8.
The place is in business since two years ago. The facilities included a gym, sauna, steam room, bar counter, sun tan deck, rest rooms, internet access, video room, dance room and a canteen.
This disguised sauna is offering different themes each night to attract different gays to come for fun.
The theme nights include Malay night on every Tuesday, chubs night on Friday and Indian night on Saturday.
For example on every Tuesday Malay night, Malays paid only $6 for single entry while others paid $12.
The place also conducts a foam party every Friday till the next morning.
The place also catered to the older gays. One of the room had a small opening to let these older gays who cannot find a match to watch others having fun inside the room.
According to sources, there is a big dark room inside with air-con. Once a gay had his prey will go into the dark room to have immoral activities including oral sex, anal intercourse and even mass orgy etc.
There is a 10 by 1 inches opening on the door to let the older gays to peep and satisfied themselves at the same time.
The place in keeping with time have it own web site to inform their customers. Our reporter did a search on the internet and found that the sauna had dare to put up its own web site. The web site is very informative, probably to attract foreign visitors and local gays.
The web site details all the facilities, special promotions, theme nights and entrance charges. There are nude pictures of men and men kissing men on the web site. Very daring.
Local psychiatrist said that gays having mass orgy is harmful and can transmit sexual diseases. POLICE SHOULD RAID SUCH PLACES.
A famous local psychiatrist revealed to our reporter that although Singapore is an open society but men to men sex is unnatural and against the law.
Such places in disguise are providing place of convenience for mass orgy is harmful to the body and mind.
The psychiatrist said that when everyone is high, taking drugs and alcohol will harm the body.
Gays in protecting their real identities, sexual inclination had given the operators opportunity to learn the pink dollars when they shifted their activities indoor.
Operators had found good profits in this business and while the authority are still not taking any action yet, the opening of such places had increased.
The police should take action to stop such sexual activities before they become a trend and run out of control.
End.
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The Secrets of The Glass Circle
Part 2
Lianhe Wanbao 10 July 2004 Saturday
¨Downtown another gay club organised a full moon
nude orgy monthly. Gays from overseas flied in to join
the party.〃
Downtown a premier club is holding a nudist party on every full moon of the month. All men are to be in nude and it had attracted overseas gays to fly in to attend the party.
In this issue we are exposing another dark side of the gay saunas in Singapore. This is a club for over 18. We understand that this club is holding different theme nights and the most popular is the full moon party. This party is well received by both the local and overseas gays. Gays from Asia will fly in every month for this full moon party.
The most despising thing about this party is that all members had to removed their clothing and not even towels are allowed.
When interviewed outside the club, 27 years old Chris admitted that he is gay and he came to this club after work to de-stress himself. He is a designer.
Normally Chris came alone and look for suitable candidates but he does not insist.
Another skin head revealed that although he is gay but he had not much interest in gay sauna activities. The reason he is here is because of friends and he only spent an hour here. He preferred to find partners on the internet.
When asked whether any straights come to this club? His reply was hardly any, most of them here are gays.
We understand that the members here are mainly youngsters and many are still in the NS.
Over the two hours of observation our reporter had found out that the customers going in and out are mainly in their 20s wearing T-shirts and jeans. Our reporter had also spotted a few ang mos.
Some are lone ranger while others come in groups to seek for fun.
This club situated in the south of the town is very strict in the entry of customers and the attendants are very careful.
There are many doors and one leads to another and only when you had paid up the fees can you gain access inside.
Our reporter had tried to gain entry as foreigner but was rejected.
Our reporter first enquired about the charges and facilities and asked whether there is any special services provided. The counter staff insisted on our reporter to fill up a form and paid up the $10 membership fee before allowing in.
The counter staff had also asked our reporter for his IC and visa.
Our reporter requested for a preview before joining and was rejected by the guy who worn a ear ring at the counter.
On further enquiry the staff explained that this is a man only club and there are no ladies around. Repeated attempts to view the club facilities was rejected.
Do parents know that their children are visiting sex clubs?
According to a local senior counsellor she had some cases when parents seek help from them.
¨I have come across some parents who cannot accept their sons are gay and they are very worried and helpless as if this is the end of the world.〃
According to her years of experience in counselling the reasons for turning gay are:
1. Family structure like single parent family and son will look upon men as model.
2. Influence of friends who are gay.
3. Transsexual having both male and female organs.
4. Intentionally modelling of gay lifestyle by some.
5. Vocational environment causes some to turn gay.
6. Following fashion and trend.
7. Have been raped before and turn bisexual.
8. Have been degraded and insulted by opposite sex.
She had tried to understand their background and experience before giving the right counselling.
End.
Jun 22, 2004
Jun 21, 2004
having just watch extreme makeover, i feel inadequate. i think i'm need on an extreme makeover too. i want nicer hair! better skin (on its way now much thanks to dr loke) and i need a pectoral implants, a lot of workout and some magical muscles all over my body. then i would be drop dead gorgeous and i can proudly wear that shirt. before that i am just me. sigh. hahahah
people people i have amazing news! yesyes i passed my driving test! yay! i am so happy finally. 6 demerit points. but a pity it wasn't a first time pass. but still i've got my license nonetheless. so anybody wants me to drive them around yet? just hand me a car and i would be pleased to serve you (nahz).
well well i was reading through some old messages between me and him, specifically those a few days ago, and well, i thought i was really being unreasonable and ridiculous. sigh i mean of course i have my reasons for kicking up a big fuss, but on hind sight, i don't think they were valid reasons. oh well, gotta have a stronger mind than the heart. most of you guys should have known this by now, my heart rules my mind. sad sadz
anyway alanna, yesyes i do want to go and see P & G, but guess you caught it before me, wanna accompany me there again? i saw the reviews today and they seem great!!! hahah, yes the models too, like jiro, who's so droolsomely (ok i know this word doesn't exist but...) cute!!!!!! wonders whether will i ever get to be a coverboy... hrmmm
well well i was reading through some old messages between me and him, specifically those a few days ago, and well, i thought i was really being unreasonable and ridiculous. sigh i mean of course i have my reasons for kicking up a big fuss, but on hind sight, i don't think they were valid reasons. oh well, gotta have a stronger mind than the heart. most of you guys should have known this by now, my heart rules my mind. sad sadz
anyway alanna, yesyes i do want to go and see P & G, but guess you caught it before me, wanna accompany me there again? i saw the reviews today and they seem great!!! hahah, yes the models too, like jiro, who's so droolsomely (ok i know this word doesn't exist but...) cute!!!!!! wonders whether will i ever get to be a coverboy... hrmmm
Jun 20, 2004
i hate vicious cycles. because it is just so darn hard to break out of it. one thing leads to another, and that would affect something which would make things worse. wouldn't it be wonderful if everything could be in balance. i don't want to talk too much about it, i have not much energy to, but things are ok, don't worry. i think i am a terrible boyfriend sometimes. i don't know why but sometimes i just behave the way that i do. even though i know what is the correct way to do things, i just can't seem to convince myself. i am too pre-occupied with my own feelings, my own selfish feelings. i suck, i am a lousy boyfriend =( sigh.
Jun 19, 2004
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Jun 17, 2004
people look wot i've got.yesyes my new visa mini.haha alex got his too =) its sooo cute isn't it? but i really do think it is too small, quite easy to lose it. but wth, it looks too good and stylish and the perks are just amazing. so we got it. and guys guys i would ORDing 2 months earlier. ohmygod. isn't that like the best news in the world. i absolutely hate the SAF yes for those who intend to sign on DON'T there's is nothing nice at all. people sign on because they can do a single thing anywhere else. don't listen to all the crap they give you. really really. i just want to go start my own business and spend my time with him.... and not serving some country that doesn't even appreciate me. or accept that gays do exist and it ain't a crime!!!!!
Jun 15, 2004
Jun 13, 2004
well well, weekends are just so wierd without him. he had a busy time yesterday because of some dinner thingy, and today's plan had to be ditched last minute cos one of his close friends decided to hold a birthday celebration today. oh well. colin noted that most of my blog is about my love life, well how true. in fact i think i've mentioned this some time before. well he's a big part of my life, and there's nothing interesting anyway. there's only so much i can talk about bush before it gets really really boring. and my camp life, well no life to talk about.
i just realise that, ok maybe not just, but its something i have been thinking about. i can click well with most people, on the surface at least, but there's where it ends. as in, i find it absolutely impossible to get close to somebody without telling that person i am gay. i find it exceedingly hard to lie. so that explains my camp life and my school life. i can only get so close to people who don't know about my sexuality. so in camp, i am the sorta 'loner' not exactly cos i do hang around a couple of guys. and well, they are the more 'intellectual' sorts as in not nerds but people who would give an intelligent reply when we talk about a certain senior minister of a country south of malaysia and the peanuts farmer turned president guy. well get what i mean?
i am not advocating that the world should come out of the closet. but for me, i find it hard to stay in to people i am close to.
anyway i got him a mogu and quiksilver slippers for the 4th month. hahaha you should have seen his face when he saw the mogu, ahhhh so absolutely cute! *faints*
alanna: you ok? worried for you take care k....
i just realise that, ok maybe not just, but its something i have been thinking about. i can click well with most people, on the surface at least, but there's where it ends. as in, i find it absolutely impossible to get close to somebody without telling that person i am gay. i find it exceedingly hard to lie. so that explains my camp life and my school life. i can only get so close to people who don't know about my sexuality. so in camp, i am the sorta 'loner' not exactly cos i do hang around a couple of guys. and well, they are the more 'intellectual' sorts as in not nerds but people who would give an intelligent reply when we talk about a certain senior minister of a country south of malaysia and the peanuts farmer turned president guy. well get what i mean?
i am not advocating that the world should come out of the closet. but for me, i find it hard to stay in to people i am close to.
anyway i got him a mogu and quiksilver slippers for the 4th month. hahaha you should have seen his face when he saw the mogu, ahhhh so absolutely cute! *faints*
alanna: you ok? worried for you take care k....
Jun 8, 2004
hey guys, its been a while, not that long aei? well i am as red as a tomato now! all thanks to a certain red eye boy! (haha go figure) went to sentosa for a relaxing monday. just sat around, getting baked in the lovely sun, swam from one island to the other. hehe, then came bk, went shopping. i absolute love FCUK. its so vulgar. and definitely indiscreet. but its just so cool. FCUK OFF, i mean like WOW. and yep they look great too! someone wanted to buy 'turn me on' t-shirt. but oh well, yours truly bank account has fallen to 2 digits, and i don't mean 99.99, about half of that actually. i am serious. somebody eats alot! hahah okok i am only joking. how is everybody doing?
oh yes for those who are wondering, i took leave from vesak day till today to rest and relax! yes i did, but back to work tomorrow, and guess what i have IPPT, disgusting.
oh yes for those who are wondering, i took leave from vesak day till today to rest and relax! yes i did, but back to work tomorrow, and guess what i have IPPT, disgusting.
Jun 4, 2004
ms nyoe was complaining that i don't blog often enough for her to live my life vicariously. so here i am again. just came back from the pc, with some harmless flirting with the sales person, i manage to secure a few deals there just so i get an incredible bargain. weilun better appreciate my 'uhem' help for the powerbook and all. and yes yes its time for me to grab a new digicam and a new pc and a few mac stuff or 2 with much assistance from kind albeit a bit gay salesman. hahaha, ooops wonders if longz jealous. haha well well.
but anyway, the mac is making me weak in the knees everytime something comes out. another of my friend got a mac. that makes 4 of us in camp. which is a rather good number =) and we all know how convenient and useful the mac is, what else can i say. you've gotta use it to know how much there is to it.
i have typed this before, but since my dearest paul wrote it in his blog, i thought i would steal from him (again? yes, well i am too lazy to type something long, especially when i am missing somebody so darn much)
it's somewhat outdated in terms of doctrines. perhaps worst of all, and i suppose this isn't only true of catholicism, it is blind to the complexity of moral decisions that we, as individuals, have to make each day. by selecting an extremely narrow band of what is "good" or what will gain you "salvation" i think it alienates a lot of truly rational and thinking people. i don't think it's irrational to believe in an otherworldly entity such as God, but i think it's somewhat irrational to think that wealth is bad, that we're always sinning, that there's only one possible God, that the Bible - written by man - cannot have been corrupted, or that religion has, and continues, to be used for political purposes or was spread by methods of oppression or cunning. and as jebro has put it so well, look at how the religious right in america (and everywhere) continue to oppose things like gay marriage. hate the sin, love the sinner? if religion is to survive, i think it needs to return to basic fundamental values like love and forget the constant value-judgments of others. we each live our lives differently - who's to say whose life serves God more?
but anyway, the mac is making me weak in the knees everytime something comes out. another of my friend got a mac. that makes 4 of us in camp. which is a rather good number =) and we all know how convenient and useful the mac is, what else can i say. you've gotta use it to know how much there is to it.
i have typed this before, but since my dearest paul wrote it in his blog, i thought i would steal from him (again? yes, well i am too lazy to type something long, especially when i am missing somebody so darn much)
it's somewhat outdated in terms of doctrines. perhaps worst of all, and i suppose this isn't only true of catholicism, it is blind to the complexity of moral decisions that we, as individuals, have to make each day. by selecting an extremely narrow band of what is "good" or what will gain you "salvation" i think it alienates a lot of truly rational and thinking people. i don't think it's irrational to believe in an otherworldly entity such as God, but i think it's somewhat irrational to think that wealth is bad, that we're always sinning, that there's only one possible God, that the Bible - written by man - cannot have been corrupted, or that religion has, and continues, to be used for political purposes or was spread by methods of oppression or cunning. and as jebro has put it so well, look at how the religious right in america (and everywhere) continue to oppose things like gay marriage. hate the sin, love the sinner? if religion is to survive, i think it needs to return to basic fundamental values like love and forget the constant value-judgments of others. we each live our lives differently - who's to say whose life serves God more?
Jun 3, 2004
hey peeps. its been awhile, sorry. well lets see, no spectacular event, except for something that happened last night which i must so tell everybody about it in awhile. but first, some social blogging. hello to alanna who is on her way back (did you bring back any jap guys for me and my boy to share =p) and mark's alive (yes rather shocking actually, i really thought that staff went up his a** and *blogger staff* would have quite alot to answer to. hahaha.
i am feeling so lovelorn again. yes again. whywhywhy? don't everybody just hate national service. somebody said something very sweet about ording soon. hehehe =)
i am feeling so lovelorn again. yes again. whywhywhy? don't everybody just hate national service. somebody said something very sweet about ording soon. hehehe =)
May 27, 2004
this is going to be a bit mushy but bear with it ok? for those who don't wanna read, just you know click on any of my links, that includes the ipod mini, i would love to receive it in metallic blue, thank you all =)
it was a rather tough week, but we survived it. and things are so sweet now i don't think anything can begin to describe how happy i am now. for all those who are feeling disillusioned and down, don't worry, everything can be resolved. it takes time and a lot of thinking to find out what is the root of any problem, and openly and honestly talk about it. very importantly, is to talk about things that matter, what can be done and needs to be done. and finally, after all that talking, remember to stop talking and start doing.
dear i am glad we got all those things aside. brighter days ahead!
it was a rather tough week, but we survived it. and things are so sweet now i don't think anything can begin to describe how happy i am now. for all those who are feeling disillusioned and down, don't worry, everything can be resolved. it takes time and a lot of thinking to find out what is the root of any problem, and openly and honestly talk about it. very importantly, is to talk about things that matter, what can be done and needs to be done. and finally, after all that talking, remember to stop talking and start doing.
dear i am glad we got all those things aside. brighter days ahead!
May 23, 2004
May 13, 2004
May 6, 2004
haha, le fran?ais de poteau, ce ne pourrait pas ?tre pr?cis mais
ours avec lui.
soupir parfois que je me demande sait-il je me sens ? je veux dire je
sais qu'il m'aime tout ? fait un bit juste, les choses qu'il , ses
actions, mais il ne puisse pas obtenir des somethings parfois. je sais
que je suis un bit ?go?ste parfois, mais l'amour est ?go?ste,
droit ? par exemple, il le redoute vraiment quand je vais ? son
endroit ; il n'y aurait aucun probl?me quand son en retard ? la nuit
et ? personne autour, mais si quelqu'un est autour, il mourrait
plut?t que pour m'apporter ? son endroit. j'essaye de comprendre
est-ce que mais je ne le re?ois pas ce qui est erron? avec ?tre vu
avec moi ? ainsi ce qui est les parents suspecteraient. il pense trop
; 'l'extr?mit? mindset de monde '.
parfois je me demande s'il m'apporte la maison seulement pour la
fabrication d'amour. j'appr?cie le sexe avec lui certainement, l?
tellement se sent et ?motion, mais il n'y a pas d?sormais non apr?s
entretien de sexe. j'ai appris qu'il est fatigu?, mais de fa?on ou
d'autre je ne tiens toujours pas une priorit?. je lui ai parl? ?
son sujet que je me sens que beaucoup d'issues est en raison de
priorit?. j'ai appris que je peux exiger parfois, mais dans toute
l'honn?tet?, je ne vois pas ce qui est tellement mal au sujet de ma
demande s?rieusement.
d'o? est-ce que tout ceci ranting est venu ? nous allons ? la place
de notre ami au sleepover ce soir de sorte qu'il soit plus commode
d'attraper notre vol demain. ainsi j'ai pens? ? l'arr?t par son
endroit et l'aide ? faire du dernier emballage minutieux avant que
nous rencontrions notre ami mais il a mis? un rond entier juste pour
dire qu'il ne me veut pas vraiment autour de la maison, cela qu'il
vaudrait mieux d'attendre le stanley en bas de son endroit, de sorte
que sa famille n'ait pas besoin de me voir du tout.
je sais pourquoi mais je ne vois pas pourquoi non cher, j'aime trop,
que je pense trop parfois soupir
ours avec lui.
soupir parfois que je me demande sait-il je me sens ? je veux dire je
sais qu'il m'aime tout ? fait un bit juste, les choses qu'il , ses
actions, mais il ne puisse pas obtenir des somethings parfois. je sais
que je suis un bit ?go?ste parfois, mais l'amour est ?go?ste,
droit ? par exemple, il le redoute vraiment quand je vais ? son
endroit ; il n'y aurait aucun probl?me quand son en retard ? la nuit
et ? personne autour, mais si quelqu'un est autour, il mourrait
plut?t que pour m'apporter ? son endroit. j'essaye de comprendre
est-ce que mais je ne le re?ois pas ce qui est erron? avec ?tre vu
avec moi ? ainsi ce qui est les parents suspecteraient. il pense trop
; 'l'extr?mit? mindset de monde '.
parfois je me demande s'il m'apporte la maison seulement pour la
fabrication d'amour. j'appr?cie le sexe avec lui certainement, l?
tellement se sent et ?motion, mais il n'y a pas d?sormais non apr?s
entretien de sexe. j'ai appris qu'il est fatigu?, mais de fa?on ou
d'autre je ne tiens toujours pas une priorit?. je lui ai parl? ?
son sujet que je me sens que beaucoup d'issues est en raison de
priorit?. j'ai appris que je peux exiger parfois, mais dans toute
l'honn?tet?, je ne vois pas ce qui est tellement mal au sujet de ma
demande s?rieusement.
d'o? est-ce que tout ceci ranting est venu ? nous allons ? la place
de notre ami au sleepover ce soir de sorte qu'il soit plus commode
d'attraper notre vol demain. ainsi j'ai pens? ? l'arr?t par son
endroit et l'aide ? faire du dernier emballage minutieux avant que
nous rencontrions notre ami mais il a mis? un rond entier juste pour
dire qu'il ne me veut pas vraiment autour de la maison, cela qu'il
vaudrait mieux d'attendre le stanley en bas de son endroit, de sorte
que sa famille n'ait pas besoin de me voir du tout.
je sais pourquoi mais je ne vois pas pourquoi non cher, j'aime trop,
que je pense trop parfois soupir
May 4, 2004
go read this taken from the straits times. its rather interesting
Just because there is no major crisis such as adultery or abuse doesn't mean that a relationship is a good one.
Very often, it is what my friend calls the 'stealth problems' that end up choking love.
'It's not like a heart attack that gets your attention right away, but a cancer that eats away at your body without you realising.
'That's where the danger lies, because you will brush aside the little aches and pains until it's too late, like when you get married, and things become unbearable with no way out.'
snippets of the article.
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just came back from a little nights out with him. went for an incredible food binging session, ate "ba chor mee", fried oysters, satay, and bbq chicken wing. yes between the 2 of us. hahaha, i am going to grow fat because of him.
the article above really sums up one i feel is the building block of a successful relationship, or as damien puts it, the denominator : communication. when there is any small problem, it cannot be brushed aside, nor swept under the carpet, because one day, it will find its way back during a major argument. one party will bring up something from the past. communication i feel is the most important; even though it might be uneasy or even tense up the relationship at that point in time, talking it out and discussing it openly and honestly will make both party see another view point and help to meet at a centre point. i admit that me and him are not exactly the best couple, we have communication problems now and then; but only because we are afraid what we say will hurt each other. and we are trying to move out of that mindset to that of saying what we feel using the correct words because we are trying every day to make it work.
it was a long ride home, and many things are on my mind. and i realised so many things that i didn't see in the past that some people warned me of. thanks guys, and i know this one is different, i am sure you all can see it and feel it too =) lets face it, gay relationships are difficult, but i am not one that quits especially in the fields of love, i am sure most you know that by now. even if it takes all of me, i will make it last.
Just because there is no major crisis such as adultery or abuse doesn't mean that a relationship is a good one.
Very often, it is what my friend calls the 'stealth problems' that end up choking love.
'It's not like a heart attack that gets your attention right away, but a cancer that eats away at your body without you realising.
'That's where the danger lies, because you will brush aside the little aches and pains until it's too late, like when you get married, and things become unbearable with no way out.'
snippets of the article.
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just came back from a little nights out with him. went for an incredible food binging session, ate "ba chor mee", fried oysters, satay, and bbq chicken wing. yes between the 2 of us. hahaha, i am going to grow fat because of him.
the article above really sums up one i feel is the building block of a successful relationship, or as damien puts it, the denominator : communication. when there is any small problem, it cannot be brushed aside, nor swept under the carpet, because one day, it will find its way back during a major argument. one party will bring up something from the past. communication i feel is the most important; even though it might be uneasy or even tense up the relationship at that point in time, talking it out and discussing it openly and honestly will make both party see another view point and help to meet at a centre point. i admit that me and him are not exactly the best couple, we have communication problems now and then; but only because we are afraid what we say will hurt each other. and we are trying to move out of that mindset to that of saying what we feel using the correct words because we are trying every day to make it work.
it was a long ride home, and many things are on my mind. and i realised so many things that i didn't see in the past that some people warned me of. thanks guys, and i know this one is different, i am sure you all can see it and feel it too =) lets face it, gay relationships are difficult, but i am not one that quits especially in the fields of love, i am sure most you know that by now. even if it takes all of me, i will make it last.
May 2, 2004
had a haircut and a great bitching session with my stylist. he was recounting to me all his escapades when he was in national service, how they made out in the bunk, the stores, the bathroom, with driver and i was like totally AMAZED. now where were all the cute guys when i was duty (oops) anyway it is really fun to have a gay stylist. he makes sure i look my best! haha. anyway then there was this shampoo girl who is REALLY DAMN VERY GOOD. she not only shampoos, but she massages my neck, my temples, providing just the right amount of pressure and all. i was smiling happily (i was quite embarrassed by my smiles actually). really a straight guy would have came on the spot. i am serious. she knows all the pressure points on the head and the neck. and she took the longest time to shampoo and till now i wished it didn't stop.
haha now i know how dear feels when he gets massaged =p
back to camp. boring
haha now i know how dear feels when he gets massaged =p
back to camp. boring
just came back from his place, had such a great time =)
anyway we caught 50 first dates, it was a good show, very very romantic, hilarious and your typical adam sandler show. definitely worth catching for a good 90min of laughter and walk out feeling in the mood for lurrveee. hahaha.
driving test in 2 weeks time. hope i pass first time. and oh yar, colin has joined the tp network. he'll be putting his site up soon, so wait up for some interesting stuff.
anyway we caught 50 first dates, it was a good show, very very romantic, hilarious and your typical adam sandler show. definitely worth catching for a good 90min of laughter and walk out feeling in the mood for lurrveee. hahaha.
driving test in 2 weeks time. hope i pass first time. and oh yar, colin has joined the tp network. he'll be putting his site up soon, so wait up for some interesting stuff.
Apr 28, 2004
he's been so incredibly sweet recently. his msg made me jump (really) with joy today. well nothing today, just ippt. every static station was gold, but my running, it was so disappointing i am not even going to begin to talk about it. gross. disgusting. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. boring life other than that.
missing him again. yesyes i would stop it if i could, trust me. oh yar, ed from auz emailed me today, and he said some really nice things, thanks dude. most things are true i think, 10 months while it is not short, it isn't that long, and i worry too much sometimes. haha. and he said my 1st 3 wishes on my wishlist, i already have them, so why i am wishing for it. muahahah
missing him again. yesyes i would stop it if i could, trust me. oh yar, ed from auz emailed me today, and he said some really nice things, thanks dude. most things are true i think, 10 months while it is not short, it isn't that long, and i worry too much sometimes. haha. and he said my 1st 3 wishes on my wishlist, i already have them, so why i am wishing for it. muahahah
okok, politics matter just as much as my dear. maybe just a bit less.
here
and the following taken from paul's site, in fact he might find it flattering i am quoting from him =)
in today's straits times, "For example, in 1980, SM Lee had to drop Dr Toh Chin Chye out of the new Cabinet because Mr Lee was concerned that several of the old-timers might rally around Dr Toh and slow down the pace of self-renewal."
sounds suspicious? i couldn't dig up too much on the internet except this - which is telling enough -
"Peter wrongly (how wrongly!) attributes Singapore's 'success' to Lee.
Nothing could be further from the truth. In the good old days, Lee had colleagues who stood as tall, if not taller than him, like ex-President Devan Nair (who braved jail by the British Colonial govt for his beliefs), Dr Toh Chin Chye, Dr Goh Keng Swee who single-handledly built the armed forces and masterminded the economic development of Singapore.
There are many other colleagues too, like Rajaratnam. Devan Nair even used the F-word to Lee in heated cabinet debates. Not like the present Yes Ministers who dare not even feedback to Lee for fear of losing their multimillion salaries."
taken from: http://www.singapore-window.org/sw00/000716le.htm
so - seems like someone was worried about being overshadowed.
go think about it. and one last time i miss him ALOT
here
and the following taken from paul's site, in fact he might find it flattering i am quoting from him =)
in today's straits times, "For example, in 1980, SM Lee had to drop Dr Toh Chin Chye out of the new Cabinet because Mr Lee was concerned that several of the old-timers might rally around Dr Toh and slow down the pace of self-renewal."
sounds suspicious? i couldn't dig up too much on the internet except this - which is telling enough -
"Peter wrongly (how wrongly!) attributes Singapore's 'success' to Lee.
Nothing could be further from the truth. In the good old days, Lee had colleagues who stood as tall, if not taller than him, like ex-President Devan Nair (who braved jail by the British Colonial govt for his beliefs), Dr Toh Chin Chye, Dr Goh Keng Swee who single-handledly built the armed forces and masterminded the economic development of Singapore.
There are many other colleagues too, like Rajaratnam. Devan Nair even used the F-word to Lee in heated cabinet debates. Not like the present Yes Ministers who dare not even feedback to Lee for fear of losing their multimillion salaries."
taken from: http://www.singapore-window.org/sw00/000716le.htm
so - seems like someone was worried about being overshadowed.
go think about it. and one last time i miss him ALOT
Apr 27, 2004
back to camp today. needed some adjustment to get use to a do nothing much whole day lifestyle. i realise its the perfect way to catch up on my reading. haha. i am so broke so broke, but i did something sensible. but for those kind enough to donate to "help scott fund" please you know how to contact me. for the early bird, we have a special lucky draw worth 500 000 dollars in cash and prizes. muahahaha
enough of that. i am missing someone particularly badly now. he's outfield now and he just said something that was so sweet. i really wished i had known him so much earlier. and if i could i would just pack him into my luggage and lug him to auz with me. i think it says alot when someone asks "what can i do to make you feel better" and not "why must you be like that". i am glad we resolved some issues. i just can't bear the thought of leaving.
we just sent off the previous course not too long ago. and it was quite an emotional scene. girlfriends were crying, mommies were on the brink of tears. well which is why i hope for a gigantic group to send me off, to aviod tears and all. while i doubt that i would cry bucketloads, i think i would actually tear quite abit. i am so gonna hug everybody, especially him, right before i enter the gate. *sobs* i can even tear thinking about it. sigh....
enough of that. i am missing someone particularly badly now. he's outfield now and he just said something that was so sweet. i really wished i had known him so much earlier. and if i could i would just pack him into my luggage and lug him to auz with me. i think it says alot when someone asks "what can i do to make you feel better" and not "why must you be like that". i am glad we resolved some issues. i just can't bear the thought of leaving.
we just sent off the previous course not too long ago. and it was quite an emotional scene. girlfriends were crying, mommies were on the brink of tears. well which is why i hope for a gigantic group to send me off, to aviod tears and all. while i doubt that i would cry bucketloads, i think i would actually tear quite abit. i am so gonna hug everybody, especially him, right before i enter the gate. *sobs* i can even tear thinking about it. sigh....
pple, i've got a new email add, if u need to mail me big attachment (cute guys yes that would be great thank you - hahaha) oops, think dear jealous le... you can send it to kiezin@gmail.com yes i can store 1000mb of email, you didn't read wrong 1000mb, but only available to a select few, ala me. muahahaha. anyway dear is going outfield tmr. gonna miss him lots.
Apr 26, 2004
just came back from the dentist, nope not another tooth extract (i am not that masochistic, not yet anyway - ooops) hahah. anyway i realised that clinics are always very very crowded on a monday morning and i realised why, who on earth would want to go to work, school, office and whatever on a monday morning. and it dawn upon me the easiest most relax way to earn money is to be a gp with your own clinic, be generous with mc and voila!
found a picture of a self-injurer wrist on the net, wondering if i should post it and educate the world more on self-injury.. hrmm alanna??
found a picture of a self-injurer wrist on the net, wondering if i should post it and educate the world more on self-injury.. hrmm alanna??
Apr 25, 2004
i m sorry dear. i love you too.
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was diggin through my old stuff and it is always amazing what one can find: photos of me when i was plump, kindergarten photos, files and of course the most important one, vcds my cousin burnt for me a yaer back. i watched it and guess what. it is the 1st 6 episodes of queer as folk. ohmygod. yesyesyes now i so must lay my hands on it. if anybody has it, please lend it to me. pretty pls.....
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how's this
and here's where it came from
made with pictures of serviceman and woman that died during the oh-so-noble occupation to set iraq 'free' of what i dunno. the war president ladies and gentlemen.
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was diggin through my old stuff and it is always amazing what one can find: photos of me when i was plump, kindergarten photos, files and of course the most important one, vcds my cousin burnt for me a yaer back. i watched it and guess what. it is the 1st 6 episodes of queer as folk. ohmygod. yesyesyes now i so must lay my hands on it. if anybody has it, please lend it to me. pretty pls.....
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how's this
and here's where it came from
made with pictures of serviceman and woman that died during the oh-so-noble occupation to set iraq 'free' of what i dunno. the war president ladies and gentlemen.
Apr 24, 2004
my mind's in a blank. i can't think of what to write but this. accept death, then can you accept life. "love each other or die" - w.h. auden. i know this is going to sound so wierd but i have to say it to all those who know me. given my profession, everybody must fully understand and accept the fact that i can die anytime. there's never the right time, but it can just happen. i have to come to terms that doing what i do, living is a bonus. and that there's nothing to be afraid of death. only when you know death, can you know life, and that every day is just as precious. that we should never leave anything to tomorrow, because there might never be a tomorrow. everybody knows this, read it all before; but how many fully comprehend and understand. my friend committed suicide, and there was so many things that his stead wanted to do for him, but never got the chance to, so many things his friends planned, so many things his parents wanted to do with him. but they never got the chance to. so why wait till that day come and regret. i've said this many times, and i would say it again. tell everybody everyday how much they mean to you. a person would never get sick of that. i tell my mom i love her every other day for goodness sake. because the next day, an accident might just happen and you would never ever get to say "i love you" again.
Apr 23, 2004
Apr 21, 2004
when i am eating ice cream for no good reason, you can be sure i am not feeling good. ice cream and chocolates have always been my other way of getting the heat off my head, before i do anything silly. its been awhile since i last did that. but ice cream and chocolates can't offer that angry outrage, that slow painful healing it induces. for those who know what i am talking about, don't worry, i am not about to do it. just a reflective post. but i have been eating ice cream, hagen daz ones that is, to ease my painful tooth extraction. not so painful. thanks for the concern guys!!!!
in my bitchiest response to an email sent by this christian in a desparate attempt to convert the world by telling us that pokemon is sent my devil and is the root of all evil and according to him 3 years back that that would be last year (partly due to pikachu and gang) and his best evidence was that in a pokemon contest, more than 50000 calls in a min to the radio station proved that the devil has taken over the world. i bring forth mr teh eng chuan's article
and my bitchiest response:
so you sincerely believe that man walked the earth the same time as dearest dino? and did the bible mentioned dino? i dun think but of course it could be jus one of those animals and dino happen to be a variation of an animal. now this would mean that you do not believe in cavemen too right? then how would u explain all those corpses of cavemen being found? and assuming if humans did walked the earth the same time as dearie dino.. den why wouldn't there be a single corpses dated back to the same time as the dino?? or maybe humans didn't exist the same time as dino...
"Surely God could not possibly have viewed the fossilized remains of billions upon billions of His creatures in the rocks of the earth�s crust as �very good� if such fossils really marked the end of His �creation� period." well darling.. god is suppose to be the most omnipotent... i am sure he can do that... and as your typing to other religion which has evolution in some part of it.. please do not try to expound you knowledge on other religion if u do not know.. buddhism is a teaching which teaches people about life.. it is a set of philosophy which teaches pple things like "you get what u give" and by understanding the teaching does one get enlightememt.. period.. no evolution.. and taoism is basically another different set of philosophy but the difference is taoist pray to different gods.. also known as polytheism.
"All the real facts of science support special creation� not evolution.".. what facts may i ask???
yes.. how life started is still a mystery and perhaps maybe there is a superior entity that created life cos the idea that life came from a single cell is just so improbable... still does that entirely disprove evolution.. why the whole fuss about disproving evolution.. is it because it shakes your ground? are you feeling insecure?? everything is made of the same elements my dear.. there are only 104 ++ elements on this earth.. even this computer i am typing now is made of carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen and so on.. and as for souls.. can u prove the existence of souls.. if u are asking for a prove of evolution.. so let's assume that soul does exist.. because u prob would tell me that soul exist.. have u saw ur soul?? so if something which u cannot prove, u can safely assume it exist why can't u accept the theory of evolution?? yep there might be a creator.. a maybe.. if we follow desecrates chain of thought.. a perfect entity must exist.. but are u also having jus blind faith and sheer believe in something which is also not proven...
"There is no evidence whatever that such limited horizontal changes ever become the unlimited vertical changes required for real evolution to take place. �Microevolu�tion,� as some call this type of change, has no demonstrated connection with �macroevolution,� at least as far as any actual physical evidence goes. " dear this is precisely what i am trying to say... there is no evidence whatsoever.. so it can mean it can exist or it cannot.. cos u have not conclusively showed any evidence to disprove... jus because it can't be proven does not mean it does not exist... can u have any physical prove of god? does it mean god does not exist?? this is a question we as humans would not know....
your whole argument here is based on the fact that there is no real evidence and i say it back to u that u have no real evidence.. to understand evolution, u urself would have to know evolution, you claim that evolutionist have generally admited. and genectist have generally agreed.. are you so sure darling?? and for you info. evolutions implies an evolution and not changing for the better.. it is more of adapting to the environment... and using your example of the half-reptile half-bird.. let us assume that it was really a transistional creature.. of course it must have fully developed features that changes with time.. duhZ!!! such fully developed would have mean that it changed slowly and perhaps after this creature.. note the word perhaps.. there might be one with say smaller legs??
"Only a few bone fragments have been found that have been imaginatively construed as some sort of lower species of man. This is a strange situation in view of the multiplied millions of �ape-men� that must have lived and died during the hypotheti�cal million-year transition from the first apelike ancestor to man." dearest... the whole corpse have been found.. the WHOLE skeleton have also been found.. in case u didn't know, it has been found in africa 3 years ago.. at at ht of 4ft+ they code named it jane.. pls do research.. it is quite embarrassing to read wrong stuff... "The few fossils offered as evidence by paleoanthropologists have mostly been discredited by evolutionary anthropologists themselves." ermm right.. which fossils have been discredited by who.. dear.. concrete evidence!!! those are isolated examples that u have quoted
and finally darling honeycups why do u keep insisting that the evolution have proved to be harmful.. don't jus say it.. show it and prove it... such like i have mention u.. evolution has never ever stated that it mus be good.. it jus has to be done to allow it to better survive the condition... so even if like u said time and again... it is deteorating... relative to the environment.. perhaps jus perhaps it might improve.. it may suddenly dawn upon u that dinosaurs prob won't survive very well now.. maybe lizards may survive better in this condition..
and finally to conclude... you have showed no conclusive evidence and have only quoted isolated examples from an insignificant minority. ur case has also been lacking in conclusive content and most of all by mere presumption.. not to say the least a clear distinct showin of ur insercurity.. what is damn bloody wrong with the theory of evolution that have to make come up with this thesis.. if u can't conclusive disprove it... pls dun attempt.. it is a real embarrassment.. and to end of the same way as u did.. lets think together.. no one has ever seen god, no one knows how god works, there is no physical evidence like u love to put it.. so does it mean god does not exist? u should learn to consider ur own stand first.. before presenting such a flawed argument..
p/s: in case u are wondering.. i am an agnostic...
lotsa love...
and my bitchiest response:
so you sincerely believe that man walked the earth the same time as dearest dino? and did the bible mentioned dino? i dun think but of course it could be jus one of those animals and dino happen to be a variation of an animal. now this would mean that you do not believe in cavemen too right? then how would u explain all those corpses of cavemen being found? and assuming if humans did walked the earth the same time as dearie dino.. den why wouldn't there be a single corpses dated back to the same time as the dino?? or maybe humans didn't exist the same time as dino...
"Surely God could not possibly have viewed the fossilized remains of billions upon billions of His creatures in the rocks of the earth�s crust as �very good� if such fossils really marked the end of His �creation� period." well darling.. god is suppose to be the most omnipotent... i am sure he can do that... and as your typing to other religion which has evolution in some part of it.. please do not try to expound you knowledge on other religion if u do not know.. buddhism is a teaching which teaches people about life.. it is a set of philosophy which teaches pple things like "you get what u give" and by understanding the teaching does one get enlightememt.. period.. no evolution.. and taoism is basically another different set of philosophy but the difference is taoist pray to different gods.. also known as polytheism.
"All the real facts of science support special creation� not evolution.".. what facts may i ask???
yes.. how life started is still a mystery and perhaps maybe there is a superior entity that created life cos the idea that life came from a single cell is just so improbable... still does that entirely disprove evolution.. why the whole fuss about disproving evolution.. is it because it shakes your ground? are you feeling insecure?? everything is made of the same elements my dear.. there are only 104 ++ elements on this earth.. even this computer i am typing now is made of carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen and so on.. and as for souls.. can u prove the existence of souls.. if u are asking for a prove of evolution.. so let's assume that soul does exist.. because u prob would tell me that soul exist.. have u saw ur soul?? so if something which u cannot prove, u can safely assume it exist why can't u accept the theory of evolution?? yep there might be a creator.. a maybe.. if we follow desecrates chain of thought.. a perfect entity must exist.. but are u also having jus blind faith and sheer believe in something which is also not proven...
"There is no evidence whatever that such limited horizontal changes ever become the unlimited vertical changes required for real evolution to take place. �Microevolu�tion,� as some call this type of change, has no demonstrated connection with �macroevolution,� at least as far as any actual physical evidence goes. " dear this is precisely what i am trying to say... there is no evidence whatsoever.. so it can mean it can exist or it cannot.. cos u have not conclusively showed any evidence to disprove... jus because it can't be proven does not mean it does not exist... can u have any physical prove of god? does it mean god does not exist?? this is a question we as humans would not know....
your whole argument here is based on the fact that there is no real evidence and i say it back to u that u have no real evidence.. to understand evolution, u urself would have to know evolution, you claim that evolutionist have generally admited. and genectist have generally agreed.. are you so sure darling?? and for you info. evolutions implies an evolution and not changing for the better.. it is more of adapting to the environment... and using your example of the half-reptile half-bird.. let us assume that it was really a transistional creature.. of course it must have fully developed features that changes with time.. duhZ!!! such fully developed would have mean that it changed slowly and perhaps after this creature.. note the word perhaps.. there might be one with say smaller legs??
"Only a few bone fragments have been found that have been imaginatively construed as some sort of lower species of man. This is a strange situation in view of the multiplied millions of �ape-men� that must have lived and died during the hypotheti�cal million-year transition from the first apelike ancestor to man." dearest... the whole corpse have been found.. the WHOLE skeleton have also been found.. in case u didn't know, it has been found in africa 3 years ago.. at at ht of 4ft+ they code named it jane.. pls do research.. it is quite embarrassing to read wrong stuff... "The few fossils offered as evidence by paleoanthropologists have mostly been discredited by evolutionary anthropologists themselves." ermm right.. which fossils have been discredited by who.. dear.. concrete evidence!!! those are isolated examples that u have quoted
and finally darling honeycups why do u keep insisting that the evolution have proved to be harmful.. don't jus say it.. show it and prove it... such like i have mention u.. evolution has never ever stated that it mus be good.. it jus has to be done to allow it to better survive the condition... so even if like u said time and again... it is deteorating... relative to the environment.. perhaps jus perhaps it might improve.. it may suddenly dawn upon u that dinosaurs prob won't survive very well now.. maybe lizards may survive better in this condition..
and finally to conclude... you have showed no conclusive evidence and have only quoted isolated examples from an insignificant minority. ur case has also been lacking in conclusive content and most of all by mere presumption.. not to say the least a clear distinct showin of ur insercurity.. what is damn bloody wrong with the theory of evolution that have to make come up with this thesis.. if u can't conclusive disprove it... pls dun attempt.. it is a real embarrassment.. and to end of the same way as u did.. lets think together.. no one has ever seen god, no one knows how god works, there is no physical evidence like u love to put it.. so does it mean god does not exist? u should learn to consider ur own stand first.. before presenting such a flawed argument..
p/s: in case u are wondering.. i am an agnostic...
lotsa love...
Apr 20, 2004
yes i am feeling better. thank you so much ah yee for that cyber hug. feels alot better! ate lunch, dinner and most importantly my painkillers and antibiotics. i know tomorrow morning will be the worse day of the week because i would have to survive the night without painkillers, till the next morning. but it might just turn out fine.
for the uninitiated, it is of absolute importance to have the wisdom tooth extracted early, if it is impacted and causing problems that is. if it is not impacted, then there wouldn't be much problem. so go for a check up! once every 6 months! why is it important? because an impacted teeth would trap food and cause decay and eventually it would hit the root and cause infection and expensive complications. at that point of time, you would still need to remove it anyway and by then, it would be more painful, and being older, the body doesn't recover as quickly. had i remove the right wisdom earlier, it would have been a less traumatising experience. but i didn't have the time with all the courses, i can't take mc. so i can only do it now. the decay is hitting the bone structure (dentist hopes it would grow back) and they had to dig out the root because it couldn't be extracted properly. also the teeth had to be drilled into 3 pieces because the decay and all.
and that stupid boy. called him to chat and he could only laugh away at how strange i sounded. then make me laugh some more. pain one lehz. hahaha. he's so adorable. yesyes i printed out one of our pictures and i am now thinking where to put it.. ahhh.....
for the uninitiated, it is of absolute importance to have the wisdom tooth extracted early, if it is impacted and causing problems that is. if it is not impacted, then there wouldn't be much problem. so go for a check up! once every 6 months! why is it important? because an impacted teeth would trap food and cause decay and eventually it would hit the root and cause infection and expensive complications. at that point of time, you would still need to remove it anyway and by then, it would be more painful, and being older, the body doesn't recover as quickly. had i remove the right wisdom earlier, it would have been a less traumatising experience. but i didn't have the time with all the courses, i can't take mc. so i can only do it now. the decay is hitting the bone structure (dentist hopes it would grow back) and they had to dig out the root because it couldn't be extracted properly. also the teeth had to be drilled into 3 pieces because the decay and all.
and that stupid boy. called him to chat and he could only laugh away at how strange i sounded. then make me laugh some more. pain one lehz. hahaha. he's so adorable. yesyes i printed out one of our pictures and i am now thinking where to put it.. ahhh.....
Apr 19, 2004
Apr 18, 2004
a friend of mine emailed me this and i thought he was just so right. hahah, dear this is for you
ben folds five - the luckiest
i don't get many things right the first time
in fact, i am told that a lot
now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
brought me here
and where was i before the day
that i first saw your lovely face?
now i see it everyday
and i know
that i am
i am
i am
the luckiest
what if i'd been born fifty years before you
in a house on a street where you lived?
maybe i'd be outside as you passed on your bike
would i know?
and in a white sea of eyes
i see one pair that i recognize
and i know
that i am
i am
i am
the luckiest
i love you more than i have ever found a way to say to you
next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
and one day passed away in his sleep
and his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
and passed away
i'm sorry, i know that's a strange way to tell you that i know we belong
that i know
that i am
i am
i am
the luckiest
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i was out with him yesterday, after my driving lessons. well went for dinner and walked around and went bowling (oops i type blowing right before that actually, honest slip, hehe) and it was just absolute fun. it was just so nice and so great. actually i have been spending a good amount of time with him and i am not complaining. its really really nice that he makes a point to come down and find me when he gets off early, of meet up somewhere convenient when both of us get (or is it gets? alanna....) nights off. and last night, he had to wake up early today, but he still came over last night and left in the dead of the night. i can't express my gratitude enough. and i think the song above does it better.
ben folds five - the luckiest
i don't get many things right the first time
in fact, i am told that a lot
now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
brought me here
and where was i before the day
that i first saw your lovely face?
now i see it everyday
and i know
that i am
i am
i am
the luckiest
what if i'd been born fifty years before you
in a house on a street where you lived?
maybe i'd be outside as you passed on your bike
would i know?
and in a white sea of eyes
i see one pair that i recognize
and i know
that i am
i am
i am
the luckiest
i love you more than i have ever found a way to say to you
next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
and one day passed away in his sleep
and his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
and passed away
i'm sorry, i know that's a strange way to tell you that i know we belong
that i know
that i am
i am
i am
the luckiest
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i was out with him yesterday, after my driving lessons. well went for dinner and walked around and went bowling (oops i type blowing right before that actually, honest slip, hehe) and it was just absolute fun. it was just so nice and so great. actually i have been spending a good amount of time with him and i am not complaining. its really really nice that he makes a point to come down and find me when he gets off early, of meet up somewhere convenient when both of us get (or is it gets? alanna....) nights off. and last night, he had to wake up early today, but he still came over last night and left in the dead of the night. i can't express my gratitude enough. and i think the song above does it better.
Apr 16, 2004
just came back from supper with him. ahhhh full of nice things which i would not bore the general public with. but well well. hahaha. love the suppers and the talks. this guy is so full of crap.
just took this test and guess what
A Scorpio is a great match for you. For one thing, you seem to really connect with the Scorpion's intensity and depth of feeling and to admire them for these qualities. You're also the kind who can be understanding about a Scorpio's tendency to overreact to things they perceive to be threats. After all, you're not going to let an occasional over-the-top moment to put a damper on your chances for romance. In fact, if you play your cards right, you and a Scorpio may find true love.
You can pick out potential Scorpio partners by their self-confident carriage when they walk into a room and by their intense gazes. Unlike people who may be more timid or remote, most Scopios aren't afraid of a little eye contact. At times, the Scorpion's stare can make it seem as if they can see into your very soul. More often than not, they are supremely assured and determined. If they take a fancy to you, you can bet you'll be persistently and aggressively pursued. Scorpios are known for being unfamiliar with the concept of quitting. If a Scorpio's head turns in your direction, you'll probably be flattered by their heated pursuit. You can appreciate someone with that kind of confidence and command. It's also nice not to have to play hard to get, because the Scorpion isn't all about the chase.
When a Scorpio decides what they want, they can be intent getting it. In fact, if the Scorpion feels an objective is in danger of being derailed, they can lash out quickly and strongly in effort to protect it. Scorpios are known for being exceedingly resourceful. So although they may not win the battle, this sign has every intention of winning the war. Strong and intent on their ideals, a Scorpio has a unique ability to focus on their purpose and see it through. You'll usually admire a Scorpio's convictions and support their ambitions. For you, it's probably a relief to find someone who knows what they want.
haha and i won't even begin to tell you what star sign he is. seriously, hrmmm. nothing, just abit elated, and yes alanna you are such a fag-hag, love ya sooo much. thanks for always being there.
just took this test and guess what
A Scorpio is a great match for you. For one thing, you seem to really connect with the Scorpion's intensity and depth of feeling and to admire them for these qualities. You're also the kind who can be understanding about a Scorpio's tendency to overreact to things they perceive to be threats. After all, you're not going to let an occasional over-the-top moment to put a damper on your chances for romance. In fact, if you play your cards right, you and a Scorpio may find true love.
You can pick out potential Scorpio partners by their self-confident carriage when they walk into a room and by their intense gazes. Unlike people who may be more timid or remote, most Scopios aren't afraid of a little eye contact. At times, the Scorpion's stare can make it seem as if they can see into your very soul. More often than not, they are supremely assured and determined. If they take a fancy to you, you can bet you'll be persistently and aggressively pursued. Scorpios are known for being unfamiliar with the concept of quitting. If a Scorpio's head turns in your direction, you'll probably be flattered by their heated pursuit. You can appreciate someone with that kind of confidence and command. It's also nice not to have to play hard to get, because the Scorpion isn't all about the chase.
When a Scorpio decides what they want, they can be intent getting it. In fact, if the Scorpion feels an objective is in danger of being derailed, they can lash out quickly and strongly in effort to protect it. Scorpios are known for being exceedingly resourceful. So although they may not win the battle, this sign has every intention of winning the war. Strong and intent on their ideals, a Scorpio has a unique ability to focus on their purpose and see it through. You'll usually admire a Scorpio's convictions and support their ambitions. For you, it's probably a relief to find someone who knows what they want.
haha and i won't even begin to tell you what star sign he is. seriously, hrmmm. nothing, just abit elated, and yes alanna you are such a fag-hag, love ya sooo much. thanks for always being there.
i am suddenly very proud of america. i mean look at all their effort. of all the countries they invaded and tried to help. look which of it isn't a success story and look how well they are doing. lets look at somalia, where a mob at magadishu killed 18 us soldiers resulting in a pull out of american forces. look aren't they improvin in their economic status, they are almost 1st world nation now. and of course there's haiti. look at all the peace they are enjoying after american invaded them; not to forget the other war in afghanistan. isn't comforting to know that the warlords are now running the country without osama bin laden farting around. and that all the violence are just going slightly up. and how can we forget that long long war with vietnam. she must be so glad america was there to rape their citizens and sending half of them to heaven. lastly, iraq. i mean the iraqis must be happy that saddam wasn't around building his wmd anymore (underneath george bush's table i presume since he was looking for it underneath there 2 weeks ago) and instead of the routine life, there's murders and bombings just about every other day. what more peace can this world ask for. i dunno you tell me. the world seems to be such a peaceful place after america bombs everywhere. what's next? a certain **rea up *orth? well they do have weapons of mass destruction and they do threaten to use them. you can be for sure of that, so how bout a pre-emptive str*ke aei???
Apr 15, 2004
i just received 2 emails from some visitors that chance upon my blog. and hey, thanks for the email i really appreciate it and i am glad i can give that little light for you guys. and just to prove my point to a few close friends of mine
taken from the email from fulooshou
I have had my share of problems with people. Christians, Cynics(is that how you spell it?), Close friends... Blah you should know la. I mean over this period of time this short four mths. I made a new friend as in I get to know her better. She's straight and I'm her first gay friend. She said I made her think alot(because I'm her first gay friend). And so she started to think about gay people, on how they have to live against prejudice, on how hard it is to make a stand in this society, on whta is actually so different btween gay and str people..... And she came to the conclusion that we are no more different than that we like people of the same gender. And then she shows her� very support in a way that I don't know how to put it in words. But you should see it. Hmm.. I'm overwhelmed by her supposrt and encouragements. And I think I've become more brave. It's amazing la. I've changed in a certain way, in her presence. Ok if she sees this, she will think she is god. Ahem. But it's like even my closest pals from secondary some fo them still can't accept the fact that I'm gay like some of them still think two gay men hugging together is disgusting. I hmm.. I'm very grateful.
Your Oprah Winfrey quote is inspiring too. If you don't know, I've been obssessed with it. Ha.. ok no..
Ok from the beginning, I think you are damn brave. Keep the gay pride up. I hope I will become brave enough to join you. Cheers.
and saying hi to ed all the way from aus. no worries, you can always email me anytime you want!
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onto another matter, the weather is absolutely dreadful these few days. i make the best of it and went swimming but the sun was really beyond me today; went gymming instead. think i am exercising a bit too much these days, feeling sore all over all the time. (i can somehow imagine mark coming up with some dirty thoughts.....)
planning for a trip with him to some nearby country. i would fill in more details when things are confirmed! finally a dream come true for me; to take a trip with my stead and spend quality time together. ahhhh, it would be even better if it is a sight seeing trip. then i can just hold his hands or wrapped my arms around him and enjoy the beautiful sights.. hahaha yar la dear i know its abit mushy la!!! hahaha
taken from the email from fulooshou
I have had my share of problems with people. Christians, Cynics(is that how you spell it?), Close friends... Blah you should know la. I mean over this period of time this short four mths. I made a new friend as in I get to know her better. She's straight and I'm her first gay friend. She said I made her think alot(because I'm her first gay friend). And so she started to think about gay people, on how they have to live against prejudice, on how hard it is to make a stand in this society, on whta is actually so different btween gay and str people..... And she came to the conclusion that we are no more different than that we like people of the same gender. And then she shows her� very support in a way that I don't know how to put it in words. But you should see it. Hmm.. I'm overwhelmed by her supposrt and encouragements. And I think I've become more brave. It's amazing la. I've changed in a certain way, in her presence. Ok if she sees this, she will think she is god. Ahem. But it's like even my closest pals from secondary some fo them still can't accept the fact that I'm gay like some of them still think two gay men hugging together is disgusting. I hmm.. I'm very grateful.
Your Oprah Winfrey quote is inspiring too. If you don't know, I've been obssessed with it. Ha.. ok no..
Ok from the beginning, I think you are damn brave. Keep the gay pride up. I hope I will become brave enough to join you. Cheers.
and saying hi to ed all the way from aus. no worries, you can always email me anytime you want!
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onto another matter, the weather is absolutely dreadful these few days. i make the best of it and went swimming but the sun was really beyond me today; went gymming instead. think i am exercising a bit too much these days, feeling sore all over all the time. (i can somehow imagine mark coming up with some dirty thoughts.....)
planning for a trip with him to some nearby country. i would fill in more details when things are confirmed! finally a dream come true for me; to take a trip with my stead and spend quality time together. ahhhh, it would be even better if it is a sight seeing trip. then i can just hold his hands or wrapped my arms around him and enjoy the beautiful sights.. hahaha yar la dear i know its abit mushy la!!! hahaha
i had a lot of things to say. but i dun feel like sayin it now. nothing much. its a hot day very very hot day..................... my aircon's fixed. and i'm, i'm at a lost of words. good night.
Cursed Hospital Ward
REAL-LIFE STRANGE ENCOUNTER IN S'PORE HOSPITAL
There was this case in this hospital's Intensive Care ward where patients always died in the same bed and on Friday mornings regardless of their age, gender, medical history or medical conditions.
This puzzled the doctors and some even thought that it had to do with the supernatural. Why the death at that same bed on Fridays? So the doctors decide to go down to that particular ward to investigate the cause of
the incidents....
Come Friday morning, everyone at the hospital ward nervously waited for the terrible phenomenon to occur again.
The new = unknowing patient laid there..... Some doctors holding wooden crosses, prayer books and other holy
objects to ward off evils......... waiting....the patient was = resting still. then 8am...... 8:30am........
Just before the 'cursed' time...... the door to the ward swung open......
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�� Then Ah Soh, the part-time Friday cleaner, comes in and unplugs the
life support system so that she can use the vacuum cleaner.
Cursed Hospital Ward
REAL-LIFE STRANGE ENCOUNTER IN S'PORE HOSPITAL
There was this case in this hospital's Intensive Care ward where patients always died in the same bed and on Friday mornings regardless of their age, gender, medical history or medical conditions.
This puzzled the doctors and some even thought that it had to do with the supernatural. Why the death at that same bed on Fridays? So the doctors decide to go down to that particular ward to investigate the cause of
the incidents....
Come Friday morning, everyone at the hospital ward nervously waited for the terrible phenomenon to occur again.
The new = unknowing patient laid there..... Some doctors holding wooden crosses, prayer books and other holy
objects to ward off evils......... waiting....the patient was = resting still. then 8am...... 8:30am........
Just before the 'cursed' time...... the door to the ward swung open......
Scroll Down
�� Then Ah Soh, the part-time Friday cleaner, comes in and unplugs the
life support system so that she can use the vacuum cleaner.
Apr 11, 2004
well, he's at his platoon chalet and stuff and i am all alone in my room studying for my test. yes more test to come. isn't this absolutely disgusting. i hate that woman, she is so irrtating. i have never seen a more hated woman. i personally believe that she is hated so much more than anna nicole smith and condi rice combined with bush. ARGH!!!!
so anyway, i was talking to clay just now over msn, he was having some issues with his stead. of course i was helping him out (i am not as evil as you make me out to be k =p) but he said a few things that touched me. he said that i was very very understanding and he said that i was almost perfect. i mean those things are always on hindsight, but to be able to receive such compliments from 3 person on hindsight, makes me feel that all my emotional investment was worthwhile. at the very least i did something. that i knew that when i put in my max effort, it is felt.
so while i give in so much and be understanding, i also really hope that my other half would do the same, and its nice to know that he is so patient and understanding and yar......
back to my books before people start puking.
so anyway, i was talking to clay just now over msn, he was having some issues with his stead. of course i was helping him out (i am not as evil as you make me out to be k =p) but he said a few things that touched me. he said that i was very very understanding and he said that i was almost perfect. i mean those things are always on hindsight, but to be able to receive such compliments from 3 person on hindsight, makes me feel that all my emotional investment was worthwhile. at the very least i did something. that i knew that when i put in my max effort, it is felt.
so while i give in so much and be understanding, i also really hope that my other half would do the same, and its nice to know that he is so patient and understanding and yar......
back to my books before people start puking.
to my amusement, pcworld praises the mac!!! here
somebody, i can't really remember who, once told me that i have this uncanny ability to read into people so accurately that it scares them. that i can be so pinpoint at times, that they chooses to deny what i said because it is so true that it is uncomfortable; that when i hit the nerve, most would not want to admit it.
nothing much to be said there, but yar just a note. going off for driving lessons. missing him so much. really mixed feelings about leaving overseas. lazy day.
listening to emi fujita - camomile blend, its a great album do check it out!!!!
somebody, i can't really remember who, once told me that i have this uncanny ability to read into people so accurately that it scares them. that i can be so pinpoint at times, that they chooses to deny what i said because it is so true that it is uncomfortable; that when i hit the nerve, most would not want to admit it.
nothing much to be said there, but yar just a note. going off for driving lessons. missing him so much. really mixed feelings about leaving overseas. lazy day.
listening to emi fujita - camomile blend, its a great album do check it out!!!!
thx dear for the great evening! and thx stan, appreciate it.
i would just like to say a couple of things and i would like to quote from oprah "i am finally ready to own my own power; to say all right this is who i am. if you like it, you like it; and if you don't, you don't. so watch out i am going to fly"
i think it sums up all i have been trying to say. to be able to believe in yourself, to have self empowerment, is all there is; its all that it takes. i am able to accept the fact that i am gay, and i can tell the world about it, is because i have faith in me, and i believe in myself. and i think that a person cannot go very far in life, go that extra mile without this belief and this courage; the courage to be able to let it all go and to believe in all that you do. its the same, it doesn't matter what, be it exams, work, ideas, yourself. that belief, that courage, that persistance, says alot
and when you can believe in yourself, then can you sacrifice yourself to fufill a greater cause. and it is that that matters. and it is that faith that matters, not the cause and effect, not how someone will affect your life, your promotion, your 'face', how others view you. those are small, negligible part of the bigger picture. of the full picture of the drive to succeed, of the drive as a person to walk that 1metre more to succeed, to push that extra bit more to get a CAP score of 4.0 or more; for me, to persevere in my pursuit of my career despite all the downtrodding i have to take, despite all the stress and pressure. i know that this believe in myself will push me.
and if you don't believe me, it doesn't matter to me. but you can try to for a start.
on another note, i must really push myself hard to pass the course, for my mom and dad, so that can have a better life; and for him, so that he wouldn't have to work so hard in the future and we can have a good life down the road. as i was sitting beside him in the car today, i saw this guy and i just know that i want to spend the rest of my life with him. we might have some issues, but we always sort things out, and things are falling into place. its beyond words. really.
i would just like to say a couple of things and i would like to quote from oprah "i am finally ready to own my own power; to say all right this is who i am. if you like it, you like it; and if you don't, you don't. so watch out i am going to fly"
i think it sums up all i have been trying to say. to be able to believe in yourself, to have self empowerment, is all there is; its all that it takes. i am able to accept the fact that i am gay, and i can tell the world about it, is because i have faith in me, and i believe in myself. and i think that a person cannot go very far in life, go that extra mile without this belief and this courage; the courage to be able to let it all go and to believe in all that you do. its the same, it doesn't matter what, be it exams, work, ideas, yourself. that belief, that courage, that persistance, says alot
and when you can believe in yourself, then can you sacrifice yourself to fufill a greater cause. and it is that that matters. and it is that faith that matters, not the cause and effect, not how someone will affect your life, your promotion, your 'face', how others view you. those are small, negligible part of the bigger picture. of the full picture of the drive to succeed, of the drive as a person to walk that 1metre more to succeed, to push that extra bit more to get a CAP score of 4.0 or more; for me, to persevere in my pursuit of my career despite all the downtrodding i have to take, despite all the stress and pressure. i know that this believe in myself will push me.
and if you don't believe me, it doesn't matter to me. but you can try to for a start.
on another note, i must really push myself hard to pass the course, for my mom and dad, so that can have a better life; and for him, so that he wouldn't have to work so hard in the future and we can have a good life down the road. as i was sitting beside him in the car today, i saw this guy and i just know that i want to spend the rest of my life with him. we might have some issues, but we always sort things out, and things are falling into place. its beyond words. really.
Apr 9, 2004
ok, for those who are going to get me birthday presents, please note that i wouldn't be around this year, so yes, you can get them for me now! before i leave for australia. yes i would really like to have those things on my wishlist =p hahahahahahaha....
well well joking. but seriously i would be leaving on july 23, so yepperz. nokia 6230? anybody??
well well joking. but seriously i would be leaving on july 23, so yepperz. nokia 6230? anybody??
yesterday was the best day i ever had in a very very long time. everything was just wonderful. watched hellboy (its absolutely hellish, a production from hell, really) the effects were great full stop. the storyline sucks, worse than pamela on tommy. ERRGH!!!!
did something for him. and yes, he liked it so much.
i seriously hope i don't get anymore episodes like a few days ago. i am going crazy...
did something for him. and yes, he liked it so much.
i seriously hope i don't get anymore episodes like a few days ago. i am going crazy...
Apr 7, 2004
Anything Britney Can Do, Beyonce Can Do Better!
The DESTINY�S CHILD star goes naked in the video for her sensational new single, Naughty Girl.
At first, she�s in a silver dress then strips off to show a silhouette of her famous curves.
The track could hit No1 when it�s released next week in the UK. Current No1 USHER even appears in the video.
Beyonce should be celebrated. She�s a real woman with real curves and a huge voice
haha, and that coming from the girl that claims being a devout christian that she is, god will never allow her to behave indecently in her mtv (referring to kissing girls ala britney and maddy). but it seems that god will allow her to however dress raunchily and now even strip... hrmm what an interesting god and devout christian that she is.
The DESTINY�S CHILD star goes naked in the video for her sensational new single, Naughty Girl.
At first, she�s in a silver dress then strips off to show a silhouette of her famous curves.
The track could hit No1 when it�s released next week in the UK. Current No1 USHER even appears in the video.
Beyonce should be celebrated. She�s a real woman with real curves and a huge voice
haha, and that coming from the girl that claims being a devout christian that she is, god will never allow her to behave indecently in her mtv (referring to kissing girls ala britney and maddy). but it seems that god will allow her to however dress raunchily and now even strip... hrmm what an interesting god and devout christian that she is.
yesterday night, was the third night i held my victorinox to sleep. i felt so out of place and so lost i needed something to bring me down. back where i know something. didn't do anything with it. not yet anyway.
i'll be leaving on july 23 for about half a year. be back in december (hopefully) and then off again in late december till about february or march. and i am feeling even worse because of that. but he knows what to say to make me feel slightly better. the fact that if i leave earlier means i would be back earlier. and when i come back, he would have just ord not too long before that. which is definitely true.
i am at a crisis. i don't want to pass this. i am so sick of it. i am so disgusted. i am lost. i have been thinking way too much lately and as you can tell, my sentences aren't too coherent. crap.
help
i'll be leaving on july 23 for about half a year. be back in december (hopefully) and then off again in late december till about february or march. and i am feeling even worse because of that. but he knows what to say to make me feel slightly better. the fact that if i leave earlier means i would be back earlier. and when i come back, he would have just ord not too long before that. which is definitely true.
i am at a crisis. i don't want to pass this. i am so sick of it. i am so disgusted. i am lost. i have been thinking way too much lately and as you can tell, my sentences aren't too coherent. crap.
help
Apr 6, 2004
i just got to know this acquaintance (is that how its spelled?) and got to know that he and his bf are together for 8yrs! ohmygod, that is really long even by straight couple standards (short of marrying the girl i mean) and he's like 26. this means that they are together since he was 18. now how sweet is that. isn't it so nice to know of such examples and makes me more motivated and much more confident that anything is possible. there's this lesbian couple who stayed together for 51 years and got married in SF recently!!!!
there's nothing that will stop me from being with him for forever, and nothing sort of that. okok yes mushy mushy but that is how i feel ok...
there's nothing that will stop me from being with him for forever, and nothing sort of that. okok yes mushy mushy but that is how i feel ok...
Apr 4, 2004
ok guys and gals out there. listen up visting this site or else?!!!!! okok help out my friend k, a close girl friend of mine. do check it out. and trust me, she has great taste. so go ahead help yourself!!
lotsa things happened. glad it happened. talked about it and that's about all i am going to say =p haha. nothing else lorz, other than i am mugging hard for me test. and that oh yar oh yar, yesterday a transvestite grabbed my hand and said hello and strutted off. haha. but on a sadder note, i saw another transvestite being sorta ridiculed, as in there were people giving 'her' the wierd looks and she just stuck her tongue out. and i just felt so upset. i was trying to understand what she was going through. and it just hit me that people don't understand. i mean well also because she was very obviously trans (bad operation or no plastic surgery maybe) but i don't know why the obnoxiously straight people must be like this.
i think from now on, i have to educate my friends about it and stop my buddy from gay-bashing whenever he says fucking gay and things like that. come on all you readers there, i know you are all gay friendly or gay too, so lets slowly start to change this society into a more accomodating one. i know for one, jeremiah stands up for PLU's. when his campmates starts gay-bashing, he would ask them to stop and tell them about his good friend (yours truly) who's gay. and we should all be like that shouldn't we??
i think from now on, i have to educate my friends about it and stop my buddy from gay-bashing whenever he says fucking gay and things like that. come on all you readers there, i know you are all gay friendly or gay too, so lets slowly start to change this society into a more accomodating one. i know for one, jeremiah stands up for PLU's. when his campmates starts gay-bashing, he would ask them to stop and tell them about his good friend (yours truly) who's gay. and we should all be like that shouldn't we??
Apr 2, 2004
just wanna say a big thank you to mark for last night. its nice to know that although he's so far away from me, he's still there for me when i didn't want to bother anybody else. thanks mark. distance, and seldom communication will never affect the friendship. ok enough mushiness for the day.
nothing much to update. will update again when i get home tomorrow night.
"no matter how adverse the circumstances, there is never any reason to give up" - charles lachenmeyer, in a letter to his son
nothing much to update. will update again when i get home tomorrow night.
"no matter how adverse the circumstances, there is never any reason to give up" - charles lachenmeyer, in a letter to his son
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